Going Green
Alhamdulillah, hari jumaat ni menyaksikan pertambahan kepada keluarga sebelah ibu yang sudah sedia besar. My cousin have safely delivered a baby just now. Baby girl. Alhamdulillah, semua selamat. early by 2 weeks kot, sebab due early august.
Anyways, i can't help but to feel a slight tinge of jealousy towards her. I guess that was how she felt about me when i gave birth 2 years ago. Although, my jealousy doesn't bring me to the point of wanting to avoid her or anything la, unlike what she did unto me and my daughter. She had only come to getting to know and somehow acknowledge the existence of my daughter after she got pregnant. She might not see it that way. She'd been avoiding the whole family since she'd gotten married anyway, but I could feel the thingamadoodle there, you know?
Anyways, getting back to my jealousy. Hmm.. i wish i could be in her shoes. Getting pregnant and giving birth all over again. Yep. My pregnancy had been a roller coaster of emotions, and i dread the time my obgyn was stitching my episiotomy site, but all that was well worth it when i held my baby in my arms, looking at her serene face, and watch her grow, day by day, listen to her laughs and giggles (not to mention her wails and whines), listen to her as she speaks her first word and progress with more vocabulary day after day. So, yeah, i wish and long for another baby. But, i understand that welcoming another human being isn't just a matter of longing and wanting. It comes along with a huge package of responsibility, readiness in terms of mental, physical, emotional, and one of the most important things, financial.
The world today is full of nasty people. Just look at the news we hear each day. Ahhh.. susah nak cakap. Seriously, thinking about all the bad things that are happening, i worry for the future of our children. Serba salah. Entahlah...
Apapun, ni semua rezeki Tuhan. Kalau Dia mahukan ianya terjadi, maka ia akan terjadi. Ya Allah, kurniakanlah aku kesabaran dan keimanan teguh kepadaMu. Jauhilah diri ini dari penyakit-penyakit hati. Cukuplah dengan apa yang telah Engkau kurniakan. Amin!~
Friday, July 24, 2009
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Gajah Sama Gajah Bergaduh, Pelanduk Mati Di Tengah-tengah
Hai.. hari yang penuh mesyuarat dan kejadian yang mengganggu emosi aku.
First meeting was in the morning. All of my bosses terlibat. Tiba one time, all bosses termasuk satu jr yang diminit sama dan satu jr gipang yang mengofferkan diri untuk hadir sama pergi pula ke mesyuarat lagi satu. So, the most senior person from my division left in the meeting was me. Ada lagi officer lain dari division yang sama, tapi lebih junior. Ahli mesyuarat yang lain datang dari luar Kementerian.
The pengerusi, masa tu lah yang dipilih untuk bang one of my bosses left, right and centre. Aku punya la bengang. Bukan la aku backing semua benda yang bos aku buat. I know, there are things that he can improve. But to personally attack someone in a meeting full of outsiders is not right la aku rasa. Nak pulak bila orang tu tak ada untuk defend diri dia sendiri. Kalau la meeting tu cuma ada officer bahagian kami ke, atau bahagian lain dalam ministry ke, aku boleh terima lagi. Dahla chairman tu someone senior in the ministry. I'm quite baffled that he behaved like that. I thought someone of his rank would have more rationale.
I couldn't contain my emotions to myself. We talked among ourselves. Memang tak mau bagitau bos itu apa yang jadi dalam mesyuarat. Tiba-tiba, tadi aku terima sms dari dia untuk tulis apa hentaman yang diperkatakan dalam mesyuarat. Erghh.. I don't think that's right, walaupun memang hati aku melonjak-lonjak nak bagitau je.
Tapi, macam batu api la pulak, kan?
Sigh!.. Pergi solat dulu la. Semoga diberi petunjuk apa benda terbaik yang aku boleh buat sekarang.
Hai.. hari yang penuh mesyuarat dan kejadian yang mengganggu emosi aku.
First meeting was in the morning. All of my bosses terlibat. Tiba one time, all bosses termasuk satu jr yang diminit sama dan satu jr gipang yang mengofferkan diri untuk hadir sama pergi pula ke mesyuarat lagi satu. So, the most senior person from my division left in the meeting was me. Ada lagi officer lain dari division yang sama, tapi lebih junior. Ahli mesyuarat yang lain datang dari luar Kementerian.
The pengerusi, masa tu lah yang dipilih untuk bang one of my bosses left, right and centre. Aku punya la bengang. Bukan la aku backing semua benda yang bos aku buat. I know, there are things that he can improve. But to personally attack someone in a meeting full of outsiders is not right la aku rasa. Nak pulak bila orang tu tak ada untuk defend diri dia sendiri. Kalau la meeting tu cuma ada officer bahagian kami ke, atau bahagian lain dalam ministry ke, aku boleh terima lagi. Dahla chairman tu someone senior in the ministry. I'm quite baffled that he behaved like that. I thought someone of his rank would have more rationale.
I couldn't contain my emotions to myself. We talked among ourselves. Memang tak mau bagitau bos itu apa yang jadi dalam mesyuarat. Tiba-tiba, tadi aku terima sms dari dia untuk tulis apa hentaman yang diperkatakan dalam mesyuarat. Erghh.. I don't think that's right, walaupun memang hati aku melonjak-lonjak nak bagitau je.
Tapi, macam batu api la pulak, kan?
Sigh!.. Pergi solat dulu la. Semoga diberi petunjuk apa benda terbaik yang aku boleh buat sekarang.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Horsey, horsey
Yesterday, while in the car, on our way home...
Me : Mommy's gotta attend a course this weekend alright.
DD : Yeay. I like to ride the horse.
Me : No, not a horse. A course. Like going to school. (eleh.. Like riding horse konon. Naik carousel pun melalak. :p )
Lain pulak perginya. Huh. This weekend kena pergi bengkel penulisan minit dan bla..bla.. bla.. Bosan. There goes my weekend.
However, our little niece is coming over next monday. Promised to take her and sarah to the zoo. Huh.. nak pergi mintak cuti ni...
Alamak.. bengong bos suruh jadi pengerusi kelab sukan bahagian pulok. Uhuk. Sukan apa? Kuak lentang? Congkak? Batu seremban? Tapi.. kitorang dah pun mula satu aktiviti. Poco-poco. Lepas tamat waktu kerja, buat poco2 sikit sebelum balik. Best woo.. Nak kena cari step baru lagi ni. Bosan asyik step basic kan? ;)
Okla.. Kerja.. kerja... dan kerja.. karang nak poco-poco.. :D
Yesterday, while in the car, on our way home...
Me : Mommy's gotta attend a course this weekend alright.
DD : Yeay. I like to ride the horse.
Me : No, not a horse. A course. Like going to school. (eleh.. Like riding horse konon. Naik carousel pun melalak. :p )
Lain pulak perginya. Huh. This weekend kena pergi bengkel penulisan minit dan bla..bla.. bla.. Bosan. There goes my weekend.
However, our little niece is coming over next monday. Promised to take her and sarah to the zoo. Huh.. nak pergi mintak cuti ni...
Alamak.. bengong bos suruh jadi pengerusi kelab sukan bahagian pulok. Uhuk. Sukan apa? Kuak lentang? Congkak? Batu seremban? Tapi.. kitorang dah pun mula satu aktiviti. Poco-poco. Lepas tamat waktu kerja, buat poco2 sikit sebelum balik. Best woo.. Nak kena cari step baru lagi ni. Bosan asyik step basic kan? ;)
Okla.. Kerja.. kerja... dan kerja.. karang nak poco-poco.. :D
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Back In My Kitchen
Yep, i'm back into my humble kitchen, since i'm all well from the fever and cold and stuffs. My little sidekick is all better too. Just a little cough once in a while...and one more day of antibiotics and i bet she'll be in the pink again.
My hubby's back from detachment. But, he isn't home. He's in self quarantine at MIL's. Many thanks to his company for sending crews on detachments on high risk Swine Flu country. Don't fret. He's not down with the flu or anything. It's just a safety measure for our family.
Tadi, try masak tom yam tanpa pes tom yam. Ambil resepi dari myresepi. Verdict? SEDAP!!. Jauh lebih sedap dari guna pes tom yam. Macam makan kat kedai rasanya. Hehe. Jangan salah faham ye. Ini bukan ayat puji diri masak sedap. Ini memuji resepi tersebut yang sedap. Klik sini jika nak cuba resepi tersebut. Sedap tau!
Ok.. nak mula projek video editing yang dah terlalu lama take a back seat. Have a wonderful weekend. :)
Yep, i'm back into my humble kitchen, since i'm all well from the fever and cold and stuffs. My little sidekick is all better too. Just a little cough once in a while...and one more day of antibiotics and i bet she'll be in the pink again.
My hubby's back from detachment. But, he isn't home. He's in self quarantine at MIL's. Many thanks to his company for sending crews on detachments on high risk Swine Flu country. Don't fret. He's not down with the flu or anything. It's just a safety measure for our family.
Tadi, try masak tom yam tanpa pes tom yam. Ambil resepi dari myresepi. Verdict? SEDAP!!. Jauh lebih sedap dari guna pes tom yam. Macam makan kat kedai rasanya. Hehe. Jangan salah faham ye. Ini bukan ayat puji diri masak sedap. Ini memuji resepi tersebut yang sedap. Klik sini jika nak cuba resepi tersebut. Sedap tau!
Ok.. nak mula projek video editing yang dah terlalu lama take a back seat. Have a wonderful weekend. :)
Friday, July 10, 2009
Fever Bug
Rabu lepas aku EL, sebab selasa aku macam demam kura, lepas pergi klinik, dr bagi mc untuk hari selasa tersebut (walaupun aku dah separuh hari kerja and bos aku dah bagi excuse untuk aku balik awal). Malam tu aku makin teruk sikit, telan ubat demam n selsema, pagi tak mampu bangun. Texted my boss, cakap EL, since anak aku temperature naikbalik malam tu.
Wednesday, lepas dah rasa ok sikit, kemas pulak barang-barang untuk balik dari rumah mama. Sent our things home and headed straight to pantai to see her paed. By the timejumpa paed tu, dia dah tak demam or anything la, but we went anyway, just to be sure that all is fine.
Sarah was her merry and cheery self. Selagi ada orang yang duduk sebelah kitorang kat waiting lounge tu dia tegur dan ajak borak. When it was our turn to see the paed, paed kata, not too worry la, since sarah is active. Kalau dengue ke, chikugunya or swine flu, her temperature will be very high that she won't have that much anergy. She'll be weak and lethargic. All the time the paed was explaining to me, sarah sat down playing with a xylophone.
Then the dr asked me about her constipation, the last time we went to see him, paed tu ada bagi ubat la to ease constipation. I told him it worked, but i had problems giving it to her since she doesn't like the taste. Tiba-tiba, ada suara kecik mencelah, "I don't like it Dr. Azam!" Ternganga paed tu. Paed cakap.. wah.. wah.. wahh!!... Huhuhh.... pandai komplen dah mek nih...
Semalam, she was getting better. Fever dah tak ada. Tapi i think she has a sore throat, so dia tak ada appetite makan, and since tak ada appetite, dia macam laid back sikit. Cikgu kat sekolah cakap dia sensitif lebih semalam. Isk.. sedih aku tengok dia tak aktif macam biasa. Ye la, kesian kan kalau tengok budak-budak yang dah biasa melasak, tiba-tiba macam tak bersemangat je.
Sigh!~ I hope today she'll get even better. Her daddy's back from Manila today. On-board scanning ok tadi kata nya. Tapi, for sarah's sake, he's going to self quarantine kat rumah MIL for a couple of days, just to be on the safe side.
Harap-harap semua selamat. Amin!~
Rabu lepas aku EL, sebab selasa aku macam demam kura, lepas pergi klinik, dr bagi mc untuk hari selasa tersebut (walaupun aku dah separuh hari kerja and bos aku dah bagi excuse untuk aku balik awal). Malam tu aku makin teruk sikit, telan ubat demam n selsema, pagi tak mampu bangun. Texted my boss, cakap EL, since anak aku temperature naikbalik malam tu.
Wednesday, lepas dah rasa ok sikit, kemas pulak barang-barang untuk balik dari rumah mama. Sent our things home and headed straight to pantai to see her paed. By the timejumpa paed tu, dia dah tak demam or anything la, but we went anyway, just to be sure that all is fine.
Sarah was her merry and cheery self. Selagi ada orang yang duduk sebelah kitorang kat waiting lounge tu dia tegur dan ajak borak. When it was our turn to see the paed, paed kata, not too worry la, since sarah is active. Kalau dengue ke, chikugunya or swine flu, her temperature will be very high that she won't have that much anergy. She'll be weak and lethargic. All the time the paed was explaining to me, sarah sat down playing with a xylophone.
Then the dr asked me about her constipation, the last time we went to see him, paed tu ada bagi ubat la to ease constipation. I told him it worked, but i had problems giving it to her since she doesn't like the taste. Tiba-tiba, ada suara kecik mencelah, "I don't like it Dr. Azam!" Ternganga paed tu. Paed cakap.. wah.. wah.. wahh!!... Huhuhh.... pandai komplen dah mek nih...
Semalam, she was getting better. Fever dah tak ada. Tapi i think she has a sore throat, so dia tak ada appetite makan, and since tak ada appetite, dia macam laid back sikit. Cikgu kat sekolah cakap dia sensitif lebih semalam. Isk.. sedih aku tengok dia tak aktif macam biasa. Ye la, kesian kan kalau tengok budak-budak yang dah biasa melasak, tiba-tiba macam tak bersemangat je.
Sigh!~ I hope today she'll get even better. Her daddy's back from Manila today. On-board scanning ok tadi kata nya. Tapi, for sarah's sake, he's going to self quarantine kat rumah MIL for a couple of days, just to be on the safe side.
Harap-harap semua selamat. Amin!~
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Sniffle, Sniffle
Semalam i was on a day trip to kuching. Daytrip. Macam pergi ipoh je. Balik, aku mula selsema. Mungkin sebab aku tak cukup tidur malam sebelumnya. Aku harap macam tu la.. Jangan la benda lain.
Flight aku ke kuching semalam pukul 8.15 pagi. Aku tidur rumah mama, kena bangun pukul 5.15 untuk bersiap. Malam tu jugak, pukul 2.15 pagi, aku hantar anak aku ke emergency di hospital pantai, bangsar. Dia dah demam masuk hari kedua, dan temperature masih tinggi. It was about 38.7 C macam tu. Dr tengok, bagi dia suppository, and suruh tunggu another day. Kalau masih demam dengan suhu tinggi jugak, admit untuk buat blood test. Semalam, alhamdulillah, dia tak demam. Tengok harini pulak macam mana. Mungkin demam dia pindah kat aku pulak kot?
So, pukul 4.15 pagi aku samapai semula ke rumah mama. Sempat la tidur dalam 40 minit sebelum bersiap-siap ke Kuching. Sampai sana untuk meeting, kepala aku dah weng. Cakap apa dalam meeting entah. Habis meeting, beli barang sikit, dan terus ke airport pukul 4.30 ptg. Flight pukul 8 malam. Nasib baik tiket business, lepak dekat lounge, tidur sekejap, makan, tidur lagi, makan lagi, buat sudoku, sampai pukul 7.30, boarded the aircraft dan sangat bersedia untuk balik.
Pelik sikit, masa nak landing, aku rasa macam telinga sakit. Dah equalize pun sakit lagi. Lepas tu aku picit2 belakang bahu. Rasa macam something "tangkap" dekat kepala, terus sakit kepala, leher, selagi ada benda. Tak pernah rasa sakit gitu. Apesal ntah. Aku harap angin je la... Jangan la yg lebih serius.
Bye.. nak pergi meeting.
Semalam i was on a day trip to kuching. Daytrip. Macam pergi ipoh je. Balik, aku mula selsema. Mungkin sebab aku tak cukup tidur malam sebelumnya. Aku harap macam tu la.. Jangan la benda lain.
Flight aku ke kuching semalam pukul 8.15 pagi. Aku tidur rumah mama, kena bangun pukul 5.15 untuk bersiap. Malam tu jugak, pukul 2.15 pagi, aku hantar anak aku ke emergency di hospital pantai, bangsar. Dia dah demam masuk hari kedua, dan temperature masih tinggi. It was about 38.7 C macam tu. Dr tengok, bagi dia suppository, and suruh tunggu another day. Kalau masih demam dengan suhu tinggi jugak, admit untuk buat blood test. Semalam, alhamdulillah, dia tak demam. Tengok harini pulak macam mana. Mungkin demam dia pindah kat aku pulak kot?
So, pukul 4.15 pagi aku samapai semula ke rumah mama. Sempat la tidur dalam 40 minit sebelum bersiap-siap ke Kuching. Sampai sana untuk meeting, kepala aku dah weng. Cakap apa dalam meeting entah. Habis meeting, beli barang sikit, dan terus ke airport pukul 4.30 ptg. Flight pukul 8 malam. Nasib baik tiket business, lepak dekat lounge, tidur sekejap, makan, tidur lagi, makan lagi, buat sudoku, sampai pukul 7.30, boarded the aircraft dan sangat bersedia untuk balik.
Pelik sikit, masa nak landing, aku rasa macam telinga sakit. Dah equalize pun sakit lagi. Lepas tu aku picit2 belakang bahu. Rasa macam something "tangkap" dekat kepala, terus sakit kepala, leher, selagi ada benda. Tak pernah rasa sakit gitu. Apesal ntah. Aku harap angin je la... Jangan la yg lebih serius.
Bye.. nak pergi meeting.
Friday, July 03, 2009
Tragic
What a morning.
Sakit perut pagi-pagi buta. Sangat. Nostalgia pulak rasanya. Terkenang masa nak beranak 2 tahun lepas.
Sampai pejabat, selesaikan dulu hajat, dapat panggilan dari rumah. Maid telefon. Ada anjing mati. DI HALAMAN RUMAH!!
Tension betul. Bodoh punya anjing. Macam tak ada tempat lain dia nak mati.
Memang la aku pernah tergerak nak racun je anjing tu. Bengang punya pasal. Dua tiga hari kebelakangan ni, dia suka sangat masuk rumah. Geram la kan. Tapi tergerak di hati je. Taklah sampai tergamak nakbuat pun. Rupanya memang anjing tu nak cari tempat nak mati. Tak payah aku racunkan dia, memang dia nak mati dah pun.. Patutla muka stoned je bila aku sergah. Tengah nazak ke.. Sorryla en. anjing. Aku tak tau ko dah nak mati. Tapi.. siapa suruh ko masuk rumah aku. Punya banyak rumah kosong, nak masuk gak laman aku tau. Ingat macam Nilai memorial park ke?
Huhu... tenang... tenang...
Macam mana aku nak buat dengan anjing tu? Ada idea?
What a morning.
Sakit perut pagi-pagi buta. Sangat. Nostalgia pulak rasanya. Terkenang masa nak beranak 2 tahun lepas.
Sampai pejabat, selesaikan dulu hajat, dapat panggilan dari rumah. Maid telefon. Ada anjing mati. DI HALAMAN RUMAH!!
Tension betul. Bodoh punya anjing. Macam tak ada tempat lain dia nak mati.
Memang la aku pernah tergerak nak racun je anjing tu. Bengang punya pasal. Dua tiga hari kebelakangan ni, dia suka sangat masuk rumah. Geram la kan. Tapi tergerak di hati je. Taklah sampai tergamak nakbuat pun. Rupanya memang anjing tu nak cari tempat nak mati. Tak payah aku racunkan dia, memang dia nak mati dah pun.. Patutla muka stoned je bila aku sergah. Tengah nazak ke.. Sorryla en. anjing. Aku tak tau ko dah nak mati. Tapi.. siapa suruh ko masuk rumah aku. Punya banyak rumah kosong, nak masuk gak laman aku tau. Ingat macam Nilai memorial park ke?
Huhu... tenang... tenang...
Macam mana aku nak buat dengan anjing tu? Ada idea?
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Big Breakfast
Describe heaven on earth...
I think, as for today, it's a massive breakfast of freshly "tokak-ed" durians. Like seriously. There must've been around 20 fruits, and there's only about 4 small ones left. We had it in the office pantry. Some colleagues went to this ex-boss' durian orchard yesterday and brought back a trolley-full. Everybody who isn't fasting today had their fill, and the not so good ones were packed into containers and the lady boss will make some serawa durian for tomorrow's fiesta pulak.
Heh... who says good things doesn't come for free huh?
Still feeling thornish.. Directly translated from durian-ish. Dsdn't keep count of how many of the sweet lovely things that i had devoured. Still full, til now. I guess i wouldn't need the normal lunch. Probably settle with some cereal. If only i could get some lime juice to balance off the fats from durian. Hehe. Menyedapkan hati.
Obviously, i'm not dieting. Well, honestly, i'm not motivated enough to diet. wanted to blog about it a few days back but got distracted and didn't continue to date. Sigh. Will get back on that in another post. As for now, juts enjoy the fullness of durians. *Burp* Excuse me... do you smell the durians?? Heheh.. Sorry for the gross-ness of it. ;)
Describe heaven on earth...
I think, as for today, it's a massive breakfast of freshly "tokak-ed" durians. Like seriously. There must've been around 20 fruits, and there's only about 4 small ones left. We had it in the office pantry. Some colleagues went to this ex-boss' durian orchard yesterday and brought back a trolley-full. Everybody who isn't fasting today had their fill, and the not so good ones were packed into containers and the lady boss will make some serawa durian for tomorrow's fiesta pulak.
Heh... who says good things doesn't come for free huh?
Still feeling thornish.. Directly translated from durian-ish. Dsdn't keep count of how many of the sweet lovely things that i had devoured. Still full, til now. I guess i wouldn't need the normal lunch. Probably settle with some cereal. If only i could get some lime juice to balance off the fats from durian. Hehe. Menyedapkan hati.
Obviously, i'm not dieting. Well, honestly, i'm not motivated enough to diet. wanted to blog about it a few days back but got distracted and didn't continue to date. Sigh. Will get back on that in another post. As for now, juts enjoy the fullness of durians. *Burp* Excuse me... do you smell the durians?? Heheh.. Sorry for the gross-ness of it. ;)
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