34 Weeks and counting

Went for the biweekly antenatal checkup yesterday and saw a glimpse of our beautiful princess through the ultrasound. So far everything is good. The dr said there's no sign tht she's tangled up in her umbilical cord nor are there signs tht she might be in for early labor. Alhamdulillah... all is good. 6 weeks more to go.

I'd also voiced my concerns on the episiotomy procedure, after hearing about it's horrifying no-anaesthetic-cut & stitch... The dr said, the procedure is not inevitable, but usually, it is done to prevent natural tears that are more difficult to repair. And she said yes, sometimes the incision is made without administering local anaethetic to the mommy coz the perineum will be too stretched for the mother to feel anything anyway. But for the stitching up part, anesthetic will be given, but mommy would most likely still feel something. She told me not to worry so much about those things but just to enjoy the whole thing. Hehe.. i'm trying here.. that's why i want to find out what's going on during labor.

The nurses asked us to check out the labor suites, so that we know where to go when the time comes... Yikes... It's all so near now huh? I haven't prepared my hospital bag yet... As for the baby stuffs, i think we've got most of it already... just little things like the toiletries that we haven't gotten yet. So, might probably scout for it these few days since both Dan and I will be around.

Excited, yet nervous as the big day draws closer....

Congrats Nurul & Hubby!!

CikD smsed me last night telling me tht Nurul had safely delivered a bouncing baby girl. Wahhh.... mesti seronok. The last time i had a chat with her on Friday, she said tht the Dr estimated tht she'll give birth around the 29th.. tetiba plak on the 18th baby decided to be born. Heheh.. Takleh share bday ngan mommy dia. :) Takpe... all the more reasons to make November a celebration month!

One by one, my pregnant friends give birth. First it was Erin, followed by Asyie, now Nurul, soon Mona and after tht, myself la i guess. The feelings i have now is somewhat similar to the one i had when i was in line, climbing the staircases of the repelling tower, watching my friends repel down the tower one by one. Excitement and anxiety entertwines (spelling?) creating a gush of euphoria that overwhelms the head, the heart and the soul. Heh... Amende la yg aku ngarut nih... But it's true.. i get tht feeling you know... Climbing a staircase after another, as i get higher and closer to the repelling area, i look down, to my friends, cheering and smiling with glee as they had performed what was asked from them. And as i look back, what the heck did i do and how did i feel when my turn finally came?

I know my heart was racing. When they put on the 8-ring on my harness and asked me to lean back at the edge of the tower, i felt like my heart went out through my mouth..... But then, despite all the fear and worries, i managed to repel down, not as gracefully, but it got down nonetheless. Safely and with an even greater feelings of fulfilment. Probably, that's what gonna happen when it's my turn to go into labour... The difference is, i'd forget all my worries and fears coz the pain will be so overwhelming and the only thing i'd want at tht time is to get the baby out. Heh... at least tht's what experienced people told me.

Semoga dipermudah dan diselamatkan kelahiran anak-anak kami ini ya Allah.

Feverish

Sigh!~ Not feeling so good. My nose is blocked which leads me to feel feverish. Huhu. Dahla hubby takde to take care of me. :( Hubby is currently doing his Europe run... God knows when he's coming back. The earliest pun would be like 9 days from now kot.. if we're lucky. I really hope tht he'll get leave during labour.

Was planning to go to the dr to get an mc for today n maybe tmrw... The best cure for cold is to have a really good rest. At the office, other than work related stress, there's also the powerful central air conditioning tht makes my nose even stuffier and my head heavier. Soooo not helping. Urghh.. now there's someone here to see me.... Just what i need at times like this. :p Darn it.

Need to drop by at our place after work. I think i've put the mobile on the charger and forgot all about it. Demmit. Now i've got to go home and replace the thing. After that, rush balik sepang, before it gets dark. Hmmm... moving from one place to another within a short period is quite stressful and tiring la. Like really!

MGTT

Hmm.... tengah tunggu 2 hours before going back to the clinic to get my blood tested. Hmm.. 2 kali draw darah hari nih. Huhuhu... tak sukeee....

Harini i'm requested to go for the Modified Glucose Tolerance Test (MGTT) as a result of my err.. rather drastic weight gain after raya. Starting midnite las nite, i'd begun fasting, and this morning i went at 8, got my blood drawn out and i was given this glucose drink which was superly sweet.. like so daym sweet i felt like throwing up. Yucks. So now i've to wait for 2 hrs before going back to the clinic. uhhh... feel dizzy. Isk... now i've got extra empty cals on my body.. Darn it. Those cals from the glucose drink, kalau ganti ngn cals from roti sardin ke lagi berbaloi. HUH.... So to get rid of those empty cals, i'm determined to walk to the immigration on the opposite building to get forms for maid application... Haha...

Adeyy.. pening tak abes lagik... Perut dah growll... Lapaqqqq.........

Lama tak update

Hmm... been wanting to post updates tapi blogger nih selalu buat hal.. Selalu tanak publish. Dengki btol laaa...

A lot had happened. Most recent is just now.. at the hospital, when i was leisurely having breakfast at starbucks (Love the hot choc!!).. i saw this familiar looking couple with their son - arianna teoh n alex yoong. Iskk.. masih henskem mamat itu. Hehe. Macam best tgk alex lepak ngn anak dia... Cam dah plan, after this baby is born, next 3 years nak try for a boy pulak la... Heheh.. ni pun tak keluar lagi, dah plan for another one konon.. Kang bila dah rasa sakit beranak... baru tau nak baby lagi ke tak. Muahahaaa... InsyaAllah, nak lagi... :)

I'm now 30 weeks into my pregnancy... Only 10 more weeks to go... That's like 2 mths and 2 weeks.. uhh... tak lama dah tu. The gabraness has started to sink in since raya haritu. I've gained a whopping 5 kg after raya smpi dr terkejut, but she was cool abt it la.. Tp bila pergi govn clinic, cepat2 diorg suh buat MGTT - modified glucose tolerance test, nak check if my body can handle glucose well.. Iskk.. seriau gak. The test is scheduled this wed. Ada meeting plak pepagi tu... I guess i'll be going on thurs la, since bosses tadek.

My antenatal checkups now has increased in frequency. I've to go like twice a mth. Last 2 weeks, we had a scan on the baby and at first she was like covering her face with her hands.. Lepas tu mulut dia mcm gerak2.. and then, when the dr nak select a good image to print, she faced front and we got anice image of her face... Comey je. Hehe... and then earlier this week, Dan read something abt ultrasounds can somehow bother the fetus.. and he said probably yg kita nmpk her mout moving tu because she was cursing at us for bothering her... Heheh... isk.. tak mungkin kot. But then, in future, we'll tell the baby if the dr's gonna perform the ultrasound so tht she can be ready. :)

Another recent thing tht had happened was the day before yesterday, at work. Heheh... A boss got pissed with my colleagues n i. Pissed as in kecik hati kinda thingy. Iskk.. tatau la. No comment. But i did go to her yesterday n apologize on behalf of everyone and she accepted it. Tapi, i guess things wont be quite the same anymore la. It's funny... and weird... blahh.. maleh nak layan.

Hubby's coming back on wed... Now, everytime hubby goes off flying, i'll be staying with mom in sepang. hubby balik baru dok umah. Kinda penat jugak at times, but waht to do la kan. I'm still driving to work coz i think as long as i can fit comfortably in the driver's seat, i should be alright... Tapi Dan bising ckp i cant be driving anymore by next mth... Hmm.. bak buat camne.. takkan nak hire driver plak. Pensan la... Probably naik charter bus la pergi keje lepas nih. Hmm.. dunno la.

Okie la.. Nothing much to post anymore.... Nak search for labour and delivery videos on the net... :)

Meeting bosan

The thing that really pisses me off when attending meetings is when the chairperson is clueless about what the meeting is about and making things worse, s/he doesn't even make an effort to cover that mistake of NOT preparing for a meeting by saying unintellectual stuffs which really shows his/her dumbness. **Jauhilah aku dari menjadi orang yang sedemikian ya Allah!~**

Shock of my life

LAst night my feet were swollen... pretty bad swelling that is. Huhu.. mcm kaki gajah. :p
Anyways.. mama noticed the swelling and told me sth that made me nearly jumped off my skin. Panic siot!~

Mama : Kaki dah bengkak tu
Me : Ha.. tu la..
Mama : Orang selalu bila bengkak tu surut, dia beranak...
Me : Huishhhhhhhh.... ye ke??

Huaaaa.. betul ke mcm tu? Huhu.. takmo la.. Punya la in shock sampai susah nak tdo last night. Very, very worried. Mana barang tak siap beli lagi.. and my own mental preps pun macam tak ready lagi. I mean.. really, come to think of the time after the baby is born... iskk.. macam.. ntah... perasaan yang bercampur baur. I am like SOOOO not ready to have the baby this early... Please God, let me carry this baby to term... and help me be mentally prepared!

Selamat Hari Raya

Selamat Hari Raya all, maaf zahir dan batin kiranya ada salah dan silap, terkasar bahasa, terluka hati. Ampun dipinta. :)

My first raya as a wife was pretty exhausting since we had to zoom from sepang to pandan on a daily basis. Eve of raya, first we spent it in sepang, had our last buka puasa there. Then we waited til the jemaah came for the takbir and after that we shoot off to spend the night in pandan.

In the morning, i helped mak and aunty Maria in the kitchen while Dan and bapak went for raya prayers. Then we had a massive breakfast of ketupat, lemang, meat pie and the yummylicious apricot pie. After breakfast, mak and i got ready, and then we had the salam2 and family photo session. Cute little almaz was there too with her mommy and pappy. Cantik dia pakai baju kurung pink.

Around 11, relatives started pouring in. So i helped out here and there. Mostly everyone were there, except Shikin n Effie since they're spending raya with shikin's parents in k'tan. She's due next month. All the 3 of us on Dan's side who got married less than a year apart are now pregnant; Shikin, Azira and myself. Azira's tummy is also showing now. On my side, i'm the only one pregnant for the time being. Zura and Awin haven't conceived yet, padahal akulah org yang beriya2 kata nak pregnant lambat.. Wanna have a year alone with hubby. Konon2 sempat nak 2nd honeymoon dulu baru nak stat pregnant. Hehe.. Rezeki awal plak. 2nd honeymoon bila perut dah besar.

After everyone left, at aorund 4pm, baru balik sepang. Tp by then, dah ramai yang dah tadek. Most of my relatives and cuzs went to nenek's in the morning, pastu baru pergi balik rumah spouse masing2 in N9 n johor. Hmm... tak jumpa pun my cuzs... and that cute baby nayara. Mama said she wore baju kurung, nenek dia jahit sendiri (Nenek Nayara is my Mak Uteh, the japanese one). Mesti cute. :) Too bad they already left when we got there.

The rest of the 1st raya was spent in sepang. Nura and family came at around 6.30, masa hujan dah mula nak lebat. Comel je Danish Haikal. Dan held him a couple of times tapi kejap2 je sbb bila Danish start nangis je dia panic. Mama pun mengamek kesempatan main2 n geram2 ngan Danish. Hehhe... tak sabar nak bercucu la tu... Seronok dpt jumpa Nura n the whole family, plus Amirul, Amni n K.Su sekali yang dtg haritu. Terima kasih byk2 sbb sudi dtg umah nenek i ek. :D P/S: Nura, Dan ckp ko dah kuwus aaa.. Jeles nih.

Malam konon2 nak lepak with Zura, Wan, KLong and other cuzs tp since everyone were tired, we called it off. :(

2nd raya, we left sepang at around noon to go beraya at Tok Mud's house with Mak n bapak. Tok Sarah made mee penang which was really nice. I enjoyed the fruit cake too. Mak said the fruit cake comes every year from istana johor. Hmm.. sedap. Pandai gak royalty buat kek. Hehehe...

So there... my first raya as a wife. Next year, my first raya as a mother. On the friday before raya, we went for a checkup and scanned the baby. This time Dan was there to see it. The baby moved a lot, tutup muka la, paling badan la, macam malu2 je. Hehe.. but we got to see HER 'burger' as the dr called it. Hehe... my baby's gonna be a girl!!! Suka Dan. He'd always wanted a girl. Balik from checkup, terus pergi Planete Enfants kat Atria to get the stroller since tgh sale. Ended up buying a travel system jugak akhirnya. I thought we can save in not buying a baby carrier. Beli gak.. Dan insisted. So we got a Peg Perego Pliko stroller and Primo Viaggio carrier. Quinny Buzz ada gak kat situ.. tapi harga dia, stroller alone dah nearly 1900. Hehe.. tgk je la stroller tu ye. Cantik mmg la cantik, but quite bulky and berat. Peg travel system ni okla, tak berat sgt, and the stroller can stand when folded. Kira ok la. Plus the stroller ada foot rest for a toddler behind the seat, for future use, when this baby has a sibling, insyaAllah. Heheh... **Dan tepuk dahi. :p

Here Comes The Maid....

Huakkk.... mak just told us that the new maid will be around on the 27th!!! I'm like sooo not ready for this. Huhu... Was like dazed when hubby told me. :|

One of the things that worries me.... where the hell are we gonna put her in? Ok, we do have an extra room where we'd turn into a store room... and there's also the guest room... I guess we'll have to kemas the store room to accomodate the stuffs as well as the maid. Stuffs takla byk, just need to have some racks to make room sbb so far there's no racks in there, we just arranged everything on the floor. Once we get a rack, there'll be enough space for one single bed, a small wardrobe and a fan. Should be ok la kot. Problem will arise when i have to balik to mama's place and stay there during confinement. There's no extra room to place her... How la???

Then.. comes the chores. Ok.. there are work to be done around the house, but to have a live-in maid to do it? It's like bukan everyday kena buat. But then again, hubby said we'll find things for her to do la. Probably ask her to mop the floor twice a week, and clean the windows, hmm... we can keep our furniture polished as well. Cooking wise, hmm.. i'm not so keen on a stranger preparing food for the household. I guess we'll get the stuffs, ask her to do the renyah part - cleaning, cutting and stuffs like that, and i'll do the cooking. Hmmmmmm... me... cook... hehehehe... Well.. it's bound happen sooner or later anyway kan. Probably learn form the maid how to cook. Lols. Nak kena cari where the nearest wet market is pulak....

When there's a maid, there'll also be extra expenses. Paper works, medical checkup and the monthly pay. Slalu gaji maid berapa ek? Iskk...

Finally there's also the miscellaneous issues on maids. Security, reliability... stuffs like that. Isk... poning..poning. I'm seriously wondering if the maid's gonna make my life easier or harder. Sure hope it's NOT the latter.

Changes

When i was in the early pregnancy, i looked around for maternity clothings for myself.. Now, entering my 6th mth, i'm looking around for baby furniture, baby clothing, baby bedding, baby this, baby that, baby, baby, baby... Hehe.. Quite a change, in a really pleasant way.

Me n hubby had discussed about preparing for the baby. It was fun to want to buy things, but less fun when you look at the financial strain it'll put on us both. Heh. But it's ok. Duit boleh carik. Anak anugerah. To me n hubby, it's better to buy things that will last at a slightly higher price than getting something cheap but can only last a mth or two. We've decided on where to get the cot, dresser and changing table, but haven't actually gone there and look at it and make the purchase. Bila ek nak pergi? Dunno la.. probably after raya, or during christmas sale. Then we're gonna get the baby seat and stroller. To get maximum use out of the baby seat, i've decided to get a convertible baby seat tht can be used from birth to age 4. I decide tau.. hehe.. blom diskas lagi pun. I think i'm going to get the Britax seat since it'd gotten good reviews everywhere. As for stroller, i can't make up my mind yet since each stroller taht i looked at online has an equal number of good and bad reviews. Hmm.. kalau yang review elok tu, price plak tak ok. Hehe. See how la. Gonna ask hubby out to planete enfants when he comes back, see what the price is like here. Kalau more expensive, will ask Dan to get it in the states when he goes there, hopefully somewhere in December so that he can get a good deal during Christmas sale. Hmm.. stroller, stroller... susah gak nak pilih. Bugaboo mmg tak mampu la kan.. but damn it looks good... So now either Quinny, Kolcraft, BOB or Jeep. Hmmm.... hehe.. suka2 je buat research snirik. Hubby tatau pun. :p

Last friday had a chance pergi alamanda ikut kengkawan opis. While they went scouting for sports shoe, i went into mothercare to look at baby clothing. Sigh!~ Comelnya!!! Tapi mahal la.. well.. mothercare kan. :p I'm so hooked on the tiny newborn socks though. Takla mahal sangat. 35 bucks for six pairs. Tatau la sampai bila baby boleh pakai. Ada boy colors and girl colors... dunno which to pick (tapi berat nak amek yang girl colors...heheh). Tunggu la. Kena gi ngan hasben gak baru blh choose. Layette pun kiut gak. *Sigh again*.

Harini pergi lagi alamanda. It's like a friday routine. :p Didn't look at much baby things today. Went to MPH and got the First Time Parents book by Dr Miriam Stoppard. Too bad it was the only copy and quite old. Tapi takple.. it's the contents that matters kan.

Tonight i'm going to have a good book to read before bed.... and come sahur, hubby will be home! :)

Uhhhh...

Urghh... geram siot. Not the good kind of geram. The bad one. Like duh!~ sungguh. hmm.. this posting will not make any sense. I just want to vent out.

I was just an outsider looking in until i began to get the ill-meaning emails from this jerk. I mean if you're pissed with someone, ditch la. Why bitch abt the person to me and to the others. I don't need to know all the details. What kind of a man hits a woman and was proud of it. Oh... so now its so manly to hit a girl while it's not manly asking for money from the girl la. Make a big deal out of it as if it doesnt happen. Duh!~ Twisted mind of a dumbass. The weirdest part is that....urhh... pointless to even mention. It's just plain weird and not for me or anyone to understand. They live in their own world and i really don't wanna know anymore; so i hope the chicken stop mailing me crap. It pisses me off and it's a waste of my emotions. But.. if i do see the chicken, i'd gladly punch his thick, shameless face.

Funnies

A colleague sent me this thru email yesterday. I thot i'd share it. Hehe.. Enjoy.


Man comes home, finds his wife with his friend in bed.

He shoots his friend to death.

Wife says "If you behave like this, you will lose ALL your friends".

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Small Boy wrote to Santa Claus," send me a brother"

Santa wrote back," SEND ME YOUR MOTHER"

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What is the definition of Mistress?

Someone between the Mister and Mattress

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Husband asks , "Do u know the meaning of WIFE??

"Without Information Fighting Everytime"

Wife replies," No, It means ,

"With Idiot For Ever !!!"

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Three Feelings:

What's the difference between stress, tension and panic?

Stress is when wife is pregnant,

Tension is when girlfriend is pregnant, and

Panic is when both are pregnant.

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Teacher: u know the importance of period?

Kid: Ya, once my sister said she has missed one, my mom fainted, dad got
heart attack & our driver ran away.

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Why did they stop printing Pamela Anderson stamps in the U.S?

B'coz people started licking the wrong side.

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Women asked man who is traveling with six children, all these kids are
urs??

No, I work in a condom factory & these are customer complaints.

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Two men met while both where looking for their lost wives.

1st: How urs look like?

2nd: She is 5"7, 36-24-36, Fair, Black eyes. Wat abt urs?

1st: Forget mine. Lets find urs!!

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Sons asks difference between confidence and confidential

Dad says, you are my son, im confident. ur friend also my son, that's
confidential!

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Mother to her teenage daughter: I think this is the right time we should
talk about sex.

Daughter (Excitingly) : Sure mom, tell me what do you want to know.

Mother Faints...

Update on Life

Uhh.. finally i could get my butt out of the meeting room. Ahh.. penatlah dua tiga kali meeting session nak bincang mende yg sama.. Yawn!~ Ngantuk gile babas...

Hubby is finally back!! :D Smlm baru dia sampai. The bad news is that he'll be leaving again on saturday. Takpela.. that gives me a chance to hang out at sepang with mama. Kekadang tu from sepang nk blk KL, kesian lak tgk mama kat muka pintu tu. She'll wait at the door smpi la kereta hilang dr pandangan. Isk.. Sebak gak kekadang. Tp nak wat camno...

This year raya, first as a wife. Tataula how it's gonna be. In laws will be having relatives coming over to their place on the first day. My mom has yet to decide when we're going to ziarah kubur arwah babah. My hubby would probably be away. Urrghhh.. dunno la what's gonna happen. Initially i planned to spend half of the 1st raya with in laws, help out with things when ppl comes kan. Petang sket, balik la sepang. Tapi if hubby not around, cam berat sket nak bermingle2 ngan relatives belah sana.. sbb i kinda still feel rather out of place with some of them sometimes. Ye la.. bukannya aku biasa lagi dgn diorg kan. It doesnt help when there's ppl yang feel as if they're better of than anyone else there la. Hmm.. how aa? Walaupun ada baby dlm perut sbg peneman... kalau hubby tadek, mesti rasa tak syok jugak. Huhu.. :p

Takpela.. will think of it when the time comes.

Last night hubby asked if i was scared with the arrival of the baby. Hmm.. at times ya actually.. tp i'm more concerned with the baby's well being inside my tummy and after birth to think too much about the birthing process itself. Takut pun, kena lalu jugak kan? It's like the way i felt abt repelling la masa DPA dulu. Takut gile babas pun, kena buat gak... the best thing is, tak payah fikir. When the time comes, hadap je la. Tp, doa pun takleh putus gak la kan?

Apela meraban harini. Hehe. Anyways... japgi nak pergi intan amek dip aritu. Nak tgk ranking no brape. Huahuahuahuaaaa... mesti 3 angka nihs. Lols. Whateva la kan. Janji dah lepas n tak perlu repeat! :D

Antenatal checkup update

Last wednesday, i went for the much awaited antenatal checkup. Went out from the house later than usual but managed to reach the hosp before the aptmt time. Did the usual stuffs, weighing scale, urinate, waiting....

When i finally got called to the Dr's room, gila excited. Tak kira, apa nak jadik pun, i must get scanned that day. So after a short chat with the doc abt my current condition (i complained of coughing and runny nose that hasn't got better after a week), she showed me to the checking table. Baring2 je, the nurse took my b.p, and when the Dr came to palpate my tummy, i asked if we could do a scan. She said sure, if i wanted to see how the baby is doing... :D Should've done the same thing the previous visit. :p

So as she scanned me tummy, i looked at the screen... and there he/she was... lying there with the legs folded and one hand kinda waving. Nampak side view. Saw the jawline, that cute little stub of nose, and 5 fingers. At first the baby was sitting directly under the belly button kot, so there was some kind of shadow casted onto the image and the dr tried to push the baby so that s/he changes position and we could determine if it's a boy or girl. All the baby did was to tilt his/her bottom a bit, and that's it. We couldn't see the genitals, and we couldn't know if it's a girl or a boy. Hmmm... rasanya nak pergi scan lagi when hubby is around. Scan je la kat clinic mana2. :) Comel sgt. When the dr tried to push some more, dia dok gerak2 tangan dia. Hehe.. protes la pulak. :p I asked the doc to get a good image to print, and i've already scanned it into my notebook. Tgklah, kalau ada masa blog from home, bley upload the pic skali. :) So happy.

After the scan, the dr gave me 2 days mc for me to have a good rest at home at get myself better form the cough n cold and she reminded me to actually balik n rest instead of going shopping. Hehe. Takdela nak shopping2 bebulan pose ni. Tak larat!

Smpi umah mak ngah, cerita kat mama tak nampak girl ke boy. Mama ckp dia rasa girl sbb pembesaran aku secara mengembang ke sisi. Hahahaa... tatau la. Ramai dah ni yg ckp girl. I also dunno.

Barang2 baby satu pun tak beli lagi. Planning to do so bila masuk 7th mth. Tak tau which to get first, barang2 yg kecik2 (i.e clothing, bottles) or barang yg besar2 (cot, car seat). Isk.. nak kena buat budgeting gak nih. The best time to shop masa megacarnival sale nanti la.. Tp.. larat ke aku nak bershopping masa tu? Hmm.. positive thinking.. larat!! :)

Tak sabar tunggu hubby balik from belgium nak tunjuk the original print. Haritu dah email kat dia the scanned print..tp cam tak puas hati. Hahahaa...

Okies. nak take a nap jap. ngantuk la masa2 lunch hour ni, w/o anything to do.

Many things happened last week, tapi cam tak terpost. Heh.

Graduation

We had the DPA graduation on tuesday, 190906 with the rehearsal being held for the whole day on monday. It was kinda grand, held in PICC n stuffs, bt somehow, the feel of it wasn't any close to the feeling i felt during my undergrad convo. Dunno why. We were wearing the baju istiadat lengkap and all tapi the feeling of greatness and 'wow'ness tu not nearly as intense as the feelings i had during undergrad. Janji yang bestnya, my hubby was around, and i didn't have to go to the office for 2 days. Hehe... tugas rasmi tau!

Ganti Puasa

For a coouple of days last week and the previous week, i'd been trying very hard to ganti all my puasa last year. Alhamdulillah, i succeeded!! Although my last day of ganti puasa was quite tiring and i caught a cold and was coughing pretty bad at the end of the ganti puasa duration. All is good now, and i'm currently on my 3rd day of fasting, like everybody else. Hopefully diberi kekuatan untuk terus berpuasa for the whole duration of Ramadhan. :)

Much awaited checkup

Tmrw will be the day of my much awaited checkup. The dr will probably do a scan and with God's will, we'd be able to see the gender of the baby. I think i've begun to feel the baby moving in my womb. Not sharp kicks though, just mild 'movements' strong enough for me to feel when i'm sitting down doing nothing or putting my hand on my tummy. :) Cool!

Yang tak bestnya abt tmrw's checkup is that my hubby won't be around. Last time he followed, the Dr didnt do any scans, so he couldnt see how the baby had moved n all.. Tmrw, again, last minute call for him to fly to Belgium, a new destination, somewhere they didnt even know where initially.( How stupid can a management of a company be kan? Taking a charter when you dont fucking know where the destination is. Greedy bastards. ) So hubby wont be around tmrw, again, he's gonna miss out the chance of seeing the baby move during the scan. I know he's upset about it, so am i... but there's really nothing much that we can do. dahla he's scheduled for simulator masa raya. Bangang betul. All the non muslims dapat cuti masa raya. Last year pun camtu gak. Muslims fly during raya, non muslims cuti, lepak mengangkang kat rumah. Sons of bitches. :p Stupid company run by racist idiots.

Pot Luck

Harini we had this 'kenduri' thingy at the office, sempena menyambut ketibaan Ramadhan. It's a pot luck kinda thing, so everyone had to bring sth la. We started in the morning with Yasin recital, and continued all the way to lunch. Hehhe.. tapi in the middle tu buat kerja la kan.

In the morning, we had the bosses bringing nasi kerabu n nasi dagang and another officer bringing meehoon and kuih and all those stuffs. Pretty good, all the food. Having time trying everything, walaupun ala2 dah makan mee goreng my mom made earlier at home. Hahaha...

After makan2, sambung kerja until about 11.45, and then proceeded to prepare for lunch. Seronok bila ramai2 buat kerja. Dahla most of the males pakai baju melayu. rasa macam raya pun ada gak. Masa lunch, baru la my pot luck keluar. I made the trifle pudding, which i had to look thru the net to remind me of the recipes, and mama made some daging dendeng for me to bring. :) Those two seemed to be hits!! Alhamdulillah. My boss siap tanya the recipe for daging dendeng and asked if my mom wants to accept orders. Hahaha. The younger officers were asking me how to make the trifle. Hahaha... macam terer je nak ajar org. :p Tp happy la, since everyone liked my pot luck. :)

Sebu je rasa perut today sbb byk mende sgt makan. Kembung makan buah pun ye jugak. Hahah... petang sambung division meeting plak. Nothing much la.. things abt the division.. bla..bla..

Hmm.. dahla.. ngantuk plak. adios.

Sehari suntuk di klinikkesihatan putrajaya

Waaahhh... sangat penat menunggu!! This morning decided nak pergi klinik kesihatan utk checkup antenatal gomen... Sbbnya, ramai org nasihatkan pegi, sbb checkupnye lagi menyeluruh, and kalau apa2 hal kena refer ke hosp gomen, senang. So i went la.

Around 8.30 camtu, sampai. Carik kaunter pertanyaan tadek plak. Dah salah amek nombor. Main blasah tanya gak sesapa... dia kata kalau untuk kehamilan kaunter 7.. Oo.. mana la tau. Bukan tiap2 thn preknen checkup kat situ pun... Anyways, dpt nombor 3074.. yg sedang dipanggil 3055... Perhh... masak gak nak menunggu. Tp turned up tak la selama yg diimaginasikan.. Lebih kurang kol 9.15, dia panggil, amek details dan disuruh ke lab utk amek darah + check urine.

Kat lab ni lama gak menunggu. Dahla kerusi tak cukup. Berdiri la kat situ. Duduk jauh2 kang takut tak dgr plak bila nama kena panggil. Dah sekian lama, baru la nurse panggil suh collect urine. Nurse kat situ cam hempeh sket. Tanya org nama pun mcm nak mkn org. Rilek aa. :p Nurse yang kat dlm amek darah tu ok. Senyum je, kita pun tak geram walau kena tunggu lama.

Pastu menunggu lagi, untuk masuk bilik checkup. Ingat by dr.. rupanya misi... Pastu kang nak kena refer to dr plak. Iskkkkkkkk. Masa kat misi dia check heartbeat, berat, tinggi.. (blh tak tinggi aku 154cm je. Mana lagi 4 cm??? Musykil!) Pastu, nak terangkan lab result, resultnya plak tak siap2.. tunggu plak lagi 15 menet. Tak siap gak, last2 dia suh gi jumpa dr terus... tadekla lama sgt menunggu katanya.

Nak jumpa dr ni ler yg lama gile. Adeyyy.. sebbaik ada kerusi. Penat menunggu. Jumpanya kejap je..ada la dlm 5 minit. Tp agak puas hati jugakla. Takdela rasa mcm jumpa dr pakistan kat usm dulu tuh.. sape ke nama dah lupa. Hahah. Dia check respiration, thyroid glands ngan kedudukan uterus. Ok la jugak...

Nak dekat kol 1, baru la settle semua. Baru masuk opis.. ish..ish.. Half day gone. Sorry ler taxpayers... kalau tau lmbt camni g checkup, tak buat deh masa keje. So sorry. Tp don't worry, keje gua jalan. :) Dah setel keje baru pegi checkup.

Wokeh.. tu je... diposting dgn kepala yg masih sakit. :p

Ramadhan dah dekat!!

Hmm.. pejam celik pejam celik, bulan posa dah nak tiba balik. Last year puasa ngan family, sibuk buat persiapan.. year b4 that, pose kat umah sewa.. n b4 that kat hostel, n b4 tht lagik kat kmk... heheh... kalau tiba bln pose ni, tak boleh t idak mesti terhengat gaya berpuasa zaman dulu2, masa single mingle. Thn ni 1st time nak berpuasa ngan hasben. Huhu.. pastu beraya plak ngan hasben.. dah tu berpuasa n beraya sambil ngandung lak tuh.. huhu.. cane ek?

Dedulu zaman berpuasa kat skolah all girls, biasa je. Time takleh puasa mmg selambedek je gi kantin beli air, food sume. Lepak luar kelas, mkn la ngn kengkawan lain yg takleh pose gak. Huhu.. tetiba teringat air oren aunty jual air kat kantin skolah dulu. Hisyyy... Suka kalau kena duty air, tlg aunty tu jual air. Hehe.. best woo.. air dlm cawan besar doposen, cawan kecik sposen, kalau bungkus nam posen. Air oren kordial bodo je.. tp sbb ada ais, kena plak masa bln posa yg panas terik.. perhh.. sedap gila.

Pastu zaman kat KMK, macam baik sikit la konon.. (baik ke perasan baik? :p ) Slalu sahur mmg mesti turun dewan makan sbb member sorang ni mmg kena makan, kalau tak nnt dia gastrik. Lps sahur, terus gi surau, tunggu subuh. Nnt petang plak, sape duty, kena prepare meja utk dorm mates sumer. Gilir2 la. Memula tu buka makan kurma sponsor dulu, pastu solat maghrib, pastu baru makan ramai2. Pastu solat isyak.. Pas isyak n terawih, ramai2 beratur beli burger ayam RM1.20 yang mayones dia punyala banyak melimpah2.

Masa kat tronoh, sesi makan sahur kol 2.30 pagi sbb malas nak bgn sahur pagi2. Kang balik terawih, singgah plak makan nasik lemak. Isk..isk...

Kat transkrian, dah pandai main masak2 dlm blk. Pagi2, tunggula kDilla datang ketuk bilik. Pastu kitorg ni mata separuh terbukak la sambil meniarap kat atas katil tgk kDilla n azno masak... masak telur ke, sadin ke. Pastu makan ramai2.. Sape tak masak, basuh pinggan. Hehe... petang pegi pasar ramadan, beli bersungguh2, makan sampai perut terik... Nak pergi terawih dah tak larat.. Last2, berterawih la dlm blk, gilir2 la sape jadik imam. Heheh.. Masa dok umah sewa, kekadang ikut akak gi terawih. Yg masak nasik slalu akak la.. sbb dia terer masak nasik tanpa rice cooker, yg aku pun dah pandai skang sbb walaupun rice cooker ada 3 kat umah, tp itu ini tak jumpa, jadik kena la masak nasik atas stove jugak. Plg best kalau buka pose ramai2... hehe.. pastu bila pegi bukak puasa kat otel... hehe... tiap2 thn punya agenda masa bln puasa. Huhu.. korg gi mana thn ni azeno????

Thn ni... wallahualam. Mungkin kena sahur n buka pose sensorang kalau hasben takde dan tak balik sepang. Pepun, mesti ada buka puasa yg akan dikendalikan oleh pak long/pak uteh/nenek/uwan... masa tuyg best tu.. Dpt kumpul ramai2.. sorang bawak la pape sikit2.. (uish.. aku nak bawak hape? bawak perut je la nmpk gayanye.. heheheh) Pastu makn ramai2. Plg best ngusik budak2 yg tak puasa.. hehe.. kena duduk jauh2 masa org lain buka. Syoknye. :)

Hisk.. apola.. cerita bulna puasa kisah makan2 je. Hampeh.. org perbykkan amal ibadah. Hahaha... Ministry thn blom pulak bukak offer utk tadarus.. Buleh la join. Drpd tdo je masa lunch, gi tadarus elok gak. Sejuk tinge baby dgr ayat2 Quran.

Wokey... tu je la. Bosan plak arini. Rasa nak minum air laici.. or air peach... letak ais bebyk. Ermm.. org kata kalau makan ais masa ngandung nnt baby besar, betul ke? Makan ais je ke or kalau minum air berais pun jadik gak? Ada komen?

Second try

Hmm.. harini try puasa untuk kali yang kedua.. Puasa ganti.. Heheh... alhamdulillah, so far so good. Takdela kena sakit kepala macam last time. InsyaAllah, boleh la ganti puasa secara berpakej. Hahaha... 6 days to go, insyaAllah!~

Di kala berpuasa nih, di masa-masa blood sugar agak rendah, mula la teringat foods yang manis2... nyam nyam. Hehe.. teringat haritu tgk nigella lawson's forever summer kot kat travel n living, dia buat elvis style peanut butter n banana sandwich - fried. Gila gemuk tak hengat.. tapi cam sedap je.. nak plak kalau serve ngan satu scoop vanilla ice cream, tambah plak ngan hershey's choc sauce. Huh.. sinful ecstacy.... Waaaargghh... teruk betul! Baru puasa satu hari. Muahahaha...

Semalam berjaya jugak menyeret diri sendiri ke MV utk carik maternity clothing. Cheh.. rupanya jusco tgh renovation. Nyesal gak pegi.. byk baju kena simpan. Tp dapat jugak la inner wear sikit ngan top satu kat modern mum. Hehe. Huhuh.. berlobang wallet. :p Tp takpe.. top tu comel.. Heh.. sapa lagi nak puji. :p Dah siap mengabeskan duit, singgah plak kat mothercare... Comelnya tgk socks dia jual multi colored ada dlm 4 pairs kot in one pack. Alerrr... kiutnye... Pas geram2 tgk baju kiut2 kat situ (tp takmo beli lagi.. tunggu la nnt bila dah rasa dia gerak2) pegi la makan sensorang kat food court. Hmm.. tak best tol makan sensorang walaupun tmpt tu ramai org. Tadek sapa nk tlg tgkkan barang2 while nak pergi beli food/air. Lain kali kalau g kuar sensorang, nak makan kat tempat yg ada waiter/waitresses je yg boleh amek order n hantarkan makanan n bill skali. Hehehe... :p

Cukupla tu.. posting tadek isi... Balik kang nak masak nasik.. Lauk beli je. Hehe.. Bila la nak start masak nih? :p Start small.. memula masak air.. pastu masak nasik.. nnt lama-lama masak la lauk plak.. Hahahha..

Makan makan

Last night hubby n i went out for dinner at cafe Uno taipan with his friend, zuri n wife and their little daughter. The last time we saw the baby was like 4 mths ago, and now the baby looked totally different. The wife, sue, has regained her pre-pregnancy proportions.. hmm.. jeles nih! Hehee

We had a sumptious pasta dinner while playing around with little alisya. Sekarang ni everytime orang bawak baby, mesti nak pegang, konon2 ikut petua org lama la nih.... kalau baby tu suka kita, baby yang kat dalam will be of the oppsoite sex. Hmm.. problem is, so far i've held cute baby boys and girls, and they seem ok to hang around with me.. Takdel yang macam bila pegang je terus menangis tak nak ke hapa. Ok je la pulak.. Even babies whose moms said tak nak kat orang sangat. Hmm.. confused gak... Could there be 2 babies instead of one in my uterus? Hahahaaa.... takdela.. selalu scan mmg nampak satu je. :p

This weekend, tak boleh tidak kena paksa gak beli maternity clothing. Masalahnya, tak tau nak carik kat mana... Huhuhu. I want to find maternity dresses... pegi kedai biasa-biasa, rasa cam tak boleh nak bayang je me wearing those type of maternity dresses.. pegi modern mum plak, kain sume singkat2.. Sudahnya, still have to opt for 2-piece options. Hmmm... nak tempah buat dress lepas raya ler... :p Mana nak carik dress mengandung yang presentable nihhh???? Any ideas?

Oklah.. posting sementara mengantuk ni sebenarnya. Japgi ada jamuan perpisahan sikit utk officers yang dah berpindah dan akan berpindah. Huhu.. makan lagik gue.. Tadi pagi dah la makan banyak. Malatop perut! :p

Kiutnye baby!!!

Baru balik melawat2 fp n blog kDilla n fp kSalmi.. Waw... comey2 nye baby masing2. Best tengok. Read kDilla's posting abt her experience in water birth. Hmm.. interesting. Wonder if that option ada kat mesia. Tp cam cuak pun ada gak sikit2...

Tapi to compare my worries with hubby's abt the birth part, i'll say hubby lagi risau gila2.. Boleh faham la jugak, because it involves 2 lives yang dia sayang sangat2 kan (hehe..mcm statement perasan plak sikit2). Anyways... well, aku pun risau gak, tapi tak risau ssgt2 maybe sbb benda yang tak pernah lalu lagi kan, so tak terfikir macam mana nak hadap... lagipun my main worry is actually the current health of the baby. Sbbnya, the baby is still too small for me to feel its' movements so i don't know if the baby is ok or not. The only way to find out masa pegi checkup la... Pastu everyday worry takut2 kalau ada blood masa pass urine. Risau woo. So the everyday worry makes me less worried about the birth itself. Bagus gak. Kalau tak sesak gak otak kalau dok worry about giving birth tiap2 hari kan?

Hukhuk... apa kabar la baby ku di dalam perut ni...

Huhu.. lama gak tak posting. Selalu at a loss for words to post la... plus cuti seminggu. Heheh.. bz bermalas-malasan kat umah n jaga hubby yang tak sehat sbb sakit perut... termakan asam keping dalam lauk. cian dia. Perut over sensitip. isk...iskk...

Fourth Antenatal Visit

Last wekk amek cuti panjang, after planning for such leave since june... Tapi, tak dapat ke mana-mana pun, sbb antenatal checkup was scheduled on wednesday, tgh2 minggu. Pagi checkup biasanya kuar umah kol 8.30 utk smpi di hosp at around 9.00.. but that particular morning, 7.30 dah kuar sbb nak htr hubby dulu gi checkup kat ER. One whole night dia tak tdo menahan sakit perut. Org ajak gi klinik mlm tu gak dia takmo.. iskk.. degil gak kekadang. Anyways, pagi tu teman dia gi ER dulu, kena injection, he got a bit better, baru gi klinik dr Nora utk antenatal aptmt.

By 10 am dah masuk dr's room. I asked abt a few stuffs, my concerns on my swelling fingers and occasional headaches. Takut2 disebabkan b.p tinggi. Tapi bila check bp, rupanya rendah sket dari normal. Hmm.. pelik gak. Pastu, tanya dr pasal perut.. haha.. tak puas hati punya pasal sbb aku rasa perut aku besar kat tempat lain dari tempat rahim aku. Heheh.. kena sedusyum ngan dr.. dia ckp.. "..that's the mommy. There's more of mommy than the baby, i'll show you where the baby is.." pastu dia suh aku baring aa cam biasa. Ingat nak scan ke hape.. tak pun... dia rasa perut, start dari bawah breast bone, dia tekan and ckp "this is mommy" Dia tekan bawah sikit, dlm 3 inch dr point pertama n ckp lagi "this is mommy" next, turun lagi, still it was mommy, pastu bila dah smpi at a point dlm 2 jari dari bawah pusat baru la dia kata "i can feel some resistance here, so that is the baby." Hahaha.... Bengong. Hubby kat luar examination room pun dah tersengih2. Hampeh.
So dr kata, perut aku yang besar kat salah tempat tu mungkin sbb fat deposits, or gas or even faeces. Hehe.. mmg ler aku dah constipated for a few days.. patutla kembung lain macam. :p

No further scannings whatsoever, dia ckp next mth baru scan.. probably to tgk if the baby is a girl or a boy la kot. Hehe.. tak sabarnye!

PS: miss niece nayara. Huhu... sangat comel.. nnt la post pic dia kalau ada.. hehe.

Huhu..tadek idea dah la nak post... Nak kena tgk keje2 tertangguh selama aku tadek. Harini bos dah la sumer takde.. malangnya ptg kang ada meeting. Cheish... hampeh.. baru nak berniat jahat. :p

Breathe and take a day at a time

Kekadang, sesak otak kalau fikir macam2 at once. At times like that, ada baiknya malas.. malas fikir, malas react, malas segala-gala; bukan utk selamanya, just until all the chaos subside. Penat bila chaos berlaku tak habis2... :p

Oh..stumbled upon this very nice doa from someone's blog.. Dr orang itu, mohon kebenaran publishkan doa anda yang indah itu di sini, semoga menjadi bibit2 doa yang tidak jemu diucapkan slps solat... :)

Doa Seorang Isteri
Ya Allah..
Kau ampunilah dosa ku yang telah ku perbuat
Kau limpahkanlah aku dengan kesabaran yang tiada terbatas
Kau berikanlah aku kekuatan mental
Kau kurniakanlah aku dengan sifat keredhan
Kau peliharalah lidahku dari kata-kata nista
Kau kuatkanlah semangatku menempuhi segala cabaran Mu
Kau berikanlah aku sifat kasih sesama insan

Ya Allah…
Sekiranya suamiku ini adalah pilihan Mu di Arash
Berilah aku kekuatan dan keyakinan untuk terus bersamanya
Sekiranya suamiku ini adalah suami yang akan membimbing tanganku dititian Mu
Kurniakanlah aku sifat kasih dan redha atas segala perbuatannya
Sekiranya suami ku ini adalah bidadara untuk ku di Jannah Mu
Limpahkanlah aku dengan sifat tunduk dan tawaduk akan segala perintahnya
Sekiranya suami ku ini adalah yang terbaik untukku di Dunia Mu
Peliharalah tingkah laku serta kata-kataku dari menyakiti perasaannya
Sekiranya suami ku ini jodoh yang dirahmati oleh Mu
Berilah aku kesabaran untuk menghadapi segala kerenah dan ragamnya

Tetapi ya Allah…
Sekiranya suami ku ini ditakdirkan bukan untuk diriku seorang
Kau tunjukkanlah aku jalan yang terbaik untuk aku harungi segala dugaan Mu
Sekiranya suami ku tergoda dengan keindahan dunia Mu
Limpahkanlah aku kesabaran untuk terus membimbingnya
Sekiranya suamiku tunduk terhadap nafsu yang melalaikan
Kurniakanlah aku kekuatan Mu untuk aku memperbetulkan keadaanya
Sekiranya suamiku menyintai kesesatan
Kau pandulah aku untuk menarik dirinya keluar dari terus terlena

Ya Allah…
Kau yang Maha Mengetahui apa yang terbaik untukku
Kau juga yang Maha Mengampuni segala kesilapan dan keterlanjuranku
Sekiranya aku tersilap berbuat keputusan
Bimbinglah aku ke jalan yang Engkau redhai
Sekiranya aku lalai dalam tanggungjawabku sebagai isteri
Kau hukumlah aku didunia tetapi bukan diakhirat Mu
Sekiranya aku engkar dan derhaka
Berikanlah aku petunjuk kearah rahmat Mu

Ya Allah…
Sesungguhnya aku lemah tanpa petunjuk Mu
Aku buta tanpa bimbingan Mu
Aku cacat tanpa hidayah Mu
Aku hina tanpa Rahmat Mu

Ya Allah…
Kuatkan hati dan semangatku
Tabahkan aku menghadapi segala cubaan Mu
Jadikanlah aku isteri yang disenangi suami
Bukakanlah hatiku untuk menghayati agama Mu
Bimbinglah aku menjadi isteri Soleha

Hanya pada Mu, Ya Allah…
Ku pohon segala harapan
Kerana aku pasrah dengan dugaan Mu
Kerana aku sedar hinanya aku
Kerana aku insan lemah yang kerap keliru
Kerana aku leka dengan keindahan dunia Mu
Kerana kurang kesabaran ku menghadapi cabaran Mu
Kerana pendek akal ku mengharungi ujian Mu

Ya Allah Tuhanku…….
Aku hanya ingin menjadi isteri yang dirahmati
Isteri yang dikasihi
Isteri yang soleha
Isteri yang sentiasa dihati
Amin, Ya Rabbi Allamin…….

Tiga 'Ta'

Tak ingat la whether aku penah cerita ke tak abt this dlm post yg terdahulu.. Anyways, nak ckp gak.

Being in the position i'm in now, i've received quite a number of email layangs and cerita2 abt corrupted govn servants, as well as having read abt it in local newspapers. Tak tau mana silapnya kan, sedangkan mula2 masuk politik kononnya nak perjuangkan martabat bangsa. Bila dah naik takhTA, lupa niat asal. Sama la jugak macam kebykan kita kat dunia, aku pun termasuk. Bila dah lama dan lali hidup kat duni, kekadang terlupa kita pernah berjanji dgn Dia sms di alam roh dulu. Apa yg dijanji pun, mungkin ramai yg dah lupa. Berbalik pd cerita corruption, bila dah ada takhTA, dibanjiri pulak dengan waniTA, dapat pulak harTA, maka banyaklah jiwa-jiwa yang jadi lemah kan? Mulalah, lupa asal usul, lupa bangsa... Ingat perut sendiri aje.

Guru ajar supaya sentiasa berwaspada dengan 3 TA nih. Pesan yang akan ku ingat, dengan izinNya. Yang aku kagum, bila aku masuk service (diam tak diam dah sethn jugak aku dlm service), ada aku dgr the very same peringatan dari pegawai2 atasan. Yang kiranya dah mmg super senior aku la. Aku bangga adanya mereka yang masih ingat tujuan mereka menjadi pegawai kerajaan. mungkin ada byk lain yg corrupted, tp dengan izinNya, bermula dengan sedikit yang sedar kedudukan mereka, akan tiba masanya untuk perubahan berlaku. :) Perubahan ke arah kebaikan. Dan aku takkan putus asa utk melihat perubahan ini berlaku.

Okey..off to have a spanking good weekend! :)

Longing for a nice, luxurious holiday

Haha.. mengada.. tak cukup nice nak luxurious pulak :p Hmm... bestnya kalau dapat gi cuti2 kat pulau yg berpasir putih, halus, air biru yang crystal clear.... Hmm.. bestnya.. sigh!~

Hmmm.... still at the office after a lengthy meeting. Haha.. I guess the boss just regained her strength to talk endlessly after a week's break. Takpelah... janji dia bahagia. :)

Hukhuk..bila hasben nak balik?

It's been a week now since Dan went to do his HKG-ANC-LAX run. Huh. Saturday ni baru balik. Huhu... pastu cuti lama la kononnya. Like yeah right la. He's on standby, can get called up anytime, anywhere. Huhu..lamanye tak bercuti2an, bermesra2an, berdua2an ngan hubby. Wendu la plak. Hahahaa... Shopping sesama pun dah lama tak buat. Hehe.. not like i larat la nak bershopping mcm dedulu. Penat aa skang. Tp kena gak g shopping since baju2 dah tak muat. Hmmm... cincin tunan aritu dah tak muat.Jari mcm dah swollen, ketat gile that ring. Agak2 aci tak kalau mintak ring baru? Hehehe... takmola... cincin takmo.. nak rantai T&Co. :p Cheh.. ada hati nak demand. :p

Huh..tadi rasa mcm berjela nak tulis..tp since tinggal lagi 6 menet nak blk, shorten la. Nak singgah alamanda jap.. beli buah2an.. utk baby. :) Byes!!

Berita Palsu Kemenangan Lina Joy

Baru je terima email abt kepalsuan berita kemenangan Lina Joy kat mahkamah. Waht a relief!! Ada pihak nak amek kesempatan nak psiko nampak... So umat Islam sekalian, meh kita bersama2 kuatkan persaudaraan kita, perangi musuh2 dalam selimut nih. Bersatu teguh, bercerai roboh. :) To LJ, semoga ko diberikan petunjuk dan hidayah dari yang maha Esa. Amin!~

Hari yang penuh meeting

Hadey..meeting dr pagi smpi petang ler today. Penat den. Anyways, the meetings were quite interesting. The first meeting proved that i was a sucker with microphones and public.. not so much with the public la.. more on the mic. Pesal tah..ckp kat mic je cam berterabur. Kena beli mic satu ni, letak kat umah, practice depan cermin. The other meeting tu, dapat info yang mana sebenarnya banyak peluang untuk libatkan diri dlm perniagaan ni. Byk pihak yang willing nak bantu. You just have to meet the right people. Even thru uni, you can start a biz. Aku harap, lagik ramai Bumi yang dapat peluang bukak biz, majukan biz smpi global. To kengkawan, kalau berminat, aku akan bantu setakat yang aku mampu... Tp jgn mintak tlg yg bukan2 la. Skang ni aku masih banyak nak belajar camne nak bantu bangsa aku. Hmm... :) Wish me luck!

Daily Ramblings
Finally!! My pc is ready. Heh..but with that comes also all the work that had piled up over the last few days when i couldn't do my work coz i don't have a work station. Heh. Talk about irony. Demmit. :p Hehe..mind my language. Posting is the ONLY way that i can curse (although i might've spat a curse or two while driving) without the baby in my tummy hearing it. Hehe.. Takdela baby jadik cam cerita Meet The Parents tu..first word asshole.. duh!~

Anyways, so far dah hampir siap one report tertangguh. Esok polish sbb ptg2 lagi 15 menet nak balik ni otak dah jem... Dahla lapaq.. Isk.. lupa je nak bawak biskut. :p

Hari ni no specified topic.. apa yang terlintas je la.. Hmm.. got an email tadi kata kes lina joy dah menang. Wallahualam.. sesungguhnya Allah Maha Besar dan Maha Mengetahui. Semoga kita dan keturunan kita dilindungi daripada kafir2 laknatullah nih. Mmg celaka.. ko dah tanak percaya mampus korang la.. jgn la guna taktik longkang nak jerumuskan orang lain. Apesal dengki sangat? Takut tak cukup member nnt nak masuk jahannam ke? Dasar laknatullah. :P Tolong la umat Islam yang dilimpahi kesenangan kat bumi Mesia ni.. tolong la sedar diri, sedar asal usul. Kalau Dia tak izin bercantum benih dalam rahim ibu masing2, tak rasa kita semua nikmat dunia ni. Isk.. mcm mane nak kasik org yg buta hati, buta mata, tuli, pekak badak paham ek?

Haritu tgk Discovery Channel. Akan ada suatu hari nnt ada satu gunung berapi yang sgt besar akan meletup, dan akan mengakibatkan suhu dunia berubah sehingga berkemungkinan terjadinya lagi sekali Ice Age. Gunung Berapi super volcano yang dikatakan mengakibatkan perkara ni terjadi takla terletak jauh sangat dari kita.. Tu.. dekat Lake Toba, Indonesia. Just imagine la how big the lake is.. Tu besar kawah dia... isk.. negara kita sebelah je... Wallahualam. Nak kata risau sgt tu..ermm.. risaula jugak... Tp kalau benda mmg dah dijanjikan oleh Allah, mana boleh kita elak ye tak? Just wait n see... wait n see..

Okla.. nak balik aa..

Oh..btw.. skang diorg dah block YM la kengkawan.. Aku dah tak dapek masuk YM.. HUHUUHU... :(

Hmmpphh.. dah masuk hari rabu dah ni..Pc aku yg diamek sejak ari isnin ta gak siap2nye lagi. Adey..penat gua asyikl tompang pc orang. Anyways, everytime masalah yang sama.. bila dah tiba depan posting page blogger nih, dah tatau apa nak post. Kalau masa tengah melengung tu, i.e masa tgh tuck in traffic ke, masa tgh dlm bilik termenung ke, rasa cam byk je nak dipostkan.. Isk.. hampeh btol.

Checkup yang ke-3

Last wednesday pergi checkup pregnancy (apa term dia? antenatal ek?) kat sepital pantai. Kali ni terpaksa gi sensowang sbb hasben nye flight delay. Isk. Bengong nye transmile. Tu la.. kapalterbang org dah humban nak buat besi buruk pun nak beli lagi.. pastu rosak manjang. Bowdow. Anyways.. aptmt kol 0930, so aku dah smpi around 0900... As usual, kena amek berat... mak datuk.. naik sampai 3 kelo lebih..kalau campur kenaikan seblom ni, dah 5 kelo within the 1st trimester..Isk.. galok sangat tuh. :p Kang obese pulak kang.. Pastu kena pegi kencing and gather urine.. hmm.. Mmg susahla nak weewee kalau disuruh nih. Isk.. pastu tunggu dr sampai sejam, walaupun aku org yg 1st utk aptmt tu.. sbb pepagi dr kena pergi morning rounds dulu kat wards. Tunggu ler smpi nak dekat 1030 baru dr masuk. Seb baik dr ni cun n senyum sokmo... Takdela hangat hati. Hehe.

First n foremost, dr suh gi baring utk buat scan. Kalau ikut scan haritu, baby dah masuk 11 minggu 6 hari. Awawal lagi dah nmpk dia spread eagle kat dlm screen, tp tak nmpk lagi genitals dia. Bila dr greak sket probe, dia pun gerak2 sket.. lepas tu galak plak dia gerak, a few kicks here and there, pastu dia shake dia punya bum. Haha.. kecik2 lagi anak aku dah pandai shake his/her bon-bons. :) Too bad hubby tadek nak tgk dia gerak2. Takpela.. next aptmt dia off, blh la dia tgk. Pas scan, dr ckp amende sket2, kasik ubat, pastu habis... hmm..

Memandangkan aritu aku cuti, blk je dr spital trus gi mvalley, nak beli baju ngan skirt sbb baju kurung dah sendat kat pewut. Beli dua helai baju ngan selai skirt... tp smpi skang tak pakai lagi pun.. sbb rasa cam segan plak. Cam ngada.. baru masuk 3 bln nak pakai baju maternity. Heh.. perasaan je tu, tau.. manade org nak ckp pape.. tp cam segan gak.. nnt la.. Bila baju kurung dah konpem takleh masuk baru pakai la. Lama gak bjalan2 kat mvalley tuh. Somput gak ghaso eh. T/hari, lunch ngan buddy masa DPA. Sambil lunch smbl gossip. Hisy.. rupanya byk gosip dpa yg aku tatau nih. Hmm.. mcm dok bawah tempurung jek kitorg masa dpa sbb kitorg dua2 mmg baru tau mende2 gosipan tu slps dpa. Haha.. satelite nak kena upgrade nih. Tp gosipan tu mmg memeranjatkan la.. isy..isy.. apa nak jadi.. apa dah jadi??

Lps lunch, blk umah terus terbongkang. Penat siut. Dr kol 1045 smpi kol 1400 aku berlegar2 kat mv tuh. Before carrying, mungkin rasa tak penat sgt... tp since membawak budak nih, perhh.. letih tu. Dahla jalan sowang2 jek. huhu..

Rombongan lawatan orang jauh

Last sunday org penang datang melawat!! :D Suka betol.. sbb mmg dah lama berhajat nak gi penang nengok si danish.. tp sampai la blom dpt chance. Bila nak pi pun cek tatau la. Anyways, sempat la bergurau senda ngan danish smpi danish tersengih2... tp ibu dia kata dia borak ngan org dln perut, bukan ngan aku. hehe.. iyer la kot. Wah wah.. belum kuar lagi ko sudah pasang umpan ya Danish. Heheh... takpe.. long een ni sporting. ;) Memacam citer kuar, cite mengandung, citer beranak, citer nak membesarkan *tuuuuttt* utk kasik baby senang menyusu... dsb... Tapi yang tak syoknya, tak sempat nak bergosip. Isk.. haru sungguh. Ramai ngan org sekeliling bila nak bergosip. Iskkkkkk... kacau sungguh. Takpela nura, lain kali la nooo.. takpun kita online je. ;)

Dilema duduk umah

Kali ni hubby will be away for 13 days.. lama gak tu.. nak dekat 2 minggu.. so mama suh dok kg. Hisy.. so yesterday aku pun from opis trus aa blk sepang. Alahai.. tp hati gua tak tenteram la.. Risau gak umah tu tinggal takde org.. Sbb depan umah kitorg tu ada org aprika nyewa. Dan br lak ckp, masa dia kuar bwk beg besar2 tu, sama lak dgn salah sorang aprika ni kuar.. So dia tau la yg kitorg takde kat umah kan. Just risau la.. takut kang nia nak ceroboh ke hape.. Isk.. buruk sangka kan? Tapi nak wat camne.. kalau kelompok2 diorg mmg tak penah ada kes, kita pun takdela nak buruk sangka kan. Masalahnya mmg dah tersohor org aprika kat mesia ni kiat kena berwaspada sket. Mcm2 kes. Tp kalau dok umah risau gak... sbb dia tau mesti aku sorang. Isk..

Walaubgmnpun, aku tetap suka gak dok kat situ, walaupun sensorang. Tak dpt nak explain la kenapa. Bukan tak suka blk umah mak snirik.. tp ntah la. Aku rasa lagi selesa kat umah snirik, walaupun aku kena prepare dinner snirik, basuh baju snirik.. At least kat umah snirik aku rasa agak safe, mungkin sbb aura hasben tu ada kat umah tu kan.. Walaupun dia takde kat umah, tp dgn berada kat umah tu kurangla sikit kerinduan kat dia.. At least kat umah tu bila masuk blk nmpk la baju2 dia, shaver dia, bau cologne dia, nmpk berus gigi dia... Hehe.. cam kemaruk je bunyik... Kang bila jalan nak gi hall, lintas study dia yang byk brg tu.. so, takdela rasa sebak sgt. Pastu kat umah ada broadband.. blh skype ngan dia bila dia online. Hmmm.... alahai. :p Nak balik umah! :(

Waarrgghhh.... Still stressed!!

Hmmphh... i'd been pretty normal at work tadik. Ntah camne ntah mlm ni blh lak layan mentari jingga. Huhu.. dah tak stabil balik keadaan den. Hampeh btol. Nyesal lak tengok. Hmm.. macam2 dah dibuat. Membusykan diri, attend meeting, ngumpat, dsb... tapi tak berjaya gak melawan perasaan bengong nih. Probably worry kot.. sbb dah lama tak contact ngan hubby. Dia kat mana pun tatau. Tp dia baru je online tadik. Dapat la dengar suara dia kat skype. Tenang la sket perasaan nih. Tapi, sedey gak.. coz dia esok petang baru on the way balik kl.. Tak mungkin la sampai kl esok jugak. Paling awal pun wed morning.. Wed tu dah antenatal aptmt.. kol 9.30 pg lak tu. Huhu. Kena gi sowang la nampaknya. Isk.. takut gak. Selalu dia ada temankan. Hmm.. :(

Colleague tak betul

Hehe..tadik lepas lunch bley plak layan ngumpat. Abt this one colleague. Camne tah leh terkeluar dia punya tembelang. Hakhak. Aku ingatkan baik, disebalik kepelikan dia tuh. Ceh. Beriya je pakai songkok ke hulu hilir, tapi simpan gamba tak senonoh dalam pc. Bongok ke hapa. Dah le pc tu pc kerajaan. Sah2 sesape bley explore especially kalau nak carik data ke apa2 kan.

Citernye camni... masa budak ni dihantar kursus, member ni kena access pc dia sbb nak carik data. Utk memudahkan pencarian, bukak la kat most recent docs.. haha.. sekali kuar plak file bohsia kampung. Wakakak... bengong tak. Dahla ko letak gamba bengong kat pc kerajaan, nama file tak hengat nak sorok. Mmg bangang tahap dewa. Pastu yang member nih cam serba salah la.. tak bukak lagi file tu, pakat panggil plak kengkawan lagi dua tiga orang. hehe. Dapat plak ada yang nakal.. open source file (source file mamat ni hide kan..bijak la konon.. dlm source file tu ada lagi gamba2)... lepas tu tukar nama file tu as rahsia dah terbongkar or sth of tht sort. Bila mamat tu balik dari kursus, nmpk sgt dia nak bukak file gamba lucah tu, so dia discover la yg ada org sudah tukar the file name and ada orang yang dah tau rahsia dia..cuma dia tatau sape. Hehe. Dia tanya member, ada sesape ke access pc.. Dgn muka dekk member ckp takde. Pastu tanya soklan bodo... pc tu sesape blh access ke. Member baik punya layan.. boleh.. sampai MAMPU pun bley access utk monitor. Berubah muka. Tau lak gabra. Buat keje tak hengat. Apa, kat umah tak cukup2 ke nak nengok mende bukan2 sampai kena bawak gi opis. Hisy. Tak semenggah. :p Sia-sia pakaian luaran macam beriman. Ptui!~ Isk.. camne la nnt dia blk kursus lama.. harap2 berubah la... kalau tak,hmm... taktau la. First n foremost kalau part bau tu takde perubahan, terpaksala kitorg proceed plan kitorg nak hadiahkan dia deodorant. :p

Dahla malas nak citer lagik. Tadi byk lagik nak post sbb hati runsing. Skang dah ok sket, cukup la takat ni. Nak gi makan pear madu. Yumm.. sedapnye. Manis gila. Bubbye.

Last week yang best dan tak best

Iskk... banyak mende yang terjeruk dalam hati ni. Hmm.. sedey betul kengkawan semua jauh2 ni..takde tempat nak share cerita.. Ngn hasben lain. Citer ngan org laki lain dari citer ngan org pompuan. As is stated dlm buku "women are form venus, men are form mars", lelaki ni tend to give solution, which i find quite true. kekadang tu, kita pompuan ni cerita just to let it out of our system. Bukan kita cerita tu maknanya kita dah buntu tak tau nak buat apa but still, men being men, they won't stop offering solutions. Dah memang hardwired into their system kot kan? Hmm.. tp tu lah, back to the main point, sgt tak bestnya bila buddies semua jauh2, n tak dapat nak meluahkan isi hati like before. Hukhuk. :(

Last week was quite a busy week. We had this launching thingy involving the minister and 3 corporate tan sris. It was kinda big, and despite our efforts to ensure that everything goes well, there were still shortfalls. Biasala kan.. manade mende yang perfect. Belajar la dari kesilapan. So because of this thingy, i had to stay at the office til late, which is just too bad coz my hubby was around last week, back from his 10 days flight.

God.. i wish i can just spill out everything inside my heart here on this blog. :p

Entahlah... banyak dugaan la mengandung ni. Kekadang cam frustrated with myself for being too sensitive, too emotional, too irritable... isk... PMS all month. PMS 2 minggu pun aku dah tension. Huhu. It's not fair to the people around me.. tapi, masalahnya, i usually blow off my top to the people i love and care about, and who loves me. Isk.. selalu camtu..dulu masa dok ngan kengkawan pun, diorang gak jadik mangsa pms ku. Huhu.. sian korang. :) Sori yek.. Now... orang yang most loved la yang kena. Isk.. tak suka la..tak suka..tak suka..tak suka. Tak suka perasaan yang tak best.. tak suka buat orang yang disayangi rasa tak best. :( Sedey la camni.

Iskk..bengang dan bengong. Wek, wek dan wek lagik... Hmm.. aku pun tak tau apa bijik butir yang aku post kan arinih. Whatever.. as long as it helps with venting out whatever it is that i'm feeling inside.

Oh..one more thing that's frustrating me. My favourite boss is moving to another ministry. Hmm.. sedey betul. She's such a good boss. She taught me a lot. My mentor. Sedeyla dia takde. Things won't be the same. Skang ni kat my unit, she's the most senior and knows a lot about the unit..skang dia takde semua tinggal jr officers je la, termasukla yours truly nih. Hmm... i'm gonna miss this boss of mine. Tp, dia tak tuka kalau kesian gak kat dia. Dahla dok jauh, makan ati lak kat opis.. isk..cian bos.. :(.. now she's leaving, kesian aku dan kitorang staf2 dia nih. Uwaaa!!

Kiutnye baby!~

Baru balik melawat fp kak Salmi nengok baby dia arissa. Kiutnye!! Hehe. Geram.. tak sabar plak nak tunggu baby nih kuar. :p Tapi kang bila cukup masa baby kuar kang.. kelam kabut lak... Bukannye reti jaga baby. Isk.. camne la nak mandikan baby baru lahir tu yang masih kecik bangat dan lembut... huhu.. gerun gua. Takpe la.. mama ada to the rescue. Wakakaa.. :D Lagipun byk lagi masa nak pikir pasal tu semua.. 7 bln lagik... heheh...

Muntah lagik

Lately nih cam mabuk teruk sket... (Huhu.. ada ka hubby cakap terlebih minum.. fire sebijik kang!~ Ingat gua yam seng punya mabuk ka?) Anyways.. haritu penah gak jadik camni... masa tu terasa sangat2 nak makan country fried steak dgn nachos kat chilli's... Sepanjang tak dapat tu, mabuk beriya.. bila dah dapat, ok je pulak.. La ni jadik macam ni, terpikir gak.. ada ke mende yang aku terasa nak makan tapi tak pegi makan sampai jadik mabuk teruk ginih?? Hmm... rasa cam takde... ooo... tapi mungkin gak ada... Teringat nak makan mee udang/ketam kat penang... ngan ikan kimchu kat teluk tempoyak... ngan moi sup opah... ngan laksa kat tepi d-lima tempat erobik fennie tuh.. Uwaaaa...... gua nak gi penangggg!!!

Pelik

Hmm... pelik aa dengan rakyat mesia skang nih. Just imagine, cakap pasal pertunangan org mcm la benda tu important sgt.. berhari2 dok kuar report kat paper pasal artis ni nak putus tunang bla..bla... siap front page tuh! Pasni plak.. kisah artis ni nak kawen ngan datuk ni plak kuar front page..like duh!~ nothing new la artis kawen dato'.. pehal la beriya nak letak front page. Front page utk berita2 penting.. macam la kisah org kawen/putus tunang ada implikasi pada kegiatan ekonomi/politik/sosial negara. Apesal, orang mesia ni dah takde benda penting ke yang nak difikirkan? Sibuk sangat amek tau pasal hal orang je kejenya? Mcm tu ke?

Pastu pelik gak dgn orang yang drive2 skang kat mesia nih. Geram pun ada gak..Pehal nak main cilok2, potong q orang. Apehal.. orang lain blh q pesal ko takleh. Ingat bagus sangat. Ko sorang je rasa penat nak balik cepat. Helo.. orang lain pun penat gak, keje gak, nak balik cepat gak.. boleh je beratur.. OKU pun mampu lagi beratur tak potong q..pehal ko yang sihat walafiat takleh tunggu. Semua nak cepat..mati tak nak pulak cepat. :p

Pastu, orang yg suka hog kat lane tengah. Bengap ke hape. Are they like born stupid or is the stupidity acquired? Kalau tak memotong, duduk la lane kiri sekali... lane tgh tu bukannya lane cruising.. bengong.. Bawak 60km/h duduk lane tengah.. Ko ingat ko sorang je ke nak guna jalan. Reti2 la masuk lane kiri..kosong je pun. Tak kena bayar pun kalau duduk kat lane kiri tu... Pelik aa.. orang lain makin bertamadun makin bijak... kat sini macam sebaliknya pulak.. Bab rosak akhlak tak payah sebut la kan.. :p Hampeh.

Penat!~

Tak taula apesal rasa penat..Nak kata byk berjalan tak, drive tu biasala, pegi balik putrajaya.. kat opis most of the time duduk jek, buat surat, gi meeting, makan... muntah tak la selalu sangat... tapi rasa penat sangat. Balik lepas dinner, tak sempat nak spend time ngan dan pun, terus je rasa nak lena... Wonder why..Huhu. Tadik petang pegi bt jalil park, bagi kura2 ngan ikan makan roti. Jalan sikit je pun, tapi terasa penatnye..ke sbb aku dah kurang excercise ek??

Checkup

Syukur... checkup semalam ok. Dapat dengar baby's heartbeat for the first time. Laju betul! Saiz dia pun dah bertambah... 4 times in lengths than the last time. Haritu 4mm je.. skang dah 12mm.. :) Alhamdulillah... semoga selamat dan dipermudahkan all the way.

Frust

Frust pun ada gak.. frust sbb tak dapat cuti.. Frust sbb mood mcm takde, takleh nak enjoy time together ngan hubby.. sbb aku rasa macam malas nak cakap, malas nak react... Frust sbb asyik penat je when there's much cleaning to be done inside the house.. Frust sbb weekend tak pernah ada kat umah... :( Frust nyee!!

Back to work

First day at work after 6 months. Met all the bosses, everyone said good timing. There're heaps of things to be done. Hmm... doesn't really sound like good news does it? On that note, there goes my chance of even applying for leave. Darnit!

Lagipun, after i asked the opinions of my senior colleagues, everyone advised me against asking for leave after dpa.. coz there had been not-so-pretty occurence regarding the same thing before, to another colleague who had left the division. So that's it la. So much for going to penang. :p Dan pun same thing. Instead of 7 days off block, it got cut down to 4 days, because some smart ass said that the pilots are bored with 7 off days at home. Like duh!~ It's not that the idiot even asked around. He'd probably just asked his ass-kissers, people who'd willingly kiss his ass as a tool for personal gain. Like...fraakk them man! Selfish assholes. Only concerned with themselves.

Tmrw will be another day at work.. oh..and my pc got attacked by the wicked brontok virus. God damn those people who came up with such stupid things. I mean.. y on earth would anyone do that? What do they get from haywiring another person's computer? Doesn't it ever occur to them that it cost a lot of people a lot of trouble? What if the virus affected a computer system that holds data on hospital clients' medication? People can die of wrong medication just because some fuckhead decided to come up with a computer virus just for the fun of it. Another narcissistic idiot kinda person. So full of themselves. Why are there so many people like this on the surface of the earth now?

There are like kazillion things to post on.. but my mind just failed to think of any.. Or..is it because there's just too much to say that my mind simply zoinked off?

Pregnancy

Hmmm.. 8 weeks pregnant and counting.. Wait a sec.. 8 weeks? Wow.. isn't that 2 months now? Haha... with God's will, seven months to go, if everything is alright. Cepatnya masa berlalu.

My days are usually filled with numerous toilet visits due to the enlarging uterus pushing my bladder as well as the hormonal effects on my stomach, taste buds and smell senses. Quite a number of things ticks me off and makes me puke/wanna puke... onions, strong perfume... and whatever God knows what. Penat gak asyik berulang gi toilet, but it's kind of a relief for me coz it's a sign that the pregnancy hormones are running high on my systems, which means the fetus is still alright. Hmm.. can't wait for my next appointment.

Hmm.. been talking abt this pregnancy thingy too much huh? Hehe.. can't help it. A human being is developing in my tummy... like awesome maannn!

DPA's over!!

Yep, Dpa's finally over. Was excited to finish it but at the same time i was pretty sad to part with all my fellow friends, especially from x-sidang c who had and will always be close to heart. Rasa macam baru je balik from polis, tentera, obs, bomba, btn, penempatan kampung.... Cepatnya masa berlalu.. Hehe.. probably because beriye tdo during lecture smpi tak sedar masa berlalu. Lecturer masuk tdo, by the time break je bangun. Haha.. Hampeh je.

Anyways, it had been an interesting, great and enjoyable six months. Many thanks to all my friends in dpa for making the last 6 months not just bearable, but very much exciting and meaningful, which i know i'll cherish my whole life.

6 days and counting

Yep..just less than a week's time, and DPA will be over. It'll be a hectic week ahead, as it had been last week. At least last week during classes sempat jugak la nap.. no, i really don't mean in between classes, i mean during class itself. Hakhak.. masa dah pregnant ni cam senang je nak tdo dlm kelas. Cam azno masa kuliah dolu2..heheheee.... :D

Last night we had this dance competition, but our sidang only got third place. Kitorang danced to 2 songs, one hindi and one malay.. since the theme is muhibah. I danced the malay one la since it has less vigorous moves. All my friends cakap.. sah2 babay nih terer menari la esok2.. haha... Ok la.. warisi bakat mummy.. Tp jgn gi clubbing je plak sudah la... Pastu tadik, jumpa ppk.. dia pun tegur "dah mengandung pun nak menari jugak.." hehe.. nak wat cane.. kang tak join tak cukup dancer nak wakil sidang. Belasah je la.

In the afternoon, sesambil nengok kengkawan main galah panjang sempena karnival sukan rakyat kinda-thing, lepak ngn another ppk.. dia ckpla, during the first 3 mths ni kena jaga elok2... cite experience dia, bila wife dia tau je pregnant, dia tak bagi dah sapu umah ke, drive ke, basuh kain ke.. Semua dia yang buat. He said wife dia senang gugur... so mmg dielak buat keje2 ringan atau berat in the first 3 months. Rasa cam gabra gak bila dia citer, since teringat balik macam2 benda ganas yang dah dibuat... menari la, brisk walking la... tapi so far, alhamdulillah, selamat lagik kot. Bleeding ke takdela.. Morning sickness pun dah macam start. So, insyaAllah, oke kot. Tapi still amek iktibar gakla. Hubby pun pesan, not to over exert myself and get as much rest as possible... heehe. tu yang tdo during class tu. ;)

Pregnancy update
Bouts of morning sickness has started...but it also occurs and night.
Tapi takla muntah banyak2 kali sangat.. Ada la sekali dua in a day... Skang suka makan yang pedas2, takleh tolerate makanan main dish yang macam manis sikit..Kira kalau sambal tu kena kaw2 punya pedas la.. (nak kena balik umah nenek nih). Bawang yang hiris2 yang masih visible dlm food pun takleh terima.. Loya je rasa tekak.. sbb cawang tu cam manis2 kan... Dulu bawang antara benda yang disukai.. Isk.. Skang terbayang bawang je pun tekak boleh kembang. Pastu macam selalu teringin nak makan aiskrim, cakes... tapi tak makan pun... beli, tapi tak makan. Heheh.

P/s: aznooooo... aku teringat kek black forest ipoh laaaaa...... nyum nyum...

Alreity..that's abt it for now. Tdo plak la.. esok kena gi pagi gak. Ciao!

Excitement in worry

I've been keeping this to myself for the past one week. At first, i didn't wanna tell anyone just yet, but i just can't keep it to myself. I need to let it out. I'm 6 weeks pregnant!!!!! Despite all my rantings in the previous post, i'm actually rather excited about the pregnancy. Hmm.. :) Imagining myself with a bump. No wonderla i felt so haywired the previous weeks.. emotional rollercoaster akibat buatan suami rupanya..Hehehe... :)

Anyways... two weeks back, as in the previous post, my period was late. At 5 days delay, i did a self test and it returned negative, much to my relieve (at that time). Told hubby, and he said ok but he felt kinda dissappointed in a way. When hubby said that, i kinda feel bad about it, but went about life as usual.

On the weekend, we went to my family gathering in PD and had loads of fun, and i engaged in a number of activities namely getting thrown into the water from the banana boat thingy (5 times), main terompah gergasi sampai jatuh2 terduduk, lari2 kat pantai, tarik tali dengan bersungguh2... stuffs like that. Hehe. Completely forgotten about my delayed period whatsoever.

Sunday, we got back to KL. Monday, class as usual. Monday night, period was still absent. That was a call for another self test. So it went.. pee - test - wait... A minute later... hmm.. still a single line.. and i took a closer look... Hmm.. i think i saw another faint line at the test area.. Hmm.. showed it to my hubby to confirm... he thought he saw it too.. and we were in confusion the whole night.

Tuesday, went to class, still anxious about last night's test result. During lunch break, i followed a friend to a pharmacy to get another kit and tested as soon as i reach my friend's room. The result returned a definite 2 lines!! I am pregnant!!! :)

As excited as I am, i can't help but to worry about the fetus. Last week both my hubby and i went to the gynae and she perfomed the ultrasound on me. She said i was 6 weeks pregnant, counting from the 1st day of the last period. The ultrasound showed us a tiny oval-shaped spot inside my uterus which the dr said was the baby! I was like so excited to see it. My very own baby. :) It was just abot 4mm long, but the worrying part was that the dr couldn't detect the heartbeat. She told me it was probably too early to find a heartbeat and asked me to come again in 2 weeks time. She said if in 2 weeks we still couldn't hear the heartbeat, there could be a problem with the pregnancy... which is really, really worrying me right now.

Read through some forums in the net about a fetus' heartbeat, it is said that usually it can only be heard after 8 weeks, and it's trickier to ind a heartbeat when the mother has tilted/retroverted uterus, a condition which i'm in (according to my previous obgyn). Dunnola... i'm just so worried. With this aching back i have right now, i'm even more worried since my mom and dan's granma said that backaches in the early pregnancy is not a good sign. Hmm... it'd been giving me bad dreams every night. Sigh!~

Ntahla... fikir salah, tak fikir pun salah. Whatever it is, i believe that whatever is happening is God's will, and only the Almighty knows what's best for his servants.
Kita cuma mampu berdoa diberi kekuatan atas segala ketentuanNya.

Stabilized

Thank God, my moods are almost stabilized now. Not worrying so much about pregnancy or anything else. One of the reasons, DPA is gonna end in about 2 weeks. But mind you, it'll be a loonnggg 2 weeks. :p

Stabilized as i was, i was pretty pissed with this idiotic person who thinks he has absolute power. I wish he could just get a life. Had to see him for sth, but it seems that he just can't be polite at the very least. The hell with him la. You don't get respect without earning it. It's quite useless to preach to people about manners and politeness when you don't even have a trace of any of those qualities yourself. What a damned pig. :p A higher rank doesn't mean you can treat people like dirt. What goes around comes around.. might not happen to you.. but hey.. you have kids, and they might get shit form others. The same farking shit that you gave people. Whatever... no use saying anything to someone who thinks he's farking great. It'll only fall on deaf ears. Eughhh.. why am i even wasting my time and blog space to describe this person? So not worth it.

Thank you friends
Thanks a lot girls for all the support. Really, really appreciate it. It's kinda sad not having really close girlfriend to talk to and share girly things. It's different than talking to hubby or colleagues. Girlfriends listens and support you... well hubby do too, but they do it in a different way. They tend to give you solutions, when you're not even trying to find one. Sometimes when we say stuffs, it's just to let off the steam, not trying to find a solution. Hmmm...

Alreity.. nothing else to share at the moment.. :) Hmm.. my blog needs a major facelift.. Like really. :p

Baby Talk
I’m now six month married, going into my seventh now. I think for couples who’d been married half a year, they’d want to plan on having a baby in the family. Does it make me a weirdo if I said that I’m not ready for baby yet? I dunno. I think I’m not ready; emotionally, mentally… and my gynae said physically too.. coz he said that I oughtta shed some pounds to ensure a safe pregnancy.

That aside, I’ve just recently discovered how freaked out I was about the idea of having a baby. When my period was late, I went beserk. I had so many things in my mind; fear, worries… none of it excitement. I felt giddy with all the worrying. I broke down… and that’s only when I assumed that I was pregnant.. I wasn’t actually pregnant yet.

I mean.. it’s not that I don’t want a baby at all… I do… but not just yet. I worry that I won’t be able to care for the baby, given the condition that I’m in now, with the DPA and all, I’m barely at home. The house is in a mess, I’m in a mess. I can’t even take care of myself.. needless to mention a baby. So far, I can only tolerate kids to a certain point.. and that’s just spending a few hours with them. If I was having my PMS, I’ll lose it. It happened before, with Athirah. It’s fun to spend some time with them, but I don’t know if I’m capable of handling a human child 24-7. A baby needs constant attention. You need to feed them, change their diapers, burp them… the list goes on and on… I don’t think I’m capable of that yet. I mean… I can’t even care for a pathetic cactus plant for God’s sake… and now a human baby? And this baby doesn’t stay being a baby the whole time. Babies grow up. They have a future ahead of them… If I fuck up in bringing up my baby… I’m fucking up his/her future. Another human being’s future…. Imagine that.

I dunno. Maybe I’m just thinking too much. It’s either the thinking that made me freaked out or the other way round. Whatever it is, as I sat down just now,reading a book on prophets, I came to a realization that babies are gifts from God. Hubby had been telling me that when I broke down but it just wouldn’t sink in. When the time comes for us to be ready to care for a baby, He will send us that gift. Sesungguhnya Allah jua yang maha mengetahui. I just have to keep reminding myself that when I get freaked out again. :)

This is a backdated entry for last weekend.

Perfect Weekend

After quite a shit-filled week, my weekend had been perfect. Thanks to my dearest, understanding and loving hubby that made it perfect. We managed to spend the weekend together, since he wasn’t flying, went to his bi-annual family gathering, watched a movie together and had tremendous fun…. Hehe.. rabbits. ;)

Too bad there’s only 2 days in a weekend. :p

Shitty week

Yep.. that’s how I’d describe the last week. Pretty damn shitty. Taught me one valuable lesson (which had actually been told by Ustaz dulu).. you can never ever trust anybody in this whole wide world except 3 people. I was so gullible to think that people would be truthful and keep to their words as I would.

It started last Sunday when I was on the way to KL from Sepang via Sg Besi Highway. Just before the the Sg Besi toll plaza, a jackass in a Storm bumped into the back of my car. Of course, I didn’t know that he’s a jackass at that time. I got out, rather shocked since it was my first accident with another party (before this my accidents were like me-only and didn’t involve anybody else) and he said we’d better settle the thingy off-court since it was minor and to claim from the insurance would just take forever. He agreed to give me some cash (which I won’t state here coz you’ll laugh your guts out if I did) and I took it along with his sugar coated words to end it there. I said I’ll take the money, but if it costs me more than what he gave me, I’ll ring him up and send him the bill ( I made him give me his card).

So the day eventually came for us (my hubby) to send the car for repairs. As it turned up, it cost like 10 times more than what he gave me, coz there were hidden wreckage that I didn’t notice at the time of accident. When my hubby called him, the bastard said that I didn’t want to report.. padahal it was a mutual decision. Celaka je. He didn’t want to pay up and told my hubby if we want more money, we should lodge a police report. He said he lodged one already. Sial kan? Cakap tak serupa bikin. Memang dasar bangsa tu. Fine. The asshole wants to give us shit, we’ll give him shit.

The following night, we lodged a police report. As the officer was sympathetic to how gullible I had been, he helped us out with the report. So there, we lodged a report. When the officer crosschecked if the asshole lodged a report abt the accident, it turned up that he didn’t. Fucking idiot. Anyways… he’s gonna get it. He’ll get a fine for bumping into me, he’ll get another one for not lodging a report, and we get to claim from his insurance. I hope you like what you get you dumb fuck.

Unwell..

Hmm... i'm sick again.. Not sick as in throwing up sick.. sick as in not feeling well.. I've got a bad series of cough (which had started probably a moth ago and wouldn't go away despite 2 sets of antibiotics that i've finished) and runny nose. I'm on mc today, took the medication as prescribed..and now i'm feeling rather light-headed. Why ah? Probably too much sleep kot..since the medication makes me drowsy and i sleep a lot. Tmrw, back in class... Darn. I so hae to be there. :p

Penempatan Kampung
Got back from the anak angkat thingy last thursday... and i think it really changed my perception of k'tan; the people as well as the state itself. My family angkat consists of 5 ppl, the bapak angkat, mak angkat and 3 siblings angkat... Kinda difficult to address the parents angkat as ma and abah though, since they're just like 2 yrs older than my hubby. Haha. Pening. :p

Anyways, the days had gone by.. I enjoyed my stay there, but i can't say that i don't count days to get back to KL. I can adapt allright...but it's just not my place. KL is where i call home... where i'm at my most comfortable.

And one thing that i must point out - i spent A LOT there.. Kononnya menjana ekonomi rakyat k'tan. Lols.. yeah.. you can never run out of reasons to justify your actions can you? I got myself 5 tudungs, 2 pairs of batik lukis, a batik shirt for Dan, kain for both mommy n mom-in-law, 3 pasang kain for me (2 of which i've sent to the tailor in k'tan and is ready to wear), and others which i can't remember. I think my best buy was the 2 kain i bought in wakaf che yeh, which i bought for only rm13 per pair.. can you believe that? and i sent it for tailoring for rm 16.Mannn ...if only i could get that price here! Then my wardrobe will even be fuller than it is now. Lols..

Okie... my head is killing me.. better go shower or sth. :p

Missed Weddings

Oh my god..it'd just strucked me that i've missed nurul's wedding!!! I didn't even call her on her big day! Oh my god... i'm so sorry nurul, seriously. I think i wasn't around... God.. it's just so sad to miss your best bud's wedding ok... warrgghhh.. so sorry nurul!! Really wish i could be there. There're another 2 weddings of fellow friends coming up, but i think i can't make it, thanks to DPA. Sedih gila.. i missed naemah's wedding, mona's, and now nurul... next heja's and quite likely baya's. Sedihnya!!! Mann... ive ran out of words to describe just how broken i am not being able to attend my friends' weddings! I nearly missed my cuzin's as well! Urghhh... dpa sucks.

To friends, from the deepest end of my heart, i'm truly very sorry for not being able to make it to your weddings. It's a big loss to me not being able to share your big day with you.... really... :(

Penempatan Kampung

I'm gonna be off and put on a show and be a sick pretender this coming week. Hah! I'm off to the penempatan kampung module. We'll be appointed to a kampung in pasir mas. I think i'm getting a bit too old for all these stuffs you know... having to put on your best behaviour, act your best, urghhh... i hate being miss goody two shoes demmit! What upsets me most is the fact that we'll be going on a f***king saturday morning! My hubby will only be back from anc the night before that! Bommer ain't it? :p Oh.. btw.. it's my 6th month anniversary today (half year already!!), and as far as i remember, non of the mthly anniversary were we together. Pathetic huh? And now, with that and the knowledge of me missing my buddy's wedding, the not good feeling had just ballooned. *#&*)&$)^#@*)))&%^$%#!!!!

I'll only be back on the 25th night... which is my mom's bday... which means that i won't be around for her bday, nor will i be around for my dad-in-law's bday... :P.. and in june, dan won't be around for the family gathering in PD... :( sucks!

Terlanjur kata...
I read sth in a tabloid today that really drew me to actually buy the paper... About the celebrity who got divorced.. i guess you guys know more abt it than i do. Anyways, i just got to know abt it and iwas shocked coz this couple appeared so lovey dovey, what's more with the arrival of their new baby. I guess, we only see what's on the surface huh? What actually struck me to buy the paper wasn't really because they're celebrities. I was curious to know the causes of the break-up.. because i really think it's sad for something like that to happen to 2 ppl who had their share of life together and was blessed with 2 children.. and the youngest was only born 7 mths ago. I guess, when people are angry, they say things that they're bound to regret in the future. I guess everyone had experienced that before. Sth that we should ponder, so that we don't repeat the big mistake of saying regretful stuffs when we're angry.. something that could really have ugly consequences. I hope Allah saves my marriage, my friends' marriage, my family...

And the paper mentioned sth about a third person in the celebrities' marriage. I dunno... for most people, i guess it's a no-no. I don't want to be judgemental on people. Things happen for a reason. But if the same happens to me, i would be heartbroken myself... maybe more than i thought i would be... or i might be forgiving about it... you'll just never know, would you?

I guess, everywhere around the world, love blooms and love ends... In one place, we have a couple breaking up, in another we have another couple making up... ermm.. i think that didn't come out right.. heheh.. but i think you get the point, right? But i have to say, i'm greatly impressed by a colleague in dpa's WIVES. Yep.. wives. They're so close and so supportive of each other and the hubby (my colleague). They'll come and give their support to their husbanc together, in the same car. I mean, the first time i saw them, i thought they're sisters! Rupa2nya madu! MasyaAllah... This colleague is blessed with 9 children so far.. and he's only 29!! Man.... my respect to him and his wives. :)

Modul Bomba

Baru je balik dari modul Bomba t/hari tadi. Went there last sunday, smpi around 10am kat sana, diberi bilik, amek gears (helmet, boots, gloves) pastu lepak smpi petang utk briefing dan berkenalan dengan liason officers (LO) utk setiap group. We're split into 4 groups, dlm 20 org la satu group yg akan bersama2 menempuh cabaran modul ni. Malam, disiarkan pulak tayangan video yang uncensored semasa operasi menyelamat dan memadam kebakaran. Masa diorg tayang operasi kebakaran, ok lagi.. come the rescue part, esp yang rescue road traffic accident, ramai yang tak sanggup tengok.. termasuklah aku sekali. Satu dua ok lagi.. kalau dah byk, tak sanggup seyy... ada satu tayangan tu, sedih sgt smpi termengalir air mata. Tak payah la cerita apa tanyangannya.. tak mau ingat pun. Yang pastinya, lepas tgk video tu, insaf jugakla, and berazam nak bawak kete secermat mungkin utk elak accident. Mohon dijauhkan!

Second day, bermulalah kehidupan kitorg memakai celoreng bomba, merah hitam. Dengan beret merah, belt biru gelap dan anti spike, berbaris la kitorg at 0645 utk the first activity pagi tu - menyelamat di dataran. Yg ni belajar mcm mana nak move mangsa dr scene insiden.. Belajar la fireman carry, darling carry, piggy back carry and stuffs like that. Sejam bljr mende2 tu. After that bfast pastu terus masuk kelas. After class, minum pagi and straight to the next activity. Activity ni berlainan utk setiap kumpulan, tp lps tu rotate la. Our group kena buat usungan memula. Ingat relax la, just belajar alat2 mengusung mangsa (stretcher) dan cara nak angkat.. Mmg la blajar tu je.. tambahannya, kena bawak mangsa atas stretcher yg berat tu agak jauh, turun naik tangga, angkat naik tembok.. mmg perhh sungguh. Dahla panas terik, kena bawak orang plak. Budak yg jadik mangsa tu pun dah pening2. Tgn kitorg pun merah2 la mengangkat... bukan sbb budak yg jadik mangsa tu berat, tp sbb stretcher tu berat. :p Lps lunch, activity fire extinguisher.. mengenal fire extinguisher and cara nak operate fire extinguisher. Semua orang dapat chance nak guna fire extinguisher tu. Ok la.. menarik sbb bukan pernah try pun sblm ni kan... Petang pulak, kitorg kena masuk satu bangunan ni yg dipanggil rumah asap. Tempat ni dibina khas utk simulate keadaan sebuah rumah slps kebakaran, dgn asap di dlmnya. Keadaan mmg gelap dgn asap berkepul2.. So kitorg kena berpandukan dinding bgnn utk masuk dan keluar mll jalan yg sama. Gabra gak la. Tak habis lagi aktiviti utk hari tu..mlm ada lagi. Mlm tu, aktiviti lagi mencabar - BA galeri. Dlm aktiviti ni, kitorg dipecah dlm 4-5 org satu group, kena pakai face mask dan Breathing Apparatus (BA) - that is this compressed air tank yang mcm scuba divers pakai tu.. tp disambung dgn face mask instead of mouth piece. Tak selesa la sbb your face sweats and drips down your nose.. but you just can't wipe it off. Lps tu, setiap group dilepaskan dlm galeri... Galeri ni mcm satu maze la.. kena carik jln keluar. Keadaan gelap, dan ada heater so, it was pretty warm inside the gallery. Tak blh berjalan, kena merangkak.. So mmg kerjasama kumpulan sgt penting. Therapy yang sgt baik utk org2 yang fobia gelap. Mmg mental beb....

The next day, byk lagi aktiviti menanti. 1st of, pepagi tu, kitorg didedahkan dgn kawad hos permulaan.. Mcm mana nak angkat gulungan hos bomba tu, camne nak buang air, and mcm mana nak gulung. Berat gila ok.. Berapa belas kg satu gulung tu.. and utk bukak gulungan hos tu, bukannya letak atas tanah and roll away.. tapi kena angkat separa dada and roll it off. Gila babeng berat ok... Nak membawak dah satu hal.. bukak lagi satu hal.. Mmg salute gile aa bomba. Serious, tough job. Lps bfast, as usual ada class, after minum pagi sambung pulak dgn sesi amali seterusnya. Masa ni belajar pulak about the BA. Komponen2, cara pakai and test mcm mana kita control breathing dlm keadaan panik/penat. Utk simulate keadaan tu, kitorg kena pakai BA yang seberat 10 kg lebih kurang tu beserta dgn face mask, of course and lps tu kena berkawad, lari2 anak, merangkak dlm parit gelap bwh astaka & naik turun tangga. Bukan senang la. Lps lunch, ada rope rescue.. buat repelling dari tingkat 5.. semua wajib buat 2 kali lak tu. Hampeh. :p Walaupun dah pernah buat masa kat pulada, still gabra gila. Masa abseil kat pulada tu, dah ada platform siap2.. yang ni kena panjat mcm tingkap, dgn standing space yg kecik, sblh tu cukup luas la.. kira 'tingkap' tu luas lagi dari tapak kaki.. yg lagi sblh, dia narrow sket.. kira tapak kaki dpn blkg terkeluar dr 'tingkap tu'. Yg lebih mencabar, masa panjat, kena mngearah ke luar bangunan, so mmg kena tgk bwh, unless you close your eyes. lps tgk keluar, kena pusing plak supaya blkg menghadap keluar utk trn.. bengong. :p Petang tu ada sukan, football campuran. Heheh... lelaki + wanita in one team. Best jugak. :) i played too.. utk 5 minit terakhir. :p Malam, amali yang sgt menarik, OIFF - Offensive Indoor Fire Fighting. Masa ni kitorg dibrief ttg fire behaviour, kena pakai baju bomba kaler oren tu, the whole suit (seluar dia cute, mcm game mario tu.. tapi berat la), kena pakai BA, face mask ngan gloves. Lps tu kiorg masuk dlm kontena ni, duduk dlm dua barisan and hujung depan kontena tu, ada bahan dibakar utk lihat fire behavior, Dari mula api kecik, smpi makin besar, smpi terjadinya Automated Ignition Fire (AIF), keadaan bila gas2 api yang panas tu terbakar sendiri, tanpa bhn bakar. Masa AIF ni berlaku, mmg betul2 atas kepala kitorg. Suhu dlm kontena tu kata instructor tu mencapai 800 deg. celcius.. tpi baju bomba tu dpt tahan 400 deg. C je.. so, utk keluarkan haba dr baju tu, kena tepuk2 bila terasa panas. Menarik amali ni.. Insaf gak la.. baru api dunia dah panas camtu, tu pun dah ada protection. Api neraka wallahualam.

Hari Rabu, hari ketiga, pagi kitorg dimulai dgn final bola campuran tu.. And our group menang! :) Aku main masa 2nd half.. heheh.. Lps breakfast, kuliah about Majlis Keselamatan Negara (MKN) 20. Lepas tu, aktiviti mencabar mental seterusnya, merangkak dalam sewer. Sewer ni paip pembentung tu la.. ynag biasanya bawah tanah kan. Bukan masuk bodo2 je la.. kena pakai BA.. Dah lebih kurang 11kg atas belakang. Helmet lagi, face mask lagi.. mmg tak selesa. Pastu masuk plak dlm sewer, sah2 tak boleh berdiri, merangkak, BA menekan belakang, tengkuk plak lenguh menahan kepala yang berat dgn helmet sbb BA tu menolak2 helmet.. Bila helmet tolak face mask plak, udara dr dlm mask terkeluar dari mask.. dah rugi udara. Dlm sewer tu agak gelap.. ni pun memerlukan kerja pasukan la.. Ada part kena merangkak, ada yang kena turun dgn tali, kena lgkh dari tangga ke bukaan sewer satu lagi, and ada tmpt bila kita kena bukak BA, tp kekalkan face mask, pastu masuk dlm bukaan yang muat2 badan kita je, menyebabkan BA tu kena dibukak dan ditolak.. Lubang tu kecik smpi helmet pun tak muat.. kena bukak gak... Tp pendek je la. Gabra gak.. ingat bontot tak lepas.. Heheh.. masih lepas lagi rupanya. Perasaan masa tu mmg perhh sungguh la. Tengkuk sakit, masa terpaksa berenti kat tgh2 sewer sbb tunggu groupd depan gerak lagi mencabar minda.. sbb masa tu dgn tengkuk lenguh, rasa lemas.. isk.. Tuhan je tau. Apapun, sgt kecewa la aktiviti ni sbb tak sempat habiskan final course, sbb masa tak cukup. Sedey gila. 3 group first je dpt habiskan... :( Sedey gila. Lepas minum pagi, aktiviti kawad operasi pam.. Masa ni kena bawak turun hos dari kete bomba, pasang, and bukak air... tp tetiba hujan selebat2 nya, jadik tak sempat buat. Nasib baik gak.. sbb masa tu mmg dah penat gila lps sewer. Petang ada sukan, budak DPA against anggota FRAM. Mlm plak amali Road Traffic accident. Merasa la guna alat potong kereta. Best! :)

The next day, hari terakhir amali. Pagi ada senamrobik yg agak boring sbb step dia sama je. :p Lps bfast amali gas fire. Gas LPG dilepaskan, dan dibakar, and kitorg kena padamkan. Menarikla sbb mmg kena pergi rapat dgn api, supaya injap gas blh ditutup. Api dpn muka beb.. tapi masa tu aku org no 2 so, tak gerun sgt la... Next one, water rescue.. or sth more like introduction to scuba diving. Diorg tanya sape ada lesen.. aku ngaku la.. pastu kena buli mmg pasti la kan.. Kuda betul... Tp takla teruk sgt.. gelak2 je... Memula masuk, i kinda striving jugakla nak turn body (sbb terlupa nak isik udara dlm BCD tu byk2 sket).. kena la gelak.. instructor kat tepi2 tu dah melaung "oi diver! yg kau pun menggelupur dlm air tu kenapa???" wakakak... dah lama tak buat la pakcik. :p Pastu, bila kena masuk air, takleh tenggelam plak sbb weights tak cukup.. bila dah tambah weight, masuk dalam, kena kneel down, tak balance sbb weight sblh kurang dr weight sblh lagi. Mmg bengong gila. Bila dah ok, dia buli lagi, suh bukak mouth piece, clear mask. Heheh.. benda basic je.. tp sbb dah lama tak buat panic la jugak. Series bengong. Bila naik atas siap la kena kutuk. Wakakaka... hisyyy.. Nasib baik la insructor yg bawak aku turun tu kinda eye candy for me. Heheh.. sejuk gakla ati. :) After lunch, aktiviti paling mencabar dan paling bahaya - oil spill. Kena padamkan api disebabkan flammable liquid, dlm kes hari tu, diorg guna petrol, 400-500 Liter worth of petrol. Perh.. kalau masuk dlm tank keter, berapa bulan takyah refuel sey. Masa amali ni, i had to be the front-most person, holding the nozzle. Oil spill ni kena tacke dlm 4 barisan, 2 barisan tgh utk attack source, 2 barisan tepi utk jadik sweeper, padamkan api kat minyak yg tumpah2 tu. Aku dlm line yg tgh2, utk attack source of fire. Masa api tu tgh marak, kitorg kena move fwd smpi dekakt dgn api. How close? As close as sejengkal je jarak muka dari api. Hose ngan nozzle dah la berat... dgn air tekanan tinggi lagi. Masa tu yg jadik shield selain baju bomba tu is the spray water wall... Guna air dr hos utk dindingkan kitorg dari api.. Masa tu tak nmpk lain dah... nmpk api je. Org sblh2 pun tak nmpk.. command dari komanden pun tak berapa nak dgr sbb dgn bunyi air, bunyi api... Sgt mencabar. Pengalaman yang sgt tak dpt dilupakan. Mlm tu ada HAZMAT - handling of hazardous material.. yang ni ada afew guys je dpt buat sbb suit tu berat.. :(

On Friday ada exam, lps tu ada table top disaster excercise, mlm ada dinner and persembahan. Sabtu after bfast, balik......

Apa yang pastinya , my views towards pasukan bomba n penyelamat has totally changed. Sblm modul ni, tak berapa nmpk kepentingan mereka ni... sekarang, baru tau their hardships, what they have to face... Hidup diorg ni mmg perlu mental yang kuat.. sbb berhadapan dgn fobia kebanyakan orang... keadaan gelap, kurang udara, api marak.... Salute la anggota bomba,,, nak lagi yg pompuan.. Alatan semua berat2... no easy job, seriously. Bukan senang nak bergerak pantas dlm keadaan baju berat, sekali dgn BA yg brat tu.. tambah lagi dgn hos pun yang berat. Apapun, terima kasih FRAM atas pendedahan kpd aktiviti kebombaan, and tahniah kpd semua anggota bomba dan penyelamat yang berkaliber dan berdedikasi menjalankan tugas. :)