Havent been posting for a while. Mourning, caught up with work, stressed out and depleted of good moods. Hell.. i need chocolates, ice cream, sugar n spice n everything nice!!!

Wasnt in the best of moods/health lately. My throat is constantly sore, some points underneath my jawline aches, on-off fever and headaches, endless phlegm and runny nose... everything contributed to my low moods. PMT kot. Huhu..entahla.. just have to bear with it laa.. G jumpe Dr.. he said the aches underneath my jawline is a sign of an infection on my lymph nodes. Whateverla doc.. Asal boleh baik, cukup.

There're so many things scheduled throughout this week and next.. well..perhaps the whole mth.
2 Dec - Jamuan Raya PSSCMUSM KKj
4/5 Dec - help aunty with jenaton gath in taiping
- Nasa, Jimmy's wedding
10 Dec - Dr's appointment
25 Dec - Zura's engagement
31 Dec - Aunty's bday dinner (kot?)
1 Dec - Surina's wedding (nak kawen dah minah tuh.)

To add to all of that, i'd have to help with micro-p + electrical tech subjects.. AGAIN!!! Huwarrgggghhh... menyampahnyaaa!!! :( tp nasib baik gak.. kena sama ngan azeno... so ade la member nak bgelak ketawa dlm lab. Lantokla nak kena marah ke sound ke ngan en N n S.

Life can be so stressful sometimes. Dahla fennie dah close aerobics center temporarily. Takde dah tmpt best utk aerobics. No where to channel out my stress. Benganggg + bengonggg...

Lantok..tinggal sume... esok nk tgk incredibles, alexander, the forgotten... apa2la yg boley ditgk... Harap2 bulehla... kalau sedare tu tak penat from flight... and dia dah ok sket. Haritu b4 leaving for india mood dia pun tak ok sangat. Harap2nya everything goes well for him la.. sbb mood dia sgt2 la mempengaruhi mood orang di sini. Huhu...

Cukup... sambung kerja!kerja..kerja!!

This was supposed to be the day before yesterday's posting... Tapi tersilap address... so, i resend the posting.

 

24/11/2004

Mmm.. blogger makin susah nak dibukak.. so, posting dr sini aje la.
Lmbt sket..but at least posted jugak.
 
Hmm... dah lupe lak apa nak di postkan. Td cam byk mende je, pastu gih kuar jap beli kain n g lunch...dah hilang lak apa nak dipost... jap..pk jap...
 
Yesterday, we went to see nura in the hospital. She was still warded
after giving birth to a lovely baby girl. Sadly, the baby was premature,
and she didnt make it alive. I'm very sorry for your loss, both nura
and amir. She was supposed to be discharged yesterday, but she was asked
to stay longer when they found out that she has a very low platelets
count. Tension dah minah tu duduk kat hospital. Kesian, mlm2 kena duduk sorang. Mesti asyik teringat kat baby dia. The saddest part was when she told me that the baby had all the features we imagined she would have.... nura's fair complexion, amir's eyes and nose, nura's mouth. I'm sure she's a beauty.... but Allah loves her more. I pray to god that nura and amir will remain patient and strong through these difficult times.

Nura, i'm always here to support you. May Allah bless the soul of nura's
child, Siti Aishah bt Ahmad Hafizullah Amir. -Al Fatihah-

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This year is the worst raya ever!!!! Its so drabbbbb... nothing happened. Its like daym boring.. Huhuhu... bosan sungguh.

Days Before Raya
I got back to KL on wed afternoon, spent the whole day with my mom. sadly, athirah wasnt around.She was out shopping in sogo with her parents. My granma onmy dad's side inivited us for break fast that day. It was totally last minute. She came with my paksu to fetch us from home at around 1845... My mom and i were already starting prepare for buka puasa... uwan kata, tinggal je, just follow them. So.. we did la. Tak ikut cam kesian pulak kan. Tp cam berat nak g pun ada since dah beli mende semua for buka puasa... siap beli nasik kerabu lagik.. Takkan nak bawak nasik sebungkus tu gih berbuka ramai2 kan. sah2 tak cukup. So..simpan ler balik. Huhu.. but in the end, i did eat the nasik kerabu..dah beli kan, tak makan kang sayang, kalau tunggu sahur, sah2 basi..so.. makanla jugak. dah prepare dah, mmg tak mkn byk masa kat umah uwan.. prepare perut.heheheh...

The next day... jeng..jeng..jeng.. Tolong mak dan buat raya cookies!!! Takla banyak pun cookies nya, 2 macam je. Went there after going to the cemetery in the morning. drove to their place and went with them to the clinic for our appoinment. For the 1st time in so many months, kl traffic was s-m-o-o-t-h!! It was like so wowwww!!!!

After the appointment, we went to ampang supermarket to get some stuffs and heas back home to start making the cookies.

1st batch of cookies - peanut butter cookies. Senang je bahannya. Flour, peanut butter, corn oil, sugar. Crammed gak jari since tak biasa gaul biskut kan.. hehe.. Anyways.. it took us nearly 2 hrs gak nak siapkan bake all the adunan. After that it was the chocolate cookies for almas.. I had to go home before completingthe baking process sbb dah nak buka puasa... So, i had to go home. Kesian mama buka puasa sensorg kat umah kan...

Tp mmg bestlah buat kuih.. and when dan called me last night, he said t hat his mom told everyone that i baked the cookies.. Hehehe..ala2 kembang gituh.. Sebenarnya tolong aje.. isk..

Raya
Sangat bosannnn!!!! All i did was like sleep, watch tv, eat nasik impit, rendang, lemang (and all the the standard dishes that i'd mentioned in the previous posting).. watch tv, watch other ppl siap2 to go places, went raya to 2 houses in salak.. read "Why men dont listen and women cant read maps" .. sleep some more. Basically, i did NOTHING! My cuzs yg same gae pun takde.. semua blk kg lain. HUhuhuuu...tadek member...so..layan la sepupu kecik..toddler2 nih. Best gak.

Tomorrow, i'm going back to KL... finally!! So, tmrw nite bleh a gih beraya umah aunty. Gonna give the dress and a spiderman doll to almas.

gtg... prepaid internet paksu ni kang habis lak. So.. hope everyone's having a wayyy "Funner" raya than i am. Chiao!

Hmmm... 2 hours wait for blog-page to download. Tragic waste of time. :(

Ramadhan Buffet@Cititel Hotel
The initial plan was to have our buffet buka puasa at the Grand Continental. Aznor was driving. Scene: not-so-heavy traffic into the city, KOMTAR in the vicinity.

Me: Boleh aa kat situ..nanti bley jenjln kat prangin sementara nak tunggu. WALKING DISTANCE je."
Nura: Betui aa? Walking distance aa.. aku rasa jauh jugak nak jalan.
Me:Eh.. aku rasa kalau nak g prangin mesti lalu nye depan hotel tu. Haa..tu..nampak bgnn tinggi tu.
Everyone looked towards where i pointed.
Me:Uikss..pesal cam buruk ek? Slalu nampak cam lawa.

Aznor made a round towards prangin mall.
Me: Uuuu... seblah prangin nih Shangri-La ghupenye.... tipu tertipah la kire nih..
Others: Hang ni sungguh la loqlaq! :p

Theeheehee... soweeee... *maluk* Tersalah hotel maaa....

Verdict: NEVER rely on EEN for directions or locations. Me suck! I'd never find my way even if provided with a map and compass. Now y'all see why i need a pilot??? hehehe...

Anyways... after all the "cover-malu" parts, we decided to give other hotels a call.
Call 1: Shangri-La Hotel
Price: RM45

Call 2: City Bayview
Price: RM37.50nett

Call 3: Cititel
Price: RM25 nett.

Obviously we picked Cititel. :)

We were there rather early.. so we had to lepak to kill off the time. Lots of gossipping involved (hisshh..kurus lagi pahale puasa..itu pun kalau masih ada pahala nya la). 1830, cikD n i went to the coffee house to get our tables. Azeno n Nura decided to maghrib first (pastu dok teringat2 amende yg terhidang..hahaha). After sitting down, enjoying the view for a while, (sebenarnya cam segan nak start amek sbb sume orang lepak je) we headed to the buffet table. Too many people at the main dish area.. so we headed to the dessert table. Yummy... strawberry, orange and honeydew jelly, pastries, cakes, assorted malay kuihs... We took all of em... hhehe. Then i headed to the bubur section..been wanting moy for some time while diyana headed for the pasemboq. We hurriedly placed our max-filled bowl on our table. Headed back to the main-course table (rasa cam amazing race pun ada...hehe. Bukan tak biasa mkn camni..saje.. fun). We took everything except the rice and bee-hoon..eleh..mende2 nih kat pbtr pun melambak. Then off we went to the BBQ corner. Had to wait a while for the lamb and beef to be BBQed. We got one piece each..cukupla, ingat2 kat orang belakang kan. Satisfied, we return to the table, eyes gleaming at the tantalizing foods spread before us. Then the gong went. Baca doa and its makan time!! Tummy was already half full just by eating the moy and desserts... Cane nak makan lagik nih?? Too busy indulging the food to even look around... but when i finally did look around... i was kinda irritated to find that other non-fasting races there as well. Its not like they fast to go for break-fast buffets anyway. Tapi, tak kesah sangatla.

Minutes later, Nura n Azeno came. They got their food and when they sat, i glanced at the people at the table just beside us: non-fasting diners. I looked at their plates... maakkk aii.. mengalahkan orang puasa. Their plate was like filled with food maximum.... even more than what we had on our plate. Udang menimbun2..and as a result, we, the fasting ones don't get enough of the prawns. Bangang betul. So inconsiderate. dah la satu hari melantak..malam pun melantak tak ingat dunia. Harap2 mati cepat sbb kolestrol tinggi. Padan muka.

We continued to enjoy our food and when its already 1945, i went to pray with cikD. Funny.. i expected other people to be at the surau. Apa, sume pompuan yg tgh mkn tu cuti ke? I'm not saying that i'm the good, pious one.. but it amazed me. Puasa rukun islam ke-3 buat, solat rukun yang ke-2 tak buat? Ironic isn't it?

Anyways.. after prayers, we went back to the table. Approaching the table... the muka-tembok people at the other table were still stuffing their face with the main dishes. Memangla, we's want to get the most of our hard-earned money.. but this is just downright pathetic. Datang dari kaki bukit mana ntah. Maybe they've never in their lives dined in a hotel before kot. Jakunses nak mampos2. Nafsu makan mengalahkan orang tak makan seploh hari. So, all of us made a comment la.. we bet that they'll be the last to leave... I think we could be right... coz they're still stuffing their ugly faces when we left. Ugly pigs!!

Heh.. excuse the language. Marah nih. Its like.. c'mon la. We dont care if you wanna go for buffet ramadhan whatever even if you dont fast kan... but be considerate to those who're actually fasting la. Mangkuk hayun pun tak hayun macam diorg. I admit, there're considerate non-fasting ppl there... But those group of idiotic whack just makes me sick.

Puas hati... marah terluah. :p

Raya Greetings

Sempena Syawal yang mulia, Een ucapkan selamat menyambut hari raya, semoga diberkati dan diredhai Allah selalu. Mohon ampun dan maaf atas segala kesilapan dan kesalahan.. kalau terkasar bahasa terkecik hati, dari sekecik2 perkara sampaila ke segabak2 perkara kalau Een terbuat silap, harap dimaafkan... Sbb aku hanya manusia... tak berupaya nak puaskan hati semua orang.

Kepada sume kengkawan yag rapat dan sentiasa pinjam-meminjam, makan bersama, minum se-mug, harap halalkan makan minum..Kalau ada duit terpinjam ke, terguna dulu ke, yang belum dibayar lagik, bolehla claim kalau mau... kalau nak halalkan pun, alhamdulillah. :D

Semoga ibadah kita diterima, dan semoga Syawal membuka lembaran baru untuk semua.
Salam Aidilfitri.

PS: Sorry la ek.. takde kad raya la. Tak baik bazir kertas. Byk pokok kena tebang. E-greetings pun tak elok gak.. Sakit mata tgk pc lelame. Aku takmo korang2 rosak mata. (hehehe..bernaskah alasan2 ku?)

Sebelum kelmarin
Jumaat petang, bergegas balik umah dalam kol 4.30 nak bersiap2 ke kulim... berbuka puasa ngan encik ali n nurul. Lama gak kitorg tak jumpa en. ali nih. Bape bulan ntah. Either dia bz.. atau kitorg yg bz. Hehe..anyways, dia bwk la kitorg g mkn all the way to Lunas. Tmpt tu dekat, tp oleh sbb tak mkn lagi dan perut dah main lagu rap, rasa tak sampai2 la pulak. Isk... Bila sampai, nasib baik gak order sampai cepat. Takdela rasa nak menyumpah2 kat situ kan. Heheh...

Lepak2 sampai kol 9... en. ali nih pun join lepak jugak.. hehe.. padahal patut kena masuk keje kol 8.30. Tak ingat dunia betul... tapi, akhirnya masing2 dapatla jugak menggerakkan diri untuk beredar dari tempat makan tu (tak ingat nama dia). Lepas en. ali pergi keje, kitorang menuju lak ke pelita juru... sesi chatting 2nd round.. all-girls' talk sesambil mengadap almond cheesecake, raspberry cheesecake, banana chocolate cake ngan brownie. Belasah laaa... diet pun berat tak turun. Baik takyah diet..wahahahaaa... lepak punya lepak, borak punya borak, sampai ada yg dah seram sejuk, ada yang jantung nak terkeluar.. hehe.. balik dlm kol 12.15.. Konon nak balik awal... sangatla awalnya.. awal pagi. Hehehe.. sampai umah kol 1... nasib baik tak terlajak sahur.

Pepun, memang best bila dapat duduk2, lepak2 dan borak2 dengan kawan2. Manusia ni, walau macam mana independant pun, tetap perlukan kawan2...untuk berkongsi cerita, berkongsi rasa, berkongsi pengalaman. Kawan2 mewarnakan hidup kita... tanpa kawan, hidup ni umpama kanvas kosong... tak menarik langsung untuk diharungi.. dengan hadirnya kawan2, kanvas tu menjadi berseri, diwarnai dengan pelbagai warna2 indah... oleh itu, hidup kita jadi exciting dan ceria, takdela mandom aje. Sebab tu la penting kita value friendship. Tanpa kawan2, hidup kita tak bermakna. To all my dearest friends, i'm glad that we are friends, and i'll treasure our friendship always. :)

Kelmarin
Kelmarin hari Sabtu... duduk rumah, tak pergi mana. Study jugakla sesiket ttg Java, nak memahami lagi codes yang ditulis dgn lebih mendalam. hehe.. dapatla nota 2-3 muka surat. Ntah apa yg dicoreng kat dalam buku nota tu pun ntahla.

By petang, lepas masak2 utk buka, rasa cam boring duk terperuk kat rumah sehari suntuk. Hisyy.. camnela agaknya orang lain yang boleh lepak kat umah berhari2 tak keluar2... diorang tak tension ke? Rasa cam terkurung je kalau tak keluar2. Otak pun tak berkembang. :p

Anyways... buka puasa dgn keadaan yg tak begitu ada mood dgn kak lina dan kak yang. Bila takde mood tu, mulala, tekak pun loya je. Mende yang dah masuk rasa nak terkeluar balik.. isy..pelik betul skang nih..hehe. Pastu rasa cam nak mkn ice cream. Ajak azeno, diorg nak kuar mkn plak.. Hmm.. lain kali je la mkn ais krim.. huhu...

Semalam
Smalam siang, projek baut kek batik ngan azeno. Azeno datang umah, projek kek batik dijalankan di rumah kak lina sbb dia baru kemas2 dapur. Dia kata, kalau tak masak, siap hangpa.. Hehe.. Jadik, lepas lepak2 tgk Ed, mula la masak kek tu... Baunya masa masak...perhhhhhh.... memang cam sedap giler la.. Hehhe...
Kejap je masak dia... setengah jam je. Pastu kak Harsa lak datang nak tunjuk akak cane operate mende2 aquarium. Segan lak ngan dia.. sbb tgh menyeksi..hehe..biasala..dok umah kan.. Oleh sbb masak kek batik dlm keadaan camtu, kitorag bg nama kek tu kek batik seksi. ;)

Pas masak, lepak2 dlm blk sambil azno meledor atas tilam n aku jahit baju raya (hehe..macam best je bunyi..tapi takla sehebat tu sebenarmye..gimik je) Borak lagi..hehe..pantang jumpe... ada je ceritanya. prong prang prong prang, dah kol 2.30, smayang, pastu g umah Kak Teh... belajar jaga diri.. kuang3... Perhh.. adela rasa cam org lepas bersalin. :) Bestnya kak teh ni, dia tak lokek, sume yg dia tau dia share. Cayaang kat kak teh. :D

Petang, lepak umah azeno nunggu berbuka.. Sblm tu gih teman azeno pulangkan penyapu sawang abg shapie. Pastu dia bagik plak tangga ngan mi kuah. Perhh.. pulang satu brg, dpt 2 brg..lain kali boleh buat lagi. Lepas maghrib, siap2 pulak untuk jumpa kak salmi kat sg bakap untuk sesi makan besaq. waaa..

Bila sampai tu, akak dah tunggu... hidangannya pulak sepanjang2 meja bersusun. Ada ayam paprik, sayur campur, tom yam campur, ikan besar sweet sour, telur bungkus. memang sangat Perrhhhhh la.. Pas mkn nasik, akak order lak kerang rebus. Tak muat dah perut.. terpaksa bungkus bawak balik. Sengkak perut tak terkira. Tima kasih bebyk akak, murah rezeki orang yang jamu anak2 yatim berbuka nih (chewah!.. kira cam anak yatim jugakla.. sbb family jauh.. hidup kat sini sendiri kan..? err..boleh ke camtuh?)
Pepun, akak mmg best... kalau akak selalu bwk kitorg kuar makan, ada harapan pasni kena resize baju ke satu atau dua size lagi besar. heheh... Lagik skali.. Tima kasih akak!!

Balik, lepak kat umah aku kejap... dlm sengkak2 tu, teringin jugak nak rasa kek batik siang tadi... Rasa dia..... Perhhhhh.. sedap giler... hehe... bukan puji diri snirik.. tapi puji resepi tu.. diambil dari mesra.net kalau tak silap. Mmg bestla.. Lain kali kalau nak buat mmg pakai resepi tuh la. Mesra!~ (ckp ikut gaya bob... uwek!)

Hari Ini
Harini tepon mama, confirm balik hari Rabu.. dgn diyana, konvoi dgn azeno. Athirah angkat... dia kata dia demam.

Aku: Adik buat apa tu?
Adik: Adik demam ni.. adik makan ubat. (gaya dia ckp macam orang besar!)
Aku:Ooo.. adik demam ke. Ni along yeen la dek.
Adik: Ya Allah!! Along "jin"!!!
Tergezut aku..pastu dgr mama gelak.. kelakar la budak kenit tu. Hahha.. macam terkejut giler. Kiut sungguh.

Pastu tadik dah buat reservation ngan Hotel Grand Continental Penang utk buka puasa ptg ni.. Nyam!Nyam!... get ready perut.. sessi menyengkakkan perut akan berlaku lagi!

Balik nanti, ada appt. ngan dr ruben hari jumaat. Pastu ingat nak singgah sogo, last minute shopping. Ingat nak carik court shoes la instead of strappy sandal. Saja nak surprise Dan. Dia cukup suka kalau aku pakai court shoes. tgkla.. kalau ada yg cantik n murah.. n berkenan di hati. Kalau ada duit lebih, teringin gak sambar handbag satu..yg murah je la.. pastu nak carik shirt hijau. Heheh... :) Kena shopping cecepat..sbb dah janji ngan aunty nak tlg dia buat peanut butter cookies utk Dan n chocolate cookies utk almaz. Kesian kat dia, nak buat sorang tak larat.. takleh suruh maid tlg.. sbb baru dapat tau maid tu ada Hepatitis B. Hari ni nak g buat 2nd blood test utk confirmation. huhuhu.. seriau lak. kesian kat amy tu. Dia pandai buat keje, baik pulak... isk...

Okehla.. kena buat keje nih. Nanti blk raya dlm keadaan haru biru plak.
Cheers!

Raya
Hmm.. kejap je.. dah tinggal kurang 10 hari nak raya. Seperti raya2 beberapa thn kebelakangan nih, kemeriahan raya dah tak begitu terasa. Tak macam maa budak2 dulu. Ingat lagi, seblom blk kg, mama n baba bwk shopping kat area chow kit (dulu tmpt ni blom jadik little jakarta). On the way nak bali, rasa penat and dahaga gila2, mintak mama belikan air..hehe.. bukak pose seblom masuk maghrib ler jawabnya. Pastu nanti, 2-3 hari seblom raya, kitorg bertiga (me, mama, fadzlee) akan naik bas utk balik kg. Baba tak ikut.. dia biasa dtg lewat sket..masa raya.. or slalu kena ourstation masa tuh. Dia slalu akan hantar kitorg ke puduraya. Gilo byk org... pastuh, b4 naik bas, mama akan beli kek kat aunty jual kek kat puduraya tuh, buat bekal kitorg adik beradik dlm bas. Nanti sampai kg, arwah atuk amek naik keta ford hijau dia. Pastu, sehari seblom raya, nenek sibuk tangkap ayam, atuk sembelih ayam, nenek buat rendang n lemang, amek daun kelapa buat ketupat. Semuala buat sendiri.. takde pun lemang/ketupat "tunjuk" macam skarang. Syok sungguh.. ada sekali tu, kebetulan baba ikut skali balik tlg preparation raya kat kampung.. Ada dia buat magic amende ntah pakai api.. telan api ke macam mana ntah...Macam dlm tv woo.. perhhh!!!

Skarang, dah takde kemeriahan macam tu. Penat ada. Nak balik kg, kalau dulu bolehlepak aje dlm bas or keta, skang kena drive. Tgh2 pose nih, org pun bwk keta mcm orang gila. Menguji sungguh! Jam plak tu... kat highway jam.. isk.. seksa betul. Nenek pun skang dah tak daya nak buat lemang.. takde sapa nak tlg carikkan buluh pun.. so, mmg every year pak uteh belikan lemang 2-3 batang. mahal woo lemang.. at least rm8 sebatang harga dia. Bukan tentu masak ke tak pun isi dia lagik. :p Yang mmg konfem nenek buat, nasi himpit, rendang daging, ayam masak merak, kuah kacang, kuah lodeh dan yg best skalik, TAPAI.. umm.. sodapnyooo... Tapi tu lah..pendek katanya, mmg raya skang tak semeriah dulu, sbb umur dah lanjut kot. Mungkin nanti bila dah ada anak sendiri, kemeriahan tu datang balik, dlm caranya tersendiri.

Bulan ramadhan yg hanpir berlalu nih.. tak taula macam mana prestasi thn ni nak berbanding ngan thn lepas. Mengikut firasat sendiri, rasanya ok kot banding ngan thn lepas. Hehe..ok sket la kalau tak byk pun. Macam mana pun, semoga Allah pjgkan usia semoga dapat bertemu lagi dgn ramadhan thn hadapan... (berdua..hehe) insyaAllah.

Cerita Kawen
Excited cerita pasal nak kawin nih. Terbayang nanti pakai baju spesel la dr orang lain.. mekap pun 2-3 inci lebih dari org lain.. (hehehe..) pastu tepuk dahi bila bil2 sampai. Hadushhh.. kenapa la kawen nih mahal sangat? Huhu..

Tak tau la.. skang ni sebenarnya jiwa raga berkecamuk bila fikir pasal kawin. Memula bila pk pasal kahwin, seronok sangat, sbb akan berkongsi hidup dgn org yg amat kita sayang dan org tu jugak sudi untuk hidup bersama dan menyayangi kita sepenuh hati. Baru nak berangan pergi honeymoon kejap (hehe...angan2 itu penting!), mmenatang projek masters ni pulak enter frame. Isk.. mula la rasa menyampah, bengang dan stressed nak mampus2. Takut2 kalau tak dapat nak siapkan ikut perancangan. Huhuhu.. camne pun, walau apa pun yang jadik, kena redha. Sbb Allah maha mengetahui apa yg terbaik utk hambanya. *pujuk hati spy bersabau byk*.

tapi tu la, bila fikir masters yg tak nampak lagi penghujungnya, kolam mata nih pun makin penuh, selalunya tak dapat nak ditampung airnya, dan selalunya, mmg berguguran ler air mata membasahi pipi, bantal, baju, telekung.. apa2 je lah yg tgh pakai masa rasa syahdu camtuh. Sedey, tertekan.. semua bercampur. Rasa satu beban yg berat. Macam everyone is counting on me, pressuring me to complete my work. I do want to complete it as soon as i can... but my search for the end of the line is not successful just yet. Its a whirlwinding road for me.

Masa ni, terpikir..kalau la pernah pada satu masa buat keputusan yang paling tak tepat, inilah dia... keputusan utk buat masters by research. Pengajaran utk aku buat masa depan. Jangan ikut cakap orang. (bukan salahkan sesiap yg mungkin telah influence aku utk amek masters nih..tp ingatkan diri sendiri utk ukur baju di badan snirik). Tp, oleh sbb mende nih dah jadik, kena harung jugakla walaupun sekuat mana ribut yang melanda. Orang islam hatinya kena teguh. Takpe.. i can do this, Allah will help me. Aku yakin pada kekuasaanNya. *kesat air mata* Feeling very fragile at this moment. (Thanks honey for being there for me, supporting me and being the wind beneath my wings.)

Oleh sbb master nih jugakla.. tak dpt buat keputusan lagi bila nak balik raya.. Huhu.. :(

Dah...malas nak blog lagik.. keje menimbun lagi.. Tp nk kuar jap g pekan ngan azno.. redakan kemarahan dan kestressan sambil carik tudung. :|

Cheers.

All Smiles
It was a great weekend for me last week. I may have felt a little blue at some point, but all in all, it's been great, all smiles weekend.

Pie Making & Vistana KL
I went out on Saturday to aunty's place to learn make the apricot pie. Uncle fetched me at A.Park lrt station before sending aunty and myself home. Then he shoot off to Bt jalil to help Dan get a new battery for his car, coz his battery had gone k.o after 2 years of usage... While they were doing all the boys thing there, aunty and i went out to get stuffs for the pie. The ingredients were easy, except for the apricot and the cream.. so damn hard to find them!! However, we managed to find 'em at a supermarket in ampang which is definitely where i'll go find apricots and cream when i plan to bake a pie in the future. Leceh betul. :p

Anyways, after getting the stuffs, we went home, solat zuhur and started baking. I had to do it la kan coz i wanted to learn to make it. Aunty weighed the different items and i mix teh ingredients together. Sorry.. cant share the recipe though. Aunty had stated it's a secret family recipe. :)

Dan and uncle arrived when we're busy with pie making. Hmm... missed him so much. I wish i could just fling my arms around him there n then. heheh... sabar..sabar.. tak lama lagi.. :D

Spent nearly all day at aunty's place to wait for te pie to bake and stuffs... We left the house at 1800 for the 2nd event for the day... my family's buka puasa.

We arrived at Vistana KL at around 1830 and waited for my mom, my bro(the one paying!)and his gf as well as Athirah. They arrived a little late coz it was jammed. Not as many food were spread on the buffet table as in Vistana Penang. They don't even serve ice cream! :( So sad... Anyways, we had a great time. Had plenty to eat... brownies, jelly, cakes, swiss rolls, nyonya kueh, chicken, fish, lamb, nasi bukhari, cockerels... (there goes my low carb!) I've to say i enjoyed myself a lot coz i could spend my time with the 2 people whom i love the most in this world... My mom and Dan. So happy!! :)

Sunday Shopping
Went out with Dan on Sunday to do some shopping. Decided to go to MV... Ya Allahh... gile byk orang!! The traffic was really bad outside of MV.. were caught in traffic for almost half an hour. But it wasnt so difficult to find parking though. So we went in, looking for a dress for almaz untl it was nearly buka puasa time. Couldnt find any that satisfy my taste and budget... (tapi girl's dresses in Metro were really nice and sweet.. but a tad too xpensive!)...

At around 1730, we went up to the food court to reserve a place for ourself there. I couldnt seem to decide on what to eat.. so Dan said better go somewhere else. So we went to chilli's instead. Ordered and waited for our food while looking at other people there. We saw some celebrities.. hehe.. real celebs as well as wannabes. Saw ajai n nurul.. and Sean Connery-Lingam and Craig David-arumugam. Lols... why cant these ppl just be themselves? Sibuk nak jadik orang lain. Indians wannabe blacks, chinese wannabe japanese, malays wannabe arabs... for god's sakes.. the ppl that these ppl try to immitate arent any better anyway! Duh!~

After dinner, went by to aunty's place for dessert.. The apricot pie.. YUMMY! lepak a while before Dan sent me home. He said something i was really glad to hear when we were on the way to my place.
"Think of it hon, this will be the last raya we'll spend apart."
"Huh? What do you mean?"
"Yeah..next year we'll spend it together."
"Really??"
"Yeah, insyaAllah"
Errr... I think i just heard the wedding bells!May everything go well for us both. *winks*

Monday Blues
Went shopping again for the last time on monday morning with my mom before going back to pbtr. This time to Carrefour n alpha angle. Found a cute pink dress for almaz (which Dan said was too pink) but heck.. i'm gonna give it to her anyway. Athirah followed and she was throwing tantrums coz she was sleepy. Isk.. geram betui kat dia. My mom had to bring her to the kid's world section coz she wanted to go on the rides. When it was time to go home, she didnt want to. Geramm.. rasa nak cubit. We eventually got back home by noon.

Back at home, i packed my stuffs and the pies, waited for my mom to make some pisang goreng for my buka puasa on-the-bus and waited for Dan to pick me up at around 1500. Hang out for a while before he had to send me to Duta at 1715. So sad. :(

Said our bye-byes and i went up on the bus.. and saw Diyana on the same bus! Ahaks.. kantoi di situ nampaknyer! :D Thee hee heee....

Cant wait to see him again for raya. He's flying off to jakarta this saturday for a week.. so he'll only be back on raya's eve. Daym.. were supposed to go for the dr's apptmt together. What to do la... i'll have to til raya ke-3 or k3-4 to see him. :(

Gotta go... havent got anything for buka puasa today... and its raining catz and dawgz outside.... Darn!