Mommy Brain = scatter brain??

Sigh!~ i think it's getting worse now. I've always been forgetful.. you know the little things... forgetting to take along the mobile charger for travel, loose change for tolls... things like that... But i think, now, being a mommy.. it's just getting worse.

I know something doesn't feel so right with me.. I don't feel like myself. It's weird. I thought it could be just me.. but until my hubby pointed it out recently, yeah i guess something is seriously not "normal" with me.

Post baby, i think i'm such a slob... i don't dress well, i don't take care of my face, my hair.. My desk at the office is a mess, i am absentminded half the time...I just dunno what happened to me. Gone were the days when my skincare regime consists of a cleanser, a moisturizer with UV protection and a two-way powder. Now it's just water, while i hurrying in the shower (yes.. i don't even powder my face anymore). I don't really have clothes that i think can flatter my postnatal figure, but still, i just make do with what i have, even though it's a bit tight here and there (and try to avoid standing in front of the mirror). My forgetfulness seem to get worse; i'd usually forget one thing or the other. Fact is, i dunno where my brain is most of the time. everything that happens were just a blur of activities. Yesterday seemed like ages ago. It's quite sad.

So today.. i browsed the net, trying to find the causes of this scatter-braininess. It seems like i'm not alone. Quite a lot of sites i visited were abt mommies having the mommy-brain condition. It offers some kind of relief.. at least i'm not the only one with this problem.

One parenting website associated this condition to sleep deprivation, stress, diet and multitasking. Yeah... i couldn't agree more. The first one, definitely. The second point.. well i guess it affects me too eventhough i go on telling people and trying to convince myself that i'm not stressed. Diet - lack of iron, yes.. and multitasking - when you don't focus on doing sth because you're focusing on other things at the same time.

I guess i'd have to slow down a bit.. Live the moment. Take some me time once in a while. The baby will be alright if i spend a little bit longer in the shower.. and she'll still be fine if i leave her with my hubby or my mom for a while and take some time off to pamper myself... Yeah.. she would be ok... I'd have to remind myself of these things.. and the fact that it's ok to take a break, and return as a more energetic mommy.

Quizzila
Came across this quiz while going thru kDilla's blog. Something to perk me up a bit, after a rather gloomy weekend. Sigh!~

♣ MAY = SEXY

Suave and compromising.

Funny and humorous.

Stubborn.

Very talkative.

Calm and cool.

Kind and sympathetic.

Concerned and detailed.

Loyal.

Does work well with others.

Very confident.

An awesome kisser.

Sensitive.

A very good girlfriend/boyfriend.

Amazing Smile.

Positive Attitude.

Thinking generous.

Goodmemory.

Clever and knowledgeable.

Loves to look for information.

Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh.

Able to motivate oneself and others.

Understanding.

Fun to be around.

Outgoing.

Hyper.

Bubbly personality.

Seductive.

Boy/girl crazy.

Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling.

Super sexy.

Extremley hot but has brains.

Office Politics

Sigh!~ I've just had a taste of office politics. It totally sucks, especially if you're bad at it, like myself (Dan said that's one of the reasons he married me.. if i was good at office politics, he'd probably won't). The slightest bit of office politics pun is very ugly.. and i have years of working ahead of me with plenty more of OP (office politics) to come. This one really makes me feel miserable. I hope in future i'll be wiser to face OP....

OP SUCKKKSSSSS!!!

Warrrrrghhhhh!!!....

Tensionnyaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grrrr.... the min's now having a major restructure.. our new division nnt will be headed by idiots, bhg lain dah tak nak, org yg tak perform, semua lambak kat bhg tu... Yang jadik mangsa ni, kitorg la.. officer bawahan nih sbb pertukaran melibatkan yg atas je, yg bawah masih sama.. Kalau head boss ok, boleh tahan lagi.. ini head boss pun slow, immediate pun dua kali slow, nak buat keputusan tak tau... apa2 hal blame kitorg yg bawah ni.. tensionnnnn....

i mean.. i'd rather banyak kerja, tapi bos ada halatuju drpd takde keje n bos blur... once in a while tak buat apa dlm opis ok la.. ni kalau dah hari2.... otak pun jadik makin lembab... sigh!~

ex boss baru datang, saja2 datang melawat.. huhu... boleh tak nak mintak dia.. puan masuk la sini balik... uwaaa....!!

i'd put a request straight to HR to be placed into another division... tah camne, there was a big hoo-ha abt it last friday and it got to the big boss la, konon my name takde dlm senarai officers of the new divison... and she said.. No.. you have to remain in this division because you have technical b/gnd.. like bullshit la kan. There's no utilization of my technical b/gnd whatsoever... Pergi factory audit, ada engineer from jkr yg buat. i'm always in the office.. buat paper pun tak... tak habis2 buat minit, surat, minit, surat.... underutilization of my brain ok... otak kalau tak pakai, lama2 boleh shrink tau... demmit la...

Kalau pindah nnt jawabnya kena beli buku sudoku la utk stimulate minda.... lols!

CROCS!!








I think i'm like a total fan now... demmit.



When crocs were first introduced a couple of years back, i thought it was the most ugliest looking shoes (if you could even call it shoes) ever! I always thought to myself, who in their right minds would even wear something as fugly (read: fuckin ugly) as those hideous thingies with really loud colors and holes all around.



When i got pregnant, towards the last few months when my belly and feet got bigger, it struck me to get a pair since none of my sandals fits my swollen feet nicely and definitely none of my working shoes are bearable for me to walk in anymore... So i went to Isetan KLCC to get a pair of crocs mary jane and at the same time, talked my hubby into getting one as well.. hehe.. It was like a "i'll get one if you get one" kinda thing. So he got himself crocs offroad. The next day, i started to use the crocs on my feet and guess what.. i don't wear anything else until way after i gave birth. I wear it to the dr's clinic (dr pun tegur kata ramai org pakai crocs ni sekarang), i wear it to the office.. everywhere, with anything.. pants, skirt, baju kurung.. lols.. (But then again, i was pregnant at tht time.. i think ppl let me get away with almost anything..) hehe. even when i was admitted to the hosp for labour i was wearing it. My goodness.. i cant imagine the thingy tht i called hideous were such lovely to wear shoes. So comfy, so airy, so light!! I love it!



Yesterday the 3 of us went to crocs store in ikano to get almaz a pair for her bday (thanks to my big mouth) and i was like... oh mann... i think i'm gonna get another one. It has sooo many colors and style in store!!! Yep, i definitely think i'm gonna get another one (coz hubby said that he'd probably get another one as well..hehe).. and when sarah can walk on her own, probably we'll get one for her too... We're crocs crazy... sigh!~



Moral of the story: jangan kutuk2, nanti suka... hahahahaaa...

Introducing..............



Introducing our beloved sweet little angel, Sarah. For the time being, this is the only pic... Will definitely update next time around ya. This is sarah at 3 mths. Looks a lot like daddy huh? :)

Cukur Jambul?

Yeay!! My leave had been approved! :D Bestnya cuti this friday and next monday. :)

This sunday my mom's gonna do this cukur jambul thingy for sarah (mana sarah ada jambul??) Anyways, she's calling this marhaban group la whatever la... Dunnolah... My mom's preparing everything... I'm just preparing sarah. Haha. I bought her this pale pink dress earlier, but then it's for a 9 mths old baby.. tapi try acu kat badan dia haritu nampak macam muat... just a little long, tapi boleh la kot... Hehe.. blasahla..

Dan's coming home tmrw after being away for 14 days. Kesian daddy and daughter, tak dapat jumpa selalu. But then, Dan gladly takes over taking care of sarah when he's around.. everything, from bathing to changing diapers, to giving her milk when i'm away, plus he helps me out with the pump, making me comfy during breastfeeding sessions... He's such a big help when he's around, and i'm really grateful to have such a supportive hubby and i'm so very proud of him. Sadly though, he'll be leaving for Bangalore pulak on the weekend which means he'll miss sarah's cukur jambul (and my bday)... and next thursday, he'll be off to anchorage again for 11 days. It'll be his last flight to anchorage for the time being coz he's got a promotion to captain, but on a narrow body aircraft. Narrow body aircraft ni tak buat long distance run.. which means tht he'll be home more! Yeay!!

Sigh!~ Boring betul hari ni... Esok patut pergi parlimen.. tp since i'll be having trouble with pumping, i asked to be replaced. Leceh gak nak bawak pump semua masuk dewan.. Ishh...

Okla.. lunch time already... isk.. boring betul la food kat cafetaria nih... Sigh!~ Blasah je la kan.. no choice.... Adios...

The highs and lows of breastfeeding

Sarah is 3 months old today!! :) And proudly, i've been bf-ing her since birth. I had some shorcomings though, i had to supplement her feedings on her paed's advice but i'm still breastfeeding her as much as i can, without supplements on the weekends.

I thought breastfeeding comes naturally... well it does, after a while though. Biasala, tara nak biasa tu macam2 la cobaannya, tapi alhamdulillah, usaha masih diteruskan. I consulted a board-certified lactation consultant regarding my plans to go back to exclusively bf. She said it can be achieved with lots of effort on my part. So her i am, trying as hard as i can... Usaha kena usaha.. tapi apa yang Dia nak bagi, kita redha la kan.

I pump milk at the office, 3 times as suggested. Masa awawal aritu, malu gak bila nakbasuh bottles and pump kat pantry tu kan. Segan lak orang tgk.. tapi bila fikir2 balik.. orang yg buat maksiat terang2 tu tak rasa malu pun, takkanla aku nak malu buat mende yg elok untuk baby aku kan? So skang takdela malu sangat. Kalau masa jalan from pantry to my room tu terserempak ngn orang sambil menatang bekas toyogo yg penuh barang2 pump yg ditenggelami air (untuk cold sterilization).. aku cakap je.. akuarium!.. Hehehe.. Lantok la kome...

Mende lain pun try jugak.. soya bean, milkmaid tea tht contains fenugreek, milo, anmum... sampai dah tak tau which one works..isk.. konpius. So far production adalah increase sikit dari dulu.. sikit je... but it's ok.. better than nothing. Now i'm more positive la kalau tak dpt collect milk byk pun. Rezeki la kan.. kalau ada, alhamdulillah, takde pun alhamdulillah jugak. Apapun, usaha tangga kejayaan... Harap2, dapatla susukan sarah sampai umo setahun ke... kalau tak pun, 6 mths.... huhu...

Okla.... time for the next pumping session... Takleh stress2 nih... kang tak kuar lak susu. Adios!