On the road to induction...

I'm 13 days overdue today and went for my weekly checkup this morning. The dr doesn't seem quite happy that i'm still pregnant. Heh. Like i am la kan. Anyways, she said we can't wait any longer because the placenta might deteriorate, and that in turn could cause fetal distress, which may make the baby pass motion in utero, which could then lead to the baby suffocating on the faeces. Hmmm... yeah... i read about that a couple of times already. So the dr scheduled me for an induction at midnight tonight, and i was asked to be at the hospital at 10pm. Sigh!~

It's kinda scary when you know that something's really gonna happen to you. I dunno which one is scarier now... Labour taking you by surprise, or a planned one? Hmmmm....

I guess after all my days of frustrations, this will be it. At midnight the dr will start me on a drip, and she said that it'll probably take around 6 -12 hours to work. So, i'd probably have my baby early tmrw morning or so.. I dunno. Starting to get the shivers on the impending labour now. I've been reading up on relaxation techniques and stuffs, but heck... reading the theory is on thing kan... actually applying it is completely another.

I appreciate everyone's concerns of my well being, but i'm sorry, i was really too overwhelmed with frustration that i just shut myself out completely for a couple of days. I'd put my phone on silent and only received calls from my mom. Friends, i'm sorry if i did't reply your messages or calls. I couldn't handle myself well at that time. To aznor, Congrats for finishing your masters and doing well for your viva. Sorry aku tak sms ko to wish you good luck... but i know you don't need luck anyway. Aku yakin ko boleh lepas viva dengan jayanya, no luck needed.

Hmm.. i guess that's about it kot, before i go into labour. Again, to my frens, i apologize for any wrong doings, or anything that i'd done that might've hurt you in any way. Please pray for our safety during labour, moga2 dipermudahkan segalanya. Amin!~ :)

6 Days Overdue

Yep... here i am, still waiting for the arrival of our daughter. Sigh!~ Bila la baby nak keluar ni???

Went for my antenatal checkup yesterday. The dr did an internal exam. She said that my uterus is soft, she ripped my membranes and told me that i'll be getting my blood show, and i did. She also told me that the contractions will start within 24 to 48 hours, but so far, nothing yet. Still waiting for the contractions now. Quite happy that i've the bloody show yesterday. At least it's telling me that baby is on the way.

Went to the office today. Only half the day though. After lunch, i told my boss tht i've begin to show and she let me off. Put in leave for tmrw and friday as well, just in case i still don't deliver by then (but i really hope i do).

So here i am, at home, doing some last preps... like updating my MP3 players with relaxing songs that i canlisten to while in labour, washing the cute baby hats i just got a few days ago... Other than that, everything is ready... just need to rest and relax until the big day comes. :)

I'm due!!

Yep.. i'm officially due for labour today. No show, no contractions... NOTHING. Sigh!~

I'm back at the office today. Cancelled my leave. I spent the day at home yesterday, but i was really miserable... So, i figured that it'll be better for me to be at the office, get my mind off things rather than being at home, hoping and hoping to feel the first contraction.

Been visiting web pages on overdue pregnancy. Heck.. i'm not yet overdue and i'm already freaked out. I dunno what'll happen to me if i don't deliver by next week. Hubby and i had been talking to the baby, persuading her to come out soon... My obgyn suggested sex.... the websites offers old wives' remedies. Hmm.. tak taula...

Why being overdue is such a big concern for me? Because of my hubby's schedules. Right now okla, coz he's on standby (last night he got called to do a 4-days flight to Malmo - but he refused.. but he can't refuse forever!)... He won't be on standby for the next two weeks, knowing the company he's working with right now. The thing that i'm really afraid of about labour is not having him with me during that time. I dont want my mom or my MIL to be in the labour room... but i do want my hubby to be there. Sigh!~

Please dear baby, come soon. Mommy and daddy's really eager for your birth.

Sigh!~

Heh.. konon tak sempat post before delivery konon.. :p

Went to the hospital today for my routine checkup. Nothing new. My baby's not engaged yet. Sigh!~ And i'm two days away from my due date. Frustrated? Yeah, a little actually. I was hoping that my bundle of joy would be born tmrw. Somehow my frustrations knocked me harder than i thought it would. I was practically crying the whole way back from the hospital. I dunno why i was crying but there i was, in the car, tears running down my cheeks.

Hmmm... still trying to get over it, so here i am, browsing the net, my friendster, viewing my friends' sites... Hmm.. some moved on to having a family, some are still enjoying their bachelor days. Everyone seems happy. Me? At this moment, not very happy. :(

I've applied for 3 days leave. i dont think i'd wanna cancel the leaves coz i can't stand being at the office at times like this. Hmm.. if i don't give birth by the weekend, i guess i'd have to go back to work next week huh? Sigh!~ What a bommer.

Counting the days..... and still counting....

I'm like only 3 days away from my due date and so far, i haven't experienced any of the 3 major labour signs yet. It's kinda frustrating... but then again, it's a good thing coz my dr won't be around until tmrw, so if i were to deliver my baby today, some other dr might have to stand in and receive my baby... Don't really fancy that idea.

Despite that notion, i still feel quite restless thinking of when i'm actually going into labour. Hmm... penantian satu penyeksaan... They got that right! My feet had gone from super giant sized to the normal size they were... which my mom said is a sign of impending labour. Braxton Hicks... yeah i've got them... not so painful, just uncomfortable. I'm also experiencing pain in the groin area down to my thighs as well as fatigue.... I'm like constantly exhausted.

I've got an apptmt tmrw and we'll see how the baby and myself is doing. I do feel afraid of labour... but then again, who doesn't? I just hope that everything will great, for the baby, for my hubby and for myself.

To my friends, i want to apologize for anything that i've done or said in the past that might have hurt you in any way. Please pray for us. :)