Masih Tensen
Waaa... kenapa la ku tak mintak cuti utk harini jugak.. Nak save cuti utk emergency punya pasal la nih!! Huhuhu.. tensen! :p Ingat nk mc harini pun tak jadi.. Tak boleh!! Ptg smlm bos datang suh setelkan surat tu harini... sedey betul la. isk.. So today masih lagi di opis... pagi tadi lagi dah setel semua.. tp still takleh balk awal.. sbb bos lagi satu mintak tlg htr dia ke erl ptg ni.. sbb dia nk g lgkwi.. Harini mmg most officers n staff takde.. pegi langkawi... ada keje. Uwaaaaa.. tensennya!!!! Dahla byk lagi keje menunggu kat umah tu... HUhuhuhuu... Malam ni continue buat bekas cincin and perfume.... esok br blh buat sirih... Chocs plak letak je la dlm boz lawa sket. Huhuhu.. :P

Tambah tensen, bila mintak tlg kt orang, orang tu membebel plak dulu. Gawd.. if i ever need anyone to babble, i'd ask my mom! :P Kalau nk tolong, tolong je la.. tak payah mulut bising2. Baik tak payah tlg.. buat sakit hati je. One of the reason i'm more comfortable doing things on my own. Ishh.. benci. Time aku dia boleh la nk ckp mcm2.. sbb dia blom lalu.. Tak tau what i'm going thru.. Just wait la.. Her time will come. tau la camne nnt. :P Wekwekwek kali infinity. :p (Type kat keyboard dgn geram smpi nak pecah) Manusia slalu tak sedar bila mende yg sama jadi kat diri sendiri.. kalau jadi kat orang tu.. nampak je... mulut lak smpi berbuih mengata. :P (Peringatan untuk diri sendiri jugak).

Isk... stressful betul la wedding preps ni. And I thot brides-to-be are supposed to be worry-free and get pampered from head to toe. I guess that only happens in soap operas. Even if it happens in real life.. it only happens to those lucky few super posh ppl. :p

Lagi satu, pesan utk kawan2 yang akan kawen nnt, org tua2 ada pantangkan bakal pengantin supaya tak berjumpa 44 hari sebelum kawen kan. Now i think i know why. Dulu i was wondering what's wrong with seeing each other. Here's my two cents - One month before nikah both of the bakal pengantin are stressed. When people are stressed, they tend to piss each other off.. So, nanti bermasam muka plak.. pastu dah tak syok nak kawen.. (dan setan bertepuk tangan kat belakang). :P So.. by all means, elak la jumpa/phone seblom nikah tu... Coz i think i've learnt my lesson.. and i'm one pissed bride-to-be! Well.. not really pissed la.. stressed. :p Ishh... bengong!bengong!bengong!...

Isk.. kalau pegi check blood pressure ni ada harapan result high b.p. nih.

Ok..cukup2 la tu membebel kat blog. Probably my final posting sebelum jadik isteri orang. Rasanya lepas ni tak sempat dahnak posting sementara nak menunggu saat dinikahkan.. haha.. hantaran pun tak siap lagi... byk cengkadak nak posting.

Kepada kawan2, doakan supaya pernikahan saya berjalan lancar, supaya Dan lafaz sekali je, supaya imam tu tak tanya dia byk2 soklan. Doakan supaya dijauhkan dari khianat orang, doakan supaya tak hujan.. dan doakan kami bahagia dunia & akhirat.

Sorryla... posting nih penuh kemarahan. Wakaka.. gua tensen! Isk.. with all the stress.. will i actually have all the 'bride' quality on my wedding day?? Sob!~

4 days and counting...

Gawd it's so damn close right now. Starting to get all jittery. :p hate it. My days are filled with preparations, my nights are filled with tears. Don't ask me why. My eyes tend to get all teary as i go to bed. :p Maybe it's stress getting to my head.. maybe i'm just overly freaked out about the whole marriage thingy.. and maybe i'm just afraid.. afraid of the unknown. :(

Raya went with me driving all over the place, from Shah Alam to Kuang to accompany my mom to send the invitations to relatives. It was exhausting.. but i enjoyed it coz we got to see everyone we wanted to see. Usually, the annual "raya beramai2" will see us go to some of our relatives houses but having to go back without entering the house coz the owner isn't around..

Second raya, hmm... spent it at home. My cousins and uncles and auties came by and helped out with the preparation. At that time i felt the excitement.. seronok, with everyone doing something, giggles, laugter and chats here and there. It's a load of fun. So that day, my candies for the kids are done, door gifts almost done.. except for a few yang belum lagi... So is my mossie net that will be used as a deco item for the bedroom.. is half done, thanks to my creative cuzs.. so now, there's less work to be done... but still a lot of work though. Gonna hafta complete my hantarans by tomorrow nite.. hmm.. sempat ke tak. kena bg sempat jugakla..

Third raya, everyone were busy preparing for a kenduri.. Bukan kenduri apa pun.. kenduri tahlil, sekali dengan mendudukkan penanggah. My mom gave me some time off after lunch, so that i can go shopping with my cousins. Got myself a pair of white pants, a pretty good fit, except that it's a little loose around the waist, and also got myself a dainty blouse from Somerset Bay. We got back from the shopping spree at around 5, helped out with a few final touches for the kenduri, and got ready for it by isyak. Not many people turned up though.. Myabe because it's a saturday and it was the 3rd day of raya.. People were still away for the raya hols.

Fourth raya, continued to shop for last minute items at Nilai 3. Huhu... byk dah melabur kat kedai tu. Hampeh. :p

Dan came back from Hong Kong last night. Kesian dia.. he had to celebrate raya in HKG. It's a relief to be able to talk to him.. to tell him my worries, my fears... he's also experiencing the same thing. He said.. everything will be back to normal as soon as we both come back from our honeymoon. We'll get back to our lives as we used to, the only difference is now that we'll face our days together, instead of facing it alone.

Hmm... tak taula.. Marriages changes people, and it changes feelings. It worries me... My only hope is that our marriage will make our love for each other grow stronger with each passing day. When we first had our talks on getting married, i'd only imagined the good parts of marriage.. the romance, the privacy, the abundant of love, the joy of being together, the sweet love-making (hehe).. but as the day draws closer, all these beautiful picture of a perfect marriage ebbs away, and i'm left with sketches of reality. Marriage is never a bed of roses... it'll be a trying time for us both, especially during the first few years of marriage. I dunno how quickly i can adapt to changes and how quickly i can learn to care for him...

The kind of wife i want to be? A cross between Bree and Gabrielle of Desperate Housewives. I'd wanna be a perfect wife like Bree yet hot and fun like Gabrielle. Hehe.. minus the full-time housewife status of Bree and the infidelity of Gabrielle though!

The clock is ticking

It's just around the corner now.. Sometimes it excites, sometimes it scares, sometimes it tires, sometimes it stresses, sometimes it dissappoints. :p

Urgh.. just want to get it over and done with. I've had enough of preparing.. i'm exhausted. :|

Have a great raya everyone. As for myself, i'm just not feeling the mood. :(

Welkem to aboh
Hallo abohh.. dah jumpe een nye blog ye.. Hehe.. welkem.. welkem.. :)

Sumer orang dah nak cuti
Huhu.. esok, most everyone punya last day of working before cuti raya... As for myself, isnin keje lagi.. pastu cuti deepavali.. rabu kang keje lagi... kamis baru cuti.. Huhu.. Rabu nnt, ada 2 orang je kat opis nih.. myself and another staff.. Huhu..dahla staff tu lelaki.. mau aku kunci diri dlm blk... takpun lunch g alamanda.. haha.. drag sket smpi kol 3 ke.. blk opis, lepak tgk internet (harap2 sgt internet ok) smpi 4.30, pastu balik.. Mesti dah agak ramai org kat kg tolong nenek masak rendang... Hmmm... Pastu cuti raya samapi ari ahad je.. Isnin n selasa dah masuk keje blk.. simpan cuti utk lps kawen nye pasal.. Takpela.. bos pun keje gak masa tu.. Kalau takde keje sgt, bley blaja buat smocking kat bos.. hihi..

Huhu.. nak balik aa.. penat la harini.. dari pagi smpi ptg buat surat. :p Haha.. penat konon!

Kuih oh kuih
Kejap je, its already towards the end of Ramadhan... for sure, i havent been doing something that i'd really wanted to do since the start of Ramadhan.. adela satu mende tu.. Harap2, sempat jugakla menunaikannya sebelum syawal menjelma....

Dekat2 nak raya ni, even since the start of fasting mth dulu, sibuk the whole office.. ada yg promote kuih raya, promote kek raya.. And me.. being a sucker for kuih raya... bought at least 6 different types!! (plus another 2 which i had bought even earlier on.. bought and finished! hihi!)

Let see.. so far i've bought 2 containers of pineapple tart, one of which i bought in august, and gobbled everything up by end of september.. (ooohhh.. that explains the extra pounds!! right!~ :p ) Then i bought another batch of those in mid september, and there're only 2 pieces left at home (out of 50 pieces).. i didnt intend to keep those yummy cookies for raya anyway.. Recently i ordered 2 kuih raya from a colleague; one container of cookies that taste a little too buttery to my liking (haritu masa sample rasa cam best je :p ) and another container of mini popiah. Then i bought another 2 from my friend from school... which i havent gotten yet... and then i bought yet another 2 from the gerai jualan at the ministry's lobby.. kuih semperit with choc rice on top and kuih cereal drops with lots of multicolored edible beads on top.. Sedap gile kuih tu! *Drool* Lastly (as of today) i ordered 2 cakes for raya (hopefully it'll last that long) You know.. the lapis2 type.. the one yg famous as kek lapis sarawak. Sedap wey!!

Waaa.... i love kuih raya!! I really, really love kuih raya.. but they're all very fattening!! How can i enjoy my kuih raya and not gain weight??? i Cant gain weight this raya coz the wedding is just right after it. I need professional help! :p (still remember last years trauma.. gained nearly 5 kilos right after raya which was a total bommer! :p Still fighting off the gain even as i type demmit!)

hehe.. sorry.. i went berserk for a while there.. all for the love of kuih raya.. *lipsmack* yummy.

Sedey plak
Tetiba sedey pla... lepas baca blok pinga. Isk.. nyesal lak bace.. Hahaha.. takdela...tp mmg sedey pun bile bace...

Sedey sbb aku dah tak lalu kehidpan macam tu.. tak turun kelas, tak jadik tester, tak jumpa ustaz, tak jumpa abg harun, tak duduk gebang2... uwaaaaa... Kepada korang yang masih lagi menikmati zaman2 tu.. nikmati lah ia sepuas-puasnya. :) Ntahla.. dulu, satu zaman masa tengah bercelaru dengan benda tahape2 kat kampus tu dulu, mmg terdetik takmo terlibat dengan cekak sangat bila dah kawen.. Tapi.. rasanya tak boleh la. Hati ni rasa sayu sekarang ni, bila tak dapat turun kelas. Aktiviti cekak kat KL ni lagi la tak tau menau.. hampes je. Nak kena update balik ngan aima pulak la skang nih. Nak sambung mengajar kat sekolah teknik haritu.. tak gak sambung2.. tak tau la bulan2 puasa ni ada kelas ke takde. Tinggal seminggu je lagi pun bulan puasa... Lepas raya, aku dah adik bini orang... Sah-sah kena mintak kebenaran utk attend kelas and rasa-rasanya mmg tak senang nak dapat kebenaran tu. :( Sedey plak. Takpela.. push dia slow2.. takleh turun kelas, join aktiviti lain dulu, insyaAllah.. Sikit2, lama2 dia ok la tu... Batu pun boleh lekuk kalau air selalu menitik atas dia kan? Huhu.. rindu kat cekak! :(