Thursday, December 27, 2007

Two more weeks (or so) to go...

My 2 months unpaid leave is nearly ending!!! Urghhh... thinking about having to go back to the office mengadap bos yang bangang is seriously making me dread whats left of my leave... Bencinya... To add to the blahhh, hubby'll be on a 3 weeks detachment starting the week before i start work. Boo-hoo-hoo.. what a bommer. :P

*Hmm.. it looks like somebody (read: ME) still hasnt changed the look of her blog after whining about it for nearly a year (could it be more?) now...

Anyways, hubby's taking us for a holiday before he goes off for the bloody detachment. Not far from kl pun.. hehe.. PD je. It's a place we love.. or at least we loved it when we were there before, hopefully the level of service is still as good if not better.. Again,for the 3rd time now, i'm getting all excited about taking sarah for a swim.. and really, really hoping that we finally can and she'll enjoy it. Sigh!~

Update on the house... hmm.. things are still in boxes. HAHAHA... Darn it.. if only i have a maid now. Hehe.. baru terasa syok gak jalau ada maid.. Gets rather lonely pulak rasanya when hubby's not around. :p Anyways... there are still boxes lying around the house, coz we're still looking for furniture. Top floor, insyaAllah dah ok la kot for now.. basic stuffs for sarah's room and the guest room dah ready.. Nak susun barang je lagi.

Hmm... tht's abt it kot... Better go to bed already. Oh.. we're gonna drop by at sarah's nursery tmrw... Her best buddy's having a bday party there. Okie.. nite2.. sweet dreams.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Moved Out

It's been a while since i last posted huh? Tagboard pun dah penuh dgn spam. Gotta get something else to replace tagboard la. Sigh!~ Short of time to post la nowadays, since unpaid leave started. Hehe.. Masa kat office byk lak time. Hampeh je. :p

Anyways, i've moved fromm BJ to Nine's. So far mcm dah ramai gak org pindah masuk sini. New housing area, so risau gak kalau takde org lagi. But so far ramai dah pindah ok jugak. Ours is a corner lot, next door still vacant and the next one ada chinese family. Kat depan, tgh buat renovation, belakang pun and so are the sides across the road. Pretty cool. Hope i get good, cultured neighbours. Seriously... i hope my neighbours are the cultured type...

The move had been pretty tiring. Urghh.. Dan and i were like.. let's not move anywhere anymore! Hehe.. We hired a mover company so they packed all the stuffs (nearly..some we've packed earlier) and moved everything to the new home. Alhamdulillah, we managed to that in one friday. :) Some of the snapshots from the ex-home... tonggang terbalik dah rumah. Hehe...


The door that greeted us...


The living area







Walkway to the rooms..


The messed out kitchen










All of our stuffs ready to be offloaded









As for the updates on the new home.. well.. there are still a lot of boxes lying around. We're still short of furnitures to unpack everything at one go.. We've settled the more important rooms - our bedroom, the kitchen..well.. basically just tht for now and this mth we'd probably get some furniture for the study and more racks n bookcases for the living room. Need lots of those for storage.. You can never have too much storage... Hehe... *maybe i've watched too much martha stewart*

Anyways... better be quick. Sarah's fast asleep but it'll be anytime now tht she'll wake up for a quick fix of milk. Sigh!~ Been going through websites for sleep training. Just reading abt it tires me already... Will babies ever sleep through on their own??????

Anniversary treat

Hehe... outdated topic to post..

Well.. i did take Dan for a spa treatment for couples for our anniversary this year and he loved it.. Glad he did.. (well he'd better coz it did kinda cost me a bomb!).. Tppk him to the sembunyi spa in cyberview lodge and we just love the place! We love the lodge, we love the spa.. everything!! Really looking forward to go there again. It's like a fantastic getaway not too far from home but when you're there, you'll feel tht you're hundreds of miles away from home. Love it, Love it, Love it!!


The powder area



The jacuzzi







The lovebirds who's had the well-deserved spa treats!

Monday, November 19, 2007

My leave, My ring, My .. whatever

I'm at the office still, my leave approval memo tak keluar lagi. However, i did see the officer when i arrived just now and he said secgen dah sign, now tunggu memo from HR la. Tapi, upon hearing tht the leave was approved, dah cukup happy dah!! Yeay!! I dont have to deal with all this stupid hanky panky stuffs at the office. I hope, within 2 months, some things that are important will be changed in the office, i.e, the bosses. The division will do well if the bosses are smart and really work. Not just come to the office, delegate ALL the meetings (important and not important) to other officers, even if it involves meetings tht needs the decision maker to attend, and go out on the less important meetings OUTSIDE the office, or even better, outside KL, and better yet in the borneo... macam pelancaran kapal, menghias kek... Core business division biar lower rank officers buat.. Sigh!~ Why not we switch the pay too? At least something. :p

Urgh... super duper takde hati at the office right now. As long as all those bimbos are in charge, i doubt i'll ever will.

On an entirely unrelated note, nowadays when i'm typing, my eyes are drawn to my left ring finger... Hehehe.. now there's a gold ring there, my engagement ring, which i've stopped wearing when i was 5 months pregnant, because i was afraid tht i would get really bloated and wouldnt be able to get the ring out,... well.. that and the fact tht i gained many kgs tht it doesnt fit anymore, until like last month!! I tried it on and it fits like a glove... Yippeee!!! :D

My hubby's coming back on wednesday.. Yeay!! that's about the only thing that keeps me going through these silly, stressful days at the office... sigh!~

Thursday, November 15, 2007

A new Maid Came.. and Went!

MIL sent us a new maid on tuesday. I didnt quite have a good day tht day, sarah had some kind of eye infection and her fever was on and off so i had to go back early from work to pick her up. As i was driving, contemplating whether or not i should go to the hosp and get her checked or wait one more day, the car broke down. Had to call aam, yadda, yadda.. at last i arrived home at about 6.30.. sama gak macam balik mcm biasa. Then, MIL wanted to send a maid to us tht night. I didnt quite have a good feeling abt it, but i thought it was probably just a bad day for me, so i was like.. fine.. whateverla.

The maid is 40 y.o. Waaayyy older than the 2 other maids i've had before. She'd worked with a family for 6 years and stopped working there when the family decided to have pet cats. Then she worked for another family, for 2 1/2 mths because she claimed tak larat when the famiy selalu balik kg sgt. Takpa la... and then, she asked me, dah berapa lama duduk rumah ni.. i told her 2 yrs.. Boleh dia ckp kenapa dah duduk 2 thn pun rumah ni tak berkemas.. what she doesnt know is tht he piled boxes yg ada around the hse ni barang2 yg nk bwk pindah.. Ewah.. sukati plak nak sound2 tuan rumah nmpk..

Then when i told her tht she did things wrongly, not according to my own system, dia tarik muka. Hey.. boleh belah. Kalau tak suka with the system in the house, boleh berambus. Macam2 nak persoal.. kenapa htr sarah to nursery.. dia boleh jaga, kenapa this, kenapa tht.. Hello.. you're a maid, shut up and do the household chores, using MY system, MY way. You have a problem with that, you can leave. Not like i'm desperate for a maid anyway.. So the very next day, i asked her to pack her stuffs coz i want to send her home. That was truly the shortest serving maid ever!! Less than 24 hrs! Puas hatiku.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

2nd Anniversary

Last sunday was my 2nd wedding anniversary. Rasa mcm kejap je, dah masuk 2nd year of marriage. Like.. wow... time flies when you're having fun. Unfortunately, both of us couldnt be together celebrating our anniversary this year. Dan's still in Beijing for his detachment and he'll only be back next wednesday.

This year, i'm treating him to a spa session, coz i think both of us need a good rub to loosen our tight muscles from daily stresses. I've booked a package for couples at a spa somewhere around here so that we can send sarah to the nursery and spend the day to ourselves. *dah terbayang2 kena urut kat spa... bestnya!!!*

Still cant believe tht i've been married for 2 years now. Rasa macam baru semalam je mak dia datang nak meminang. Hehehe.. Ingat lagi the first time i met his parents.. kat hospital penang. Hahaaha.. Masa tu Dan was warded, suspected SARS. Mesti Nura pun ingat.. sbb dia yg tolong bawak yours truly pergi ulang alik kat hosp penang tu.

Then comes the bertunang thingy, nikah, sanding, dinner reception, pregnancy, and now, 2 years in marriage, we're already a family of three. :) Alhamdulillah, syukur atas kurniaan Allah yang tak terhingga ni.

Friday, November 09, 2007

Deepavali Holiday

'Twas Deepavali yesterday, so it was a public holiday. Happy Deewali for those celebrating.

Sarah n i was at mama's in sepang yesterday. We had relatives from arwah's side coming for raya so mama made some mee kari and nasi lemak. I wanted to help outy, but the most i could do was to prepare the veggies for the mee kari since sarah wanted to be with me the whole time. Yep, the little girl is very much attached to me and i'm proud of it. :D Not everybody thinks i'm their world you know...

We also had nura and family coming all the way from penang, stopping by on their way to melaka. Danish was there, makin besar makin ensem!! He did something tht made us burst in laughter and at the same time terkejut!! We were in the room, i was showing to nura and aunty my little girl coz she was sleeping when they arrived. When we were in the room, she woke up and i introduced her to ngah nura, mak tok and little Danish. Tetiba, out of the blue when his mom asked him to shake hands with sarah, he handed sarah nura's ring!! Nura pun tak perasan bila dia amek that ring. Gelak besar kitorg tgk. Hehehe.... So cute!

Petang tu, we were supposed to go to sunway, my uncle's open house but tak larat. My brother pun tak larat since he didn't get a good sleep after working on night shift the night before. Kesian la kat dia, plus it's dangerous to drive when you're tired and sleepy kan.

I'll be in sepang til saturday. Next week, the whole week will be spent at home. Hmm.. dah duduk kat sepang malas nak balik pulak.. Masa duduk kat rumah malas nak pi sepang. Sigh!~ Packing drives me nuts!!

Btw.. my maid was supposed to be back working on monday after a one-mth leave. Whether or not she'll be back, god knows. If she does, it's good, but we'll have to monitor he more closely. If she doesn't pun elok gak.. so tht i don't have to worry to stock up on food and whatever tht she needs. Tak kesahla mana2 pun.

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Updates
Before i start, thanks a lot kDilla, Nurul dan kengkawan lain yang terus bagi semangat n dorongan. So far things are going ok.. not perfect, but then again not that bad either. Hehe.. or so i hope. :)

Starting from last night til the next 17 days, i'm staying at home alone with sarah. Her daddy had gone off for Beijing attachment. Sigh!~ Sedey gak, since dah lama tak kena tinggal lama2 nih. Huhu. Sarah pulak started a fever on sunday. Start2 fever terus naik tinggi, around 38.9c.. Monday morning terus bawak gi jumpa paed, but dia kata don't worry since infants over the age of 6 mths mmg prone to fever because the maternal antibodies dah diminish and their own antibody starts to take over. He stocked us up with half a dozen of suppositories, to be used if her temp exceeds 39c. He also noted a bump on sarah's head - one she got just before going into the paed's room when she knocked her head onto my mouth which resulted in a bump on her head and a bruise on my lower lip. Pretty hard head there huh?

Snapshots
Just a few of sarah's raya pics..





Yes mommy?? I find this carpet rather interesting...



Notice the same fabric on clothes of the one holding her?? Hehe..



Caught red-handed!!



Now that i'm seating in this seat can i have my food???



I love my first balloon...

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

How do other mommies do it??

Oh dear... I feel so burnt out. I'm going through my 2nd week of working, without a maid to care for the household stuffs and already, i feel burnt out. Seriously, other mommies who has a career or still studying, have children and at the same time can manage household chores by themselves without help from the maid, cooks for the family and still look amazing impresses me so much.

Here i am, only with a child.. a girl pulak tu, yang kurang la buas nak banding dgn boy kan.. only into the 2nd week without a maid and i feel so konked out. Urghhh!~ Kagum dgn mommies like kDilla yg nun jauh di perantauan, dgn study.. can care for her 2 boys plus masak all sorts of menu for her family, and nurul, for being able to care for her firstborn, most of the days sorang2, hubby jauh... It just amazes me, really.

Pernah la borak2 with nurul.. asking her how she manages her condition.. She said the difficult part is the getting used to it part, usually lasting only 1 or 2 weeks.. Lepas tu, you'll get your own system. Huhu.. i was really confident i could do it the 1st week.. and i do think that i did an ok job.. but come the 2nd week.. i feel so konked out!! I've got an overflowing load of laundry waiting to be washed, sarah's play area just screaming to get reorganized... ahh.. the list goes on and on. Masak? The only thing that i cook now is sarah's porridge. Sigh!~ I'm so lousy at being a housewife!!

Sometimes it gets to me, when i feel that i'm unable to do everything.. to keep the house straight, to take care of myself, to look nice for myself and stuffs. It usually ends up with me breaking down beside the tucked-in-for-the-night little princess because sometimes it overwhelms me that i just cannot cope. Sigh!~

How do other mommies do it?? and praise to Allah, they're doing it so well.. I wish i could be like them..

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

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Huh... nothing important to post pun.. saja je, since u was quite early this morning. Didn't send sarah to school today. Her tok mak and to bapak came to pick her up coz i had to attend a meeting somewhere outside putrajaya, takut tak sempat blk pjaya by 5 to pick her up. So i had to ask them to help out. She was excited at first but as soon as she noticed that i wasn't going with her, she looked pretty upset. Cian dia.

Last night, we had a quick dinner at McD and sarah could sit in the baby seat for the first time!!! Another not so good thing, she loves to scream! Aiyoo.. penat dah ask her not to shout, especially in public areas. Sigh!~ Anyways, we stopped by at the kedai mesra next door and get her her very first balloon. :)

Hmm... On an entirely unrelated note, as i was waiting for the lift at the lobby this morning, i saw my reflection in the mirror... and i was shocked!!... i saw that i was quite slim.. hahaha... perasan la kan.. well.. of course i was, given that i was like soooo many steps away from the mirror.. like duh!~ kalau jauh, gajah pun buleh nampak macam kancil kan?? hehe.. tapi macam terkejut sampai terlupa tekan destination button masa dalam lif...kuikuikui...

Btw, i've put in my application for 3 mths no pay leave. It's on its way to the sec gen now.. If dah approve, jadikla full time housewive for 3 mths!! Yeay! Enough time to pindah, make the new house a home, and plan for sarah's 1st birthday party!! Yeay!!.. dengan syarat, secgen luluskan la kan. Huhu..

Okie.. gtg already. Need to prepare for a meeting.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Sakitnya hati!!!!

Hisyy... bengang betul la. Pagi2 lagi orang ua nih dah bagi aku tension. Awawal lagi puasa dah nipis mengata dia. Ceisss... geram aku. :p

Si bengong tu, mengada-adakan invitation yang tak pernah ada, P.A dia pun dah confirmkan tak pernah dapat invitation tu. Dia kata our agensi ada bg surat jemputan dan dia dah arahkan ntah siapa bagi list nama semua org in the division utk attend mende alah amende ntah tu. Masalahnya, nobody in the division knew anythingabt it except for him! Dia yg dok attend menatang bodoh tu dr dulu smpi la tak pernah report apa, alih2 nak salahkan aku plak kata aku yg tak amek tau. Eh bengong... macam mana nak tau kalau kau tak minit kat aku... Meh sini aku jadik head division, boleh aku tau sbb semua surat dapat pada aku. Nih.. dpt surat, simpan buat pekasam..Bongok betul mamat tu. Panas je nengok dia tau. Dah tau diri tu bebal.. jangan la nak salahkan orang lain. Dasar bodoh sombong. Dahla apekebenda yg keluar dr mulut kau semua tak make sense. *Marah gile nih*

Dua hari kebelakangan ni keluar berita so far dah 11 penjawat awam kena tangkap. Kalau mangkuk2 ni tak beringat jugak, tak tau la.

Monday, October 22, 2007

Post raya blues

Bosan betul bila start keje balik after a long break kan. So i ended up hopping on to my friends blogs n fps.. waaa... bestnya page semua orang banyak gambar.. Hehe.. bila la aku plak nak upload gamba nih. My page really needs a makeover badly. Tak tau la bila buleh buat. I'll try la, lepas ada kerja2 yang perlu disetel ni dibuat dahulu. :D

Kisah raya tahun ini...
Berbuka on the last day of Ramadhan kat rumah mak.We had ampang yong tau foo sbb mostly all other makan place dah tutup for raya, so cannot tapau. Lepas berbuka, relax jap, pastu baru push off ke sepang pulak. By the time sampai sepang, dah kol 10 lebih.. orang takbir dah balik dah... huhu... tak sempat nak join. :p

Pagi raya, siap2 dulu kat rumah, plus tunggu rumah dgn sarah while everybody else pergi solat sunat raya. Excited siapkan sarah dengan baju kurung kiut dia. After daddy, nenek n pali blk from masjid, makcik2 datang lepak raya kejap.. lepas dah minum2 tu, baru kitorg gerak ramai2 ke rumah nenek yang selang beberapa rumah je dr umah mama tu. Huh.. penuh keliling umah nenek susah carik parking. Tu tak semua balik serentak tuh.. lepas ni nak kena mintak nenek buat basement parking ke, rooftop parking ke.. hehehe.

Sampai2 rumah nenek, salam raya ngan semua orang sambil mengendong sarah yang berbaju kurung. :) Sarah pun galak la collect duit raya yang nearly all ended up in her mouth and daddy terpaksa selamatkan dari kehancuran. Hehe.. nak makan no problem, sbb ramai yg sukarela nak tlg carry sarah. Good thing htr dia kat nursery, dia tak takut kat orang, so ok je la when cousins n makciks carried her. Tp dgn syarat jgn kasik dia nmpk mummy dia.. hehehe...

Lepak2 kat rumah nenek sapai around 3, ready plak nak balik desa pandan. Relatives kat sana nak dtg kat umah mak around 4, so bila kitorg sampai sana, everybody were there already, so join lah makan2 n what not. We spent the nite there, and 2nd raya ikut mak n bapak beraya kat umah relatives pulak. One of the houses tht we went to was so beautiful, and the compund ada water feature yang separas lantai.. So bawak sarah tgk.. and she wanted to dive in dgn baju kurung dia. Bawak diamasuk rumah dia komplen, nak lepak gak kat water feature tuh. So kena la lepak kat situ the whole time.

Raya ketiga onwards, tak pergi mana pun.. dok rumah je. Hari khamis tu berkesempatan la dating ngan Dan while tinggalkan sarah jap kat rumah mak. Hehe..ingat nak tgk movie.. tp tak jadi sbb both of us taknak hang out lama2 sgt sbb asyik teringat kat sarah. Haha.. Patut pegi spa pun bagus.. apa kan daya.. sume orang lain cuti.. Huhu..

Plannak pindah rumah masa cuti raya.. hmmm.. tak dapat coz ada problem with the wiring masa tgh pasang2 tu, ada yg wayar tak cukup la, takde connection la.. teruk betul. :p Hmmm.. bila la dapat nak pindah nih..

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Salam Aidilfitri

Wah.. diam tak diam, dah 28 hari berpuasa. Sekejap je rasanya. First Ramadhan with the little one. Seronok!! Pagi2 masa kita sibuk2 bangun nak sahur.. si kecik pun masa tu gak la dia nak bangun. Dia kalau takde orang around,she can just wake up and play with her toys yang mmg letak kat tilam dia.. tapi as soon as nampak mommy je, nangis, suh angkat. Hehehe..

Time buka puasa pun dia nak join. Now that she's already 7 mths old, we let her be adventureous and try new delicacies..Hehe.. takla sumbat segala makanan, but we do give her some cheese sandwich, kurma, ripe kiwi fruit. She seemed to enjoy those. Next time, boleh bagik other fruits pulak.

Last two days, for the very first time, sarah's attempt to crawl was successful!!! It was only like 3-4 steps tapi, seeing her to be able to that after lots and lots of trying to go forward but always going the opposite direction, all i can say is.. i'm a proud momma!! Today, she's getting better at it, and i'm sure she'll get even better soon. *mcm mana agaknya dia nak crawl pakai baju kurung.. i'll see to that in 2 days!* A few days before that, while i was feeding her bits of kurma, i felt a sharp stub in her mouth. Hehehe.. my baby has got a budding teeth!!! Tak berapa nak nmpak sangat lagi.. coz dia taknak bukak mulut for us to see and memang sikit je baru kuar. Ish..ish.. rupa-rupanya, demam teruk samapi 3 kali masuk hospital ni nak achieve mende2 nih ye...

Ahh.. tak sabar nak raya. First raya withmy dear little girl. Baju kurung dia ada dua, 1st raya green, like mommy and daddy, 2nd raya pink with little white polka-dots, mommy pun sama. Heehee.. Kiut sangat baju sarah. Dresses tak beli pun utk tujuan raya sbb ada dress daddy dia beli tak pakai lagi, boleh la pakai utk raya. Nenek kat sepang pun belikan dress, so cukupla. Mommy nih ada baju je.. tudung tak sempat nak beli dah ni rasanya. Pakai je la tudung yang dah ada tu. Huhuhu...

Anyways, to all my friends, jauh dan dekat,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN...
Semoga diberkati dan diredhai Allah selalu.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Sigh!~

Just started work after 3 days of EL. Sarah got admitted to the hosp again, due to high fever. This time, not only does she have to go through blood test, she also have to go through a chest x-ray. Kesian dia. The paed discovered an onset of pneumonia. But he said not to worry coz it's very treatable. Well, after a course of IV antibiotics and a regime of other medicines, she was discharged last night, alhamdulillah. She looks better, although she looked smaller coz she lost weight. Her cheeks aren't as chubby as before. Sigh!~ Cian my little angel.

The causes, the dr said, probably because of the nursery. He described it as a place where all the germs gather... well, it is quite true. I mean, the nursery where we sent sarah was alright, caretaker were treating her well... However, we can't control if any parents whose children are sick sends the kids to the nursery kan. I saw some kids with runny nose and cough, but there's nothing much that i can do about it. So the dr said, the best advice he could give is to get sarah out of the nursery, and that's what Dan and i are doing. Today, she's staying with her tok mak and tok bapak... monday, dont know yet. Sigh!~ Not easy to find a babysitter tht we can trust nowadays. So, i'm thinking of applying unpaid leave until the end of the year in the search of a babysitter. My maid to babysit my baby??? Hell no. hahaha..

Hmmm.. can't really concentrate in work coz all i have in my head is the well being of my daugter and hubby (who's now at home, having a fever... isk.. lepas sorang, sorang la pulak... huhuhu...)

Monday, September 17, 2007

i. sarah

Hmm.. sarah had lost weight quite significantly, since she got warded last month. Sigh!~ After about a week following her discharge (oh.. did i mention we saw Tun Dr M & wife at the hosp and i greeted him :) ) she caught a flu and cough. She had grown to hate taking medication, thanks to some lousy imported nurse at the hosp who forced her to take the meds, not that she needs to be forced. She sooo hates it.. and now it's just impossible to make her cooperate and not force her. Sigh!~ When she started coughing, her phlegm was building and she lost appetite. She did't want to eat at all. If we're home, she'll just have breast milk, nothing else. Try kasik roti pun tak mau. Huhu... and then, last friday, she started vomiting.. Probably because of teh phlegm build up ke apa, tak tau la.. but we went to see the paed anyway. Risau woo... Paed said that her lungs sounded ok, even with the phlegm.. and because she's always coughing, that would be the causing factor why she lost her appetite. So now, i guess we'll have to wait until the coughing is gone for her to start to enjoy eating again.

ii. Stressed @ Work

Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. i thought my stress of working with idiots are over when i transfered unit... I was sooo, soooooo WRONG!! Urgh.. hate to say this but... i should've stayed at the previous unit. Huhuhu...

The problem now is that my immediate superior is a bit too smart, licking the superior's asses the way they like it and getting away with all his shit and the head of division is so dumb, but at the same time stubborn... bodoh sombong punya kes. Things about work and office satu hal la mmg geram atas kes2 tertentu. Tension coz we know that sth is not right, but there's nothing tht we can do abt it. Benci tau. Yang menambahkan menyampah, when they started not to respect orang punya personal life. Bengang tahap dewa la nih.

I'd been absent one whole week when sarah was warded, so i had to request for EL. Ingat orang suka2 ke nak cuti? The head dumbass boleh question, betul ke anak sakit? Like hello... dia ingat aku ni macam dia ke? macam2 alasan sbb tak nak masuk ofis? Slagi ada mende luar kalau boleh dia nak attend, even kelas menghias kek, yang obviously HE wouldn't put it to good use. lagi sekor ni plak, kacau my weekend with smses, one of which reminding me to be at work on monday coz there're so many things to do.. and i was like.. hello, you think i'm like you, suka2 hati bila nak masuk ofis and suka2 hati bila tak nak datang? Spesis yg b4 dtg call P.A bos check bos ada ke tak, and kalau he's not around kau pun sama tiba2 ada alasan for leave?? Please la.. aku bukan jenis makan gaji buta ok. These people, diorg ni dah slalu sgt guna macam2 alasan utk cuti, tu yang dok query orang lain, betul ke tak cuti bersebab. I wish they would take a good look at themselves in the mirror before questioning people on their commitment to work when they themselves ONLY commit to work when they get benefits. Macam tu ke komitmen kerja? My ass. These two dumbos are so full of office politics. I just hope that i don't get high bp or any stress related diseases having to work with the two jackasses.

Monday, September 03, 2007

Warded!

Last week, i had to take emergency leave for the whole week coz my darling little princess wasn't well. She had a high fever and had to be admitted to the hosp for like 6 days. It started on sunday, got a bit better after a dose of paracetamol and later tht night, or rather early monday morning at around 4am, he fever hit 38 deg and we hurried to the ER at pantai. She was given suppository and was allowed to go home but we intended to see her paed anyway later tht day. When we did, around 11, her fever peaked at 40.4 deg and the dr had to admit her.

The little girl had to go through 2 series of blood tests and also had an IV into her little hand. Cian dia. Mommy sedih tengok sarah nangis bila kena cucuk. :( But, difficult as it was, it had to be done.. and i'm thankful that her paed was really good so the process was done quickly and didnt leave any black and blue marks as it would if some amateur drew the blood. Paling best, later in the afternoon when her paed came for visit, she made an angry face and babbled something that sounded like scolding the paed. Hahaha... must've gotten it from the daddy. :)

However, during the time she was warded, she maintained a good appetite (even with hosp food!), wasn't cranky or difficult, didn't vomit or being not herself, so the paed said there's nothing to be too worried about, as it was a case of a viral fever which usually takes longer to subside. And subsided it did, after 5 days, as the paed had told us after her blood test was done.

Alhamdulillah, our little girl is good now. Syukur.

P/S: my MIL advised us to cukur rambut sarah habis coz kata org tua, rambut dr dlm perut tak elok, nnt baby selalu sakit.. ye ke?? any inputs, please inform ya. thnx. :)

Friday, August 10, 2007

Ikea

Sigh!~ What can i say? I just love going and shopping at ikea. Geram sbb showroom so cantik and make damn good use even for the smallest space. Nappy changing room and breastfeeding room pun provided, so it's very convenient. What's more, there're swedish meatballs and Daim torte waiting at the cafetaria when we're hungry.. urghh.. just love it. :)

So, the three of us went there last wednesday, and after spending like 6 hours there (ermm.. combined hours in ikano and ikea), i was waiting for Dan to pay for our stuffs while nursing sarah at the benches provided near the elevator. There was this woman sitting beside me who looked like she was reading the newspaper. Being the person i am (not the observant kind), i didn't stare at her or her stuffs or anything and just proceeded nursing sarah. After some time, Dan came and we hurried off home. While walking, Dan asked if i noticed the woman sitting beside me with the newspaper. I said i did and asked him why did he ask. He said that the woman is actually taking the newspapers provided at the wrapping counter (to wrap fragile items)to take home and sell them. I was like... are you kidding me?? and turned to look at her. Then only i noticed a stack (probably abt 3 inches thick) of newspaper beside her. I was like so flabbergasted! I mean.. i understand cheapskates.. but this is STEALING, in the open pulak tu. Muka selamba je. Like.. can you believe it? Orang dah sediakan utk kegunaan everybody, then come this penyangak nak make money out of it. So disgusted with this kind of person. Ni baru yang kecik2.. yang besar2 tu ntah macammana punya menipu n mencurik la pulak lagi. Teruk betul. Orang macam ni pun ada.

There... nak cerita tu je pun.. hihi.. back to my work yang sangat banyak. :)

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Back from Bangkok

Yep i'm already back in KL! Sigh!~ mama and my bro picked me up from the airport, with my dear little girl. Huhu.. she felt somewhat lighter... and has nappy rash!! Sedih.. tinggal anak 6 hari, kena diaper rash pulak. :( She doesnt cry or complaint though. Quite tough, this little girl. Masa nappy change je complain sikit, probably pedih kot kena air. Sigh!~ My poor,poor baby.

Yesterday we brought her to the paed. Got a shot, the final of the 3 standard doses and a cream for her rash. I think it's doing it's job.. makes sarah feels better i should think. She sleeps better too.. sleeps all the way through the night now. Yep.. a nice relief for me. :)

Okay.. hurrying off now, to attend a conference on franchise. I've to be working on the weekends as well, demmit. Ok.. post again as soon as i can...

Friday, July 27, 2007

In Bangkok

Currently in Bangkok for business. Sigh!~ Been here since wednesday. Huhu.. missing sarah so much!!

So far things are great. The Minister had gone back and now there're only the visits and exhibition booths left to be taken care of. Can't wait to go back on monday. Apa la diorg ni buat exhibition lama sangat.. isk... 2-3 hari cukup la.. ni sampai 5 hari.. tapi promo nye ciput. Tapape tah.

Malam ni baru la dapat nak jalan2 sket. Sebelum ni sibuk je, tak sempat nak tengok bangkok ni. Oh..one thing for sure though.. the traffic jam is a lot worse than KL.. nasib baikla tak kena drive.

Okla.. off now. Just dropping a post while doing some work in the business centre. *Jalan2 naik tut-tut*

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Busy Me

Finally, i think i'm at work actually working. Lols. Lama tak update coz i'd been quite busy lately. Seriously, in this new division, i'm finally feeling like i'm actually working. Ni baru la macam dapat rehat sket. Kejap je, sementara nak tunggu meeting in abt an hours time.

Anyways. Last friday, hubby and myself visited this newly operated nursery, somewhere close to my office. So, last monday was the first day we sent her there. The nursery is quite alright i think, the care takers are friendly and so far (fourth day today), i'm happy and i think sarah's enjoying her new school as well. Babies tak ramai pun... 5 babies currently.

Sigh!~ Sebenarnya, mmg berat hati nak kasik sarah masuk nursery, Bukan apa, nak tinggal anak dgn org yg kita tak kenal kan... bukan senang. Taktau diorg jaga mcm mana.. (tapi kira ok la nursery ni.. diorg mengharamkan penggunaan buai. :D ) Tapi,kalau nak kasik mama or mak jaga je all the time, tak kena jugak. They are getting older. Dah pencen2 mestila nak berehat. Rasa mcm menyusahkan je. Once in a while tinggal sarah ngn depa ok la kot, sementara mommy n daddy gi dating.. Heheh..

Urghhh... Less than 2 weeks before i've to leave sarah for bangkok. Demmit!! Taknak pergi laaaaaaa.. iskkk... bos ni..pegi je la sorang... Takyah la angkut iiii..... uwaaaa....dahla lama... Kalau 2 hari je takpe la jugak.. ni nak dekat seminggu... Huhuhuuuuu.....

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Ngomel Pagi

Ahh.. just got into the office and felt like posting straight away. Hehe.. ada la issue nih..Oh.. hari ni logged into the net w/o proxy... lagi lajus rupanya. :D

Anyways.. as i was driving to work today, i noticed that my cuz A was driving beside me.. laju je. Well.. new car, honda jazz pulak kan.. laju je la.. Anyways, i thought i saw the glimpse of her eyes looking at me la from the rear view mirror. And then we arrived at this traffic light. I purposely stopped beside her car la, hoping that she'll look and we could change waves or something (because she's been distancing herself from the rest of the family since she got married) but she didn't even look! I looked at her several times.. and usually, you'd notice ppl looking at you kan, and you'll look back.. apa lagi kalau mmg dah kenal kereta tu. But she didn't. I dunno la if mmg dia tak notice or what.. but i feel it was weird la. I mean what has she got against me?

We used to be so close, the 3 of us, A, Z and myself. We even got married around the same time. Tapi since she got married, she's like always distancing herself from our family gatherings and it's more pronounced now. This year, she's hardly ever attended any of our family gathering - she didn't come and pay me a visit when i was in confinement (in sepang which was only like 5 mins drive from her place. her mom dropped by quite a few times, she lives withher mom and didn't even once paid a visit. Tanya kabar lagi la tak), she didn't come for sarah's cukur jambul, she didn't make it for abg jali's housewarming, nor the gath meeting at pak uteh's. She's always not around. I dunno.. perhaps she feels embarassed of her own family..i dunno. but y should she? If it's not because of family.. she won't even be around! If she feels insecure, if she feels like everyone is doing better.. well she's also doing well herself.. dah beli kereta sendiri.. imported car pulak tu, now tgh beli rumah sendiri.. kalau nak compare with me, i don't have any assets under my name for God's sakes. There's nothing she should be insecure about.

Kalau in laws punya side pulak, waahh.. tak pernah miss. It's like c'mon la. orag lain pun ada in laws ok.. but split equally la between in laws and own family. Both are family anyway.

Sigh!~ entahla. I guess i'll have to talk to her to find out.. but unless she attends family meetings... that's unlikely to happen la. Tak tau la.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Updates on my little princess

Wow.. sarah's already 4 months now. Last mth, on the 2oth, just 2 days before her fourth month bday, she turned on her tummy!!! Am i a proud mama. It happened at night. and during the day her grandparents sent her to the house after babysitting her the whole day. When we're just hanging out in front of the telly, she made attempts to turn, but always only half her body was turned. So her tok bapak said "she's probably waiting for her 4th mth bday to be able to turn." Sekali, malam tu when were still lepaking in front of the telly waiting for daddy to get home from ground school, she turned!! And later she turned again, and again, and again!!! Cute je. Bila penat on tummy, complaint. Heheh..

Now she can turn more easily than before. She starts to make more sounds, especially when feeding. She can also make more then just cooing sounds sometimes (which surprised us) like maaaa.. and naanaaa... and even daaaa... Hehe...

Sigh!~ miss my chubby wubby.

End of this mth, probably kena pergi bangkok for 6 days. Initially dah try nak suruh org lain pergi.. but then we're so understaffed.. so kena la pegi jugak. Nak bawak sarah and daddy, daddy takleh pulak.. belum habis line test. Sigh!~ Lagipun daddy tak kasik sarah naik airplane before she's 1 y.o sbb takut telinga dia sakit sbb tak reti lagi nak equalize. Huhu... sedeynya.. Camne nih.. tak pernah lagi tdo without sarah.. sarah pun tak pernah tak tidur ngn mommy. :(

Grrr...

It's so nerve wrecking when people keep pushing you their idea when you've told them clearly you don't agree to it. Geram tau.

On the 24th last mth, almaz had a bday.. and we went there. They served ice cream.. well.. kids party kan.. and my MIL, FIL and BIL sibuk nak let sarah have a taste of ice cream. I said no.. firm but with a smile la kan.. they are family and i respect that, taknak la rude. They should so respect my decision la.. It is my daughter.

I want sarah to have a good start to healthy eating. Starting off with ice cream won't help with that. Lagipun, ice cream ni, tak payah ajar pun, budak makan jugak. When she gets older, yes she can have some ice cream.. but not now. I want her to savour the healthier meals.. no sugar, no salt. I don't want to sabotage her taste buds so early. lagipun, what's so great about ice cream (other than how good it tastes) that cannot wait??? It's laden with sugar, high in fat, not to mention the additives, colorings, preservatives. Yes, sarah's tummy might not be as sensitive as it was when she was a newborn, but that doesn't mean that we can just sumbat her with everything.

Last weekend, we had lunch at Putrajaya lake Club, again, MIL tried to push the idea of giving a taste of ice cream to sarah. And repeatedly i said no.. dia nak argue pulak, kata ice cream tu bukannya solid food pun.. lagipun it's easily digested.. That's not the question ok..

I know.. it's fun to see sarah's expression upon trying something new.. But sorry.. this is my daughter, not some experimental guinea pig.

Geram tau.. orang ckp tak nak dah la.. drop it. It upsets me so much. What does it take to make them understand?? Do i need to be sharp tounged to be heard?? If i say no, i mean it. Which part of that don't they understand? Bottom line is, i want sarah to start solids with bland foods, nothing sweetened or salted in the hopes tht she won't develop a sweet tooth or 'kuat masin'.. at least not so early, and i really feel that people should respect that. They've done their part with their own children.. Let me dictate how i wanna do things with mine.

*Grr.. still geram thinking of it**

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Mommy Brain = scatter brain??

Sigh!~ i think it's getting worse now. I've always been forgetful.. you know the little things... forgetting to take along the mobile charger for travel, loose change for tolls... things like that... But i think, now, being a mommy.. it's just getting worse.

I know something doesn't feel so right with me.. I don't feel like myself. It's weird. I thought it could be just me.. but until my hubby pointed it out recently, yeah i guess something is seriously not "normal" with me.

Post baby, i think i'm such a slob... i don't dress well, i don't take care of my face, my hair.. My desk at the office is a mess, i am absentminded half the time...I just dunno what happened to me. Gone were the days when my skincare regime consists of a cleanser, a moisturizer with UV protection and a two-way powder. Now it's just water, while i hurrying in the shower (yes.. i don't even powder my face anymore). I don't really have clothes that i think can flatter my postnatal figure, but still, i just make do with what i have, even though it's a bit tight here and there (and try to avoid standing in front of the mirror). My forgetfulness seem to get worse; i'd usually forget one thing or the other. Fact is, i dunno where my brain is most of the time. everything that happens were just a blur of activities. Yesterday seemed like ages ago. It's quite sad.

So today.. i browsed the net, trying to find the causes of this scatter-braininess. It seems like i'm not alone. Quite a lot of sites i visited were abt mommies having the mommy-brain condition. It offers some kind of relief.. at least i'm not the only one with this problem.

One parenting website associated this condition to sleep deprivation, stress, diet and multitasking. Yeah... i couldn't agree more. The first one, definitely. The second point.. well i guess it affects me too eventhough i go on telling people and trying to convince myself that i'm not stressed. Diet - lack of iron, yes.. and multitasking - when you don't focus on doing sth because you're focusing on other things at the same time.

I guess i'd have to slow down a bit.. Live the moment. Take some me time once in a while. The baby will be alright if i spend a little bit longer in the shower.. and she'll still be fine if i leave her with my hubby or my mom for a while and take some time off to pamper myself... Yeah.. she would be ok... I'd have to remind myself of these things.. and the fact that it's ok to take a break, and return as a more energetic mommy.

Monday, June 25, 2007

Quizzila
Came across this quiz while going thru kDilla's blog. Something to perk me up a bit, after a rather gloomy weekend. Sigh!~

♣ MAY = SEXY
Suave and compromising.
Funny and humorous.
Stubborn.
Very talkative.
Calm and cool.
Kind and sympathetic.
Concerned and detailed.
Loyal.
Does work well with others.
Very confident.
An awesome kisser.
Sensitive.
A very good girlfriend/boyfriend.
Amazing Smile.
Positive Attitude.
Thinking generous.
Goodmemory.
Clever and knowledgeable.
Loves to look for information.
Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh.
Able to motivate oneself and others.
Understanding.
Fun to be around.
Outgoing.
Hyper.
Bubbly personality.
Seductive.
Boy/girl crazy.
Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling.
Super sexy.
Extremley hot but has brains.
Office Politics
Sigh!~ I've just had a taste of office politics. It totally sucks, especially if you're bad at it, like myself (Dan said that's one of the reasons he married me.. if i was good at office politics, he'd probably won't). The slightest bit of office politics pun is very ugly.. and i have years of working ahead of me with plenty more of OP (office politics) to come. This one really makes me feel miserable. I hope in future i'll be wiser to face OP....
OP SUCKKKSSSSS!!!

Monday, June 18, 2007

Warrrrrghhhhh!!!....

Tensionnyaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grrrr.... the min's now having a major restructure.. our new division nnt will be headed by idiots, bhg lain dah tak nak, org yg tak perform, semua lambak kat bhg tu... Yang jadik mangsa ni, kitorg la.. officer bawahan nih sbb pertukaran melibatkan yg atas je, yg bawah masih sama.. Kalau head boss ok, boleh tahan lagi.. ini head boss pun slow, immediate pun dua kali slow, nak buat keputusan tak tau... apa2 hal blame kitorg yg bawah ni.. tensionnnnn....

i mean.. i'd rather banyak kerja, tapi bos ada halatuju drpd takde keje n bos blur... once in a while tak buat apa dlm opis ok la.. ni kalau dah hari2.... otak pun jadik makin lembab... sigh!~

ex boss baru datang, saja2 datang melawat.. huhu... boleh tak nak mintak dia.. puan masuk la sini balik... uwaaa....!!

i'd put a request straight to HR to be placed into another division... tah camne, there was a big hoo-ha abt it last friday and it got to the big boss la, konon my name takde dlm senarai officers of the new divison... and she said.. No.. you have to remain in this division because you have technical b/gnd.. like bullshit la kan. There's no utilization of my technical b/gnd whatsoever... Pergi factory audit, ada engineer from jkr yg buat. i'm always in the office.. buat paper pun tak... tak habis2 buat minit, surat, minit, surat.... underutilization of my brain ok... otak kalau tak pakai, lama2 boleh shrink tau... demmit la...

Kalau pindah nnt jawabnya kena beli buku sudoku la utk stimulate minda.... lols!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

CROCS!!








I think i'm like a total fan now... demmit.



When crocs were first introduced a couple of years back, i thought it was the most ugliest looking shoes (if you could even call it shoes) ever! I always thought to myself, who in their right minds would even wear something as fugly (read: fuckin ugly) as those hideous thingies with really loud colors and holes all around.



When i got pregnant, towards the last few months when my belly and feet got bigger, it struck me to get a pair since none of my sandals fits my swollen feet nicely and definitely none of my working shoes are bearable for me to walk in anymore... So i went to Isetan KLCC to get a pair of crocs mary jane and at the same time, talked my hubby into getting one as well.. hehe.. It was like a "i'll get one if you get one" kinda thing. So he got himself crocs offroad. The next day, i started to use the crocs on my feet and guess what.. i don't wear anything else until way after i gave birth. I wear it to the dr's clinic (dr pun tegur kata ramai org pakai crocs ni sekarang), i wear it to the office.. everywhere, with anything.. pants, skirt, baju kurung.. lols.. (But then again, i was pregnant at tht time.. i think ppl let me get away with almost anything..) hehe. even when i was admitted to the hosp for labour i was wearing it. My goodness.. i cant imagine the thingy tht i called hideous were such lovely to wear shoes. So comfy, so airy, so light!! I love it!



Yesterday the 3 of us went to crocs store in ikano to get almaz a pair for her bday (thanks to my big mouth) and i was like... oh mann... i think i'm gonna get another one. It has sooo many colors and style in store!!! Yep, i definitely think i'm gonna get another one (coz hubby said that he'd probably get another one as well..hehe).. and when sarah can walk on her own, probably we'll get one for her too... We're crocs crazy... sigh!~



Moral of the story: jangan kutuk2, nanti suka... hahahahaaa...

Monday, May 28, 2007

Introducing..............



Introducing our beloved sweet little angel, Sarah. For the time being, this is the only pic... Will definitely update next time around ya. This is sarah at 3 mths. Looks a lot like daddy huh? :)


Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Cukur Jambul?

Yeay!! My leave had been approved! :D Bestnya cuti this friday and next monday. :)

This sunday my mom's gonna do this cukur jambul thingy for sarah (mana sarah ada jambul??) Anyways, she's calling this marhaban group la whatever la... Dunnolah... My mom's preparing everything... I'm just preparing sarah. Haha. I bought her this pale pink dress earlier, but then it's for a 9 mths old baby.. tapi try acu kat badan dia haritu nampak macam muat... just a little long, tapi boleh la kot... Hehe.. blasahla..

Dan's coming home tmrw after being away for 14 days. Kesian daddy and daughter, tak dapat jumpa selalu. But then, Dan gladly takes over taking care of sarah when he's around.. everything, from bathing to changing diapers, to giving her milk when i'm away, plus he helps me out with the pump, making me comfy during breastfeeding sessions... He's such a big help when he's around, and i'm really grateful to have such a supportive hubby and i'm so very proud of him. Sadly though, he'll be leaving for Bangalore pulak on the weekend which means he'll miss sarah's cukur jambul (and my bday)... and next thursday, he'll be off to anchorage again for 11 days. It'll be his last flight to anchorage for the time being coz he's got a promotion to captain, but on a narrow body aircraft. Narrow body aircraft ni tak buat long distance run.. which means tht he'll be home more! Yeay!!

Sigh!~ Boring betul hari ni... Esok patut pergi parlimen.. tp since i'll be having trouble with pumping, i asked to be replaced. Leceh gak nak bawak pump semua masuk dewan.. Ishh...

Okla.. lunch time already... isk.. boring betul la food kat cafetaria nih... Sigh!~ Blasah je la kan.. no choice.... Adios...

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

The highs and lows of breastfeeding

Sarah is 3 months old today!! :) And proudly, i've been bf-ing her since birth. I had some shorcomings though, i had to supplement her feedings on her paed's advice but i'm still breastfeeding her as much as i can, without supplements on the weekends.

I thought breastfeeding comes naturally... well it does, after a while though. Biasala, tara nak biasa tu macam2 la cobaannya, tapi alhamdulillah, usaha masih diteruskan. I consulted a board-certified lactation consultant regarding my plans to go back to exclusively bf. She said it can be achieved with lots of effort on my part. So her i am, trying as hard as i can... Usaha kena usaha.. tapi apa yang Dia nak bagi, kita redha la kan.

I pump milk at the office, 3 times as suggested. Masa awawal aritu, malu gak bila nakbasuh bottles and pump kat pantry tu kan. Segan lak orang tgk.. tapi bila fikir2 balik.. orang yg buat maksiat terang2 tu tak rasa malu pun, takkanla aku nak malu buat mende yg elok untuk baby aku kan? So skang takdela malu sangat. Kalau masa jalan from pantry to my room tu terserempak ngn orang sambil menatang bekas toyogo yg penuh barang2 pump yg ditenggelami air (untuk cold sterilization).. aku cakap je.. akuarium!.. Hehehe.. Lantok la kome...

Mende lain pun try jugak.. soya bean, milkmaid tea tht contains fenugreek, milo, anmum... sampai dah tak tau which one works..isk.. konpius. So far production adalah increase sikit dari dulu.. sikit je... but it's ok.. better than nothing. Now i'm more positive la kalau tak dpt collect milk byk pun. Rezeki la kan.. kalau ada, alhamdulillah, takde pun alhamdulillah jugak. Apapun, usaha tangga kejayaan... Harap2, dapatla susukan sarah sampai umo setahun ke... kalau tak pun, 6 mths.... huhu...

Okla.... time for the next pumping session... Takleh stress2 nih... kang tak kuar lak susu. Adios!

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Back!!! (with a whopping extra 20lbs demmit!)
Yep.. this new momma's back in action. Heh. Daym i've to lose A LOT of weight. Sigh!~ Padan muka.. masa pregnant makan tak hengat. Lesson learned for next pregnancy(ies).
I'm already back at the office after 2 mths of maternity leave. I had an induced labour back in feb and gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, sarah aiesha on 22 feb 2007, 1133hrs. Heh... lagi setengah jam nak tengah hari... Labour had been normal, and it was not as bad as i thought it would be. I think i went through the phases quite alright... until i was abt 7 cms dilated that is. After that i was like ayam berak kapur... and the final 1 cm was rather excruciating cause i really felt like pushing but advised not to. Sigh!~ And when i was already 10cm dilated and pushed until the baby's head crowns, the nurses asked me to stop coz the dr wasn't there yet. She's on the way from a c-section. Hampeh betul. Anyways, the baby was delivered safely and put onto my tummy where she peed on me. :) Hehe.
The birthing proces might not have been so bad for me but the stitching of the epi was hell. I took the entonox option for pain relief but it doesnt really take the pain away... It makes me high... and believe me... you don't end up laughing even if you're breathing in laughing gas at tht time. :P
After 2 days in hosp, i went back to sepang for confinement. Hmm... Confinement was quite stressful... Not because i'm having post-natal depression... but i guess it's the environment and people. Entahla. Breastfeeding didn't go so well, which added up to my stressfulness. Getting misleading inputs from 'orang tua' regarding the production of milk doesnt help either. Susah gak... even if you're well informed on how the breast milk production cycle works; when everyone around you keeps telling you otherwise, it gets to your head, you know. Sigh!~ I won't let that happen again next time.
Now i'm back at the office. Second day of leaving sarah at home with my mom. It's really difficult to leave her after enjoying the whole 2 mths of being at home with her. Kesian dia... Daddy dah berapa hari outstation next monday br balik... Now mommy plak have tu leave her everyday. Sigh!~ What to do...
Hmmm.... better get back to work. Baru2 masuk kerja ni, kerja pun kurang..Hehe... Whatever it is, I'll need to get all this weight off pronto!! Baju gi kerja pun sendat nihss!!

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

On the road to induction...

I'm 13 days overdue today and went for my weekly checkup this morning. The dr doesn't seem quite happy that i'm still pregnant. Heh. Like i am la kan. Anyways, she said we can't wait any longer because the placenta might deteriorate, and that in turn could cause fetal distress, which may make the baby pass motion in utero, which could then lead to the baby suffocating on the faeces. Hmmm... yeah... i read about that a couple of times already. So the dr scheduled me for an induction at midnight tonight, and i was asked to be at the hospital at 10pm. Sigh!~

It's kinda scary when you know that something's really gonna happen to you. I dunno which one is scarier now... Labour taking you by surprise, or a planned one? Hmmmm....

I guess after all my days of frustrations, this will be it. At midnight the dr will start me on a drip, and she said that it'll probably take around 6 -12 hours to work. So, i'd probably have my baby early tmrw morning or so.. I dunno. Starting to get the shivers on the impending labour now. I've been reading up on relaxation techniques and stuffs, but heck... reading the theory is on thing kan... actually applying it is completely another.

I appreciate everyone's concerns of my well being, but i'm sorry, i was really too overwhelmed with frustration that i just shut myself out completely for a couple of days. I'd put my phone on silent and only received calls from my mom. Friends, i'm sorry if i did't reply your messages or calls. I couldn't handle myself well at that time. To aznor, Congrats for finishing your masters and doing well for your viva. Sorry aku tak sms ko to wish you good luck... but i know you don't need luck anyway. Aku yakin ko boleh lepas viva dengan jayanya, no luck needed.

Hmm.. i guess that's about it kot, before i go into labour. Again, to my frens, i apologize for any wrong doings, or anything that i'd done that might've hurt you in any way. Please pray for our safety during labour, moga2 dipermudahkan segalanya. Amin!~ :)

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

6 Days Overdue

Yep... here i am, still waiting for the arrival of our daughter. Sigh!~ Bila la baby nak keluar ni???

Went for my antenatal checkup yesterday. The dr did an internal exam. She said that my uterus is soft, she ripped my membranes and told me that i'll be getting my blood show, and i did. She also told me that the contractions will start within 24 to 48 hours, but so far, nothing yet. Still waiting for the contractions now. Quite happy that i've the bloody show yesterday. At least it's telling me that baby is on the way.

Went to the office today. Only half the day though. After lunch, i told my boss tht i've begin to show and she let me off. Put in leave for tmrw and friday as well, just in case i still don't deliver by then (but i really hope i do).

So here i am, at home, doing some last preps... like updating my MP3 players with relaxing songs that i canlisten to while in labour, washing the cute baby hats i just got a few days ago... Other than that, everything is ready... just need to rest and relax until the big day comes. :)

Thursday, February 08, 2007

I'm due!!

Yep.. i'm officially due for labour today. No show, no contractions... NOTHING. Sigh!~

I'm back at the office today. Cancelled my leave. I spent the day at home yesterday, but i was really miserable... So, i figured that it'll be better for me to be at the office, get my mind off things rather than being at home, hoping and hoping to feel the first contraction.

Been visiting web pages on overdue pregnancy. Heck.. i'm not yet overdue and i'm already freaked out. I dunno what'll happen to me if i don't deliver by next week. Hubby and i had been talking to the baby, persuading her to come out soon... My obgyn suggested sex.... the websites offers old wives' remedies. Hmm.. tak taula...

Why being overdue is such a big concern for me? Because of my hubby's schedules. Right now okla, coz he's on standby (last night he got called to do a 4-days flight to Malmo - but he refused.. but he can't refuse forever!)... He won't be on standby for the next two weeks, knowing the company he's working with right now. The thing that i'm really afraid of about labour is not having him with me during that time. I dont want my mom or my MIL to be in the labour room... but i do want my hubby to be there. Sigh!~

Please dear baby, come soon. Mommy and daddy's really eager for your birth.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Sigh!~

Heh.. konon tak sempat post before delivery konon.. :p

Went to the hospital today for my routine checkup. Nothing new. My baby's not engaged yet. Sigh!~ And i'm two days away from my due date. Frustrated? Yeah, a little actually. I was hoping that my bundle of joy would be born tmrw. Somehow my frustrations knocked me harder than i thought it would. I was practically crying the whole way back from the hospital. I dunno why i was crying but there i was, in the car, tears running down my cheeks.

Hmmm... still trying to get over it, so here i am, browsing the net, my friendster, viewing my friends' sites... Hmm.. some moved on to having a family, some are still enjoying their bachelor days. Everyone seems happy. Me? At this moment, not very happy. :(

I've applied for 3 days leave. i dont think i'd wanna cancel the leaves coz i can't stand being at the office at times like this. Hmm.. if i don't give birth by the weekend, i guess i'd have to go back to work next week huh? Sigh!~ What a bommer.

Monday, February 05, 2007

Counting the days..... and still counting....

I'm like only 3 days away from my due date and so far, i haven't experienced any of the 3 major labour signs yet. It's kinda frustrating... but then again, it's a good thing coz my dr won't be around until tmrw, so if i were to deliver my baby today, some other dr might have to stand in and receive my baby... Don't really fancy that idea.

Despite that notion, i still feel quite restless thinking of when i'm actually going into labour. Hmm... penantian satu penyeksaan... They got that right! My feet had gone from super giant sized to the normal size they were... which my mom said is a sign of impending labour. Braxton Hicks... yeah i've got them... not so painful, just uncomfortable. I'm also experiencing pain in the groin area down to my thighs as well as fatigue.... I'm like constantly exhausted.

I've got an apptmt tmrw and we'll see how the baby and myself is doing. I do feel afraid of labour... but then again, who doesn't? I just hope that everything will great, for the baby, for my hubby and for myself.

To my friends, i want to apologize for anything that i've done or said in the past that might have hurt you in any way. Please pray for us. :)

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

New House

We've got the key to the new house already!!! ...and... we're the first resident there to get it!

Went to take a look at the house yesterday. Exterior is alright.. some kind of resort-like feature. Somehow, Dan and i think that the interrior is kinda smallish, as compared to the house in vista now. Probably because of the design la... with all the peculiar nooks and corners.. well not that peculiar la. We're happy with the house (especially the alarm system, auto gate and the lovely timber strips flooring), except for that itsy bitsy fact that it wasnt as big as we expected. We're gonna have to do some manipulation to make the house look spacious. So now we're browsing through ikea's catalogue to get some ideas.. sbb ikea ni slalu susun atur tu kinda space saving. Kinda excited to start working on the house, but when we got our ideas on paper, mcm stress pulak... Hehe.

Alhamdulillah.... an adorable, loving husband, a new house, a new car (err.. not so new la...) and a new baby on the way... I couldn't ask for more. :)

Monday, January 22, 2007

Poseurs

I really wonder what sense of accomplishment a poseur feels. C'monla... you're talking big.. but that's just it... Mere talk. No matter how big your talk is, if you don't walk the talk, it's just talk. You can use whomever big shot's name in your conversation like they're some close friends of yours.. MANY people do that, ok, so don't think that you're better off. It's getting too lame now that most of us know that the so called big shot names that you dispose freely in your conversation doesn't even know that you even exist.

It's god-damn revolting. I wish these people who thinks they're far above the rest will look into the mirror and see their own reflection.. not seeing a reflection of someone they're trying so very hard to be but they're not. Who the hell are they trying to kid? Themselves? Do they really have such low respect towards themselves that they can't bear looking at themselves in the mirror and had to imagine they're someone else instead? Mann.... they must be the most pathetic loser of all time. I feel sorry for these people... but then again, I wish they would just stop pissing people off.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Pseudo birth signals?

Hmmm... lately i've been having this questions popping in my mind... The big question: Am i in labour already??? Well... surely, the birth of a baby is something that will go unnoticed... but... ermm... entahla ek.. As i read more articles about labour and birth, the more the question pops up. Sigh!~

Lately i think i've noticed that my tummy is different. It's kinda lowish now. My mom said so too. Has the baby engaged? I'm also experiencing some kind of diarrhea lately. From chats tht i've had with friends, they said they felt like they need to go poop during labour... The bearing down feeling to help you get the cue on when to push the baby out. So now i'm like takut2 to teran during the big business... Hehe.. i know the baby wont just pop out and make a dive into the toilet bowl... tapi... macam berhati2la jugak kan...

Sooo, kesimpulannya, I think labour is near... but not that near. I've yet to experience major contractions or bloody show or the rupturing of the water bag... So i guess that labour is progressing, but i still have time to complete the tasks tht i need to do - preparing some paperwork for an event scheduled in feb and another one in march (which i'm definitely NOT going to attend coz i'll be in confinement by then). Whetever it is, surely hope that hubby will be around when i'm finally in labour!

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Wet, rainy morning
Hmm.. it seems tht i've blogging rather frequently lately huh? Sindrom takde keje and takde bos. Lols. Teruk betul. Anyways... today is sooo not helping. It rained this morning, making the working-day morning rituals more difficult than they already are. Currently at the office, i'm stricken by the sleep-bug and i'm feeling so darn sleepy i could barely keep my eyes open. I'm on duty to read thru today's paper to find anything of relevance to the division... I've just done that.. and yet i can't remember what i read.. Too sleepy i think i must've dozed off while my eyes TRIED to scan through the pages. Sigh!~

Oh.. did i mention tht i'm banished from driving anywhere recently? Yep... my hubby and MIL insisted tht i don't drive anymore in my condition now. At first i felt quite upset ... coz i feel kinda smothered by their constant worrying about everything. Siap nangis2 la haritu sbb takleh drive nye pasal. Haha.. kelakar ler pulak. So now, i won't be driving until after confinement. Elok jugak.. saves me from the stress and exhaustion of driving. :) No complaints there.

Nowadays, i get to work by cab. One of hubby's acquaintances from work who does part time cabby driving was willing enough to drive me from Bt Jalil-Putrajaya and back... well.. with a price la of course. It's about 30km to get to work from the house. The current cab rate is RM 2 for the first 200 m and 10 sen for subsequent 100 m. How much does that amount to? Heh... go figure. Just adds to one more thing to be upset about. Anyways... hubby pays for it, so i might as well sit back and relax. I can't say i'm not thankful though. I'm very, VERY thankful and really appreciate my hubby for doing all the things he did to make my pregnancy as comfortable as possible. Thanks honey. *kiss*

Lagi nak dekat nak beranak ni, lagi malas nak pergi kerja and lagi cepat ngantuk la... Is it just me?

Monday, January 08, 2007

Baby, baby

As the day passes, our anticipation becomes stronger and stronger. Sigh!~ Tak sabar pulak to have this little bundle of joy in our arms. :)

Last saturday, we've sent some of the baby things back to my mom's in sepang, where i'll be staying for the duration of my confinement. The first few items tht were sent were the clothing and the bathing stuffs. Took quite some space in my room since we havent moved the wedding gifts we'd gotten a year ago to our house in bt jalil, coz we're waiting to transfer all the stuffs when we moveinto our new house. Thankfully, mama is hiring a contractor to build an outdoor store room, so that will definitely help with the removal of the abundance of stuffs in my room.

Hmm... currently trying to prepare my hospital bag. Hehe... i hate packing! Gawd.. i really dunno what to pack. I mean.. i know what to bring to the hospital but i'm having some trouble to find my clothes to bring for the stay, like big tshirts and front opening shirts or sth. Its either i can no longer fit in them, or i cant remember where i've put them. Heh. Teruk betul! :p

This thursday, i'll be going for my antenatal checkup... Hopefully this time, we'll finally get to do a 3D scan on the baby. Somehow i dont think tht the baby has engaged yet... but we'll find out during the checkup. I guess, after this checkup, the frequency will be increased to once a week la kot...

Hmm.. currently wanting (not as strong as craving tht is) a set of kaya butter toast... Freshly toasted bread, the oh-so-fattening melting slab of butter glistening on the bread, and a hefty dollop of kaya on them... Yummy... We had the toasts at old town kopitiam on saturday, teringat sampai harini la pulak.... :p

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Long Holiday

The last week had been fun, with the long holiday in tow, raya and fireworks... Not forgetting the end year sale. It was a very nice long holiday indeed, and it sucks to have to come back to work today. Sigh!~ What to do looorrr....

Anyways, I'd been on leave since the 28th, when i had to go for my antenatal checkup. Then on the 29th, i had an extra one day holiday because of some technical thingy and after that my holiday continues until yesterday, for raya and new year.

Raya had been ok. We spent it in sepang, eating and eating all day. This time around, the menu was different.. we had soto instead of the usual sayur lodeh. It was a nice change, i'd say. All of us really enjoyed the soto. We also had hefty helpings of duku-langsat and rambutan. What a joy! Petang, we went back to KL to celebrate raya and mak's bday in desa pandan. Bought her unsweetened chocs and a whole cheesecake, which she can only have a few bites and bapak will enjoy the rest. :)

That night, we scout for a nice spot to watch the new years' fireworks and decided to watch it from this area in desa pandan. Too bad the fireworks were quite low and our views got blocked by some buildings. Darn it! Probably better luck next time, with our little precious on tow.

The rest of the holiday, we spent it on last minute shopping of baby stuffs. Alhamdulillah, i think we've got everything in place now, all i need to do now is prepare my hospital bag, take some of the baby stuffs that will be used during confinement to mama's place and relax myself as much as i can. Our last minute shopping item entailed the baby cot, pillows and matress, changing table, nursing stuffs, toilettries.... that's about it. We bought some more clothing for the baby, cute onesies from F.O.S. Those baju were really a steal... 2 pairs for 16 bucks.. Good brands pulak tu! hehe.. tiba2 banyak pulak stock diorang. Last time takde langsung. Anyways, I've started to wash the baby thingies and having fun folding it and putting them into their boxes... Cam terbayang2 plak baby pakai the cute baju and stockings and stuffs... :) Good way to navigate from negative thinking about labour!

Okie dokie... i'm trying to commit myself to cleaning up my work table... (my friends should know how messy my work table can get..heheheheheee). So, i better get back to it like NOW... hehehhee...

(P/S: In the process of updating my fotopage.. hehe.. as soon as i can find my camera... Isk..)