*Cough..cough..cough... flu..flu..flu..phlegm..phlegm..phlegm* *Sroottt...sroottt..*(mencapai tisu yang dipau dari aznor dan mengelap hidung yang berair.) Arini cam demam sikit... takla demam gila-gila demam.... pra demam. Dah lama tak demam... sekali sekala demam cam best jugak... untung-untung bley flush out sikit dosa-dosa yang lalu.. hehhe... harap-harapnya la kan... tapi kang kalau berharap kang... cam tak ikhlas jek meredhai penyakit nih... cam mengharapkan balasan lak atas meredhai sesuatu perkara..... mana ikhlas cenggitu kan? Isk...

Apepon, hari-hari yang lepas rasa sgt cepat berlalu.. Isk.. tak sangka... my last post was like one week ago... Ish..ish... bahana jumpa ngan 2nd supervisor kan... oh..that and balik umah aritu.. lupa plak... Isk.. sah banyak brain cells dah mati nih.. hari pun lupa... Dahla tu... isnin lepas, Dr K email tanya progress pulak tuh.. adeiii... Amende la yang aku karangkan dalam reply haritu... tapi rasanya reply tu mesti tak relevan dengan soalan dia yang tanya ada progress ke tak... hmm.. tak kesah la.. jawab mesti jawab... hehe..tapi bagusla... pahat nih kalau tak ditukul takmo bergerak...

Semalam pergi K.Kangsar ngan azeno... pepagi dah kejut azno mintak dia tlg teman gi kuala, nak ziarah arwah Pak Lang. Dia meninggal isnin malam akibat serangan jantung. His 2nd attack. Sebelum ni, memang dah pernah kena attack dah and arwah dah pernah dimasukkan ke IJN.. dah sampai ajal dia, pergi lah dia menyambut seruan tuhan. Habis dah tugas dia kat dunia... kita yang hidup ni, tak tau la macam mana penghujung kita nanti.. elok ke, buruk ke.. hmm.. wallahu'alam. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh Pak Lang, dan semoga Allah menjauhkan kita dari kematian yang mengaibkan dan terpesong dari agama Islam. Amin.

Balik dari Kuala, sampai balik ke P.B lebih kurang pukul 3. Masa dalam keta, borak-borak pasal silat, kelas... pastu tergerak hati nak turun kelas kat Penang.. konon-kononnya sebab kesian kat Kak I'ee kena handle byk class sensorang... So, contactler abg nezam tanya bila ada kelas kat penang... kebetulan.. abg nezam kata, petang tu ada kelas kat asrama pergigian, malam pulak di Tmn Brown... So.. kitorang (me and azeno) pun punyalah galak tukar uniform, rush pergi penang. Sesambil tu, call Kak I'ee nak confirm ada kelas ke dak and tanya kelas kat mana. Dia jwb kelas kat mana jek... tak ckp pun pasal kelas ade ke tak.. so kitorg pun assume le kelas tu ada.... jadik, kitorang pun vrrooommmm ler ke penang. Siap berhenti smayang dulu kat juru smpi azno terpaksa menongkah arus nak gi surau kat juru tuh.. seb baik pakcik yg drive keta nissan tu memahami dan berhentikan keta dia di tgh2 highway.. siap sengih lagik.. heheh.. Tengkiu pakcik.. jasamu ku kenang. :)

Sampai penang, jam sana sini, gedebak gedebuk carik tempat, sampaila kat kolej pergigian tu dlm pukul 5.30.. Oleh sebab tak tau tempat latihan kat mana, pergila tanya pak guard yang ramah kat luar pagar kolej tu. Pastu dia kata... budak-budak nih tak balik lagik.. Skang tgh cuti semester... 1 haribulan ni baru depa mai... takdak kelas la kot arini.. kata dia.. So kitorg pun ghoflah... isk... tepon Kak I'ee.. dia konfem kata arini takde kelas... huhuhuhu... so.. tercapaila niat kami.. Nak gi tengok tempat kelas pergigian kat mana.. Nak gi tengok je kan.. bukan nak gi turun kelas... haaaa...hambik kau!

Balik ke kampus konvoi ngan abg nezam sbb dia pun nak gi kampus tgk bebudak sana ada latihan demo... Sampai terlelap.. satu sebab mmg kepala berat sebab selsema... lagik satu sbb dirog bawak keta 60km sejam jek... isk... terlelap, jaga, tak sampai lagik.... lelap lagik, jaga lagik.. pun tak sampai lagik.... huhuhuuu...

Habis latihan demo, lepak jap ngan abg nezam sbb dia nak banje pastu azno nak borak2 sket ngan dia... Bila dah kol doblas lebih, mata dah macam garfield.... start kol satu, terlena langsung... pangku muka kat lengan atas meja pun boleh lena... nasib baik diorg tak buat khianat tinggalkan aku sensorang kat situ...

Balik umah dekat kol 2, smayang, makan ubat get ready nak tido.... pastu kol 3 baru le lelap.... 6.30 tadik dah bangun.. seb baik leh bangun.. kalau tak, subuh gajah le jawabnya. Pagi nih, jalan gi skul nak kasik kuar peluh sket... pagi tadik tak gi jogging sbb badan cam rasa lemah.. hehe... mengada-ngada sungguh.. baru 2 hari start jogging pepagi, 3rd day badan lemahlah, itulah... hampeh! Dahla tu.. semalam punya detox diet kantoi... hahaha.. sampai kuala kangsar, nampak ikan masak tempoyak.. perhh... tak boleh tahan wooo... belasah!! mlm tu plak pekena roti bakar ngan maggi goreng, share ngan azeno... alasannya, kena alas perut sbb nak makan ubat... wahahaha.. relevan la konon... Dahla petang tu menibai rojak buah ngan sotong kangkung kat rosram... hmm.. detox sungguh! :p Takpe.. harini start detox balik... pagi tadik makan salad yang dah direfrigerate sbb salad smalam tak habis... Yek! Tak sedap langsung salad yg dah semalaman dalam peti ais... Kena salad fresh gak baru best... Eiii... kembang tekak... masuk plastik sampah la jawabnya salad tu karang... Nasibla.. sapa suruh tak sedap...

Hmm.. oleh sebab terlalu absorbed dengan kerja, terlupa ada 2 orang punya birthday... hehe... Sorang masa 29 haribulan, sorang lagik harini... ala.. kira korang kembar la.. jarak dua hari... ehhehe.. senang kasik 1 card to both of you. :) ecard jek pulak tu.. hehehe...So, kepada korang iaitu ALQAS and SATRIA, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
AlQas- aku saja jek nak wish lambat supaya boleh prolong the birthday feeling :)
SaTriA- akhirnya... ko sama umur gak ngan kitorang...!!

Anyway, i hope that the upcoming year will bring loads of fun and happiness for the both of you.

Especially for the both of you:

To everyone else, HAPPY NEW YEAR! May the year be a great one for everyone, filled with joy and laughter and may we all be blessed all year through.

Cheers!

Loaded up with work since yesterday.. which is good. I really feel that i actually have work to do instead of blogging and chatting and minesweeping. Went to see my 2nd spv today. He showed me what i'm supposed to do, the issues that are related.. and oh boy... he thinks that i can complete everything in 6 months. I sure hope soooo... i really need to get all of these over and done with.

Called Dan's mom last nite. She said tok mak's condition is getting worse. She'd been unconscious for 3 days now. Hmm.. i can just hope and pray that she'll get what's best for her.

Dan is in Shenzen. It'd been four days... and counting. He said he bought a jacket for me already. Yippeee!!! new jacket on the way!! hehe.. but then, that means that i'd have to return his jacket that he'd lend to me before he went to Shenzen... :( I love holding his jacket. The feeling's almost like holding him. Hehehee.

Last day puasa today. Esok raya!!! Oh yeah.. and i'm going back tomorrow. heheh.. berjaya gak pujuk en nazri to let me go back. :) So, i'll blog gain when i can. Getting pretty busy. have to complete the client side of my application by end of this month. Tolonglah boleh! Chiao!

Eeepssss..... i've just been told the truth about my body... present and future... no joke, no ass kissing ingratiation, no pity.. just plain truth.. which was really horrible!!! Hmm.. i thot i cud be proud of my assets... i can do better damn it! :p Okay... the search for six people who could be of benefit to myself has now begun.. ten..ten..ten......

I probably cant go back home this upcoming christmas. Damnnnnnnnn..... lab on monday is rescheduled to friday afternoon. Gee whiz... :p teruk aaahhh... So now i'm short of one day break.. which means there's not enough time to spend at home... Uwaaaa!! i wanna see the progress of our new hse in Sepang!!

My mom just called.. she said.. try la bodek lecturer to suh bagik balik.. hehehehee.... Isk.. 2nd time dah nih kantoi lab jumaat. Tapi tu aa.. sapa suh buat lab ari jumaat.

Oh.. one thing abt Abg Alip... oo.. rupa2nya, he's got someone already... orang UUM ke mana... that day he came to show ustaz the girl's pic... Amboi.. dah couple pun nak ajar org dating.. hehe.. not that i mind though. ;)

So ok la... gonna pack my stuffs and leave in a couple of mins. be back next week, insyaallah. Chiao!

Oh boy.. i wanna puke! Must be too much info browsing. Epoc, Java and C++ is sooo driving me nuts. Dahla Dr kamal cant be reached... mana la pegi Dr nih... :( Helppp!!!

Hey... for the 1st time in weeks... maybe months... the connection speed reached 22Kbps... wow.. pretty good achievement. Kalau hari2 macam ni kan bagus.. :p

Oh man... dont you just hate when you're so full ideas on what to post on your blog when you're not in front of the pc and yet once you're logged in.. the ideas seem to vanish. Darn!!

Oh... Dan's leaving for 3 weeks Shenzen detachment tmrw morning. Hmmm... 3 weeks of lonely nights... ermm.. without his phone calls i mean... Hmm... :(

Isk... argh.. failed attempt to retrieve my somewhat "lost" ideas. Better log off. My head's still aching by the way. yeouch.

Ngantuk lak... better post something up to get me up and going.. hopefully.. heheh. Since yesterday, i've been thinking about the old Datsun that Dan's friend Kingson had offered a couple of months ago. He said he'll sell off the car for rm2K.. good condition, equipped with CD changer, which probably costs more than the car does. I wasnt thinking rationally back then, so i turned down the offer. Now i wish that i didnt. Damnnnnn.... with a little touch up on the engine and paint work, that car would be a real classic. With extra money, i can work on the interior... tukar to leather seats ke... whoaa momma... in 30 years time, it'll be a vintage... Hmmmm.... nyesal! :p

Anyways... what to say... takde rezeki la tu. Hehhe.. tu la.. i should focus more on the value instead of what it looks like kan... isk... CD changer mann... what the hell was i thinking???

I'm thinking of getting myself on protein diet.. since both alqas and satria had started on it. Tak aci aaa... nanti they both lose weight and i dont. So.. might as well, right? When to start... hmmm.. tough question. This week i intend to complete my fasting...qada' that is... Supposed to end sometime mid next week... By then, my kuih raya supplies should run out... so i wont crave them any longer... and even if i do, there wont be any left to munch on... So.. that's great. I guess i can start in a fortnight... yeah? Hmmm.. lets hope that i would. But then... i'm going back in a fortnight... isk.. might go out with aliza and aiza... or at least with my mom... hmm.. okla.. balik from balik, then i'll start... heheheh.... Belum start dah beralasan... cheh.. :p

Okay.. enuff... i think i can resume my read on Symbian right now.... Chiao!

My head feels kinda heavy. Probably lack of sleep from last night's. Remind me not to take the midnight bus back to PB. It costs too much trouble to a number of people.... Susahkan orang jek.. susahkan Dan coz he had to rush from work and send me to the station.. susahkan kak gazi coz she had to wake up as early as 4 a.m. just to pick me up.. susahkan mama and aunty coz they're both worried abt my safety, thanks to the k.lipis traumatic accident... Arghh.. i really need to remind myself not to do this midnight travelling to p.b again. Midnight fleeing to KL is not so bad.. hehe.. i dont mind troubling my brother. ;)

My micro-p lab today got cancelled. I dont know if that's good news or bad news. I think the lab is postponed to Friday. Darn!! Somebody could've informed me earlier! I wouldnt have to go back to PB yet til today you know... Shizers!!!

KL had been pretty good, despite the pretty bad traffic resulted from the Bt Lanjan avalanche. It affected Dan though coz he was the one doing all the driving. So he wasnt in such a jolly mood. That nearly set us on fire on Friday night when i met him for dinner... and i dont mean that fiery, passionate fire.. duh!~ But thank God for saving us from breaking into an unnecessary argument/fight/whatever... :) So the night ended great.

Saturday, spent nearly the whole day with him.... He took me to Chilli's for lunch at around 1600.. which was really economical since we're too full to have dinner. We had fajita nachos for starters and later he had his favourite fried country steak for his entry and i had non-alcoholic tequila fish... which was hmm.. ok laaaaa... but i think that the monterey chicken would've been more satisfying.. damn! Later that evening, he took me to his parents to fetch his mom to go to the hospital to visit his granma. Chum and Ham were there as well... Heehee... thank God (again!) coz the only relatives that i had to meet then were just the two of them.. no aunts or uncles whatsoever... :D

Sunday, went to a wedding with my mom... Its one of her friend's son's wedding. After that, still in baju kebangsaan and make-up laden faces, we went shopping at Jusco. I bought a pair of shoes which was on sale... and even if i think i look like aladdin wearing the shoes, i think it was really a steal. It's leather, soft and very comfortable... and it cost me under 100 bucks when the actual retail price of the shoes was nearly rm200. Good bargain huh? Yeah.. i think so myself.

Upon getting back home, i settled packing my stuffs and the last of the kuih raya into my bag and waited til Dan called to pick me up. Accopanied him for dinner at Kiwi's and later went to the station to get my bus. Boo-hoo-hoo... :p We left each other with sky-rocketing hopes of going for a getaway in Bt Tinggi some time soon... Hmm.... tolongla jadik. :)

Okie.. back to me, my project and my symbian mode.... :p

Do you remember how good it feels to exchage smiles with people? I'd really forgotten the wonders that a simple smile could do until a guy whom i thought was a wacko reminded me of it yesterday. That guy also reminded me not to be too suspicious of others.... something that's not very much applicable in our hectic, modern lifestyle.

This guy i'm talking about lives in a corner lot single storey house at the very end of tmn pekaka. I think he lives withhis family. He looked odd to my perception, thus i judged him inappropriately and make a mental note that this person is "tak betul". Often when i walk through the narrow passage connecting tmn pekaka to tmn sempadan (where i live), he'll be standing there looking at the passersby. Never had i even lift my face to look nor glance at him for i was afraid that he was capable of doing nasty things to me. So called being careful (being suspicious is more likely.. :p). Anyway.. yesterday as i was walking home, he was there as always, standing there looking at people. Somehow, i turned my face towards him and he flashed me a smile. So i smiled back at him and wow... i just couldnt explain what the feeling was like. No.. it wasnt that flowery, seventh heaven feeling.. duh!~ Its this nice, warm feeling you know.. like the way you feel when you could lend a hand to people get it? And that reminded me that a smile takes only a little effort.. and yet you can never imagine how it can make someone's day. So people.. S M I L E!!!

Ok.. logging off now. Have class tonite and since i'm going with a mini cooper, we have to leave here at 1830 to go for a 2100 class.. hehe.. Plus.. i'll need to do my laundry and pack my bags to go back to KL tmrw. So ok happy ppl... chiao!

Last night, someone pointed out what the roots of my current "internal turmoil" might be. It was rather difficult for me to actually accept that fact... but now it starts to sink in. Yeah.. i think you're right with your point yesterday.. My increasing emotional instability has everything to do with what had happened... as much as i'd hate to admit that.. but i think it's true... That was what had triggered all this pointless emotional breakdowns.

Until yesterday, i'd never realised that the person whom had started the chain reaction of my emotional instability had that much of an influence on me. Lets call this person A. I had known A for a few years and by time, we'd gotten really close to each other. I'm not a person who shows my TLC for a person openly. I think that by showing just how much I really care for a person makes me pretty vulnerable; vulnerable and transparent. I dont really like that idea. To me, vulnerability and transparency are signs of weakness and weaknesses can be manipulated by irresponsible individuals which will only cause heartaches on my side. I've grown pretty afraid of letting my true feelings show. I'd never in my life would want to admit that anyone could actually have quite a great influence on me and yesterday, when someone pointed out that A might be the cause of what i'm going through right now, i just broke down to tears. I know that it was true, the actions that A had taken recently affected me more that i'd imagined it would... and the realisation hurts. The hurt is even more emphasized knowing that both A and I will change, we'll never be the same persons we once were... not after the actions A had taken. As for myself, i've already felt myself changing... I wouldnt want to change. I want to be that same person A had known me for... but I dont think i can help it. I've anticipated that things would change so much that the anticipation alone is beginning to eat into my very core... and change me.

To Dan, i'm sorry that this phase that i'm going through right now affects you too. Lately, I'm not as affectionate as always, i know. I treated your calls rather nonchalantly, and sometimes up to a point of being bland. I'm trying my very best to get over this as soon as i possibly can. Thanks so much for giving me the love and support that is very much needed in crucial times like this.

Came to school this morning by a mini cooper. A very, very cute car, especially its wipers... Hehehe... Its a 1965 mini, pretty good condition and it belongs to Cik Whe whom had recently bought it from a technician for under rm5K. Cool huh? Really cheap for a vintage car. A little modification on the interiors and that baby will surely be a babe magnet... hehe.

The former Ms Nura is now Mrs. Nura. The wedding was a closed family affair held in Masjid Papan, Kg Pertama, Pmtg Pauh. The kadhi was 1 1/2 hrs late. The bride looked marvellous, the bridegroom looked handsome, the bridesmaid looked gorgeous ( hehe.. that'll be me... ;) ), everyone looked overwhelmed with joy... aaahhh... it was indeed a prosperous occasion. Hmm.. sometimes it makes me wonder why some people detests weddings so much. As for myself, i'm beginning to enjoy weddings more and more. I used to hate going to wedding receptions in my early adolescents but now.. i kinda enjoy going to one.. especially if it was my friends'. Then, after the wedding, i'll be so excited about the wedding all the way home, and upon reaching home, i'd gaily call Dan and tell him abt it.. Later at night, when i lay in bed all alone, voices will drum in my head "When will mine be?? What will mine be like? When will he propose? Will he ever propose??" Now thats the part i hate most. :p I hate it when i start to think about my own wedding.... and i hate it even more to know that completing my project has everthing to do with my wedding..... warrrrggghhhh.... Ok... no more talking abt my wedding. Its not gonna happen anytime soon.

Sunday, went to penang with azno, satria, diyana and nadia and saw Dan for a while... Somehow when i got back from meeting him, i felt so bad about our whole meeting. Its something i couldnt explain. Its just so absurd. later that night, pengijazahan cekak. I had one helluva surprise.. abg alip was there. I felt kinda weird you know acting like nothing had ever happened, and trying not to give him any ideas... I was pretty excited to see him there.. coz i havent meet him for some time... and well.. after our little ermm "encounter" a few months back, i wouldnt think that he'll make any advancements again.. ever... But somehow.. he did... again... even asked if we could go out together... and.... i replied with a yes. I mean.. i think of him as my bro.. so i see nothing wrong in going out with him. Lagipun.. its not that i'm married or anything kan... heheh.. so, theoretically, i'm still single and i'm entitled to go out or date or whatever... right? Well.. not quite... i've a boyfriend for God's sakes... doesnt that like ring a bell or sth??? What's wrong with me????


Better get on wit my project. Dr kamal had been asking abt my progress... shall i tell him that i havent been progressing... at all...?

**Bazlit:welcome to my unsightly blog....... :) ugh.. now you know that i'm a sick person. Lols!

Its already Wednesday today... which means my dear sister-like friend Nura has 2 days left of singlehood. On Saturday morning, she'll be wedded to the love of her life, also a friend of mine, A.H Amir. That day, after the akad, Nura will be a lawfully wedded wife to Amir... wow... sometimes its a little difficult to imagine that the friend i've known for nearly 7 years now is getting maried already. Looking back at the girly stuffs we did together, the good laughs we had, the tears that we shed when we pour our hearts out, the endless bitchings of people that we dont fancy.... Now that she's getting married, all of that would change. Big or small, a change is inevitable. One thing that wont change is the fact that she is my friend. Married or not, she's still be my friend and i'll still be around for her whenever she needs me. I wish her all the very best and may them both have endless years of happiness together. ~Amin!~

Actually, i wanted to post something on relationships today but somehow, all the things that i wanted to talk about are now gone. Sheeshh.. hate it when that happens! Dan just called saying that he'd safely landed in Penang and is currently laying in his hotel bed comfortably. Hmmm... If we're married, i can join him!!! Uwaaa!! Tomorrow, he's got to go to the DCA in Putrajaya to see about his ATPL. I hope he'll make it and doesnt hafta sit fo the ATPL again. It costs a lot to sit for that.... both financially and mentally. Please God, he'd gone through a lot of hardships, please let him savour the sweetness of its fruits by letting him get through with his ATPL tomorrow!!

Hmm... really drained of ideas. Tadi bersungguh2 nak tulis macam-macam.... hmm... takpela... Later then. Chiao!

Aawww... currently suffering a major body systems sluggishness... Too much of a good thing is bad.. really bad... Hmm.. remind me to restrict nasi himpit/rendang/lemang/kuah lodeh/kuah kacang/tapai/kuih raya intake during raya next year... Hicks~* (mabuk raya).

Raya had been great. Spent raya's eve at Kg, with the usual people coming over for takbir. Luckily this year, nenek's house was the 4th house so it ended at around 10. If the house is the last on the list.. jawabnya sampai pukul 2 pagi la tunggu orang datang takbir. Jenuh gak... ngantuk.. heehee....

Raya was the usual... pagi after subuh, ziarah kubur baba... and just as previous rayas... the cemetery gate was closed for vehicles... so we had to walk in... After tahlil sesikit, rushed home for smayang raya, then bfast sikit, shoot up to meet the rest of the relatives on my late dad's side in Selayang. It'd been a long time since the last get-together you know. Last year pun i didnt get to meet everyone.. this year, alhamdulillah, nearly everyone was there, except pakcik atan and mak andak's family je yang takde. Then, singgah jap rumah Tok Ulong at Kg. nakhoda before leaving for B.B Salak Tinggi.... yeayyy!!! The only thing that kinda spoilt my mood that raya morning was my brother's constant rushing... Isk.. menyampah betul. :p

Third raya, as promised, Dan came over with his cuz Chum. Paksu was there and he entertained him. too bad they didnt really have similar interests bcoz paksu loves fast cars and bikes while Dan loves Landies... BUT... it went well... we all had dinner together and later Dan and Chum escorted me n my mom home... and i had to limit my driving speed to only 90kmph... :p Oh yeah... my cuz Awin was also there when they came... purposely asked her to be there.... and... well.. no surprise.. there seem to be some kind of a mutual attraction between Awin and Chum. Whatever it is.... i hope they both know the risk they're taking..... Hehehe... Hmm.. just remembered sth... Chum havent been keeping me updated... isk... haritu beriya2... :p Marah nih...

Fourth raya.... hehe... return visit. I brought cuz Zura along with me to Dan's parents place. Things went great coz Kak Faris and hubby abg Jib wasnt there until a few minutes before we're leaving the house.. Muehehehe..... but Almas was there from the start and she's such a dear!!!! So cute and smart! and.... i got to carry her... :D So, all in all.... his visit to my granma's and my visit to his parents turned out really well la kan.... Phewwwwwww!~

Fifth raya... beraya sakan starting at nek Su's place in Shah Alam.. all the way to Kuang then back to Kg Pandan.. then Keramat. Aaahhh... seronoknya raya.... Oh.. and i think i havent told you this... hehe... i still get duit raya tau this year... hehehe... boleh tahan jugak la collection... cover balik upah buat baju raya.. ehhehe... Thanks to all my aunts and uncles yang bagik duit raya. Dan honey... you tak nak bagi i duit raya ke???? hehehe..... naahh.. kidding.... ;)

Sixth raya's eve... lepak2 at TCBTL Ampang with Dan... and Chum... and Zura. Hehehe.. kesian Chum... Awin cancelled at the last minute. Nasib baik Zura nak fill in... tapi... isk... entah aa... macam tak jadi je.... and oh... the cafe mocha sucks.

7th raya... followed Dan beraya at his colleagues' houses... Cpt Hizar included. Hmm.. wonder why Hizar wants to befriend Dan so much la... musykil betul. Anyways... we went to abg Isa's place at first and there i had the shock of my life when his son turned out to be a 3rd yr student frm Bahan... Wakakak... talk abt small world... but wait.. there's more... his son's friends came by for raya... and i recognize 2 of the 3 friends... one of which was Lopong... Ek eneng... and..... the mother (Kak Zie) knows Dongek... adeyyy.... isk... So.. now i'm like kinda confused here.. i have friends from 2 generations at once.... some kind of a friend to the parents (thru Dan) and some kind of a friend to the son... Yikes! Screwed up huh? After abg Isa's place abg Zahari and finally Hizar's... Hmm.. he turned out to be ok la... i guess people change... muehehee.....

2200... balik from beraya and rushed to get my bus back to PB. Tak sempat jumpe athirah that day. I just saw her for a while when i got back on Friday tu je... and then dia balik kg... until sunday baru ada balik.. itupun dah petang lepas i was already with Dan pegi beraya.. isk... takpe la adik... nanti next weekend along balik ok? Adik pakai baju kurung.. nanti along amek gamba gune camera yang dah tak berapa baru... heheh...

So.. that's it... my raya stories.... gonna load up some raya pics.. tapi tak sure mana nak load lagi.. might try the photopages.. tapi later la.. gotta rush for lab right now... isk.. kacau la. Okie dokie.. signing off!! (excuse the very bad narration... i told you.... very sluggish sysytem... :p)

Thursday is here!!!!! At last! I'm going home, tonite.... no actually its tmrw morning.. like 2 or 3 a.m wit k. gazi, J.R and abg nezam. Hikhik.. besnya! Bley flirt ngan abg nezam.. wahahahaha!! Dont take me seriously.. i'm giddy with this whole going back thingy.

Last nite, had buka puasa at Prt Btr's KFC wit Nura. A few minutes before buka, a group of guys came upstairs, where we were sitting. Gila ramai org kat KFC masa tuh. Anyways, Nura and myself were sitting by the staircase when this group came... and.. ten..ten..ten... Its the chemical sch.'s technician... The one driving a white Proton, the very one that usually "bermain mata" wit yours truly... the one wit not so bad looks (tapi kan.. at a glance, macam Nali pun ada.. eeuughh.. puh-leeze!). The group sat at a table opposite of ours and that guy sat at the seat nearest to our table. So... i glanced at him a couple of times.. see if he's bold enough to do it there you know... Hehehe.. turned out to be a shy guy la pulak. He didnt even lift his face ok. Cheh... dalam keta jek berani maaa... Betul2 depan mata, tak angkat muka. Its not that i'm that bold either la kan... ala.. tapi takat main2 mata nih.. best woo... hahaha... Kurang pahale posa ak?

Countdown to raya.. 4 days left! Hmm.. excited for raya to come, and yet sad to have Ramadhan leave. Hmm... makin lama, my ramadhan is getting worse. terawih makin kurang, baca Qur'an pun tak galak cam masa matrik. If back then i could finish 3/4 way thru the Qur'an.. skang.. isk..malu nak cakap... Huhuhuu... Tapi.. tu la masalahnye. Sedar, tapi tak berubah. Change can certainly do one good.. but taking that BIG step to actually change is not an easy task. Camne pun, kena diusahakan jugak.

Abt Raya... 1st raya, after ziarah kubur baba, balik kg for sure. 2nd raya, might go to Pilah..might... depending on the other cousins. might even go for bowling! 3rd, open hse at Dan's parents (i wont be back in Kl yet.. phew!~). expecting Dan in the evening. 4th might go to Dan's.. YIKES!!!! 5th.. already a saturday... darn.. i gotta get my ass back in campus by monday.. so i'll have to leave home sweet home on sunday. Damn it! (oopss.. so sorry.. incontrollable emotion). Benci aaahhh... nak lepak kat umah!! Dozens of open houses coming up.. nak jumpa frens lagik. Goe this upcoming Saturday, Nazreen one of these days.. sbb she'll only be back frm Melbourne on Sunday. Hmm.. besnya.. she's doing her masters abroad.. me?? uhuhuuuu..... Isk... bengong hape... bsyukur la dpt sambung master tau... research lagik. Oh yeah.. now i remember the reason y i didnt apply to continue my studies abroad... they dont offer MSc. by research... (hehehe.. yeah.. sure..).

Aye.. checked bazlitography yesterday.. and mr ali actually replied my post. Ada ka ckp i'm materialistic. Chehh... :p anyways.. i've just received his eid giveaway. So.. tak kesah la whatever his impression of me kan. :) Hahahaa....

So.. okla... gonna have lab at 1400. Get prepared jap. Before i'm off, again.. have a blessed, joyful raya.
P E A C E!

Listened to "Best I Ever Had" - Vertical Horizon.... arghhh benci aahhh... :p

Yesterday when iwas doing my work (yes, web surfing and blogging are considered work), i had a call from the room's phone. I thot it must be one of the lecturers.
"Noreen?"
"Ye"
"kenapa tak datang jaga lab?"
"Haa? Sekarang ke?"
"Lab micro-p. Tingkat 2. Tau tak?"
"Tau.. tp saya tak tau pun ada lab hari ni."
"Smalam pun ada."
"Oh.. sorry.. tak tau."
"Check jadual."
"Jadual kat mana?"
"La.. kat office la."
Isk...... malash betul ah jaga lab nih.... 2 hrs per session, 3 times a week.... Mon, Tues, Thurs... Tak bley dah balik monday morning. Shizers!

Went to see Dr K, my newly appointed 2nd spv. He said its more advisable to use one programming language alone instead of combining. He suggests that i stick to Java.. oh well... Java it is then... Tapi, kena find out the difference between PJava and MIDP dulu.

Called cik mah the tailor yesterday. Boleh tak baju tak siap lagik??? I left it to her like a month a go.. maybe more and i'd reminded her that i'm gonna collect it before i go back for raya. I called her again last week telling her i'm collecting it today, and yet yesterday when i called dia bley kata tak siap??? Isk... hampehs. Macam la sepuluh pasang.... 2 je pun.. duh!~

Arghh... concentrate.. mlm ni silat, esok balik, friday dan jemput... 3 of the most anticipated things on my mind right now....

To everyone, Selamat Hari Raya and maaf zahir batin, especially to those yang telah diumpat/ dikutuk, terumpat/terkutuk, terasa diumpat/dikutuk directly or indirectly in this blog of mine. Ampun ye.. Tahun depan een jadik org baik. Cuba takmo kutuk/ngata/umpat org lagik. :D

Hope everyone will have a superb Raya, and maintain their weights. ;)
P E A C E.

I wasnt able to go to school on Friday. I had a gastric attack in the morning, went to the GP whom prescribed me with 2 types of medication, one to relieve my painful stomach spasms and the other to relieve the "wind" (i dunno if that is the actual medic term but i swear i saw it written on one of my medications once before). Anyway, the pain subsided after i got back from the clinic, without even taking any of the pills.. :D Thank God.. selamat puasa sehari.. hehe..

When i was lazing around at home after the visit to the clinic, Nura msged on the phone telling me that one of our fella juniors, J.R was admitted to the Taiping Hosp because of an accident while he was doing his work in the workshop. His right pinky was caught in the drilling machine. I was dumbfounded. At 1130, Nura, k.gazi, c. whe and myself went to taiping to see J.R's condition. We are all in cekak and that made us close to each other... cam adik beradik la. So when we heard the news, we were really eager to know if he's alright. Dahla on monday night we just had sahur together kat Naseer.... and J.R and i usually share food together (hehe... kakak mengepau adik).

Around 1230, we arrived at the hosp and saw J.R walking out of the nursing room of Ward 14. He looked composed but there was a hint of sadness in his eyes. We went to him, he told his story and told us that the Dr said that the reattachment of his little finger was impossible and they would have to amputate the remaining of his right pinky to avoid any infection.
"Saya tanya dr mmg tak boleh sambung langsung ke? at least ada sikit pun jadik la. tapi dia kata tak boleh. Hmm.. macam mana karier saya nanti?? Skang ada 4 jari jek." sedih dgr J.R ckp camtu. Then, k. gazi came up with sth brilliant.
"Jgn la ckp mcm tu. Kita kira 2 kaki ngan 2 tangan... bukan 10 jari, ye tak?"
Tapi, syukurla sbb J.R selamat walaupun jari kelingking dia kena potong. Memang menginsafkanla kejadian tu. Allah kalau nak amek balik nikmat Dia, bila2 masa je. Kekadang kita jek lupa yang seluruh tubuh kita ni adalah amanah dari Allah... kalau Dia panggil balik nanti, ada ke anggota badan akan jawab "aku digunakan pada jalan yang betul, dimanfaatkan dengan baik" atau "aku dilalaikan dari tanggungjawab, aku digunakan untuk maksiat". Uwaaaa!!!!! Harap2 keinsafan ni berpanjangan la.

Saturday, amek J.R from the hosp and then shoot off to Nura's. Sunday, went to the Star's Micro Fair in PISA and...... bought Minolta's Dimage X20 digital Camera... :D Tapi 2.0 Megpix jek... but then enoughla because the largest print i'd do pun will only be 4R size. Upgraded to 128 meg SD memory card for additional 80 bucks. Okla tu. :) Alhamdulillah, tercapai gak hasrat nak ada digital camera before raya. Bley amek gamba bebanyak!!! pastu bley upload bebanyak gak!! :D (Kesian Kawanku a.k.a maybank atm.. demam... huhu..)

This morning, went to school as usual and popped into the office 1st thing upon arriving. Amek 2nd spv application form dr kak su. Masa tu Dr. R ade plak kat meja Kak su. Camne tah my tounge was like twisted masa tu.. cakap pun tak betui.. isk.. tergezut ke hape. Dr. R bley ckp "laa.. ade lagi awak kat sini ek. saya ingat grad dah." isk.. isk.. doa tuh.. takpe.. taun depan saya habis, 2005 saya grad. Then, on the way out of the office, jumpa Dr. B lak... ok.. bagik salam, hopefully dia ok.. Dia jwb salam and then asked "so macam mana projek??" Phew!~ ok pun... selamat!! Tak jadik cam haritu. And all i cud answer was.. "Sigh!~" ye aa.. tak expect dia ok kan... risau jek dia hangin cam aritu. Later this morning, i was introduced to my 2nd Spv, Dr. K by Dr. OS. Hmm.. ni nak kena g his room to give him a copy of my abstract and project layout. Called him a few times tapi no answer... isk.. manela dr nih.

Hmm.. okayla... signing off already. Tonite silat class.. wonder if J.R will be around. Tmrw, work.. Wed, class Thurs.. BALIK!!! yeayyyy!!!

P/S: Aiza... i've got you a bday card and a small sth, tapi belum send. Tmrw i send ok? If i dont blog/get online tmrw, Happy Bday in advance!!

Spent Nuzul Qur'an in penang.. shopping.. hehe. bertuah punye pompuan.. hehe.. k'jaan bagik cuti suh duk umah, tambah amal ibadat bebulan pose nih.. ini tidak.. pegi dating, pegi shopping... isk... dahla tak beli pape.. :( Huhuhu...

I was aiming to buy this baju kurung, its white with pink embroideries. Sweet looking la that baju.. even Dan agreed that i should take it.. So nak pergi la try on... There was only one set yang size L but it was stained.. so.. malas aa nak try pun.. there was another set, tapi size M.. hmm.. so.. tried it on je la...

Went into the fitting room, *everyone waited outside (of course la kan.. duh to me..) [*everyone=Dan,Nura,Nura's mom,Farah]. Yah!yah! Took a deep breath.... and tried on the kain... uh.. a bit more... oh wow! perfect fit!! Perhh.. me? fitting in size M?? without having to remove my pants?? Hehhe.. Cayala!!! ok..ok... try baju pulak... shouldnt b any problem... ok... dont have to remove the shirt lah... yah!yah! Hmm... alamak.. apesal namapk kecik jek baju nih... takpe. takpe.. just put it on... Fits!!! tapi.. a little tight around the bum... argghhh rats! so... tak jadik la beli baju tu.. :( Tak dapat aaa tambah baju raya lagik satu... selamat aa $$ dlm BBC.. heheh.

Manyak mende nak post.. but currently tak boleh la. The pain in my shoulder blades are too stinging that i cant concentrate on blogging.. arghhh.... kak teh tadekla.. sape nak tlh urut nih.. :( saba.. saba.. ujian bulan pose..

So.. ok la.. selamat bbuka puasa everyone.

**P/S: Honey i miss you so much!! Hmm... apply la cathay pacific... then we can live in HK.. then at least i'll be somewhere else than M'sia... huhuhu.. like my friends... huhu... kenapa sume org abroad nih???

BABY BOY YOU STAY ON MY MIND
FULFILL MY FANTASIES
I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME
I SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS

I look and stare so deep in your eyes,
I touch on you more and more every time,
When you leave I'm begging you not to go,
Call your name two or three times in a row,
Such a funny thing for me to try to explain,
How I'm feeling and my pride is the one to blame.
'Cuz I know I don't understand,
Just how your love your doing no one else can.

I'm feelin kind of n-a-s-t-y
I might just take you home with me
Baby the minute i feel your energy
Your vibe's just taken over me
Start feelin so crazy babe
I feel the funk coming over me
I don't know what's gotten into me
The rhythm's got me feelin so crazy babe

All i can say is... Beyonce kicks ass!!

Hmm.... no more fussing abt tiket balik raya. Most probably ikut kak gazi balik kot... lepas kelas mlm jumaat 21 h/b nanti. Kak gazi kate dia nak convoy ngan abg nezam. Okay aa tuh. hehe.. leh bagik ija jeles. Mesti besh... :) But then, kena turun kat Seremban aaa... but then tak kesah jek... coz i can take the commuter to KL Sentral and take putra lrt from there. Yesss!!... sempat jumpe athirah. Hopefully i can get a digital camera by then.. so that i can take pics of her, aryssa bila balik kg nnt, amirul bile g umah nura and maybe even piccies of almas if i see her during raya at dan's parents. Hikhik.. suke!suke! Tapi.. tolongla ada digital camera fair before i go back for raya.. desperately in need to go to one. Sebabnya, a digital camera costs like 200 bucks lesser in those fairs than in shops. Plus, they give away freebies as well. I'm aiming to get the Minolta Dimage X20... anyone has any comments on that camera??

Tak sabarnye nak balik kg for raya. Even if raya is not as exciting as it was when i was a kid, its still nice to have that raya feeling you know.. when everyone gathers... salam raya lepas balik smayang raya... especially, masa aunts and uncles pakat2 seluk poket/handbag nak keluarkan sampul raya... hikhik... in our family's tradition, sesape jek yg tak keje lagik (biasanya those yg tak habis belajar lagik la.. hehe.. me included :D) will be given duit raya... and so far the eldest in the list (as of last year) was ermm... sape ek... either abg Boy or JJ... JJ kot.. or.. was it me? hehe.. tak kesahla cane pun.. janji dapat. :) At least boleh gak top up my maybank shopping account yang akan kering kalau jadik beli digital camera tu.

Eepss... just caught a glimpse of myself on a reflecting material.... yikes... i think i've got the wrong shade of lippy on me... a little too copper to match my skin.. alamak... bad buy... aiseh. Tu la.. tak try on dulu.. darn. Should've gotten sth pinker. Nantila.. memang ada intention on getting one more pun while the invincible lippy is on promo price. Hehee... sounds cheapskate huh? Ah well... i have to save for lotsa other things.... digital camera, underwater casing, advanced diving, wetsuit, swimming class (which i intend to start after raya), black strappy sandal, prezzies for upcoming bdays, facials, aerobics, movies.... and the list never ends....

Okie dokie.. sambung on C++. Tadik cam bosan coz the trial program just wont link. Apa masalah dia tah... hmm... just hafta keep on reading la... nanti check balik what's wrong with it. Going off to png later.... mueheheee.. bubbyesss!

P/s: tetiba teringat trifle kat umah zeno.... hmm....

Muehehehee.... bought Beyonce's Dangerously In Love cassette last Saturday. Cassette je la mampu time2 nak raya nih.. hehe.. lagipun, its not like my car is equipped with CD changer... kalau Dan's car ada la... Anyway.. heard it mid way on the way to campus just now and well.. its a sandwich kinda thingy.. slow songs sadwiched between catchy ones. The songs are okay... there was one song featuring Luther Vandross... but i like the song Naughty Girl.. the very the gatal.. wakakakaa.... One thing that really amazes me was her erm.. boobies... hehe.. sorry.. i hope that didnt sound obscene. I'm jut truly amazed you know. On the cover (as everyone already knows i suppose) she wears nothing but a pair of jeans and this beady top... no bras... and yet her boobs doesnt droop!! At first i thought it could be her pose.. but there was this one pic, she in yet another beady top, a turqouise one and she just stood there you know, without the shoulders back pose.. and yet.. wow! Its so different from the other celebs who'd definitely fail the "pencil test". Ok.. guys.. dont go on lookin at her assets til your eyeballs fall off their sockets. Bebulan puasa nih.. behave sket. ;) Hmm... wish i know her what her work out routine's like... especially her routine for her chest, abs, bums.. hmm.. practically all over lah... This gal really has a magnificent bod. Not skinny thin... just having all the fats (and proper volume of muscles) at the right places... yep... definitely a good motivator... hehehe.... Ok.. current body motivator : Beyonce, Thalia... hehehe.. bila ek??? dunno... but definitely before my wedding (yang semestinya lambat lagik!) :)

Gotta settle things about my 2nd supervisor, microprocessor lab helper, C++ project, Symbian OS SDK download...... eepss... tiket nak balik raya tak beli lagik!!!! :p

Its already friday, the 12th day of Ramadhan... 18 more days to go before the moth ends... Hmm... wonder if this ramadhan was better than my previous ramadhans... entahla...

Last nite, nura, azeno and myself went for a little splurge for our buka puasa. We went for a buffet buka puasa in Vistana. Had Dan reserve the place for us since he was there... but no.. i didnt get to meet him yesterday. He had to leave the hotel at 1830 coz his flight was at 2000. The three of us only reached vistana at 1900.. haha.. The food was ok... not bad. They had white rice, pink rice? (i think it was tomato rice), chicken, fish, large prawns, squids, ulam, a variety of dessert and quite a number of selection of ice creams. I tried mostly everything... except the tauhu sumbat and the veggie soup.. hmm... hari ni baru rasa mesti best kalau try... but yesterday i couldnt.. extremely full.. heheh... kire worth la 22 bucks kot. Hmm.. sesape lagi nak buke kat vistana?? jom..jom.. selasa nak? ;)

Later at 2200 last night, we had class at tmn brown. Last night it was about perkara2 yg membatalkan sembahyang.. Banyak... ada 23 perkara rasanya...and looking back, i just cant stop wondering... ada ke sekali pun sembahyang aku yang dikira betul2 tak batal?? huhuhu.. tu belum kira diterima ke tak lagi tu... aiyoo.....

Going off to Nura's later this afternoon. Tmrw teman dia gi Sg petani.. then balik might stop by at Gurney Plaza coz there'll be a digital camera expo there on saturday. will also go to prangin to grab a pair of jeans... if it's cheap enough la.. Hmm.. Dan's nature of constantly wanting to buy stuffs is affecting me right now... susah ni. :p

Isk... rindula pulak kat mama.. arini mama masak ape la agaknya... esok mama balik kampung... sbb pak Uteh organize annual buka puasa dia kat nilai springs... huhuhu.. tak dapat join :( dah la tu.. buah durian kebun pak uteh pun dah gugur.. Uwaaaa!!! nak balik!!!

Hehee... tetiba teringat... it'd been a year now since the last time i brought Dan to see each and every one of my relatives on my mom's side. Heheh... last year, i got him to meet everyone kat Club Melawati... hehee.. poor baybee.. *Winks* This year.. no surprise buka puasa.... it'll be something that we both had anticipated... (yikes!!) return visits to each of our parents' place during raya... I'll go to his parents' in Pandan (been there.. done that.. :p hehe) but this time his bro n sis in law and niece will be there.. yikes!! and he'd hafta come to my place... But since i dont celebrate raya at home in KL, he'd hafta go all the way to Salak Tinggi.. (my granma's). If he's lucky enough, all my uncles and aunts and cuzs will still be there.... heeeheeeheeeee.... *evil grin*

Tapi kan.... kalau Dan tak cuti camne??? Uwaaa..........!!! ombak jahat! :p

.....Everything That Has A Beginning Has An End.....

Went for the Matrix::Revolution premierre last night... and the feel of it is still so overpowering that i'm so very tempted to go watch it again. Won't spoil your day by telling you abt the whole story, i suggest that you watch it yourself to experience the adrenaline rush. Hmm... too bad i didnt watch the Matrix::Reloaded when it was screening last few months. Nyesal lak.. huhuhuuu... Tapi.. Revolution is something really worth the watch, really! i'd strongly advice everyone to watch it... tapi..jgn lupe terawih lak.. heheheheheee... If there happens to a screening of the Matrix trilogy all in a row one day, i'll surely be there to watch 'em... yep.. all 6 hours of the matrix...

Tapi kan.. ada slack sket masa at the cinema tu... not the movie ok.. the cinema.. mmg beruk betul. We went to this Mega theater in Midvalley Megamall... first of all, we tried to get the number from telekom's 103, but the reply came "Mana ada pawagam nama tu cik.. " Duh!~ Then, when we eventually got the number, the gal who answered the call said "No" when enquired if we could make reservations... gilos... then bila ckp melayu.. ade plak seat. isk... Anyways.. mende paling beruk mase dlm panggung aa.. it was 1/7th of the show... at that time, The Oracle was having a conversation with Morpheus, Trinity and Seraph.... about having to get to the Trainman to get to Neo.... and then suddenly... just suddenly, the screen goes blank. Ok.. maybe you thought it was part of the show.. well.. hell no! It went blank for a couple of minutes... probably 5-7 mins... they switched on the lights and started playing some stupid songs.... everyone started shouting, we started laughing... and... thank God... after some deliberate cursing, the movie resumed..... isk... selekeh nak mampus. Now that's something you rarely experience... heheh... Memang hampeh aa masa tu... :P

But then again.... the movie saved the night.... memang best.... to alqas, azeno, satria n diana... Jomla pi tgk lagik.......!!

And to those of you who has difficulty to understand the whole story... well, i think you view it this way. The computer is anologous to the whole story. We have the hardwares of a pc which is the Machine and Zion in the Matrix; we have the softwares, which makes the Matrix. The Oracle is a know-all coz she's a database.... you know.. the database 'Oracle'....Well, i might not be correct... but that's how i see it.

Ok.. enough about the Matrix already. Went to Penang to meet Dan and had buka puasa at Dave's deli. I had lasagna, which was ok... and Dan had carbonara... which was a terrible waste. It didnt even look like carbonara in the first place! Poor Dan... he didn't enjoy his meal. :( I had to leave early, as soon as we're done eating.. and hurried to catch a bus, then took the ferry to meet zeno and diyana at the jetty... aahh... Thank God, we arrived right on time... Phew!~ Berpeluh-peluh... hahahha.... Oh yeah.. talking about buses... hmm.. there are differences in Penang's minibuses and the ones that KL used to have. penang's waits at a stop as long as it takes to get the most passenger it can get while KL's rushes form one stop to the other to get as many passengers as they can... and.....Penang's minibusses are so much slower that KL's... seriously... memang slow. Kalau rasa nak terberanak dlm bas tu.. dah beranak dah, tak sempat sampai hospital... lembabs!

Alrightey then.. now that i've blogged, i can resume my programming... heheh... I was doing it just now but my fingers itched to type in an entry on what happened yesterday... hehe.. now that i had, i can continue my work... for a while... before azeno comes in, bringing along the matrix::reloaded cd.... hehehehe.....

WAHAHAHAHAA..... came across quite an interesting stuff this morning. The prank on crushes thingy... hehehe... Well... knowing your friend's secret crushes is one thing... and knowing the crushes of the people you have 'sentiments' to is quite another... that's the interesting part. ;)

Here goes.. somehow, azeno figured out how to check other ppl's crushes you see.... and.. guess where we landed? Hehehe... i found out abt Ben's crushes... and hey! its no surprise that my name wasnt there... and hey! guess what? I dont feel anything towards that which can only mean that i'm totally over him. Whose names were on his list?... well, the sender's name, a local artiste and... yep, as i would've guessed it... my 'best friend'. Its so ironic you know, since they keep denying the fact that something is going on between them. To them "its something no one else understands... only both of them does." Hah! Puh-leeze!! Earth calling Mars! Whom are you guys trying to fool here?? Duh!~ Heeehee... thank God i'm so beyond that stupid playing around thingy. If there's one thing that i should regret... i think i regret to have such a strong feeling towards someone who just regarded everything as a game. Well... we all have our flops in relationships right.. as long as we learn from our previous mistakes, we'll be fine. Somehow, some people just never learn..

Looking at things now, i'm so glad to have Dan who loves me the way i am, cares for me and accepts all my best and worst points. I'm glad that I love him and care for him the same way, and i accept him the way he is. Most of all, i'm so glad that i could break free from the stupidity that i once wrapped myself in, believing that Ben actually loves me... when he actually doesnt.

Came back from Nura's this morning and headed straight to this room. There was a power failure this morning which had affected the entire campus.. but its okay now. Thank God. Had buka puasa at rumah persatuan tmn brown last nite. Well.. at least theoritically. we actually had our buka puasa at Vistana... no... too bad its not at the coffee house or anything. We had it at the surau coz we wanted to pray before going for the buka puasa. Only at 1940 did we reach the place and ustaz and a few others were praying maghrib berjemaah at the front lawn. Aiseh.. cane nak masuk nih... and while we were popping our heads from behind the wall, the other guys who werent praying signalled us to use the back door... Oooo.. ada jalan belakang rupanya.....

Excerpts of what ustaz said last night.. well.. just a bit...
"Saya ni bukan paderi tau.. kalau buat dosa, jgn mai kat saya mintak bersih. Hang buat dosa, hang mintak ampun la kat tuhan. tau ka?"
"Duit yang simpan dlm bank kalau tak pernah keluaq kena bayaq zakat tau ka. Fitrah tu utk diri, zakat utk harta. Kalau duit dlm bank selalu keluar masuk, takpa la.. tak payah zakat. Tapi kalau tak pernah keluaq, zakatla sikit. Kalau simpan 2 ribu, zakatla 50 ka... bukan byk pun."
"Gheta saya tu kena 16 ribu. Masuk ayaq bah haritu. ok la tu.. 3 tahun sekali.. kira zakat gheta la.."
"Kalau depa mai kelas cik harun, tau baqa' tu maksud kekal, bahawa tuhan tu kekal, dia tu tak kekal, kira ok la"
... and many more.. which i cant quite remember... Tapi, seronok la jumpa ustaz lepas lama tak jumpa. Sayu pulak bila salam ustaz seblom balik. Rasa air mate dah bgenang. Ustaz tanya, hujan2 ni balik macam mana. terharu sungguh. :)

Today, things seemed to go well until just now... baru je kejap tadik.. Now feel kinda funny... macam tak best. Hmm.. must be PMS.. :p

"..lama tak nampak.."
"..itu je la yg slalu awak ckp.."
"..demam ke?.."
"..demam la.."

Isk.. salah ke tanya? hmm... emosi jek kot... org lapaq mmg emosional kan?? takpela.. len kali jumpe bagik salam je la.. takmo tegur dah. :(

Erkk.. i'm back in p.buntar already?? Oh darn it! Why am i here??? Why cant i still be in KL having great, relaxing days at home with my mom and Athirah??? Why??? Duh... stop asking the obvious missy! You wouldnt be here if you'd completed your postgrad's research already would you?? Duh!!! ;(( Ok... only a few months lefts... that's all it takes... (i hope!)

Holidays had always been great, even if you dont really get to go anywhere or do anything other than lazily planting your bum in the comforting cushions of the settee, switching channels frantically like there's no tomorrow and yawning ever so broadly that it looks like you may somewhat tear your mouth apart.... yep... the bliss of a holiday. Well of course it'd be better to have a holiday some place else than home... somewhere you can totally relax and let everyone else do everthing for you.. to let yourself be pampered... ayee... that'd be nice... but since that doesnt come quite so easily, i'm thankful enough that i'm entitled to get a few days off work... unlike my hunny bun who's leaves had to be cut short (still angry with transmile for ruining things).

Thursday
Had a smashing good time with Dan. Spent the whole day with him. Went to KLCC looking for a pda coz he wants one so much... then he bought me 2 shirts, one blue and one pink; since he said i looked elegant in the blue one and yummy in the pink one.. so he suggested that i took both.. and i did! :D Thanks sayang! Had lunch cum dinner at Chilli's. Ummmm... can still feel that thick, savoury, cheesy gravy on the heavenly tasty mashed potato melting in my mouth.... yummmm.... sedapnya!!!! Sangat sedap! Sedap times infinity lah. (eeps... controlll.. batal puasa kang. :p)

Friday
Spent Deepavali at my aunt's in Pandan coz she was having this kenduri menjelang ramadhan kinda thingy... and later that evening, went to Dan's parents', also somewhere in Pandan. Spent like an hour there chit chatting with his parents.
"Dan kata kat aunty not to buy you shiny materials... he said he didnt like it on you."
":)" (actually kan aunty... i kinda asked Dan to ask you not to buy me shiny materials... tapi camne bleh terpakai shiny garment lak that day..)
"Abg Jib dulu next month dia nak kawin, this month baru ckp. I told Dan not to do that to me."
"Hmm.. yeah lah aunty... too short a time of getting things prepared right?"
"Dan monday ni baru balik from Manila, aunty."
"Oh... Hmm... Noreen kena la belajar about all this things.. Dia kan cukup tak suka if....."
"Yeah.. i know... hehehe..."
"Bila Noreen nak habis belajar?"
"Dunno yet aunty... research depends on me.. kalau i cepat buat, then i'll finish early."

Ahahaahahaa... again... i did it alone~! While Dan was away... isk... ok apa? ;)

Saturday
Spent half the day at home and another half the day shopping with my mom, mak ngah and zura. Went to DMI's (dr mashitah ibrahim) boutique at The Mall... too bad that they didnt offer a huge variety of scarfs... the were moderate numbers of jubah designs la (prices are rm100 and above for jubah and rm35 and above for scarfs--or sth around that la). So... since my mom and mak ngah wanted to find tudung so much, we went to Jln TAR instead... sampai la senja.

Sunday
Went to Jln TAR again with my mom in te morning to get her tudung and my kain for nura's wedding. Later i went to MV with my schoolmates and i got a new shirt (yes! a stripey one!) and a pair of white pants for myself. Wanted to wear the brand new pants on the way back to pb... turned out that its a little transparent.. (how come it looked perfect when i tried it on??) and would be too revealing for the pb community (and also for dan's eyes who'd sent me to the stn that day).. So i guess i might have to hold on to that pair of pants til i get a few sets of thongs to wear it with... ;)

Monday
1st day puasa at home... had a sudden fever.. must be the all-day walk i had the day before.. nevertheless... it was worth it!

Tuesday
Balik pb. :( I wish i could spend more time with my dearest hubby-to-be.

Wednesday
Back in school... spent half the day checking emails and browsing thru some blogs... aye... discovered a blog frm satria's link which belongs to aizuddin whose gf is baizura who was one of my schoolmates back in bb! what a small, small world...! And reading aiz's blog just reminds me of my beloved. Honey dearest.. i miss you so much already!!! Boo-hoo-hoo.... !! i hate this after feelings you know. :p

P/S: smalam kantoi ngan diyana kat duta.. aiyak!!!

Hmm... kenapa kalau kita puasa kita rasa lapar?? hehehe... apa la punya question. :p Iskk... this person by the name of ROSDY kept sending me virus infected emails la. I dont even know who this person is nor how he got my add... but for God's sakes... stop sending me infected mails.. please!

I'm going home... i'm going home... :D Yeayyy!! At last! The time i've always waited for had come. Today i'm going back and tmrw, i'm gonna spend the whole day with Dan. Yippeee!!! Very excited. How i wish that transmile didnt screw up with his leaves. Now he has only like 4 days leave je. Now he's in miri... coming home tonight as well... and tomorow is his final leave day. :p So i only have tomorrow to spend with him. 22nd he'll be off to Manila.. for a few days... Uwaaa!!! Camne la bila dah kawin nanti.... Hmm... i know.. i'll request for a supplementary credit card so that he wont feel so bad having to leave me all the time... heheh.. how abt that?? Hehh... naahh.. takde la... i'm just kidding. (Seriously honey.. i dont need it!and i dont want it.) Hmmm... kawin... kawin... tak habis cerita kawin... End of this year, gotta attend quite a few weddings... Lia, Corn, Nura.. hmmm... everybody is getting married. Me? Bile ek? Dunnola.... sometimes i wish that people will stop asking me that question... but then again.. kekadang tu best jugak bila org tanya camtu. Well.. all i can say is.. let time tell... ok?

It had just come to my knowledge that some people that i have no intention of letting them know about the existance of my blog actually knew about it. Oh boy.... but then again.. that's the risk of having an online journal la kan. You're safe as long as you remain anonymous.. but you're no longer anonymous if your friends knows about it.. and people knows that you own a blogspot even if they dont know your specific url (Huh?). Hmm.. all the person has got to do is to search using some search engine and voila!Oh darn... its not like its such a big deal... but.. entah la... i dunno how to explain it. If its someone you dont know personally who just happens to pop in.. thats different. This is someone i know... had a history of... Now that makes a big, hufe difference. How? its something too intricate to explain.

Hmm.. tak kesahla... all i know now is that i'm going home tonite and i'm gonna see my hunny bunny. The rest of the world can go crazy if they want to. I wont mind. Yeah.. and another thing.. we're gonna have a paaaarrrtttyyyyy tonite at 15 tmn pekaka. heheh... an all gal's party. Yeah babyy...! Yeah! So.. this afternoon, gonna go off after meeting Dr Os to get a cake and prepare for the paarrttyyy... yeayyy!!!

Okay. gotta complete my abstract now. So.. everybody.. behave yourselves. i'll be back next monday.. or tuesday.. heheh... BYeeee!!!

P/S: Happy birthday to AZENOOOOO... happy birthday to youuuuuu!!! *Hugz* Mmmmwwwaahhhh!

Completed the flowchart for my application yesterday... question now is ... what language am i going to use? C++ or Java MIDP? I dunno.. i cant think of anything right now. My brain refuse to function as it's now clouded with guilt and frustration and hurt and god-knows-what....

Why is it that we tend to hurt the very person we love?

Okie dokie.. back in campus after 4 days in KL... A lot had happened in that duration.. believe me.. A LOT had happened.

Thurs, Oct 9th
Attended the 1st day of the Ericsson's Developer Days in Ericsson@Cyberjaya. Left home as early as 0630 to find the place and beat the jam. Turned out that the place wasnt that far off.. so i reached there at abt 0730. Drove around for a while and stopped by at the Cyberjaya Lake Garden, reading (more like pretending to read actually) some of the articles on MPS and Symbian that i'd brought wit me. 0825, i drove off to the place, reached there around 0835, registered and waited for the programme to start while having coffee... alone.. :p
0900 - Welcoming address by Mr Hats Olsson; president & country manager, Ericsson (M).
0910 - Benefits of Parlay/OSA by Mr Marc Leclerc; Service Layer Businees Advocate. Very entertaining.
1010 - Keynote address by Dato' V, Danabalan; Sr. Vice President, Client Services, MDC.
1025 - Coffee break. Yummy... had some kuehs and sandwiches. Got to know some developers... collected some business cards. *winks*
1045 - Charging Overview by Mr. Peter Engblom; Sr. Business Support Manager.. pretty boring coz the tone of his voice was somewhat monotonous.
1115 - MMS Overview by Mr Eugene Ng
1145 - Introduction to LBS by Mr Eugene Ng.. a very brief intro of LBS.. not much technical.
1210 - Lunch Break : Had white rice with mixed veggie and sweet n sour fish. Thanks to the caterers.. sedappp!!! Lupa lak nama caterer tu.. :p
1330 - Ericsson MMS SDK for MM7 by Mr Stefan Hellkvist ... pretty cute.. and young.. Heheh.. is one of the many connections that makes up the entire MMS service.
1430 - MPS Intro by Ms Johanna Kraft ... she brought up that the group Abba had songs that actually had connection with the current mobile technology. One was the "Money, Money, Money.." and the other.. i cant remember... Not that i'm an Abba fan anyway. Her intro was more on the SDK backgrounds and such, not much on the technical part.
1450 - Coffee break. Didnt have anything coz i was still full from lunch. Returned the survey forms and got a goodie bag frm EMW, consisting of a document bag of some sort and an Ericsson's neck tag.
1510 - MPS Usage by Mr. Patrick Bertilsson... very handsome guy.. and i mean VERY handsome... a swedish... ish.. hensem seh.. iskkk... dah la bermain mata.. nasib baik la i'm taken.. kalau tak.. i would have flirted gila2..hehe.. since he wasnt wearing any ring on any of his fingers... Talked more on the technical part of MPS.. so that really caught my attention, other than his captivating looks.. ;)
1630 - Programme ends... but i went to see Patrick and Johanna personally asking them abt the integration between MPS and Symbian and abt the error messages that i'd been getting trying to run the example programme... He was cute even when he was explaining things to me... Hehhe... seriously handsome. Dahla pakai tux and such... aiyoo.. cair. :p Heheh.. but then again.. i'm sure that my dear Dan would look even more appealing if he wears tux too.. Seriously honey.. this is not lip service. *Winks*
1700 - balik, salah jalan... so ended up going thru the LDP instead of the Sg Besi Hiway.
1830 - Sampai umah.. sempat tgk athirah kejap je sbb dia nak blk kg. Lepak2 until malam.
2130 - My cuzs, Zura, Awin n Ifah picked me up before picking up another cuz, Syaril to go for a drink at NZ. Lepak2 til 2300 or so.. then balik n tdoq.

Fri, Oct 10th
0645 - kuar umah to go for the 2nd day of the Dev Day thingy
0800 - reached cyberjaya. Lepak by the roadside sementara tunggu 0830 for registration.
0835 - registered and had coffee while waiting for the programme to start. Had a chat with a developer. Cant quite recall his name.
0900 - Opening by Mr Ezani ( the person who'd let me come at the last minute. ;) Hehhe.. thanks sooo much!!)
0915 - Developing Symbian and Java Apps by Mr. Tong Kai Loong. Not much of a technical stuff.
1000 - Coffee break. Had salami sandwich. Sat with a guy named Allan, a developer and he gave me his views on MPS and Symbian and Java.
1020 - Success Story of Akademi Fantasia by Mr Irmi adn Ms Rozina Aziz. They received like 5 million smses of votes (5 mill is the official number.. the actual number is way beyond that i should think.) Another shocking fact : they received like 1000 sms from a single mobile number in the duration of a week. Talk about being fanatic.
1050 - Java and C++ RAD with Borland by Mr Malcolm Groves... very entertaining by such a bubbly programmer.
1200 - Programme ends, and i hurried down to go home as i'd planned to go out wit my mom tat afternoon.
1210 - Took off from Ericsson, put on my sunnies (the one Dan's mom gave me), drove at 80 kmph or so, adjusted my rear view mirror since i wasnt quite comfotable wit it.
1220 - still in cyberjaya. All of a sudden, the left half of the car was already on the pavement. Kinda panicked and my feet was somewhat planted on the gas pedal instead of the brake. Then it strucked me to actually hit the brake, and i tried to steer the car back onto the road. Somehow the kar skidded and spinned. I didnt know what would happen, kept applying the brakes but the car just wouldnt stop and kept spinning. Suddenly i crashed into the decorative plants planted as part of the landscape in cyberjaya.. the one in the middle pavement between the two-way roads. And the car stopped. The srereo was playing "Shake Your Tailfeather". I took a deep breath, switched off everything, took my phone and got off from the car. I looked for dents/ damages on the car. An old merce stopped by and a chinese pakcik came by and asked if i was allright. Two other cars stopped by and came a malay pakcik and an indian guy. The chinese pakcik was telling them how my car spun and stuffs.. and, partly in a daze, i asked "My car really spin aaa??" Later the indian guy got into my car, the malay pakcik pushed the car and the chinese pakcik stopped the traffic at the other side. So the three of them got the car off the pavement onto the other side.. so i had to make a U-Turn to go back to KL. They said that the car is ok and asked if i'm capable of driving home. I said i'm fine. I thanked them profusely and the chinese pakcik asked me to go to the doctor and the indian guy wished me luck. My knees were shaking as i got into the car.. and i took a deep breath.. and headed home... Now driving at a constant speed of 70kmph... with both hands on the wheel... Boy... my first and worst accident. :p

The things i'd learned from the accident:
1. Slow down.. or better, stop the car while handling/adjusting anything while driving.
2. Dont panic. Slam down the brake NOT the gas.
3. Malaysians arent as selfish as they usually potray themselves as. Malaysians can be very helpful, regardless the different races. That's what i call unity in diversity.

Dahla.. penat type... the rest of the weekend.. nothing much.. balik kg.. looked at the new house.. pretty pissed coz its like the size of an apartment.. :p Then got back here on sunday. had a haircut.. yeah.. the pro haircut and highlighted my hair... How was it..?Heheh.. i'll say that my hair looked awesome! ;) So is alqas' hair... heheh.. we got it good gurl!!

oklaa.. planning my hols with dan now. Chiao!

A delightuful sunny morning to start the day with. Went straight to parit buntar bus station after bfast to get my bus ticket.. lohhh.. banjir sehhh... Boleh tahan teruk gak laa.. well.. not that deep.. vehicles can still go through the roads.. but then.. banjir la... Its not a common sight. I asked the man at the counter how long had it been.. he said.. it'd been flooding like that for like four or five days now.. but today is the worst by far. So... nasihat to everyone who's planning to go there today... better go there some other day.. especially you people with lowered cars, seperti keta ABV yang dah memang lowered secara azalinya dan biasanya diloweredkan lagik dengan jumlah orang yang menaikinya... heheh.. jgn marah...! ;)

Saw something about Malaysia on Discovery's Travel and Adventure last night. So this traveller, a female foreigner, went to some states in the peninsular... KL, Kelantan and Terengganu. When she was in Kelantan, she was accompanied by this Malaysian woman by the name of Aliyah.. Ya Allah.. punye la bijak bistarinya pompuan ni. Boleh.. she described Kelantan as being not very much developed compared to the other countries because it is governed by an islamic party that doesnt encourage development. Like.. HELLOOOOO!! Wait.. wait.. dont give me that look yet.. that's not what i mean.. Yes.. it is a fact that the other party didnt do a very good job in developing the country.. but for goodness sakes.. she shouldnt have said it like that.. the stress on the "islamic party". Now people would think that islam is a religion that doesnt promote its believers to become modernized; when in truth, Islam wants us to work all out to gain benefits form both dunia and akhirat and the religion itself never condemn development. Its just the people who rules the country.. who proclaims themselves as pure muslims.. hmm.. itu terserah pada masing-masing la.. If they think they're so pious and know everything about the religion... ikut aa... I'm just stressing out on the gal's words.. ape aaa punya ngok ngek. Then, when the traveller questioned her abt what the people in kelantan do for a living, she said they are "petani".. farmers... Apelaa... obviously.. she doesnt make a good PR for her own country. Cakapla.. they are one of the most entrepeneur-minded population in the country... they do their own business ranging from agricultural products to jewelleries... Appaaaraaa punya mangkuk. Dont la say things that'll make people think of Malaysia as a 3rd world nation. We're way beyond that already. We are now a developing country for god's sakes... she should be proud of that... Maybe what she said about the country werent all wrong but at least be on the fair side for the sake of the whole nation la... This is an international production. We'd wanna give a good impression kan... at least say something nice la... itu pun tak tau ke.. maybe she was too nervous being in front of the camera and all... Well.. if she was.. then she'd might as well do what i would do.. refuse to be on the show in the first place. Takdela orang ingat malaysia ni kuno sangat.. and takdela aku kena mengutuk dia dalam blog ni... nyusahkan orang jek. :p Hahhaaa...

Okie dokie.. mu bus will be at 1530 today.. so i'd better read up on some symbian and stuffs to get myself prepared for the thingy tomorrow.. I'll be alone.. all by myself on both t he days.. alamaaakkk.. iskk.. tadek member nak makan sesama.. kene kontrol aa cenggini.. isk.. demm... Okiess.. may everybody have a splendid weekend. To alqas and satria: cya guys on sunday... haircut!haircut!.. not just any haircut.. a professional haircut.. dont play play aaa... hehehe.. berlagak sehhh.. :p

~ A L H A M D U L I L L A H ! ! ~

Aaahhh... thank God Almighty... Thank you for making things simpler for me.... :D I ran into an announcement yesterday on EMW news board and there was this thing abt a Developer Day that'll be held in S'ngor on Thursday. i rushed to get to the registration page... and found out out that the registration is already closed (what do i expect?? 3 days to the seminar.. duh!!!) I was quite frustrated... but still, thank God, i have my dean to refer to.. so he called up someone... went thru some 'cable-ing' business.. and today, i've already got an email confirming my seat to the seminar. :) So, i'm gonna pack my bags and get back to kl tomorrow afternoon coz the seminar will be on thursday and friday. It'll be in Cyberjaya... so i'm gonna hafta drive there... but i dont know where that is! Perhaps i'll ask my bro to take me to a Cyberjaya tour right after he fetches me from Duta tmrw... tu pun kalau dia nak la.. If not, i'd hafta rely on the map provided la... Hmm... and you know how bad my sense of direction is... that's why i need a pilot! heheh.. ;)

Last 4 days had been thoroughly wet. It started to rain on Thursday.. and it hadnt stopped ever since! Well... today, it looked more sunny than the last 4 days.. but it still drizzles sometimes... so i dont know when exactly its gonna really stop. Hmm.. alqas: Agaknya that "God" departs from penang kot.. tu yang northern region jek yang ujan lebat... the rest of peninsular ok jek... Next yr request dia depart frm singapore pulak la...

Despite the pouring rain, Nura's wedding preps were still on... Friday, we went to Penang, amek aunty Quraishah and went to the jewellery store to get Nura her wedding prezzies from her mom. Saturday, we went to padang besaq... luckily it wasnt raining there... There were a lot of stuffs there but i wasnt really in a shopping mood.. so everything i saw didnt seem appealing enough.. but i did get a few stuffs though. I bought a brooch each for my mom and Dan's mom.. some wooden handphone stand for Dan (i thought it looked kinda cute at that shop.. now i think its crappy.. should i still give it to him?..Hmm.. bagik je la kan... dah niat nak bagik.. :p ) and nothing for Dan's dad... no idea what to get him.. hope he wouldnt mind.. :p We got back from there at about 1700 but we only reached Sg. Dua at around 2030.. why???? Well... it rained heavily... some areas of the highway was flooded.. and there was a massive traffic... so.. you can figure out what happened right? Anyway... upon reaching Sg. Dua, uncle (Nura's dad) treated us mee udang at this particular stall that had been visited by the "Jalan2 Cari Makan" crew.... Verdict: The mee udang was a far cry from being sedap! :p Indah khabar dari rupa... i think the only specialty was that it was served with large prawns (we were charged like rm27 for 5 prawns)... the taste... well... its not worth the travel... baik makan kat lembab ke.. sungai ke... pejabat tanah ke... Takyah masuk Jln2 Carik Makan pun... :p But then.. the satay was ok la... for 40 sen secucuk.. it was ok... just wished that they gave extra gravy...

Sunday, we were on our own. Nura's parents, bro and sis in law had to rush to melaka... kak Su's dad passed away (May peace be upon his soul -Al fatihah-). So we had roti canai and roti arab for breakfast, then went off to mak ngah piah's house before proceeding to penang to send aunty Quraishah home. After that, went to greenlane's mcD, hoping so much to get some milk shakes....and.... takde!! i wonder what happened to all the shake machines!!! Havent had my favourite strawberry milkshake for ages!!! Dah takde... nak buat cane.. so we ordered burgers for dinner... and drove home... At megamall, singgah jap kat Cup-Bon and bought fruit juice with those chewy pearl thingy... I had sour plum.. hehe.. teringat masa 1st time nak jumpa Dan's parents at the hospital... that was the drink i had before meeting them... when i was in the car, jumping up and down trying to cool myself down.. heheh.. that and the cheese and lemon crepe.

Monday.. balik sini balik... and found out about the Developer Day thingy....

Okie... thats it.. better get off studying things to prepare for the seminar thingy. Dont want to be so clueless abt everything when i get there. So.. take care everyone.. will be back monday. Chiao!!

P/S: ala... tak dapat pegi kelas tmn Brown la kamis ni.. huhuhu... ;(( Takpe... you lose some.. you gain some...

Adei... banyaknya makan. Had a huge lunch at kak Nadras' house today. She had asked Nura for a lift home and invited us in for lunch. We had generous helpings of white rice, beef rendang, fried long beans, chicken and veggie tom yum and anchovies sambal. Gila banyak makan nasik. Nearly double my daily rice intake... really! But that's not all! Me and nura were still craving for something else on the way back to our place, so we stopped by at Kedai Hamdan to get an ice cream each. Umm... yummy. Where had all the diet plans went to? Dont ask. I wish i had an answer to that.

Its not easy to get back into a diet regiment when you've put it on hold for a while. I'd been so drifted away from a sensible diet plan for quite some time now that the idea of not consuming rice (yep.. that staple food of ours) in a day makes me feel kinda dizzy and jumpy and wanting to puke... heheh... nah.. I'm just exaggerating. But still... it's gonna take some time for my tummy to adapt to smaller portioned meals. That doesnt mean that it's impossible though. I should think that my tummy would get used to that idea soon enough. Anyway.. i think i'd had comments from some people motivational enough to kickstart a new, personalized diet plan for myself. I wont be too harsh on myself though. I wont force myself to excercise excessively or put too many restrictions on what i should or shouldnt eat. That wont work. Furthermore, things in excess can be quite dangerous. I'll be a moderate dieter.... might not achieve significant results in a short time... but at least i'll keep my health in check and i wont get trapped in the yoyo diet syndrome and pile on twice my actual weight when i stop dieting. Yikes!

Dan and i had a really long chat on the phone last night. He was at his parents and he passed the call to his mom for a while so that i can speak to her. The first thing she said after i said hello was, "Seronoknya suara you dapat cakap dengan Dan". and i replied quite so nonchalantly' "mestila aunty, dah lama tak cakap dengan dia." hehhe.. Selambe seh... dunno where that came from. Must be overly excited getting to hear his voice after such a long time!!

Charmaine called alqas just now... Our licenses are ready for collection. Yeay!! This means that we are now Licensed Open Water Diver. *winks* :D Next dive site: Phuket. When? God knows... soon i hope... soon after raya.

Okie dokie.. still got to figure out why the tomcat server conveys a HTTP 500 error message. Better get on wit dat. :p

Life - full of ups and downs. Without challenge, life would be too bland to be appreciated. Just got back from the dean's office. He had to delay our appointment to later this afternoon coz something came up and he had to attend to that. I desperately need to resolve some issues regarding my project with him. My project is a good one... but its quite difficult to get on with it when there's no one that's well versed in this field that i can refer to. Well.. there are.. but i can only get to them online.... and they are professionals whom i can only get in touch through my questions in mobile application forums, such of sun's java or sony ericsson's or nokia's. So now, i wanna try to get him to narrow down my scope a little... and after that, i'm getting a 2nd supervisor who is not as busy as the dean. I dont want to have to scrape off this project entirely because this is something new and there is a large market for mobile applications. But then again, i dont think that i'm the "lab-rat" material... you know.. the one who gets to be the 1st to try out something new.... the pioneer.... i dont think i'm capable of being that... and yet.. i'd wanna do it. *Sulk* I dunno... for the time being, i just wanna work on something that i can have someone well-versed to refer to, and something that i can complete in a few month's time. I'm getting sick of being here for too long. :p

Dan called me last night. He's back in KL but he arrived later than scheduled coz there were some problems and the flight had to be delayed. It was around 0130 when he called and i was already asleep, but i struggled to keep myself awake coz i'd been waiting to hear from him for quite some time. I miss him so much! The last time i saw him was on Sept 19th.. oh.. it'd only been two weeks? Geez... it sure seemed like ages!...

Anyway, he was telling me about his worries.... his ATPL test, his 2-weeks leave.... in short, he was stressed out. He told me that he had to be in Shenzen for another fortnight before he can get his 2-weeks leave. That means he'll only be back on the 25th or so... when according to what was planned, his leave was to start around the 13th or so and we're supposed to have a week-off together starting the 17th onwards. So, when he told me that he's only coming back on the 25th, i was really crushed... frustrated... annoyed... everything. Well, its not his fault that he'll have to fly... its the company la... Stupid transmile. I mean.. when you've already granted leave to a person on a certain date... means that you have to let that person have his leave on that very date. They're not supposed to push back his leave just because they cant find other people to fly. Its not that he'd just applied for the f***ing leave yesterday.. he did so like last month... early last month.. and they've granted that. They should have scheduled for other pilots to take up his place already right?? But no.... they want him to fly coz there's no one else to fly... Bloody idiots! I'm not being selfish here. Its just that.. the company had screwed up with his leaves one too many times. It doesnt just affects me.... but it affects his plans with his family as well. But what can i do about it? I cant even tell him that i'm really sad that we couldnt spend the week together.... I dont want to add on to his worries. Well... thanks to the motherf***ing bastards, i might only see him during raya... IF we're lucky enough.

Last week, i had a so-called friend making a very judgemental remark on another dear friend of mine whom that so-called friend barely knew. For God's sakes.... who does she think she is? If she's so perfect... she'd be God!.. but hell.. she's not God.. she has flaws... and with all that flaws... what makes her think that she qualifies to pass such judgemental comments - to someone she barely knew! Just because she's in a whole different league than i am now doesnt make her any better. We are all human. We can never be perfect creatures. What's good for one person doesnt mean that it'll be good for the rest of the population. I feel that friends should be sensitive to their friend's feelings before passing any comments, especially when commenting on someone so dear to that person. If she has nothing nice to say... then.. dont say anything. Its not wrong to give out advice... but advice is totally different from being judgemental.... and advice is only to be given when it is asked! Right now, i seriously dont feel eager to know about that so-called friend's life anymore. If before this i'd been really keen to know about her whole new life.. well... thats just not the case anymore. If she thinks that she has such a perfect life right now.. surely my closing out from her world wont even scratch a mark. Good! Then we're both happy. Why cant i just be forgiving? Well... forgiveness, like advice; is granted when it is asked (to me.. thats what i think. Everyone else can think of it differently, we all have the right to). I'm not someone holy... i'm just plain jane.. i take time to forgive.... and much, much longer to forget.

There... i'm pretty relieved now.

How time just flies... whether you're having fun.. or not. Its already Friday... like Wow.. three days had passed just like that. I'm still trying to figure out how to get this mps 6.0 running, still trying to figure out why error messages still exists in my cmd window even when i'd already pointed my environment variables to their correspoding values, still trying to download java 1.4 (long aint it?? i knowwww!!!!...), still trying to convince myself that everything will work as planned... and still finding answers to my very own questions... on life, on people, on faith...

Tuesday, i was a fascillitator for an SPM workshop carried out by SM Sultan Ahmad Tajuddin, Bandar Baharu, Kedah with association of the Sch. of EE Club. THe workshop was held at DK 6 here, started at around 0830 til 1830+. I was given the opportunity to fascillitate a group of 5th Formers of SMSAT consisiting of 8 girls and 2 boys, all of which from humanity classes. Let see if i recall all of them: Akmar, Aisyah, Yun, Shikin, Ayu, Atie, Wan, Ridhuan, Yanie and Ira. Yup... got all their names... and hopefully i can still remember their faces. :) Susah org byk makan semut nih. :p Anyway, at the end of the programme, i gave them my email and contact number so that they can call or email me if they need any help... and well.. all i can say is that i'm overwhelmed by their response. I got some calls, sms and emails asking how i was, if i remembered them.. and one said that what i had said that day had left a mark.... Whoaaa... feel rather guilty towards myself though.. hehe.. Why? Cakap macam bagus2 je.... the truth.. only God knows. Oh yeah... and i'd been getting prank SMSes too. Wonder whom it can be... must be one of the kids..tapi tak nak mengaku. :p

Last night, it was Kelas Agama at Tmn Brown and we proceeded discussing about tauhid and fekah. Last night, abg harun (the one who conducted the class - he doesnt want anyone to refer him as a guru) revealed that he'd studied in the U.S once. He didnt say it in a boasting way or anything... he merely mentioned it when he was telling us a story... and we became like... WOW! Why? Because.... not everyone who got an eduation abroad cares to study up all these kitab2 (some might not even know that these kitab2 exists!) and has the ability to conduct an agama class based on the kitab2. Memang salute gila2... dah la down to earth... bagusnya....

Oklaa... i'm going off to Nura's this afternoon. Oh.. btw, i was awoken (does this word even exist?) by Dan's mom this morning (but of course i didnt tell her that i'd just woke up! Duh!~). She said that she's going off to Padang with some of her relatives this afternoon and she asked whether i prefer kain for baju kurung or kebaya. :) Rasa macam.. hmm... terharunya... she thinks of getting something for me wherever she goes!! Alhamdulillah... thank God for blessing me with a great mom-in-law to be!!! :D

Have a great weekend!

- I Dont Wanna Cry, M.Carey -

Hmm... its monday again. Two weeks of trying to download the dreaded Java 1.4 SDK. For God's sakes... why is it so difficult?? I'd installed the JRE and its supposed to work fine but somehow, i got error messages when i tried to run the startup.bat file in the cmd window. Boy.. that sounded like sth i'd write to a java forum.. Sheeshhh. :p

Ok.. as everyone would've guessed (I think).. i did go to Penang to meet up with Dan. And thank God, everything seemed to be fine.. though i kinda felt a little awkward at the beginning.. but things went quite well. Just wished that we could stay there longer. Oh yeah.. did i mention that there was a really heavy downpour in penang that day that i had to get an umbrella?.. Hmm.. the lengths that people go for love.. hahhaa.. *winks*

-How deep Is Your Love, Bee Gees-

After the date with Dan, i went back to Nura's... One of her mom's friend was also there, helping out preparing for the hantaran stuffs. It is confirmed that Nura's wedding will be brought forward to an earlier date, January... and everyone, myself included are very well caught up in the excitement of the preparation of Nura's big day. Plus... we (nura n I) are putting ourselves on diet. Why ? Well.. Nura - because she wants to look her best on her wedding day.. of course! Who wouldnt? Me - accompanying Nura and well.. to shed as much pounds as i can before Raya. :)

-Crazy In Love, Beyonce feat. Jay Z-

So, last weekend, i accompanied Nura and her parents to get stuffs for the wedding... soaps (to be shredded as buah tgn), sweets, containers, ribbons.. bla.. bla.... you know.. all those nice trimmings people use for hantaran and stuffs. Sunday, we went to S.Petani to meet up with one of her cuzs who works in a Bridal House to see wedding apparels and stuffs... alahai.. best nya! Hmm.. cant wait for my turn to come. :) heheh...

-The Wreckoning, Boomkats-

Saw sth on NGEO this morning after sahur. Hmm.. Foot Binding by the chinese women. It is done on girls as young as 5 years of age and is done by binding the feet with a long piece of cloth (sth like a bandage). Foot binding causes the bones in the feet to get crushed and the structure of the feet becomes somewhat distorted, thus making the toe pointed. It is said that foot binding doesnt only beautify a women.. it also intensifies the sex provided by that women.. as it is said that foot binding causes the vagina to get tighter. Huh?? yeah right! Since when did someone's vagina gets linked to the size of her feet??!! Puh-leeze! Walking to the foot-binded becomes impossible.. unless the feet is wrapped in some binding cloths and covered by a few layers of socks before putting on the dainty, pointed toed, embroidered shoe. Sometimes its just so absurd how some people define beauty. But to me, if beauty means having to endure such extreme pain and discomfort... well... i should think that i'd rather be ugly.

-On Bended Knees, Boyz II Men-

Arghhh.. better get on with my java. Gosh.. this project is so much like a growing, malignant tumour. It haunts you everywhere you go, whatever you do... And it doesnt stop until YOU put a STOP to it. Either you finish it and get it over and done with... or you die with it. :p Should i change my research topic???

Hmmm... not a very good day for me today. Not as cheerful as my usual self. I dunno. Probably i'm in one of those days of feeling uncertain, sad, insecure, crappy... everything jumbled up all at once. Arghhh.. hate it when i get like this.

Talked to Dan as usual last night. I dunno why but i was kinda stung by his joke yesterday. Probably i was being a little too sensitive.. i dunno.. but it made me feel insecure and a little self conscious about myself... I feel terrible. He didnt say anything mean but somehow his words kinda hurt. He apologized profusely, saying that he loves me just the way i am but i cant help thinking.. does he really? Maybe its just me.. but i just cant help feeling that way. Crappy...

If last sunday I'd been so eager to go to Penang to meet him this coming Friday, now i dont feel as eager. I dunno.. see la what happens. If i think by meeting him i'll only make matters worse for the both of us.. i'd rather not go. Better that than regretting the whole meeting upon returning right?

Still trying to get rid of this uneasiness.....

What Is A Boy..?

Between the innocence of childhood and the dignity of manhood
we find a delightful creature called a boy.
Boys come in assorted sizes, weights and colors, but all boys are the same.
Boys are found everywhere ...
on top of, underneath, inside of, climbing on, swinging from, running around or jumping to.

Mothers love them, little girls hate them, older brothers and sisters tolerate them, adults ignore them and Heaven protects them.

A boy is Truth with dirt on its face, Beauty with a cut on its finger, Wisdom with bubble gum in its hair and the hope of the future with a frog in its pocket.

When you want him to make a good impression, his brain turns to jelly, or else he becomes a savage, sadistic jungle creature bent on destroying the world.

A boy is a composite ... he has the appetite of a horse, the digestion of a sword swallower, the energy of an atom bomb, the curiosity of a cat, the lungs of a dictator, the shyness of a violet and when he makes something, he has five thumbs on each hand.

A boy is a magical creature ... you can lock him out of your workshop, but you can't lock him out of your heart. Might as well give up ... he is your captor, your jailer, your boss and your master ... a freckled face, pint size, cat chasing bundle of noise.

But when you come home at night with only the shattered pieces of your hopes and dreams, he can mend them like new with the two magic words, "HI, DAD!"
...Author Unknown

*Aiza.. ring a bell???*

I was kinda bored and browsed thru the net. Just out of the blue, i searched for the poem What Is A Boy. :) This poem was recited by my English Class (2S of 1994) and won the 1994 Inter-class Choral Speaking competition, but i cant really remember the category.. its either junior or intermediate. Hmm.. the good old days. I just love it when it comes to choral speaking. It means english classes are turned into choral speaking practices! Real fun. That year, we had Sujatha as our instructor and she taught us on the V.E.P of choral speaking - Voice, Expression and Pronunciation. The three major elements that makes a choral speaking worth hearing or not. This poem still brings the sweet memories of endless days of practising, saying things loud and clear, pronouncing each and everyword... God.... its so nice to be a school kid! Every stage of the competition was thrilling to us... especially when we got into finals and actually won! We had to fight against a more senior class and we didnt really expect to win.. and yet, we did!! It was sooooo FUNtastic! The best part of choral speaking was when our school became the host for the Inter School Choral Speaking competition and students from all around town will come by to our school and we'll have a blast of a good time gazing longingly at any good looking guys form the other schools. Usually the main attractions would be the boys form V.I, RMC and St. John's Inst. Hehehe.. well.. that is what usually happens in an all-gals school. Whaddya expect???

Hmmm... sometimes its kinda sad you know. Most people still have their school building firmly attached to the ground, whereby the can look at it or visit the school, reminiscing the good old times and reliving the spirit and memories. As for myself... My school had been torn down to make way for development... All i have is those few piccies i had from my schoolyears and the spirit of a BBGSian still burning deep inside me. ".. add a 100 more, my heart will still belong, Within these cherished walls..."

Aaaaahhhh.. finally... the relieve of completing a given task. :D Completed marking the papers for Dr Rizal... after like a week or two of contemplating on how to actually do it... plus a serie of procrastinating. Hmmm... wonder how lecturerers get by marking exam papers.. Waw.. hebat..hebat..

Nothing much to blog these days. Last Sunday, went to the main campus to help out with Test Umum. Got a few places going a little black and blue... kena belasah.. adeii... hmm... nasibla.. kena jadi tester. Later that night, another round of "belasah" here in campus... adei... Adding to that, went to aerobics session with Ooi yesterday... Oh god... my muscles aches!! Especially the derriere muscles... Its alright though. If pain is the price to pay to get a yummy bootilicious bod... well... i think i can endure a certain extent of pain. Gotta work out, work out and work out (plus eat less, eat less, eat less! heheh.)

Looking forward to Friday coz Dan will be in penang on Friday. He was supposed to be there in Saturday initially, but then today, a change of plan. Hmmm.. what to do. Hafta bear with that la. Can never plan something coz we just dont know what will come up. :p Dan's supposed to have his blood drawn today, some follow up regarding his last few months' suspected SARS thingy. Poor baby. His mom is also in hospital now. She experienced bouts of stomach ache and the pain became unbearable yesterday that she went to the hospital and got admitted. The doctor also reported her having high blood pressure. Hmm.. Kesian aunty. She must be really stressed out and upset by Abg Jib's move to Miri. She misses Almas too much. Hmmm... Too bad i cant give her another grandchild anytime soon. hehhe :p.

Okla... better continue on project. Bought the installer cd for java. Hopefully the installation will work this time. Btw... if anyone knows anything at all about pilates, please leave a note. I'd like to know more about the workout. Chiao!