hmmm...
Hari ni, setakat masa posting nih.. mmg hari yg sgt menyayukan la. Huhu.. tatau la. maybe aku je yg terover emosional abt this whole pindah randah thing. Tapape tah. Mcm big deal sgt kan. :p Its just moving back to my hometown.... back to my family, closer to Dan... going to a new life.... leaving my friends... leaving the comfortable lifestyle... having to start over...sigh!~ ... Uwaaa!!

Hihi... emosi sungguh. :p

This morning aunty called. Masa tu lepak bfast ngn akak, sbb baru je lps naik keta baru akak.. hehehe... keta AFM itam. Aunty said Dan left me some money to pay for my registration fees and all the yadda yaddas bila nak enroll kat ikwas nnt. She said,"You are lucky aren't you?" and i was like.. what was tht abt? Huhu... tatau nak interpret. Maybe she didn't mean anything by it pun... but sometimes i can't help feeling so hopeless. :( Everything pun sponsored. Some ppl might like it tht way... and i'm thankful to have such understanding fiance and in laws to be... With them being very supportive towards me in every single way... even financially... Tp kengkadang tu rasa mcm... hmm.. mcm mana ek nak ckp.... macam hampeh... sbb it seems like i had to rely on other ppl. Dan always says tht it's his job to provide for me... tp rasa cam tak appropriate plak, since we're not married yet. Kinda makes me feel bad la... sbb mcm bebankan org lain. Sigh!~ Macam ke..?.. ke memang? Huhuhu... Dahla pulak one my cuz dok ckp.."ko ok la, best la.. everything orang sponsor".. Macam seronok je kena sponsor kan? Hmm.. muka yg terpaksa ditebalkan mcm dinding konkrit ni sape yg tau? Tak taula... but sometimes i feel so ashamed... Bukan sbb tak perlukan bantuan tu... sbb mmg perlukan bantuan... tu yg malu... hmm.. paham tak? Ke berbelit? Iskk....

Pastu tadi, jumpa drK, pulangkan buku dia. Hmm.. dah letak buku dia atas meja.. drK tanya bila nak blk.. So i told him la, nk blk isnin ptg. Pastu mulut ni gatai lak tanya dia.. any last words? Padan muka terharu sorang2. :p Dr ckp.. takpe, camne pun kita akan habiskan jugak master awak ni. Rugi kalau tak habis... Sy betul2 nak awak habiskan... kata dr dgn muka bersungguh2. Hmmm... sengih2.. Pastu ckp thanks kat dr... ckp cepat2 je... sbb ala2 dah sebak masa tu.. tapape tah. Dah kuar pintu langkah 4,5 langkah.. drK ckp dr dlm blk.. nnt kad jemputan awak hantar la.. insyaAllah, saya dtg. Huhuhu... aku jenguk blk dlm blk... aku ckp will do that... pastu blah cepat2... sbb pipi dah rasa panas n mata dah berair. Hahaha.. bengong. Pastu all the way nak pegi fotostat mende2 kat post office, dok melawan air mata dr kuar. sedey ada, terharu ada... huhuhu... Bengong betul.

Konon harini nak packing brg2 kat school ni... Tp so far, satu mende pun tak pack lagi. Hampeh. Hmm... :(