Thursday, December 31, 2009

Ushering In The New Year

Alhamdulillah, just chaired my first meeting. Expected the familiar faces je, sekali yang datang ramai la pulak.. Berdebor gak.. tapi, insyaAllah, ok kot.. A lot to improve, by time and experience, it will get better. :)

Esok, mula tahun baru 2010. Tutup sudah tirai 2009. Azam tahun baru? Entah.. tak sempat la nak buat azam. Bizi. Boleh tak macam tu? Apa yang pasti, the same old thing yang nak di-achieve, nak lose weight. Hahaha.. dah berapa tahun punya battle daaa.. tak menang-menang gak. Entahla. Ni lagi tengah takde motivation nak diet. huh. Tapi, kena bagi ada motivation jugak. Kena ingat, umur dah lanjut, metabolisme dah slow, hormone pun makin kurang, penyakit pun dah mula nak datang. Most of the penyakits starts with being overweight. I have to always remind myself that if i want to be a sparkling mama by the time my daughter gets married, and enjoy my retirement having numerous holidays, i have to keep my health in check. Kalau tak control dari sekarang, nanti dah berumur, jalan sikit sakit lutut la, sakit itu la, makan tu tak boleh, ni tak boleh. If i don't want that to happen to me, I HAVE TO CHANGE MY LIFESTYLE AND EATING HABITS. Tolong ingatkan saya ye kawan-kawan. :)

Huh.. semalam got a hair cut. Cakap kat hairdresser, rambut gugur. Dia tunjuk at both sides of my temples, memang nampak rambut gugur dia kata. Gosh.. i was like.. oh mann.. is my hairline receding already??? Huhu.. nanti botakkkkk.... Pastu masa dia tengah gunting rambut, i looked at myself in the mirror and i thought i looked horrible. My skin has lost its glow, ada pigmentation, ada frown lines pun!! Uban pun nampak macam dah bertambah lagi sehelai...Huhu.. badan, organ, kulit, rambut dah nak masuk 30 tahun..... So, if i want things to be as close and as good as it was 10 years ago, i'd better kick myself in the ass now and get started taking care of myself. Ingat tu!!!

So, i guess, that will bring me to my azam for 2010. I want to take care of myself, as good as i take care of my daughter and my husband. At the same time, i want to kick ass at work, not by being a bitchy boss, but for doing what is right. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah jalan kami untuk tahun-tahun mendatang. Semoga kehidupan kami diredhai olehMu.

With that, i'm closing my 2009 chapter and eagerly waiting to start a new one in 2010. :) Wishing everyone a merry and prosperous new year!

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Syukur

Alhamdulillah, akudah dapat surat kenaikan pangkat aku. KUP la dulu, enam bulan kot.. lepas tu baru boleh memangku, bergantung kepada recommendation ketua jabatan. Nak confirm, tunggupulak 8tahun dalam servis. Sigh!~ Macam-macam.

Apa pun, buat masa ni, dah naik pangkat, tapi gaji 44 la. Dan, yangaku happy,naik pangkat di tempat yang sama. LAst week, heboh aku kena tukar ke tempat lain.Memang aku down gila masa tu. Sebab kita happy kan kat tempat ni, ada big plans konon-konon for the industry, tetiba kena tukar pulak. Frustrated and sad! Mujur ada colleague maklumkan pada bos, bos tanya terus kat tksu... tksu sms head of sm.. hehe.. dan bila dapat surat hari isnin, dikekalkan.

Bukannya aku nak duduk bahagian ni sampai bersara. At least sampai blueprint siap bulan mac, and perancangan rmke-10 dah setel. Tu je. Lepas tu, boleh la aku beralih angin ke tempat baru. :)

Ok.. enuff about work.

This weekend, nak naik Cameron. Sepupu Dan kahwin. Last week di rumah perempuan kat Ipoh. Waaa.. mengimbau kenangan gitu... Medan Kidd, Taman Golf, Kg. Rapat... hehehe... kedai kek Sentosa (aku nampak je dari tepi jalan, tapi tak berhenti, sebab masa tu tengah kenyang daaa...) Sarah ok la, tak la mengaruk dalam kereta...

Btw, Sarah dah berjaya di potty-train!! Last week, hari Khamis, cikgu bukak je diaper dia kat sekolah. Setengah jam dia dok pegang je seluar, sebab rasa pelik kot takde diaper? Balik rumah, accident sekali, masa duduk atas sofa. Huhu... Aku suruh pergi potty tak nak.. pastu bocor. Sigh!... Lepas tu ok, dia cakap kalau nak shee-shee. Semalam lagi satu episod accident, sebab dia dok bebai2, aku suruh gi potty tak nak konon... Tapi ok la.. 95% of the time dia akan cakap kalau nak shee-shee or poopie... Alhamdulillah.. berjaya jugak potty training, walaupun anxiety aku terhadap perkara ini sangat tinggi! Diaper punya stok pun banyak jugak kat rumah. Takpe.. she still needs them for the night. Huh.. dah besar anak aku...

So that's it.. nak setelkan kerja-kerja. Next week, ramai orang berholiday. Aku pun jugak la.. tapi dua hari je.

Enjoy the long weekend! I know i will. ;)

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Hapdet

Alahai.. lama nye tak update. Tak sempat. Bizi. Dapat bos baru pulak.

Sigh!~ Surat dah sampai. Penempatan di Kementerian yangsama. Bahagian tak tau lagi. HAritu ex-boss dah lobby untuk aku ditempatkan di Bhg. ini juga. Dengarnya TKSU setuju, tapi tiba-tiba boss tu pulak yang kena tukar.*Sigh!~* Bila dah tukar bos baru, rentak yang dah rancak, kena mula la slow beat balik. Tak seronok. Ada senior pernah pesan, "love your job, not your boss".. tapi faktor bos ni penting, kan? They can make you love your job, or hate it; they can make you stay on withthe job, or leave it. Happened to me once. Tensen!!

Hmm.. pendaftaran untuk MBA bukak bila ek? hmmm....

Sekarang tengah prepare RM10 proposal. Kalau boleh, akunakbuat sungguh2, supaya bila aku tinggalkan semua ni, orang yang ganti takla lost macam aku dulu, masa aku amek benda ni di tengah-tengah. Hasrat aku nak baiki keadaan, baru i cabut. Ada orang kata kat aku semalam. Buat apa you fikir banyak-banyak sangat. You kena fikir your career path. Hmm.. memangla. Tapi, entah. Bila aku rasa aku minat sesuatu, it become a passion. Bila dah jadi passionate about something, we'll try our very best, kan?

Ke memang aku suka aktiviti merancang ni? aktiviti monitoring not really my cup of tea.. hehe. Bolehke pilih-pilih?

Entah apa la yang aku mengarut.

Tahun depan, ramai rakan-rakan akan sambut kehadiran orang baru, i.e. new baby. Tahniah buat semua. Aku doakan pregnancy kali ini dimudahkan, dan delivery will be a breeze. Semoga kalian tak stress dan tension, especially masa confinement (macam aku dulu, huhu.) Aku? Hmm.. entahlah. Neutral. Mengharap tak, putus asa pun tak. Kalau Dia kata jadi, letak lah halangan besar KLCC pun, pasti jadi. So, whatever. Ada rezeki, dapatlah adik kat Sarah. Kalau tak ada rezeki, aku cukup bersyukur dengan kehadiran Sarah Aiesha dalam hidup kami.

Speaking of which, budakkecil itu semakin besar! Dah agak tinggi. Agaknya capai dah 1 meter.. (1meter to 100 cm kan? - almaklumlah, bukan engineer lagi.. hehehe). Beratpun dah 14kg. Kira kalau ikut development curve, in the 50 precentile la. Orait la tu. Mulut macam bertih goreng. Akal pun dah panjang.

Semalam dia inta nak guna marker, sebab tokmak dan tokbapak belikan white board kecik untuk dia. Tapi, dia pernah tercoreng seluar dia dengan marker,makanya aku dan daddy tak bagi lagi dia main marker. Dia kata, "Mommy, i want to use the marker to the drawing biard please." (walaupun ayat dia masih tunggang terbalik, kami paham la apa dia nak). Aku cakap, "No sarah. Daddy said no too."

Dia diam kejap, fikirkan comeback kot? Pastu dia cakap. "But Daddy's not here..."

Iskk.. aku la budak nih....

Aku selalu dengar radio masa driving. Sekarang dia boleh nyanyi sikit-sikit lagu "Meet Me Halfway" by the Black Eyed Peas. Huhu.. Tak tau nak gelak ke nak nangis. Sigh!~ .. Pastu boleh pulak ada lagu peberet. Lagu "Party in the USA", Miley Cyrus, dengan lagu "Replay" sapa tah penyanyi dia. Dia panggil lagi Replay ni lagu "Lemody".. Hahah.. sebab dalam lirik lagu tu ada dia sebut melody, tapi anak aku sebut sebut lemody... Kira boleh la...

Lepas ni kita belajar ngaji pulak ye...

Dah la.. lapar pulak. Dulu lapar buleh tahan. Sekarang takleh aa.. kalau tahan, jadi sakit kepala la, apa la.. Dah tua kot... Tahun depan, the big three - o... woohooo...

Friday, December 04, 2009

Up and down, down, down

Earlier in the week, my spirits were really up high. Felt good about myself, heard that the long-awaited letter from JPA has landed in the HR department, had confident-boosting words showered onto me. Sigh!~ Felt so good.

Sayangnya, panas tak sampai ke petang. Musim hujan kan, cerahnya sekejap, hujannya berpanjangan. Sigh!~

Awal pagi semalam kami dikejutkan dengan berita our head of department kena transfer out of the ministry. Everybody was dumbfounded. Takde ribut, takde taufan, tiba-tiba kena tukar. Korek punya korek cerita, rupanya alasan orang atasan. Hmmm.. semua benda "wahyu".

(aku ada type something kat sini tadi, tapi tak pasal-pasal terdelete. mungkin tanda kandungan tersebut tak sesuai untuk posting kot??)

I dunno about my other colleagues, but i think most of us feels down, disappointed, sad and upset on the matter. He has his weaknesses, of course, tapi dia amat ambil berat tentang staff dia that i think most of us love him as our boss. Aku pulak anggap dia macam bapak since bini dia orang sekampung mak aku, and he knows my mom's siblings and family.

To make matters even worse, our x-director's new posting ke post yang tak sesuai dengan jawatan dia. Aniaya kat dia. I feel so sorry for him. That man only have a year and a half to go for his retirement. Kenapa la orang buat dia macam tu.

He is a very knowledgeable man. Cuma kadang-kadang dia tak reti kontrol apa yang keluar dari mulut dia. Orang yang faham dia, ok lah. Macam orang di kem. baru yang tak kenal dia lagi, mesti pandang rendah kat dia because of the things that comes out from his mouth. Orang dah tak nampak betapa valuable nya dia in terms of his experience and knowledge.

Entahlah. Mungkin ujian bagi dia. Tapi, aku sedih terhadap apa yang berlaku. Dan aku lagi sedih sebab aku tak mampu nak tolong dia. Aku rasa setakat ni, dia je bos yang pernah tengok aku menangis. Bukan sekali, tapi dah 3 kali. Sekali tu aku nangis sebab dia taipkan benda yang sepatutnya aku buat sebab aku kena balik because something came up. Benda tu pulak urgent. Kali kedua, aku nangis sebab aku dengar bahagian kami nak dimansuhkan. Kali ketiga semalam, masa aku cakap terima kasih dan ucap selamat kat dia. Memangla aku mungkin akan jumpa dia lagi kat kampung... tapi he will no longer be my boss.

Dia sibuk kesiankan kitorang di Bahagian tu. Apa nak jadi dengan kitorang nanti. Aku kesiankan dia sebab posting dia yang macam hampeh tu.

Apapun, aku harap sangat Allah akan kurniakan keadilan pada dia yang aku rasa amat teraniaya. Dan aku harap orang-orang yang bertanggungjawab aniaya dia akan terima balasan masing-masing di dunia dan akhirat.

Do you think i'm going to be happy working in a place where the top management sanggup aniaya orang bawah sendiri?

Monday, November 30, 2009

Movement

Career-wise:

Heard there'll be a massive movement of our batch starting tomorrow. Gosh.. dah masuk Disember rupanya. Time flies even when you're not having that much fun. Heh. Tunggu lah surat. Kalau tak memangku, KUP la dulu. Sangat tak best kalau KUP. Beban tugas banyak.. gaji sikit. Sigh!~ *Hoping for the best, preparing for the worst*


Personal life :

Baru balik from a much needed break. Malas nya nak datang kerja harini, after a 10 day break. Pulak tu. ramai yang masih bercuti raya.. jadi, ofis ni lengang. Lagi la tak semangat nak bekerja. Hehe. Ada aja alasan.

Anyways, our little family, along with MIL adn FIL went to visit my BIL and SIL and little Almaz in Doha. No need to guess who had the most fun. Hehe. Mestilah si kecik tu. Excited naik aeroplane. Dah sampai KLIA balik pun, nak naik aeroplane lagi. Parents dia dah kematu duduk dalam a/c lama sangat. Tapi, alhamdulillah, not much problems travelling with her on that kinda long-haul flight. Masa a/c ascend and descend pun dia tak complaint sakit telinga ke apa. Gelak and happy-happy sahaja adanya. Kitorang ni punyala bawakmacam-macam bekalan, dari coklat, koko krunch, biscuits, coloring book, magnetic board, stickers, story books... huh.. just to keep her entertained. Most of the things tak sentuh pun. Lols... Kalau sentuh pun lepas sampai destinasi. Hahaha..

Rekod la, aku punya trip ke obersi kali ni, aku ada RM60 je dalam wallet. Huhuhu.. Aku lupa kuar duit kat KLIA. Bengong. Oleh yang demikian, shopping pun atas belas ihsan hubby je adanya. Tak best langsung. Nasib baik credit card buleh swipe. Last time, pernah sekali tu kad takleh swipe sebab tak call dulu credit card centre informing that i'd be abroad. Kali ni buleh pulak. Pelik. Tapi.. alhamdulillah. Dapatla shopping sikit-sikit. :)

Doha was a nice place. Since masa tu dah nak masuk winter kan.. takla panas sangat. The weather was quite pleasant, cuma keringla. Tiap-tiap hari tenyeh moisturiser. Sarah pulak pipi dia kering sampai sekarang. Dah sapu lotion everyday pun belum hilang lagi. Sigh!~

Happy dia dapat jumpa kakak Almaz dia. On the day kitorang nak balik, dia relax je, excited seperti biasa sebab nak naik aeroplane. Kakak Almaz dia nangis kat pintu. Sedih tengok. Semalam, MIL cakap dia demam, sekali dengan prents dia semua tak sihat. Sian diorang. Mesti penat bawak kitorang berjalan-jalan haritu.

Whatever it is, it was a fun-filled holiday. Penat memangla penat. Sampai balik sehari sebelum raya. Pagi raya masing-masing tak boleh bangun. Jetlagged. Hahaha.. Pukul 12 baru sedar. Iskk.. Walaupun penat, bila tengok how happy sarah was, it was all worth it. :)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

...

Pagi-pagi... phone rang:

Him : I heard you're going somewhere ya? Qatar ke apa..
Me : errrmmm... ya??
Him : Oh... i've personally nominated you for this...
Me : yeah, well, can't make it. family thing. lepas raya boleh la.
Him : lepas raya cannot la..
Me : Lambat sangat kan? hmm.. sorry.
Him : It's ok then.

Sigh!~ Nomination untuk join jawatankuasa KERJA for the thingy i mentioned yesterday.
Whatever..

Semalam, ada orang cakap ada yang jeles sebab aku yang tercalon. Yennadey.. kalau nak sangat, pergi la mohon nak join. I'm sure the jawatankuasa will appreciate volunteers. Tak payah jeles2...

Had a lengthy conversation with hubby last night on this matter. Apa hubby cakap memang ada betulnya. Dia kata, if you're good at doing your job, you'll get more s*it. Ye la, bosses will definitely go for people yang dia boleh harap. Orang yang takboleh harap akan sentiasa tak ada kerja. Yangboleh harap, kerja bagai nak gila. Gaji, dua-dua dapat sama. Yang reti kerja ke, tak reti kerja ke, gaji sama jugak, beban tugas? Sorang dail bertimbun-timbun... sorang relaks, takde duduk kat bilik pun. Sigh!~

Entahla.. aku yakin, aku bukanla sorang yang pandai dan rajin berkerja. Tak macam some of my officemates, stay back sampai malam-malam buat kerja. Ni, masa kerja pun ada masa layan fb, blog dan lain-lain yang sewaktu dengannya. Akujugak bukanla seorang yang vokal dan berani suarakan pendapat bila meeting dgn orang besar-besar. Cuma, kalau meeting melibatkan bahagian aku, benda-benda yang aku tau, bila ditanya benda-benda tu dalam meeting, of course la aku boleh jawab, sebab kerja aku yang aku hadap tiap-tiap hari, yang bajetnya aku prepare.. memang la aku tau kan.. Isk.. Kalau orang lain pun, sama jugak.. Bila dah hadap kerja tu tiap-tiap hari, mesti dia well versed dan boleh jawab bila orang tanya pasal kerja dia. Jadi, tak timbul masalah hebat ke takke, pandai kerja ke tak ke..

Sepatutnya la kan, bila semua orang buat kerja yang dia patut buat (walaupun dia turut buat benda-benda lain yang bukan kerja di waktu kerja).

aku argue dengan hubby.. habis tu, takkan nak buat kerja sekadar melepaskan batuk di tangga. It's just not me. Kalau kita dapat assignment, nak buat sebaik-baik yang kita boleh. Dia kata, yes, he agrees. He's like that too, but he have learnt his lesson. Kita buat kerja sebaik mungkin, oranglain takes credit for it. At the end of the day, kita jadi kuda.

Sigh!~ kerja elok susah.. kerja tak elok.. esok kat akhirat apa nak jawab?? Dah la gaji pakai duit awam. Sigh!~

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Kena Tukar... Ke?

Rentetan pembentangan MKRA oleh jawatankuasa RMK-10. KSU suruh buat another team to discuss.

Balik ofis, bos suruh aku bersiap-siap. Aku cakap, cuti aku dah lulus sampai raya, tak boleh join the aforesaid team.

Bos kata, bukan untuk join team.. tapi transfer ke bahagian lain.

Sigh!~ Itu ke yang mereka discuss tadi? Bukan keanggotaan team tersebut ke? Salah faham ke aku ni?

That bahagian yang supposedly aku kena join, JPA pun tak approve lagi.. cuma secara pentadbiran. Anggotanya so far personaliti yang hebat-hebat, sama ada hebat kerja atau hebat bodek. Heh. Alasan aku (mungkin) ditarik ke sana? Entah? Hebat ke aku (sangatlah tidak)? Bodek ke aku (rasanya tak jugak)? Sigh!~

Sedih jugak.. tapi takmo la emosi lebih2 sebelum sesuatu yang final transpired kan. See how it goes. My last resort, as i've posted earlier, sambung studies.

Malas fikir. Yang penting, starting Thursday, aku cuti sampai raya. Going away for awhile. Much needed break.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Funny

Ahhhh.. funny, funny day it was yesterday.. At least, for me.

Guess what. Yesterday marks the fourth year of my beautiful marriage with dear hubby-wubby. Anddd.... the funniest part was that.. i FORGOT about it untul later in the day around 3 pm!!!! Itu pun masa dalam meeting, as i was writing down the date, i thought that the date looked familiar. Macam terfikir... macam ada sesuatu yangberlaku pada tarikh ni, tapi mula-mula tu tengah blur, takleh pin point apa benda... Lepas tu baru teringat.. OMG, it's my anniversary! Baru la terkial-kial text hubby, wishing him. Nasib baik dia tak wish aku lagi. Dia kata dia pun terlupa jugak mula-mula, but teringat lagi awal la dari aku, tapi saja bagi aku chance wish dulu. Elehhhhh... alasan. Bila akubalik, dia dok hint-hint, tanya aku "Where's our pillow honey?" Dia buat-buat tanya. Aku yang blur ni cakapla.. "It's there.. why?" Hehe.. didn't get the hint. Dia letak card anniversary atas bantal. Wakakaka.. He had to point it out. Duruh aku pergi tengok apa atas bantal. Sigh!~

Malam tu, i bought us dinner. Celebrate biasa-biasa je. Iskk.. Giler. Too pre-occupied with things (especially work) that i forgot my own wedding anniversary. I FORGOT MY WEDDING ANNIVERSARY????? Sigh!~ Teruk betul. :p

After the meeting, i was like telling everybody that i forgot my wedding anniversary. nasib baikla ada acquaintance tu cakap, wife dia pun selalu lupa. Dia yang dok peringat. Sigh!~ Adala sikit consolation. At least i'm not the only women in the world who's very happy in her marriage but ermm.. fail to remember her wedding anniversary!

Hehe..

Anyways, honey, i've had a marvelous 4 years being married to you. I know, it'll only get better as we get older together (i've got 2 ubans already!!!). Love you always.

Another funny thing that happened yesterday.... aku kena ngurat!! Hahahahahaa... I'm a hot hoochie mama... hell yeah! Hahahaha...

Aku pergi meeting kat KL semalam, so aku naik LRT. Aku pakai baju korporat la masa tu, shirt korporat yang free itu dengan skirt hitam. Masa balik tu, turun dari LRT nak gi tempat menunggu, nak tunggu hasben i la kan, ada mamat datang dari belakang tegur aku... Dia cakap camni," Excuse me miss, i was actually waiting for my father over there. And then i saw you, and i really admire you,do i came here to say hello to you. Here is my card. Don't worry, i'm not trying to sell anything to you."

Ekspresi muka aku yang penuh kepelikan tidak dapat diselindungkan lagi.

Aku cakap kat dia, "I'm waiting for my husband."

Dia kata, "but we can still be friends, right?"

Dalam hati aku kata, "Yeah, right. Cepatla laki aku mai..."

Dan, masa aku tengah pelik2 tu, my dashing husband came and rescue me. Mamat tu sempat tanya aku ada name card tak. aku cakap, tak dak. Dia tanya camne dia boleh contact aku. Aku macam.. gila ke hape mangkuk ni... Pastu aku kata.. i gotta go... pastu aku chow...

Sebelum aku masuk kereta, dia sempat tanya, aku kerja kat MPOB ke? Mungkin sebab baju aku kot? Aku bertambah la pelik...

Yang lebih pelik... lelaki tu india, aku ni dengan tudung semua... uish.. 1 Malaysia sungguh...

Pastu, masa dalam kereta, aku tengok la kad dia. Bawah nama company tu, ada tulis, syarikat berdaftar dengan MPOB.. So, aku rasa, sebab dia ingat aku kerja kat MPOB la yang dia sibuk nak kenal dengan aku. Ada la tu benda yang dia nak dari MPOB... cheh... penat aku percaya aku hot. Hihihihi....

However, kita lupakan saja part tadi dan biarkan aku flattered ye. :)

Wokey.. gtg.. jap lagi ada meeting pulok... Meeting je nak-nak habis tahun ni. Sigh!~

Friday, November 06, 2009

Lagi-lagi Pasal Maid

Sigh!~ Seperti biasa bila cakap ttg maid, ada susah, tak ada pun susah.

MIL telefon tadi. Cerita kisah maid. aku tiba2 rasa stress yang amat. Isk. Nak nangis pun ada. Nak cite kat siapa pun tak tau. Blog je la tempat meluah rasa.

Camni ceritanya. My MIL ada sorang maid. Bukan live-in maid. She comes in 3 times a week untuk b uat kerja rumah, and bila-bila yang my MIL perlukan la. She's been working with my MIL for years now, and memang baikla dengan my MIL.

And, as you know, i have a maid, tahun depan, bulan 6, habisla kontrak 2 tahun maid aku ni. Nak jadi cerita, selalunya kalau pergi rumah MIL, aku akan bawak maid aku. Dan kadang-kadang, maid MIL ada jugak di situ. From then on, diorang berkawan.

it seemed like my maid kinda trust my MIL's maid la, anggap macamkakakla kot. So dia cerita macam-macam kat dia, kita namakan maid MIL as T, and my maid B (for bitch).

tadi MIL called. She said taht yesterday, apparently B called T up, planning things. Our family is planning to go on vacation tak lama lagi. Memang akan tinggalkan dia la. Sebelum ni, tak sure lagi nak tinggal dia kat mana, most probably my mom's la. Semalam, dia kata pada T, dia nak minta cuti while kami pergi vacation. Kononnya, kalau kami tak bagi dia pergi cuti, nanti bila kitorang nak hantar dia balik, dia nak lari. MIL cakap, mungkin dia ada boyfriend or something andplan to go on holiday with him la.

Haritu, dia ada bagitau, yang bulan 2 ni lebih kurang dia nak kena balik. Dia kata diakena attend court proceeding sebab ex-hasben dia nak amek custody anak dia. Me being naively-me, percaya je la, and was willing to let her go. I told Dan, and kitorang memang tak ada buruk sangka langsung, memang nak bagi dia balik. Bila akutanya dia berapa lama, dia kata tak tau, dia tanya aku, biasanya court proceeding berapa lama? Mana la aku tau. So, takpe.

Berbalik kepada cerita pertama tadi, kononnya, kalau aku tak bagi dia cuti while we're on vacation, masa dia nak balik dalam bulan 2 tu yang dia plan nak lari. She was so confident that we're going to send her to the airport by cab, and kononnya da dia nak bagitau the cab utk pergi tempat lain and fled off la. Tu yang dia bagitau T.

Dia jugak bagitau T yang dia tak suka MIL. My MIL dah biasa ada maid, and knows how toput them to their place. Kalau maid tu sedar diri akan tempat dia sebagai maid, tak ada masalah pun dengan my MIL. T ok je dah berapa tahun pun. Cuma this bitch yang tak sedar diri komplen, tak suka dengan my MIL. Dia cakap suka duduk denagn my mom sebab dia rasa diri dia macam majikan. Ye la, my mom orang kampung, tak reti nak ada maid ni. Siapa yg duduk rumah tu, treat macam family. Dia kata, kat rumah my mom, my mom yang akan masak, letak atas meja, dia datang makan je. Gila panas hati aku dengar. Celaka punya betina.

Well.. aku pun jenis yang tak biasa ada maid. Aku tak pandai boss people around, so aku rasa tu salah satu faktor yang dia naik kepala tu.

Sigh!~ Seriously. Aku rasa stress dan sangat bengang sekarang. Somehow, it doesn;t help la pulak posting ni. Nak kena cerita dengan seseorang jugak. Tapi siapa?????? Sigh!~

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Pause

Hmm.. lama jugak tak post. A lot had happened. Tak sempat nak blog. Sigh!~


Of Kuching and a Loss

Rabu lepas, aku ke Kuching, sebagai organizer seminar francais di sana. Sepatutnya di sana samapai hari Sabtu. Kiranya, buat pertama kali selepas 2 visits yanglepas aku akan duduk di Kuching lama sikit. Mungkin, kali ni, aku sempat rasa mi kolok yang sangat sinonim dengan pekan Kuching itu. Hari Rabu, lepas samapi di Kuching dalam pukul 5 petang, aku sibuk berulang alik ke airport samapai malam. Heh. Mengambil bos2 adanya.

Hari Khamis, event mula. Perasmianjam 2.30 petang. Pagi, aku ke bilik sekretariat, lepas tu bawak notebook ke cafe berhampiran utk berwi-fi dan check email penting. Sempat la minum jus nenas. Sangat sedap! Balik semula ke bilik sekretariat untuk sambung kerja.

Sambil2 buat kerja, telefon bunyi. Mama. Dia kata nenek dah tak ada. Aku cakap kat bos, terus rush amek the first flight home. Sampai di Sepang dalam pukul 6. Terus ke tanah perkuburan, tak sempat tengok nenek untuk kali terakhir. Tak ada rezeki tengok nenek.. dan.. bukan rezeki aku duduk di Kuching lebih 24 jam.

Alhamdulillah, semua perkara berkaitan pemergian nenek berjalan lancar. Nenek pun pergi dengan mudah. Mama lagi sekali berpeluang ada bersama one of her parents at their very last hour. Dulu, masa arwah atuk pergi, mama jugak orang yang terakhir ada dengan tuk. Nenek pun macam tu. Mama jaga dan teman mereka di hospital. Rezeki dia agaknya. Aku harap, aku juga berpeluang jaga mama nanti, dan sarah tak rasa beban menjaga aku bila giliran aku tiba.

Tahlil ketiga di rumah nenek selesai pada hari Sabtu. Hmm... memanglah, setiap yang hidup, pasti akan mati, kan? Lagipun di usia nenek dan keadaan dia yang tak begitu sihat kebelakangan ni, ada terdetik di hati aku yang nenek akan pergi bila mama bagitau yang dia akan teman nenek di sopotal pada hari Selasa. Walaupun dah expect kejadian itu, sedih tetap ada. Teringat dulu, masa kecil, nenek pernah jaga aku, manjakan aku. Bila aku pregnant, nenek masak macam-macam benda yang aku teringin. Sedih, aku tak dapat kerap jumpa nenek, kadang-kadang tak singgah jumpa nenek bila aku balik ke rumah mama. Kesal pun ada.

Tapi, aku rasa, nenek had a good life. Walaupun masa mudanya mungkin susah, tapi, di usia tua, i think, life had treated her better. Nenek dah berpeluang buat haji, kerjakan umrah, ada jugak makcik-makcik bawa dia berjalan, sempat jumpa cucu cicit, samapi cukur jambul cicit terbaru dalam dua minggu lepas. Masa tu la aku terakhir kali jumpa nenek.

Apapun, yang pergi, dah selesai tugas mereka di dunia. Kita yang hidup perlu teruskan hidup. Nenek, you will be missed. Al-Fatihah.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Too Many Things

Tee..hee..heee... Bengong sungguh aku malam tadi. Akupack kan baju sarah untuk sekolah malam semalam. Tapi, semalam sarah cuti, so, takpe la... Harini aku hantar dia gi skolah macam biasa. Harini cikgu dia pagi2 tepon. Diaper takde. Hukhuk... Macam mana laaa aku boleh lupa letak diaper dia dalam kotak tu... Iskkkhhhh... Sah-sah dia belum potty trained lagi. Heh. Bila la agaknya aku akan bersedia untuk membiarkan dia tanpa diaper. Sigh!~

Berbalik kepada citer tadi, so, aku tergocoh2 ler mencarik diaper pagi-pagi. Nasibbaik kat dalam keter memang ada standby. Cukupla untuk satu hari. Aku pun bergegas la ke sekolah... Line panjang pulak orang drop off budak. Aku dah terbayang anak aku diaper dah penuh tak tukar. Kelam kabut la aku kuar kete (kete aku kat belakang sekali of the trailing line of vehicles), dan terus cepat2 pass kat cikgu dia diapers. By the time aku kuar, kereta aku telah memblok trafik untuk keluar pagar sekolah tersebut. Hahahahaa.. Ngokkkkkkk!!! Adeyy.. Mesti driver kelima-lima kereta tersebut marah dan menyumpah seranah kat aku. Heh. I know i would. Huh.. Malu sungguh aku. Tak sanggup angkat muka pun, sbb memang aku tau, aku salah. Huhu.. Sorila ye puan-puan. I got up on the wrong side of the bed.. I know, i know, it's the least of your problems, but.. heck.. everybody have their bad days, right? We're all human after all.. Hehe.. Ayat nak sedapkan hati. Apa pun, i am truly sorry (walaupun aku tak cakap kat u all the 5 drivers).


Rest In Peace

A colleague of mine lost his mother, 2 sisters and a niece in a fatal car accident in Putrajaya yesterday. Dalam berita malam semalam ada keluar, cerita yang first sekali. Tak sangka sungguh, benda tak elok timpa kawan sendiri. Kesian kat dia. Harap Allah kurniakan dia ketabahan. Al-Fatihah buat kaum keluarga beliau yang terkorban di dalam kemalangan tersebut.


Concert

Sabtu lepas, sarah's school concert went smoothly. Gambar dan video belum transfer. Tunggguuuuu... :)

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Busy Bee

Penat. Baru balik from 2-day workshop. In the process of coming up with impact study on existing programs. I am hooked on economics. *Starry eyed* Gonna start reading materials on economics fundamentals/basics to enhance my nearly zilch knowledge on economy.

Walaupun penat, i enjoyed the workshop entirely. The ambience was very relaxed (except on the several occasions that my big boss was there in a bad mood), and everybody had the momentum to keep on going with data cleaning and analysis. I guess, we learned a lot from the workshop, at least, i can speak of it on my end. I learned a lot on data cleaning, and how to relate it to major economic indicators. Before this, memang la aku blur. Huh. Menguatkan lagi perasaanku nak amek masters in economics. By course. Coursework pulak nak buat something on franchising. "Partner in crime"/pemangkin pun dah ada. Nanti nak discuss lagi dengan dia bila nak start. :)

Glad to have found my new passion. Econs 101, here i come!!


Excited!!

hubby's coming home tomorrow!! After 3 weeks of being away! So very excited (not to mention sexcited, hehe) to have him back in my arms tmrw. Yeayyyyy!!!

And then, on saturday, sarah's going to have her first concert! She's going to take part in a dance with her classmates, and the teachers said that they're letting her sing, and recently they said that they're letting her to give the welcoming address to all the guests! Sooooo super duper excited. She received her costume today, making my excitement more intense. Tomorrow, it's gonna be even more intense.

So proud of you my little darling!

Monday, October 19, 2009

Crazy Week

Urghh.. you know when it's gonna be a crazy week when you don't have much time to open up fb. Heh. Tak sempat! And, you get several meeting invitations on the same time, at different places. Huh. Crazy!!

Tomorrow, 3 meetings. Two concurrent meetings in the morning, 1 in ministry, 1 in KL. Petang, another one to score. The following day, 1.5 day workshop, and, concurrently ada presentation for proposal. The best thing about all this is, everything needs my presence!! Cheehhhh.. akur asa macam Pengarah Bhg dah ni. Hahahahaa.. Mengong. Sebenarnya, short handed sangat nih. Huhu. Program lak, nak end of the year ni, mula la mencanak-canak. Huhhh... bizinyer.

Malam pun kena bawak keje balik umah ni. memang banyak keje sangat dah la nih. Huh.

Layan je laaa...


Sandpaper!

Another urrghhhh... Had facial disaster last week. Huh. Teruk betul. Used a facial scrub, lepas tu terus muka jadik macam sandpaper! Dahla the next day nak pergi wedding kan.. Huhu. Nasib baik ada foundation. Nampak jugakla muka macam sandpaper, tapi kurang la.

Huh. Been in denial for so long. Dari awal sejak pakai this product memang macam naik bintik, and kurang selesa la kadang-kadang. Tapi sebab dah invest banyak on this product, buat dekk je dulu. Tapi, last week tak boleh tahan dah. Last-last, aku beli cleanser yang aku pakai sejak dolu-dolu, L'oreal Whitening. Tak sampai 30 hengget. Alhamdulilah, skin feels better. Kurang dah la rasa macam sandpaper. Pakai cream moisture surge, and eye cream je from the previous brand. (tak payah la mention kot?) Toner, tak pakai, day cream pun pakai L'oreal XL Block. So far, takde masalah. Agaknya, kulit aku ni memang tak biasa nak manja2 pakai skincare mahal-mahal kot. Hehe. Takpela. Elok jugak. Save on skincare, boleh invest lebih for other things, kan? kan?

Okla.. back to work. Sigh!~ Good nite kawan-kawan. Saya takleh tidur lagi. Kena keje! HuhuHuhuhuhuuuuuuuu...

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Banyak Kerja

Saya memang tengah banyak kerja. Tapi saya kena menulis benda yang kurang kaitan dengan kerja. After all, all work and no play would drive you up the wall, won't it? Bila stress, bukan kepala je sakit. Urat2 pun sakit, maka pinggang sakit, belikat sakit, belakang sakit, leher sakit... Huhu... Nak carik tukang urut yang best kat sini belum jumpaaa... Lalalala...

Semalam, sekali lagi episod berulang ke Kuching in one day. Pagi flight pukul 8, balik flight pukul 5. Hehe. Macam pergi ofis di Putrajaya tiap2 hari. :) (Cuma belanja yang berkali2 ganda la besarnya.) Sigh!~ Penat. Tapi, nak buat macam mana? Kerja kena buat, anak pun kena ingat jugak, kan? Kesian ke dia kalau aku tak balik. Dua-dua parents jauh. (Tapi, bila aku balik, penat dan dia sibuk nak attention, aku hangin, kesian jugak. Sigh!~)

Tapi aku notice la, sejak anak aku makin besar ni, aku rasa aku lagi cepat hilang sabar dengan dia. Cepat je aku nak marah. Puas aku fikir kenapa. Aku rasa mungkin sebab aku anggap dia dah boleh faham apa aku cakap, tapi dia tak buat seperti yang aku nak dia buat, kot? Kalau dulu masa dia baby, memang aku tau dia tak boleh comprehend apa aku cakap, so aku lebih forgiving. Ke? macam tu ke? Sigh!~ Isk.. macam mana nih. nak kena ubah ni. Budak sekarang tak jalan dengan marah-marah. Macam mana nak didik anak dengan berhemah ni....

Anyways, back to work. Hadey.. NKRA la, KRA la Halatuju strategik la.... semua planning on paper je.. Implementation, follow through?? Haiyooo.. pining gua punya kepalaaa....

On a lighter note, aku rasa aku nak sambung belajar. Aku ingat nak buat ekonomi. Tapi at the same time, aku berminat dengan franchising. Kat sini, belum banyak lagi tesis on franchising, tapi skop tu sangat luas lagi untuk diteroka. Hmmm... macam mana ni..? Baut double masters ke? Hehehe... *Berangan*

Tadi aku jumpa sorang orang yang sedang nak buat phD in franchising. So, api keminatan aku untuk sambung belajar dalam bidang itu semakin marak... Heheh.. Tapi, tak bermakna minat aku untukbuat ekonomi dah makin kurang... haa.. no, no, noooo... Aku teringin nak dok kat EPU, tolong buat dasar ekonomi negara.. dalam masa yang sama, jadi pakar rujuk untuk francais. *sambil berangan* (banyak betul aku berangan ye). Chewahh... hehe.. tingginya cita-cita. Hehehe.. aku nak citer dengan siapa lagi kan? Citer dengan budak2 kat sini, kang kena gelak pulak.. aku citer la dalam blog aku, kat kawan-kawan aku yang tau betapa besarnya imaginasi aku... Heheh..

Bear with me, please. Sesunggunya kepala aku tengah pening nak buat KRA... Miting esok... tapi aku cuti... tapi aku nak masuk miting tu. Huhu.......

Monday, October 12, 2009

Surprise, surprise

Semalam, before bersiap2 untuk pergi ifah's wedding, sempat jugak online sambil tunggu hubby on skype. Sesambil tu, masuk fb.. Tiba-tiba nampak friend request.. Ada la beberapa, tapi satu tu macam menarik pandangan, sebab dia pakai uniform, siap dengan epaulette. Dari jauh nampak macam 3 bar.. Ingatkan one of hubby's crew.. Tapi, apa kejadahnye pulak diorang nak add aku, kan? Bukannya diorang kenal aku. Bila tengok nama, macam tak perasan sangat... aku pun click la gambarnye supaya besauuu.... Loohhh.... What a surprise!! A.A rupanya!! Heheh... Jadik orang laut sekarang... Teringat zaman dolu-dolu... (teringat jugak that text he sent me).. Now, how many years ago was that? 6? 7 years now?

Ohh.. now i remember... Our platoon's captain way back during DPA dulu, muka macam A.A ni laa..... hehehe... patutla macam familiar sangattt....

Now, talking about mengimbau kenangan lalu, semalam, masa aku unpack barang-barang balik dari PAC, it occured to me that aku dah duduk dalam servis 4 tahun dah.. Handbag yang aku bawa masa PAC jumaat lepas, sama je dengan handbag yang aku bawa untuk PAC/PTD Unggul 4 tahun lepas. Hehe. Kasut je tukar, sebab kasut dulu tu dah haus, ye lah, kasut tu la belasah masa DPA, ke polis, ke tentera, ke bomba... Handbag dan kasut itu la yang hubby (then boyfriend) beli kat aku dulu. Hadnbag tu sampai sekarang aku masih guna, sebab elok lagi. Cuma koyak sikit kat buckle dengan insert dalam dia. Tak obvious pun. Tapi memang aku suka beg tu. Memori sunggung. :)

I guess, i'm still the old me, if not ermmm.. fatter? Demmmmmmmm...

Hahah... fat or not, masih musim raya.. dan harini, office buat rumah terbuka. Aku ditugaskan bawak bolognese sauce. Semalam aku buat satu batch. Kena buat berperingkat, sbb periuk kat rumah i comel aje. Malam tadi pergi wedding, balik dah pukul dua belas. Gagah jugak la bangun awal pagi tadi nak masak sauce tu lagi satu batch. Alhamdulillah.. pukul 10 baru masuk office. Heehehe.. Nasib baik bos i baik..

Okla.. nak pergi tengok2 semula apa yang berlaku kat pantry tu. Haritu rasanya kata nak mula pukul 11... ni dah nak pukul 12 ni, takde sape pun lagi. Sigh!~ Wokey..have a good and cheerful day peeps.. Luv u, luv u!n (Gedik tak?hehehe...)

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Assessed

Alhamdulillah, tamat sudah PAC. Later this afternoon, i'll be on my way back home! Yeay!!

Verdict? Well.. i think everything went fine. My panels were alright. I had two activities with a familiar panel, and my interview session was also with him. So, kurang la sikit butterfly-in-the-tummy syndrom.

Awal-awal lagi, dah kena public speaking. Walaupun only among 13 familiar participants (all batch mates) it was as nerve wrecking as speaking in front of a larger crowd. My topic, thankfully was on Vandalisme. A classic public speaking topic. I was the second last of the lot to speak, and i managed to somehow associate Vandalisme with one of the 6 NKRAs. Yeay! The English public speaking session was followed by a Malay pengucapan awam, and topik aku Taraf Kesihatan kot kalau tak silap. Masa ni, baru la anggota group yang lain sentuh pasal NKRA. Hehehe.. Bangga sikit-sikit sebab aku yang start citer NKRA. Not that it made any difference anyway. :p

Lepas tu, biasala, sesi bincang2, buat paper dalam masa yang singkat, buat project planning, present project planning, dan yang paling menggetarkan lutut, kena lari 2.4km. Perrhh.. memang menggeletar lutut, literally. Seriously unfit!!! Huhu. Lari satu per lima kot dari keseluruhan track. Yang lain, lenggang kangkung adanya. :)

Poco-poco pun ada jugak. Tapi basic step aje. Kecewa. :(

Semalam urusetia bagi kitorang bola untuk buat main-main. Jadi, kitorang main la bola itu dengan girangnya. Huhu.. Letih jugak.. Memangla sangat tidak fit. Sigh!~ Patutla berat tak turun, ye?

Pagi tadi, aku baru sahaja selesai sesi temuduga. Keputusannya, wallhualam.. Entahlah, ye? Kalau ada rezeki dapat pemangkuan, dapatlah... Kalau dapat KUP, KUP lah. Kalau gagal, terimalah adanya. Kan? masuk untuk temuduga in pairs. Nak kata kurang berdebor, entahlah. Aku rasa aku kurang berdebar tadi, bukan sebab aku tak gabra, tapi sebab aku tengah tahan nak pi toilet (tiba-tiba sakit perut la pulakkkk), aku mengantuk (dah dua hari bangun pukul 4.45, tidur pukul 1) dan sangat teruja nak balik.

Rindunya kat si kecik. Malam pertama tu, aku telefon dia nangis teresak-esak. Sedih aku. Tapi malam-malam seterusnya, dia ok. Tapi dia tak mau tidur dalam bilik. Tidur kat depan, tunggu mommy or daddy balik kot. Kesian dia. :(

Ok la... Dalam pukul 12 ni, ada closing ceremony pulak. Nak kemas-kemas semua barang, dan kalau sempat, tidur kejap. Nak drive balik jauh ni. :)

Terima kasih atas all the well wishes. :) Hehe.. aku selamat sampai Nura.. tak pakai GPS!! :) (Tapi aku ada 2 org kawan lain la dlm kereta).

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

On The Road Again...

Will be leaving for Kluang in this afternoon. Heh.. Torture session starts tomorrow, all the way til Saturday. Sebenarnya, god knows what there is to be nervous about anyway. It's just another course kinda-thing, with a big plus as we get to reunite with long-lost batch mates. As long as we participate, i guess we'll be ok, since dengar-dengar khabar bertiup, banyak kosong for post 48. Somehow or rather, mesti dinaikkan jugak, kan? kan?

Hmm.. Pangkat dan tanggungjawab. Ramai orang nak pangkat, tapi terlupa tanggungjawab yang datang sekali dengan pangkat tersebut. Sesungguhnya, aku amat takut menjadi salah seorang dari mereka itu. Lindungilah hambamu ini ya Allah. Dulu, as my bosses always said, people take years (more than 5, obviously) to get promoted to a higher grade. Sekarang, within 4 years dah boleh naik 48. Kalau di federal agency, rasanya mungkin tak rasa tanggungjawab 48 yang tinggi. But, if you're at a state seat, 48 level dah jaga projects. Bayangkan, someone yang baru 4 tahun dalam servis, kena pegang tanggungjawab jaga projek di negeri. Pekeliling2 pun tak khatam lagi. Kalau orang yang pernah duduk kewangan / handle program pembangunan, ada jugak la basic on perlantikan perunding and things like that. Kalau orang tu dulu buat benda lain, say HR ke? Tak menggagau? Yes... we're expected to be Jack of All Trades. To know everything under the sky. But the drawback is that, you only know things on a superficial level. To solve a problem, you need to get to the root of it. If you just know something on the surface, it's difficult for you to tackle the underlying issues.

Heh.. meraban pulak.

Anyways, i'm driving a thirteen year old car all the way to Kluang, with another 2 colleagues. Do pray for our safety and wish us luck, ok. I'm sure gonna need that.

Uhh.. sedih nak tinggal sarah. Kesian dia, both parents are away, working. Feel bad about it. Rasa macam workaholic yang neglect anak pulak. I don't want to be that. I know i'm not one. My heart is at home, i'm not career driven.

But, this is something that mommy has to do. I hope you understand, sayang-girl. I know, the timing isn't right since daddy is away too. I wish i could change that, but i don't have the power to. I'm so sorry. :(

Sigh!~ Ok.. away to read english educational/informative blogs. Erm.. that's my preparation. Heh.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Hibernation

Two weeks of posting absence. Kira hibernating la tu. Ye la, juadah raya yang masuk ke perut macam-macam, hibernating mode je la kerjanya. :)Idea untuk posting pun jadi tak ada. Huh.

Anyways, alhamdulillah, dah masuk minggu kedua kita beraya kan? Beraya? Hmm... aku rasa this year rayaku tidak banyak kemana-mana. Rasanya satu rumah je yang aku beraya, minus rumah mama and MIL's la. Huh.. teruknya... Tapi, yang best, this year alhamdulillah, ramai yang sudi menjenguk kami di rumah ni. :) Happy kami semua di Nine's ni. :)

First week of raya, aznor datang with hubby and faiq hensem. :) Pastu diikuti dengan my cousins sebelah arwah babah. This weekend pulak, pakcik-makcik sebelah arwah datang rumah, pastu esok, kawan-kawan dari ofis. :) Huh.. Huru-hara gak tadi. Ye lah, pakcik-pakcik ku itu, bagi notis sejam je lebih kurang. I dah plan nak keluar beli groceries. Hubby pulak kena tidur sebab nak fly malam ni. Huh.. so, hidang pizza je ler tadi. Lols. :)

Hmm.. tadi tengok Grey's anatomy. Huhu.. episod Izzie kawen dengan Karev. So sweet! :) Rindu kat hubby sendiri.. Uhuk.. Hubby had to go for two weeks detachment. Kinda difficult sebab dah terbiasa hubby ada kat rumah for the past one month. Dah la Manila tengah dilanda typhoon teruk. huh.. risau wooo. Semoga Allah selamatkan dia, mudahkan pekerjaannya, Amin!~

Dah la hubby's away. Aku pulak kena pergi PAC (assessment) hujung minggu depan. Lama-tak-lama, ada la jugak tiga hari, tiga malam aku kena berjauhan dari anak aku. Huh. Kalau bukan PAC ni penting untuk kemajuan kerjaya, silap la aku nak pergi. Kesian sarah, 3 malam parents dia tak ada nak teman tidur. Terpaksa aku tinggalkan dia dengan my MIL and FIL, berserta maid aku. Risau jugak, sebab MIL and FIL bukannya sihat sangat nak menjaga budak yang tengah lasak tu (even though they insist that they're fine). Tapi, considering that sarah will be away at school most of the time, and i expect to be home by saturday afternoon, i pray to Allah that all will be well. I do hope that sarah will be ok and at her best behavior when i'm away, both MIL and FIL will be ok and my assessment will see me through with flying colors. Amin!~

Hehe.. semalam cikgu sarah told me something that made me jumped. Dia kata, "she wanted to sing, so, we're letting her." Ermm.. no, she wasn't talking about her singing in front of her little toddler friends. She's talking about my 31-months kiddo performing solo for her concert! They're going to have this talentime cum concert thingy at the end of this month, to see the graduation of the older kids, and to see some shows that they're putting up. The ECP class(Early Childhood Program for 3 y.os) that my little girl is attending is going to perform a dance, which i've been told earlier. We're very excited about it and can't wait for the big day. Tapi, when the teacher told me that she's gonna perform solo..... Mak aiii... i was terkejut + flabbergasted + overwhelmed + amazed + excited + elated.... you name whatever feeling, i can tell you that i feel each and every one of it (the positive feelings la). When asked what song she's going to sing. Cikgu dia cakap, "you ask her yourself" sambil tersengih-sengih. Isk.. Bila aku tanya anak aku, macam-macam lagu dia cakap.. Adeyyyy... Terpaksa la wait and see hujung bulan ni. :)

Makin besar, makin panjang je akalnya. Ada je benda yang dia nak jawab. Haritu, lepas kitorang makan tengah hari, we were persuading her to finish up her cup of water. Agaknya dia dah boring with our persuasion, dia boleh cakap kat kitorang, "I'm fasting"... Aku dengan Dan terkelip-kelip... Geraaammmmm... tapi cam.. sabar je la budak kecik ni.. Heheheh... (Aznor.. ulang siaran untuk ko..hihi..)

Hmm... ok la tu kot... random thoughts on a lonely night without my hubby around. Sigh!~ Mulanya nak cari materials untuk assessment nanti. Isk.. tak prepare apa pun... Newspaper pun tak baca... Camne nanti kalau kena public speaking ni.. Uhuhuhhuuu... Lantok le... Malas teman nak mikio nye...

Nity nite amigos... Oh.. kasi gambar raya satu....

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Salam Aidilfitri




Buat sahabat-sahabat yang jauh di mata, tetapi selalu dekat di hati, I wish all of you a Selamat Hari Raya, dan maaf zahir dan batin atas segala kesilapan, juga sebab dah lama tak contact (phone). Huhu.. Rindu memang rindu. Sangat mengharapkan satu hari nanti, angan-angan kita yang dulu untuk beraya bersama-sama berserta family masing-masing menjadi kenyataan. :)

Apa pun, semoga kalian semua berbahagia dan bergembira di hari raya, jangan makan banyak sangat, nanti susah nak diet (ni pesanan untuk aku sebanarnya), drive elok-elok ke kampung, jaga anak-anak elok-elok, jangan bagi main mercun yang boleh memutuskan jari, jangan lupa bawa penutup hidung dan mulut untuk dibekalkan kepada mereka yang memerlukan. Last but not least, kenanglah daku masa makan kuih raya (you know just how much i loveee kuih rayas, don't you??) :)

Untuk makluman, saya akan mula bercuti jumaat ni, walauppun kampung saya di sini sahaja. Sebabnya? Nursery sarah ditutup sebab ada kes HFMD. Ni pun, MIL and hubby tengah jaga dia. Kalau aa kesempatan turun ke Lembah Klang, jemputlah beraya di rumah, ya? :)

Salam lebaran! :)

Friday, September 11, 2009

Grey Friday

Urghhh.... today is not such a good day, so far. Maybe i started the day on the wrong footing. I dunno. But everything seem to go on the opposite direction right now. And the way it's going, it sucks! Benci!

The division is having a buka puasa feast today. Aku cuma sumbang masa kutipan duit haritu. tak bawak apa-apa. Tak ada mood. :p

My low moods have been going on for the past week i think. Sucks... really.

Yesterday, in a meeting, ada orang cuba menangguk di air keruh. Openly wanting to tread of my boss' toes. and i thought they're long time friends. Like.. WTF man? Kenapa aku yang pissed if he wanted to step onto my boss' toes? Because, it also involves us, the division in a whole. That's whay i'm darn pissed of with that bloody basket.

Harini pulak, i made a phone call to an acquaintance. Aku tak kenal la siapa dia.. pastu nak cakap macam bagus. Like duh!~ Sila pergi mampus with your farking attitude.

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Urghhh... is it just me, or is the world trying to get at me and kick me in the butt? Sigh!~

Hurmm... just had to get that out of my system. I'm having a not so great day, and am yet to find a pick-me-up.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Sekejapan

Sekejap je dah masuk minggu terakhir Ramadhan ye. Hmm.. Sungguh simple aku rasa bulan puasa tahun ni. Tadarus pun sendiri2 je. Dulu, sebelum kementerian bubar, ada jugak buat tadarus ramai-ramai dengan warga kementerian yang lain. Ni, dengan budak-budak pejabat aje. Ada la dalam lima orang. Bila cuti pulak, sama-sama bercuti... hmm.. sampai juz 3 je la agaknye. Hihi. Takpe. Niat yang penting. :)

Rekod hingga hari ini untuk ramadhan tahun ini.. hehe. Tak singgah pun ke pasar ramadhan untuk beli lauk buat berbuka. Almost everyday masak sendiri ye. Hehe. Ada la jugak makan kat rumah MIL, rumah mama, makan kat luar... Tapi kira ok la kan. Dua kali je pergi pasar ramadhan, itupun sebab MIL pesan roti jala sekali, pastu beli kuih-kuih untuk buka puasa kat rumah mama sekali. Yang lain, takde. Save jugak bajet. Mana taknya. Kalau sekali pergi pasar Ramadhan tu, paling kurang mesti habis 10 hengget jugak kan? Fuhhh....

Baju raya? Hmm.. belum siap lagi. entah. Tak runsing sangat pun. Macam tak galok sangat je nak raya. Anak aku dah mula sibuk.. "we are going to hari raya??" dia tanya, tiap-tiap hari. Hehe. Macam satu tempat pulak hari raya tu. Takpelah. Janji dia suka. Baju dia dah siap dengan baju daddy. Kalau baju aku tak siap... hmmm... pakai la baju tahun-tahun lepas kot.. tapi, tailor itu tetap akan kena marah la kan. Hahaha...

Hmmm... macam takde mood pulak lately ni. Isk.

Maid aku pun macam dah mula lain macam je gayanya. Macam fizikal ada kat sini tapi fikiran kat tempat lain. Orang cakap lain, dia buat lain. Isk.. aku cakap hidang puding roti, dia hidang roti dengan jem semua.

Isk... Dekat rumah MIL baru-baru ni pun MIL kata dia mula buat hal. Aku keluar sekejap rasanya haritu. MIL nak masak untuk buka puasa. Maid aku ada kat situ, boleh buat dek je. Bila aku balik, baru dia terhegeh-hegeh nak tolong. Nak kata dia penat berpuasa. Well.. masa tu dia tengah cuti.

MIL kata, maybe dia ada boyfriend. Iskk.. Dah mula dah penyakit. Siap tanya-tanya MIL punya weekly maid about guards kat rumah MIL. WTF kan? Dah mula gatainya tu. Aku tak kisah kalau dia nak ada boyfriend ke apa. Tapi jangan samapi kena tangkap buat kerja sambil lewa. Memang aku pantang. Semalam, notice railing tangga berhabuk. Dey.. kalau aku nak biar railing tu berhabuk, aku tak payah ada maid. Aku buleh buat sendiri.

Entahla. Nak marah susah, tak marah, sakit je hati. Isk.. tu ada hati Indonesian government nak demand minimum wage for maids RM800 konon. Bukan ada value add pun. :p Suka menangguk di air keruh.

Ada maid susah... tak ada maid pun payah... sigh!~

Hmmm... time for bed. Tak guna pening kepala pasal maid, kan? Not worth the utilization of my brain cells.

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Hari Ini Dalam Sejarah

Pagi tadi, lepas mandi, out of nowhere DD minta nak gunakan potty. She sat there for a while, and she went! The big job and the small job, both!! Mula-mula masa nak poop tu, she kinda panicked and asked me to help her up. But i managed to calm her down, until she did both businesses in the potty.

After her afternoon nap, she used it again (although she did wet her diaper during her nap). Yeah. I still put her in her diaper, just in case (Ya, saya memang tidak rajin nak mengelap sebarang accidents. Bad mommy!). However, i asked her if she wants to potty every hour.

Let see how tomorrow goes.

Oh, btw, esok plan nak buat raya shopping. Baju untuk maid, some fancy ribbons to dress up sarah's baju kurung, mama's request of red tudung, a few other tudungs... hmm.. that's about it i guess.

Just saw KFC's new shrimp stick advertisement on TV. Those sticks looked huge on the commercial. Had them yesterday. Wayyy off. Those thing-a-ma-jigs were tiny!! :p

Ok. Retiring to bed now. Need a good rest before my shopping marathon tomorrow. :)

Nitey nite mateys!

Friday, September 04, 2009

Autocruise

Pernah tak experience buat sesuatu dalam keadaan autocruise. It's like, your mind isn't thinking, and your body just does what it usually does, your conscious mind became kind of unconscious, and you subconscious mind takes over.. (wow... that got me confused on how to spell conscious).

I've had that experience a couple of times. the most recent one was yesterday.

D-Day for me came yesterday.. you know, D-Day... when you diharamkan berpuasa (untuk perempuan sahaja ye)... So ok, i went about life as usual. Went back home, MPSJ was just about to start fogging our neighbourhood. After the foggig was done, i starte to prepare for break fast / dinner. Yesterday's menu was ayam masak paprik with sayur campur-campur.

Break-fast time was usually a simple affair. After breaking fast, teman sarah watch tv for a while. After that, my hubs went for shower and maghrib prayers. After he was done, i followed suit! I prayed maghrib. Tak sedar langsung tengah having menses. Siap plan nak mengaji pulak tu, nasib baik tak jadi sebab takut lambat sarah nak dinner. Like weird. Dan pun macam tak perasan...

Even lepas solat tu pun tak sedar jugak. When we were having dinner, kepala aku dok plan lagi, lepas ni naik atas, change sarah into her pjs, solat isyak... and then, all of a sudden it strucked me. I was having my menses.. What in the world was i doing praying maghrib just now???

Yep.. i was certainly on autocruise mode... Sigh!~

Thursday, September 03, 2009

Pick Me Up

Hurmm... my muse started writing again. How lovely. :)

Sigh! Had to give sarah an enema last night. The teacher told me that she was having hard stools and was having a hard time excreting them. This time around, she was wailing when we told her what we're gonna do. Last time elok je. Maybe because she had a tough time pooping at school kot.

Now.. this constipation thing always happens once in a while. Like most other toddlers, she just refused to eat veggies. Cakapla macam mana pun, eat celery stick like the Wonderpets ke, eat spinach like poppeye ke, have to eat veggies to poop better ke... Tak jalan jugak. Haritu, we went to a restaurant where they served celery sticks and carrots with dips as the appetizer. We're quite relieved that she took one celery stick, and dipped in the veggie dip. Alih-alih, dia makan dip je.. celery tu panjang tu la jugak. Sigh!~ Maybe i'm not persistent enough when introducing veggie kot. Huh.. Kena lebih persistent lepas ini, dan lebih tenacious dari sarah. Hehehe..

Sometimes, when making tomato sauce for pasta, aku masukkan jugak grated carrots, tapi sarah kurang gemar tomato sauce. She drinks juice, but i think the best source of fiber is in the fruit/veggie itself. Bila dah jadi juice, fiber dah kurang, gula je lebih.

She used to enjoy eating carrots and peas when she was younger. In fact, we had no trouble getting her to eat veggies when we introduced them earlier, when she started solids. Sekarang je, bila dah besar dan makin bijak, semuanya yang macam sayur dan buah... "I don't want!!" Hadeyy...

Bagi idea sikit, boleh?

i. Macam mana nak bagi toddler makan fiber - buah/sayur/ other fibrous foods.
ii. Idea resepi yang boleh dicuba.
iii. Petua / teknik meredakan constipation.

Terima kasih atas idea-idea anda, ya?

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Ramblings

Di luar hujan. Pendingin hawa di pejabat ini pula sangat kuat. Sejuk. Hingga ke jari jemari. Tak bolehbuat kerja.. boleh type posting sahaja.. Hahaha.. Bengong.

Dalam kesejukan, aku click nlog chedet. Lama aku tak masuk, sebab blog-blog itu menambah tekanan perasaan. Don't get me wrong. Tun is very upfront dengan apa yang dibicarakan, dan dia memang ada point untuk semua benda yang dia khabarkan. More often than not, his take on any subjects are spot on. Juga, memberi kesedaran dan informasi kepada orang yang kurang tahu, like c'est moi. Ia menjadi tekanan bila keadaan negara sekarang tidak memberi prihatin terhadap apa yang Tun katakan dan dok pulun lagu tu jugak. It almost seem like, the future is pretty bleak. Sadly, we won't be living in this future. Our generation will. Kita nak wariskan bleak future ke?

Semua benda nak dipolitikkan. Negara kita baru merdeka 52 tahun. Tapi berapa banyak yang menghayati kemerdekaan? Iyalah, orang tak pernah rasa susah, tak pernah rasa zaman perang. Ye, aku pun tak pernah lalu zaman itu, tapi, dari pembelajaran Sejarah masa di sekolah, tak banyak sikit, ada penghayatan terhadap susahnya tok nenek kita dulu nak dapatkan kemerdekaan. Sorry to say ramai generasi baru ni tak sedar. Belajar sejarah tak nak. Sekolah pun tak wajib ambil kan? Yang melayu, sibuk sambut merdeka dengan rempitan di sana sini, bawak la bendera malaysia tu dengan kapcai diorang. Apa rasionalnya? Apa pengisian kemerdekaannya? Kalau tanya sorang-sorang, nanti nak jadi apa, yang boleh disumbangkan kepada negara? Pasti rata-rata cakap tak tau lagi la... Salah siapa kalau anak bangsa tak ada wawasan?

Yang non bumi pulak, asyik nak persoalkan hak keistimewaan bumi. Always want to take, but not willing to give. Tak perlu hurai banyak2. Refer to demi negara dah cukup.

Paling aku muak, sikit-sikit 1Malaysia. Sini 1Malaysia, sana 1Malaysia. Apa sebenarnya 1Malaysia ni? Everybody tak mengira kaum is Malaysian? Really? Rukunegara pun tak tentu hafal dalam bahasa kebangsaan yang betul, ada hati nak mengaku Malaysian? Pulak tu, pemimpin sendiri, utamakan politik masing-masing dari kesejahteraan negara. Satu perkara yang obviously menyumbang kepada perpaduan tak nak buat. Kata we are not ready konon. Kalau macam tu, we are not ready to become 1Malaysia. As DN said, it's more like 3 in 1 Malaysia (or 4/5/more..).

Politik berteraskan wang... akhirnya bencana. Bila agaknya politik nak bertunjangkan ilmu?

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Early morning update on My Little Jewel

Hmm.. dah lama tak update about my little buah hati penagarang jantung kan?

Alhamdulillah, bulan ni, she's going to be 30 months old. Potty training?? She seemed to be unready to use the potty. She sits on it without any diaper, but just for play. She can tell when she's going to poop, but she doesn't say when she feels like a pee coming. my BIL said that we should just go cold turkey (somewhat). just let her roam around the house without her diaper on. Once she peed without the diaper, she'll get the hang of it. Hmmm... i dunno. What do you experienced mummy think? on my part, aku pun rasa aku yang tak ready... lols... potty training will be another sign that my baby is growing up... Sigh!~

About 2 weeks ago, she had a bout of fever, cold and coughing. We were extremely worried, but alhamdulillah, she's all better now. We've stopped giving her cod liver oil for a while when she got the flu, since she looked like she's gone muak of that thingy, but, after the bout of fever, we're giving it back to her, to increase her immunity to ward off diseases, insyaAllah. The fever also caused her to drop a kilo, but looking at her current appetite, i think she's making up for it now.

Currently, she's practicing for her concert, due in october. Hehe.. Tak sabar nak tengok!!

In terms of sociability... sangat lah friendly nya!! Sometimes dia tak layan, but sometimes, bila tiba friendly tu, mulut macam bertih goreng, pot-pet-pot-pet. Hehehe. Haritu, konon-konon nak warning daddy supaya jangan smack her bum bum. Dia cakap kat daddy, "If you smack my bum bum, i'm going to switch on your computer.." Hehehe... lawak.. tapi kontrol.. sebab it's not right for her to do that kan..

Ada sekali tu, daddydia jentik dia.. sikit je, atas diaper. Masa tukat rumah MIL, dia pun apa lagi.. main wayang baaaiiikkk punya. Menangis macam kena rotan. So dia nangis2 datang kat aku, aku pun hug dia sampai dia reda. Lepas tu, daddy panggil dia, offered her a hug. Dia cakap kat daddy, "Daddy, you don't jentik me anymore ok.." dengan muka sedih. Hehehe.. Kesian nengoknya.

Melaram pun dah pandai. Pilih baju tu biasa la kan. Pastu boleh pilih kasut mana nak pakai pulak... And then, amek handbag aku, claim tu handbag dia. Bila aku kata that's mine, dia boleh berdiplomatik pulak.. dia kata "we use it together, ok?" Hai.. sabar je lah.

Whatever it is, we are so very proud of her.

Sarah, i want you to know that we are very, very proud of you. Even though sometimes i might get angry at you, it's not because of you, it's because of the things that you may have done, that was improper. We love you so much in every way there is, and my little baby girl, you'll always, alwasy be mommy's little baby, no matter how old you are. :)

Friday, August 21, 2009

Pot Luck Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah, masih diberi peluang untuk bertemu lagi bulan Ramadhan Al Mubarak tahun ini, insyaAllah.

Sempena menyamput ketibaan Ramadhan, bahagian kami (yang akan dipecah-pecahkan tidak lama lagi khabarnya) buat makan-makan sikit. Masing-masing bawa potluck sorang sikit. Ada yang bawak dalca, sambal tempoyak, gulai udang dengan nenas, uish.. bila dah keluarkan semua potluck tu, dari hujung sini, sampai hujung sinun... heheh. Penuh meja.

My menu? Aku bawa spaghetti bolognese, sebabnya aku rasa itu je yang sempat nak dibuat. Pulak tu, puan ada bagi aku sepokok oregano untuk ditanam, jadi aku amek kesempatan dah ada fresh oregano tu untuk buat bolognese sauce dan dimakan bersama spaghetti. Pagi-pagi konon nak bangun setengah jam lebih awal dari biasa untuk masak (pukul 5 pagi).. Alih-alih, bangun macam biasa gak. Heheh. Terpaksa minta excuse dari bos untuk masuk lewat sikit. Nasib baik bos i sporting. :)

Lagi satu menu, aku bawak banana pie. Resepi yang baru first time aku cuba, diambil dari majalah women's weekly. Senang dan nampak sedap, aku gamble je buat dan bawak ke opis.

Verdict? For both, budak2 kat opis kata sedap you.. Chewahh... kembang semangkuk i kejap. Nasib baik i pakai PB.. takla kembang sangat. Hehehe... Lady boss siap cakap "You ni pandai masak la." Ewahh... Huhuh.. Melonjak-lonjak rasa di hati. Iyela,orang tak pandai masak tiba-tiba kena puji pandai masak pulak. Kih kih kih... kelakar pun ada.

Dia tak tau.. spaghetti bolognese tu je la yang aku reti masak dari jaman dolu-dolu. Hihihi.. Benda lain?? Hagham tak reti. :p

Alhamdulillah, lain kali buleh la nak masak-masak bawak kat opis lagi.. Itupun, kalau masih di bahagian ini. Kalau kena transfer ke bahagian lain, dengan perangai-perangai poyo kebanyakan officer kat kementerian ni.. Isk... patahlah hatiiiii.... :(

Selamat berpuasa. Jangan lupa niat puasa nanti ye.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Stress Management Course... so called

Jumaat lepas, aku terima emel tentang notis panggilan menyertai Kursus Pengurusan Stress. Reaksi pertama? "Aku lagi???" Sebabnya, aku baru je ikuti kursus bahasa bulan lepas. Ni dapat pulak pergi kursus lagi. Untuk tidak menyusahkan diri aku sendiri, i decided to attend the course. Lagipun, bunyinya menarik. It is something that i can benefit from.

So, selepas setelkan penempatan sarah sementara aku menjalani kursus, aku pun pergila daftar masuk pada hari isnin malam. The first session was ice breaking. Initially i thought..ler.. boring betul la nak berice-breaking hapa kejadah kan.. tapi.. first session macam ok. Dia perkenal la sikit about stress.. Things taht basically we all already know, without even having to attend the course. Tapi takpe, i gave them the benefit of doubt. Layan je la kursus ni. Habis, terus balik, tidur. :)

The next day, the ridiculousness of the program starts. Pagi, sesi biasa. Penceramah pesan untuk dress appropriately, pakai seluar and pakai kasut sukan atau selipar untuk ativiti petang. Penceramah yg pesan. Organizer (satu bhg di kementerian) tak pesan pun untuk peserta bawa benda2 macam tu. So, aku memang tak bawak la mende2 tu semua. Kalau rumah sebelah tempat kursus tu lain la cerita.. ni satu kerja la pulak nak balik amek kan. Takpe...blasah.

Petang, lepas dia bagi taklimat sikit, every group diberi envelope tentang tugasan yang perlu dibuat. It involved doing unnecesssary things, taking unnecessary risks, buat benda bodoh like walking about 4km in the hot sun looking for stupid things, yag akhirnya, bila dapat, tak diterangkan pulak rasional aktiviti2 tersebut dijalankan. WTF kan? Yang ahli2 kumpulan ni pulak, mostly sokongan. they are used to taking orders and following. Takde justification, takde rationale, buat je. So, takkan la aku nak abandon group aku kan. Terpaksa la ikut jugak walaupun berbuih mulut aku cakap yg we're just wasting our time. End up, mmg sah la waste of time. Bangang.

Malam, benda yg sama. We had to walk around the hotel cari benda dari klu yang diberikan. Ada la dalam 20 benda ada kot. Klu2 nya adalah gambar yg diambil dari kedai2 persekitaran.So, we had to walk round and round to look for it.Yang sokongan ni, kita faham, dia terima arahan dan buat. No strategising whatsoever. Yg aku geram, when i told the group that we have to strategize supaya optimumkan effort kita.. eh tak.. dia nak cepat2 jalan sebab? group lain dah jalan. Lagi pun ada anggota group lain tu orang situ. Duhh.. benda tu kat sepang. Aku pun orang situ jugak. :p Bengang la aku. Terus aku cakap je.. habis kalau group lain masuk lombong kita pun masuk lombong la?

Habis aktiviti dlm 10.30 malam..Again, no ratinalizing. Takpe.. still bg benefit of doubt, maybe esok (last day) akan diterangkan rasional di sebalik kedua-dua aktiviti tersebut dijalankan.

Tiba hari yg ditunggu2.. pagi, dia lanjutkan penerangan serba sedikit abt stress management. Again, benda yg kita dah tau. Dia jugak ckp, sesi rationalizing akan diadakan pukul 11 pagi, sebelum sesi penyampaian sijil pukul 12. Fine, aku tunggu. Kita buat aktiviti dan presentation yang ntahapa2, juga tanpa penerangan apa rasional aktiviti tersebut dibuat. Tiba2, lepas presentation kumpulan, dia kata ok.. your boss punn dah ada di sini... and he got on with his thanks and last word. Aku pun apa lagi... we went through hell yesterday and you can't even tell us why we had to do it?? Sebelum sempat dia habiskan his last sords, aku angkat tgn, nk tanya. Bila diberi peluang, aku pun tanya la, "So what's the moral behind what we did yesterday?" Jawapan dia amat mengecewakan aku. Dia kata, oh, nak tunjukkan the kind of stress yang you (us) boleh alami when asked to do several things yang you tak boleh say no to. I was like. Fark it man... i don't need to be told how to get stressed. I think kami ramai2 yang dtg kursus ni dah ada stress tiap2 hari di office, tak perlu buat aktiviti bangang macam semalam pun kami dah ada stress. What we need to know is how to manage it. Bodoh. Sayangnya, aku tak dapat lanjutkan perdebatan tu sbb masa dah tamat and i'd rather go back dari menghadap muka so called prof madya tu.

Did i mention what we had to do? Kitorang kena pergi disuruh dapatkan maklumat di balaik polis, tapi since diorang tak selaraskan dengan pihak balai, maklumat yg dikehendaki tak boleh diberi atas alasan sulit. Pastu kena pergi gas station tanya how much is petrol need to be sold to cover daily operations. Benda yg you can calculate, tapi, tu la, being with teh other group members yang just do it.. pergi jugak .. 2 - 4 km ye.. jalan. And i didn't bring my sports shoe. I walked with 2.5inch heels. I went back kaki ayam coz y feet couldn't take it anymore. And did i mention that we had to cross a 4-lane highway to get from the IPD to the gas station. Masa tu banyak pulak kenderaan berat. All that unnecessary risk for what? Dahla tak diterangkan apa rasionalnya, i had to ask for it pulak tu. And the 5 hour ordeal diterangkan dalam masa less than 5 minutes. Tak marah? Bongok. Course paling bongok aku pernah pergi.

My marks for borang maklumbalas ranged from 1(lemah) to 2(tidak memuaskan), plus a lengthy comment. Hope they revise the course.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Nostalgic

I don't know why, but today (rather, lately) i've been feeling quite nostalgic. Mengimbau kenangan lalu.. hehehe..

Korang ingat lagi tak gambar ni? Tadi aku search google for that favourite tutor of ours masa kita first year dulu. Guess what.. it's been 10 years now since we were in first year. Like wow.. sepuluh tahun dah. Tak dapat cari any maklumat about tutor sorang ni. Isk... i do hope i can contact him. Saja nak ambil tahu perkembangan dia.. anak dah berapa, masih suka tengok dan nyanyilagu hindustan lagi ke.. Hehehe..
:)

Seronok kan masa belajar dulu? No worries... the only worries masa tu pun, tutorial siapa yang nak dibuat contoh (read:tiru), kuiz dr awan... hahaha..., *stimulate* vs. simulate dr os.. Lagi satu lecturer siapa yg suka bawak rantingpanjang dlm kelas tu.. heheh... isk.. aku suka subjek tu.. Tapi mmg killer subjek kan.. terbunuh la aku. Hahaha..

Apa-apa daa.. Janji harini aku rasa ok. Sarah pun dah tak demam, suami pun dah nak balik.. So, i'm pretty happy.

Enjoy the very nostalgic photo. :)

Friday, August 07, 2009

Reserve Your Comments. I'm Not Your Friend

Aku menyampah bila orang buat komen yang aku rasa personal when that person is not even my friend.

Just because you're my colleague doesn't automatically make you my friend. Therefore, please reserve whatever comments that you may find interesting to yourself. I can't be bothered with them. I think more often than not, i can't understand a word you're saying and the things that you say are lame and pathetic.

I guess old farts doesn't change. Heh.

Tu diaa.. mula posting dengan kata-kata nista tu. Chewah. Bukan apa. Aku rasa menyampah kat officemate sorang ni. We were at the pantry having lunch. Kebetulan pulak harini ramai orangyang aku tak berapa kenal kat situ, mostly guys. We ladies were sitting at the end of the table, her included. We just ate and borak-borak la sikit, over lunch. Tiba-tiba dia nak buat komen abaout my appearance konon, compare masa aku belumkawen. Fark it woman. I just got to know you about 3 months back and here you are yapping at me about something that's personal to me like you've known me for years? Sorry.. i'm not your kind yang menjaja segala cerita dalam kain kelambu semua to sesiapa sahaja yang sudi mendengar. Dari mula2 dia masuk pun memang aku stay away sikit dari dia, sebab memang aku rasa tak comfortable dengan her over-friendliness. I guess i was right and i should keep my distance.

Huh. Bosan betul ada manusia macam ni. Sibuk jaga tepi kain orang. Kain sendiri koyak rabak tak nampak. Jenis yang nampak koyak di kain sendiri pulak, bukan nak tutup, malah nak selak pulak lagi. Macam-macam.

Wokey.. cukup sesi luah perasaan. Nasib baik ada lagi sikit saki-baki kebunga-bungaan. Kurangla sikit itu amarah. :)

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Macam-macam

Huh. I really, really can't stand stupidity on the road. SERIOUSLY. I can't say it enough. I can't stand stupidity and dumbness on the road. Dumb people with slow reaction time and low processing power and couldn't compute simple things in a snap should just take public transportation to wherever it is that they want to go. Saves everyone else the trouble.

There. That didn't quite start my day right.

Luckily something else happened that kinda made my day. I'll reserve the details just for me though. Hehe. Biarlah aku dengan kebunga-bungaan ku. :)

Yesterday, the school sent us a notice, saying that there was a case of H1N1 detected on a student. However, the officers from the Health Office had come to check the premises and allowed the school's daily operation. I sure hope everything is ok. If mu hubby's home, i have a choice to not send sarah to school. But now that hubby's away, i don't really have a choice. Sigh!~ Semoga Allah selamatkan kita dan anak-anak kita dari wabak penyakit dan bala bencana. Amin!~

Monday, August 03, 2009

Trip To The Zoo



As i've mentioned in my previous post, here's some piccas from our recent zoo trip. It wasn't as bad as imagined it would be. The two girls were manageable, as they both were at their best behavior. Sarah was a little clingy towards me, but it was still ok. A little tiring, but it's ok.

First we walked around the zoo to see the animals. Had a chance to watch the animal show at the amphitheatre. The girls had fun, so did we. :) Then we walked some more, and stopped at the restaurant to rest and have some snacks. Unfortunately the, the place was pretty horrible and smelt like pee and roaches, so we made our way out and lepak at the ice cream cafe instead. The ice cream were soooo overpriced! Imagine, the simple wall's ice cream that you can get for 5 bucks for a 1.5L container, they sold it for 3 bucks per scoop there. You have to pay an extra 80cents for the chocolate sauce. Ridiculous ain't it? Sigh. What to do...

The zoo didn't feel as big as it did when i was little. We enjoyed walking around. They now have a children's corner, where they put in barn animals and they allow visitors to pat and touch the animals. If you happen to go there ladies, i would advice you not to pat the pony too much. I did, and the pony kinda followed us around. The only problem is that it's "member" was getting engorged!! Heh. We fled the scene a.s.a.p. Tapi macam kesian kat pony tu. Hehe. gerbang takde mate. So, when you go there, do be careful so as not to overstimulate the poor pony, ok?

Before we left, we took a tram to go round the zoo. Ada pulak production house yang buat shooting masa tu. While we're waiting for the tram to move, ada la mamat actor ni datang, tanyang muka. Kitorang buat dek je. Tapi adalah family lain yang macam excited tengok dia meluangkan masa borak2. We just couldn't give a hoot, you know?

Balik, pergi singgah KFC for a real fried chicken fast food. Yummy.

Sampai rumah, anak aku ajak nak pergi lagi. Uhuh... nanti la dulu ye sayang girl. Nexxxxttttt time.
Hectic Weekend

Alhamdulillah, weekend lepas dah pun berlalu. Hectic, but still managebale, and most importantly, enjoyable. :) Oh, the week before had been fun too. We managed to go to the zoo with the two girls. Nanti la cerita, berserta gambar. Harni cerita tentang benda2 tanpa gambar.

Our event at PWTC went well. Although ada hiccups here and there, tidaklah sampai menjejaskan keseleruhan majlis tersebut. Walaupun tahun rasanya event ni tak se gah tahun-tahun sebelumnya, but it made quite a good impact. The result surpasses the expectation. Kira okla kan.

We had the official dinner on friday. Heh. Gila. Official dinner oleh YBTM. HOD tak ramai, ada sorang dua je. Ada delegates from Indonesia. Kitroang ajak mereka poco-poco. Guess who went on stage... no, not one round... THREE. :D Hari ni tunggu-tunggu jugak, kalau kalau ada yang kena surat tunjuk sebab. Heheh. Tapi, tak salah rasanya menghayati kebudayaan negara jiran. ;)

Saturday, tahlil and BBQ di rumah nenek. Lawaknya, pakcik yang bawa tahlil tu terlupa nak bertahlil. Jadila dia baca yasin berjemaah. :) Takpelah. BBQ was super. Sarah had smashing time with her cousins. Aku je tak larat nak layan dia. Tidur pun lambat malam tu. Try bagi dia makan ketam. Dia sangat suka. Nasib baik tak ada naik rashes. Risau juga sebab lately ni, dia macam kena eczema. Yang kitorang notice the triggers were chicken, prawns and eggs. Pelik bila makan ketam ok pulak. Nanti nak try bagi semula ayam/telur/udang. Ada reaction ke tak.

Mama cakap, the first thing that my cousins did when they arrived was selongkar album2 lama. Siap la lepas ni mesti dalam fb keluar la muka zaman dinosour tu. Huhu. Bersedia je la. Demmit.

Hmm.. dah tak reti nak bercerita. Kenapa ye...?

Friday, July 24, 2009

Going Green

Alhamdulillah, hari jumaat ni menyaksikan pertambahan kepada keluarga sebelah ibu yang sudah sedia besar. My cousin have safely delivered a baby just now. Baby girl. Alhamdulillah, semua selamat. early by 2 weeks kot, sebab due early august.

Anyways, i can't help but to feel a slight tinge of jealousy towards her. I guess that was how she felt about me when i gave birth 2 years ago. Although, my jealousy doesn't bring me to the point of wanting to avoid her or anything la, unlike what she did unto me and my daughter. She had only come to getting to know and somehow acknowledge the existence of my daughter after she got pregnant. She might not see it that way. She'd been avoiding the whole family since she'd gotten married anyway, but I could feel the thingamadoodle there, you know?

Anyways, getting back to my jealousy. Hmm.. i wish i could be in her shoes. Getting pregnant and giving birth all over again. Yep. My pregnancy had been a roller coaster of emotions, and i dread the time my obgyn was stitching my episiotomy site, but all that was well worth it when i held my baby in my arms, looking at her serene face, and watch her grow, day by day, listen to her laughs and giggles (not to mention her wails and whines), listen to her as she speaks her first word and progress with more vocabulary day after day. So, yeah, i wish and long for another baby. But, i understand that welcoming another human being isn't just a matter of longing and wanting. It comes along with a huge package of responsibility, readiness in terms of mental, physical, emotional, and one of the most important things, financial.

The world today is full of nasty people. Just look at the news we hear each day. Ahhh.. susah nak cakap. Seriously, thinking about all the bad things that are happening, i worry for the future of our children. Serba salah. Entahlah...

Apapun, ni semua rezeki Tuhan. Kalau Dia mahukan ianya terjadi, maka ia akan terjadi. Ya Allah, kurniakanlah aku kesabaran dan keimanan teguh kepadaMu. Jauhilah diri ini dari penyakit-penyakit hati. Cukuplah dengan apa yang telah Engkau kurniakan. Amin!~

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Gajah Sama Gajah Bergaduh, Pelanduk Mati Di Tengah-tengah

Hai.. hari yang penuh mesyuarat dan kejadian yang mengganggu emosi aku.

First meeting was in the morning. All of my bosses terlibat. Tiba one time, all bosses termasuk satu jr yang diminit sama dan satu jr gipang yang mengofferkan diri untuk hadir sama pergi pula ke mesyuarat lagi satu. So, the most senior person from my division left in the meeting was me. Ada lagi officer lain dari division yang sama, tapi lebih junior. Ahli mesyuarat yang lain datang dari luar Kementerian.

The pengerusi, masa tu lah yang dipilih untuk bang one of my bosses left, right and centre. Aku punya la bengang. Bukan la aku backing semua benda yang bos aku buat. I know, there are things that he can improve. But to personally attack someone in a meeting full of outsiders is not right la aku rasa. Nak pulak bila orang tu tak ada untuk defend diri dia sendiri. Kalau la meeting tu cuma ada officer bahagian kami ke, atau bahagian lain dalam ministry ke, aku boleh terima lagi. Dahla chairman tu someone senior in the ministry. I'm quite baffled that he behaved like that. I thought someone of his rank would have more rationale.

I couldn't contain my emotions to myself. We talked among ourselves. Memang tak mau bagitau bos itu apa yang jadi dalam mesyuarat. Tiba-tiba, tadi aku terima sms dari dia untuk tulis apa hentaman yang diperkatakan dalam mesyuarat. Erghh.. I don't think that's right, walaupun memang hati aku melonjak-lonjak nak bagitau je.

Tapi, macam batu api la pulak, kan?

Sigh!.. Pergi solat dulu la. Semoga diberi petunjuk apa benda terbaik yang aku boleh buat sekarang.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Horsey, horsey

Yesterday, while in the car, on our way home...

Me : Mommy's gotta attend a course this weekend alright.
DD : Yeay. I like to ride the horse.
Me : No, not a horse. A course. Like going to school. (eleh.. Like riding horse konon. Naik carousel pun melalak. :p )

Lain pulak perginya. Huh. This weekend kena pergi bengkel penulisan minit dan bla..bla.. bla.. Bosan. There goes my weekend.

However, our little niece is coming over next monday. Promised to take her and sarah to the zoo. Huh.. nak pergi mintak cuti ni...

Alamak.. bengong bos suruh jadi pengerusi kelab sukan bahagian pulok. Uhuk. Sukan apa? Kuak lentang? Congkak? Batu seremban? Tapi.. kitorang dah pun mula satu aktiviti. Poco-poco. Lepas tamat waktu kerja, buat poco2 sikit sebelum balik. Best woo.. Nak kena cari step baru lagi ni. Bosan asyik step basic kan? ;)

Okla.. Kerja.. kerja... dan kerja.. karang nak poco-poco.. :D

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Back In My Kitchen

Yep, i'm back into my humble kitchen, since i'm all well from the fever and cold and stuffs. My little sidekick is all better too. Just a little cough once in a while...and one more day of antibiotics and i bet she'll be in the pink again.

My hubby's back from detachment. But, he isn't home. He's in self quarantine at MIL's. Many thanks to his company for sending crews on detachments on high risk Swine Flu country. Don't fret. He's not down with the flu or anything. It's just a safety measure for our family.

Tadi, try masak tom yam tanpa pes tom yam. Ambil resepi dari myresepi. Verdict? SEDAP!!. Jauh lebih sedap dari guna pes tom yam. Macam makan kat kedai rasanya. Hehe. Jangan salah faham ye. Ini bukan ayat puji diri masak sedap. Ini memuji resepi tersebut yang sedap. Klik sini jika nak cuba resepi tersebut. Sedap tau!

Ok.. nak mula projek video editing yang dah terlalu lama take a back seat. Have a wonderful weekend. :)

Friday, July 10, 2009

Fever Bug

Rabu lepas aku EL, sebab selasa aku macam demam kura, lepas pergi klinik, dr bagi mc untuk hari selasa tersebut (walaupun aku dah separuh hari kerja and bos aku dah bagi excuse untuk aku balik awal). Malam tu aku makin teruk sikit, telan ubat demam n selsema, pagi tak mampu bangun. Texted my boss, cakap EL, since anak aku temperature naikbalik malam tu.

Wednesday, lepas dah rasa ok sikit, kemas pulak barang-barang untuk balik dari rumah mama. Sent our things home and headed straight to pantai to see her paed. By the timejumpa paed tu, dia dah tak demam or anything la, but we went anyway, just to be sure that all is fine.

Sarah was her merry and cheery self. Selagi ada orang yang duduk sebelah kitorang kat waiting lounge tu dia tegur dan ajak borak. When it was our turn to see the paed, paed kata, not too worry la, since sarah is active. Kalau dengue ke, chikugunya or swine flu, her temperature will be very high that she won't have that much anergy. She'll be weak and lethargic. All the time the paed was explaining to me, sarah sat down playing with a xylophone.

Then the dr asked me about her constipation, the last time we went to see him, paed tu ada bagi ubat la to ease constipation. I told him it worked, but i had problems giving it to her since she doesn't like the taste. Tiba-tiba, ada suara kecik mencelah, "I don't like it Dr. Azam!" Ternganga paed tu. Paed cakap.. wah.. wah.. wahh!!... Huhuhh.... pandai komplen dah mek nih...

Semalam, she was getting better. Fever dah tak ada. Tapi i think she has a sore throat, so dia tak ada appetite makan, and since tak ada appetite, dia macam laid back sikit. Cikgu kat sekolah cakap dia sensitif lebih semalam. Isk.. sedih aku tengok dia tak aktif macam biasa. Ye la, kesian kan kalau tengok budak-budak yang dah biasa melasak, tiba-tiba macam tak bersemangat je.

Sigh!~ I hope today she'll get even better. Her daddy's back from Manila today. On-board scanning ok tadi kata nya. Tapi, for sarah's sake, he's going to self quarantine kat rumah MIL for a couple of days, just to be on the safe side.

Harap-harap semua selamat. Amin!~

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

Sniffle, Sniffle

Semalam i was on a day trip to kuching. Daytrip. Macam pergi ipoh je. Balik, aku mula selsema. Mungkin sebab aku tak cukup tidur malam sebelumnya. Aku harap macam tu la.. Jangan la benda lain.

Flight aku ke kuching semalam pukul 8.15 pagi. Aku tidur rumah mama, kena bangun pukul 5.15 untuk bersiap. Malam tu jugak, pukul 2.15 pagi, aku hantar anak aku ke emergency di hospital pantai, bangsar. Dia dah demam masuk hari kedua, dan temperature masih tinggi. It was about 38.7 C macam tu. Dr tengok, bagi dia suppository, and suruh tunggu another day. Kalau masih demam dengan suhu tinggi jugak, admit untuk buat blood test. Semalam, alhamdulillah, dia tak demam. Tengok harini pulak macam mana. Mungkin demam dia pindah kat aku pulak kot?

So, pukul 4.15 pagi aku samapai semula ke rumah mama. Sempat la tidur dalam 40 minit sebelum bersiap-siap ke Kuching. Sampai sana untuk meeting, kepala aku dah weng. Cakap apa dalam meeting entah. Habis meeting, beli barang sikit, dan terus ke airport pukul 4.30 ptg. Flight pukul 8 malam. Nasib baik tiket business, lepak dekat lounge, tidur sekejap, makan, tidur lagi, makan lagi, buat sudoku, sampai pukul 7.30, boarded the aircraft dan sangat bersedia untuk balik.

Pelik sikit, masa nak landing, aku rasa macam telinga sakit. Dah equalize pun sakit lagi. Lepas tu aku picit2 belakang bahu. Rasa macam something "tangkap" dekat kepala, terus sakit kepala, leher, selagi ada benda. Tak pernah rasa sakit gitu. Apesal ntah. Aku harap angin je la... Jangan la yg lebih serius.

Bye.. nak pergi meeting.

Friday, July 03, 2009

Tragic

What a morning.

Sakit perut pagi-pagi buta. Sangat. Nostalgia pulak rasanya. Terkenang masa nak beranak 2 tahun lepas.

Sampai pejabat, selesaikan dulu hajat, dapat panggilan dari rumah. Maid telefon. Ada anjing mati. DI HALAMAN RUMAH!!

Tension betul. Bodoh punya anjing. Macam tak ada tempat lain dia nak mati.

Memang la aku pernah tergerak nak racun je anjing tu. Bengang punya pasal. Dua tiga hari kebelakangan ni, dia suka sangat masuk rumah. Geram la kan. Tapi tergerak di hati je. Taklah sampai tergamak nakbuat pun. Rupanya memang anjing tu nak cari tempat nak mati. Tak payah aku racunkan dia, memang dia nak mati dah pun.. Patutla muka stoned je bila aku sergah. Tengah nazak ke.. Sorryla en. anjing. Aku tak tau ko dah nak mati. Tapi.. siapa suruh ko masuk rumah aku. Punya banyak rumah kosong, nak masuk gak laman aku tau. Ingat macam Nilai memorial park ke?

Huhu... tenang... tenang...

Macam mana aku nak buat dengan anjing tu? Ada idea?

Thursday, July 02, 2009

Big Breakfast

Describe heaven on earth...

I think, as for today, it's a massive breakfast of freshly "tokak-ed" durians. Like seriously. There must've been around 20 fruits, and there's only about 4 small ones left. We had it in the office pantry. Some colleagues went to this ex-boss' durian orchard yesterday and brought back a trolley-full. Everybody who isn't fasting today had their fill, and the not so good ones were packed into containers and the lady boss will make some serawa durian for tomorrow's fiesta pulak.

Heh... who says good things doesn't come for free huh?

Still feeling thornish.. Directly translated from durian-ish. Dsdn't keep count of how many of the sweet lovely things that i had devoured. Still full, til now. I guess i wouldn't need the normal lunch. Probably settle with some cereal. If only i could get some lime juice to balance off the fats from durian. Hehe. Menyedapkan hati.

Obviously, i'm not dieting. Well, honestly, i'm not motivated enough to diet. wanted to blog about it a few days back but got distracted and didn't continue to date. Sigh. Will get back on that in another post. As for now, juts enjoy the fullness of durians. *Burp* Excuse me... do you smell the durians?? Heheh.. Sorry for the gross-ness of it. ;)

Thursday, June 25, 2009

...

Itulah isi dalam otak aku sekarang. Aku kena sediakan perancangan 5 tahun dalam masa 10 hari (lebih kurang). Logik tak?

Sekarang otak tengah jem. Tak ramai pulak kawan2 yang online. Uhuhuhu.. layan la jem ni sorang-sorang. :(
..Once there was a little girl...

Semalam aku cuti. Saja. To spend the day with my hubs before he leaves for the 2-weeks Manila detachment today. Kebetulan, yesterday was my brother's and our niece's birthday so we made a call to Doha to wish the little girl who turned seven yesterday. Gosh.. she's already seven! How time flies!

Anyways, entah kenapa, DD macam bertih goreng semalam. Bercakap tak henti-henti. Even masa kena paksa take afternoon nap pun, dia dok bermonolog, tapi secara berbisik. Tak tau la apa yang dia cakap.

Petang, paksu dia datang, lepas dinner, we just hung out at the living area. DD yang memang dari pagi tak diam, sambung la cerita dia yang tak habis. Takpela, elok lagi dia bercakap dari dia diam and monyok je kan.

Dia ambil stroller mainan dan tolak teddy bear dia dalam stroller tu. Dia kata "I'm going shopping."

Aku tanya, "What are you shopping for?"

"Cheese.. and bread."

Heh. Obviously, those were regulars on our grocery list.

"I cannot find the cheese mommy" Dia kata lagi. Huh.. Aku dan paksu dia bantai gelak.

Lepas paksu balik, tukar pakaian DD into her sleepwear and took her to bed. She lay down on daddy's lap, sambil minum susu. Aku duduk sebelah daddy bacakan bedtime story (i do need to get new books for her). Lepas tamat dua buah buku seperti kebiasaannya, we put her to bed. Dia minta aku bacakan lagi satu buku. Daddy ambil alih, tak bacabuku, cuma bercerita. Cerita Cinderella. Lepas perenggan akhir "and they lived happily ever after", DD sambungkan.. "The end." Heh.

Kemudian DD kata, "Sarah's turn" dan dia mula bercerita:

"Once, there was a little girl. Little girl walk like this. *Bangun dari katil dan berjalan. Kemudian, baring semula di riba aku.* And then, the little girl run like this. *Bangun dari riba aku dan berlari ke katil kami, dan pulang semula ke ribaku.* And then, the little girl was so sad and cry." Ceritanya, sambil menekup muka dan berpaling pada aku, konon bersedih.

Aku tanya, "Why was she sad and crying?"

Dia sambung:

"Little girl was sad because little girl cannot watch Playhouse Disney. Mommy want to watch the news. Little girl cannot watch Playhouse Disney at night."

Up to that point, hubby and myself could not contain our laughter. Adoila anakku. Cerita kisah diri dia rupanya. Pandai pulak pakai ganti nama "Little Girl". Anonymous la konon. Rupanya nak bercerita pasal diri sendiri. Isk... Gelak tak habis lagi sampai harini.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Wrong info..? It's ok.. i've only wasted your time..

Urghhhh... bengang gila. I was in the middle of a pretty important meeting with my director, tiba2 dapat msg, saying that so-and-so nak jumpa regarding pembangunan francais. So, sepantas kilat, my director had to adjourn the meeting to attend to the so and so matter, since the so and so is the... well, you know who can make a director of a division scurry on when summoned kan.

The note said that the meeting was to take place at 12.00. We got there at 11.45. We waited, and waited, and waited. 12.00 noon came and went, and still nothing. Rason being, special officer dia keluar jap. 12.30, got called in to see the special officer. Dia kata, ni ada orangnak datang,nak tanya pasal francais. And i was like... WTF? Nota tadi kata nak bincang tentang pembangunan francais, alih2, just nak terangkan abt francais kat orang yg berminat je. Sangat jauh beza maksudnya kan? Aku tak salahkan so and so tu, because i'm sure bukan dia yg arahkan. Si special officer ni la, mangkuk. Cakaplah betul2 what you want. We can take action accordingly.

Orang nak tau abt francais, masuk akal ke kena pergi ke tempat yg convenient utk orang tu, lepas tu kena tunggu pulak dia datang sampai 45 minit. PAdahal, dia yang nak tau ni.

And i wasted 2 hours of my time for what?

*Huh.. bila aku baca balik posting, aku rasa aku pernah blog ttg benda yg lebih kurang sama sblm ni. Situasi sama, orangnya berbeza. Heh. blog deja vu.*

Friday, June 19, 2009

Leaves for Maids

Baru-baru ni, ada ura-ura nak bagi maids satu hari cuti madatori. Hmm... Let see..

As for me, my maid works 7 days a week. Apa yang dia buat? Kemas rumah. Daily. Tak la setiap hari mop lantai pun. General kemas kemas, everyday. Mop lantai 3 times a week. Kemas bilik aku, once a week. Masak? NO most of the time, kadang-kadang dia masak untuk diri dia sendiri, bila aku tak masak dan bila dia rasa nak masak (or kena paksa masak - tapi utk diri dia je.)

Babysitting? Only when i'm in the shower or praying or cooking and my hubby's not around. basuh kereta? We told her she didn't have to do it tapi she insisted sebab dia kata tak cukup kerja. She starts work early, around 5.30 (weekdays), basuh baju, siram pokok and daily stuffs like that, after that she's free the whole day sampai baju kering and she have to lipat baju la. Itu pun, bukan hari2 basuh baju. Baju sarah je yg everyday basuh.

Petang, prepare benda-benda yang aku suruh dia prepare utk aku masak. That merely takes an hour of her time. Malam, habis dinner semua, dalam 9.30 dah settle, and she's free to do her own thing. Weekends, lebih kurang je. Kalau kitorg keluar, kitorg bawak dia sekali. Bukan la utk jaga sarah sangat, sbb mmg aku and Dan yg akan jaga Sarah. Things like bawak beg sarah je, sambil window shopping ikut kitorg. Kalau tak, pergi rumah my mom or MIL, dia lepak tengok tv.

Kalau dibuat mandatory kena bagi one day leave, and katalah dia nak keluar ke apa, jumpa ntah siapa2, tau2 kang pregnant, or run off dgn siapa2 ntah. Yang kena bayar fine, employer.

So, you tell me, is it fair to give her a one day leave?

Mungkin maid aku tak macam maid org lain la. aku tak nafikan mmg ada maid ygkena kerja teruk, jaga rumah, jaga anak, masak, jaga anjing, jaga kucing. Yang jaga hasben pun ada jugak. Tapi to make it mandatory aku rasa tak fair la pulak. Byk masalah dari faedah. Tapi, sebagai majikan yang ada perasaan dan hati perut, naturally dia akan bagi masa rehat utk maid dia. Tapi tu la kan, sekarang ni, the world is full of weird people.

Wallahualam.

*My writing sucks.*

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Reunions

Since Friday, i've been bouncing into people i know from school and campus. Such a small world. I wouldn't have imagined meeting them at wherever the place that i was that day.

On Friday, i met 2 friends. One was my friend form school, i met her when i was doing my outlet visit for this company i was processing. She wasn't working there. She just happened to be there. It turns out that she's currently working in P15. La.. dekat je rupanya. Aku je tak tau. Teruk betul.

Then, on the way back from the office, i saw a very familiar car, driven ever so slowly. So i drove to the side to see the driver. Sah.. memang aku kenal. So i waved at him and asked him to pull over to the side. Ewah.. macam polis trafik pulak. So, we met at the roadside, exchanged phone numbers and went our separate ways.

Semalam pulak, i met another friend from campus. This time at the nursery that i sent my daughter to. Apparently she'd just started to send her son there. The funny thing was that she noticed that it was me, and just looked at me, while i didn't bother to look at her. Dia tak panggil pun aku. Isk.. Tiba-tiba, masa tengah berjamu-jamuan at the office, i got a call, number tak appear pulak. Lepas tu dia cakap nama and said "aku nampak kau pagi tadi, tapi ko mesti tak perasan aku." And i was like.. siapa la aku jumpa pagi tadi. And the most likely place, kat nursery la. Heheh. Memang betul pun. Dia baru hantar anak dia kat situ. Sama kelas la nanti dengan sarah. Heheh. Small world huh?

Lepas tu, semalam chat dengan Nura.. and really thinking of a small reunion. Dengan close friends je la kan. Kawan-kawan mcm mana? Ada input tak??


Bad decisions

It sure feels like crap when you make bad decisions. It's worse when the bad decision cause others to suffer. The thing is that, no matter how hard you beat yourself up about it, you cannot undo what had happened. And for that, you're perceived as incompetent in whatever it is that you're doing. Period. Especially if you're a mother.'To err is human' only apply to losers. I'm one of them.