Friday, December 30, 2005

Last Day in Office... before DPA

Hmmm... it's already 5.11 pm.. I'm supposed to be going back already. Came in early this morning to settle the things i needed to get ready before leaving the office... Hmm..... Sigh!~ Wow.. seemed like just yesterday, i set foot on this ministry.. pakai baju kurung blue black, tudung putih. Now here i am.. last day here before PTD. I've got my stuffs packed into a box.. so now i'm just gonna enjoy the 3 days holiday... But i wanna go spend some hard-earned money at mv or jln tar tmrw. Heheh.. Sindrom hasben takde kat umah.

It's kinda sad to leave the ministry actually. Sad and the feeling of leaving some unresolved stuffs behind... Coz there're a lot of work to be done here.. and officers in my unit will deteriorate in number.. tinggal 2 org je nanti.. dengan beban kerja 4 orang. Kesian my 2 colleagues tu. :(

Risau abt DPA. Haha... jgn le jumpa the fasci yang i said that i'm gonna lose weight this time around. Lols... coz i didn't!! in fact i gained weight! Isk.. baru kawen sebulan je nih. Bahaya sungguh. :p Neways, dgrnya fasci tu pun dah tukar unit.. hehe.. so maybe tak jumpa la kot? :p Isk..iskk.... the issue now is.. larat ke nak berlari, panjat tembok, abseil, turun manhole... masuk sewer.. yadda..yadda.. Huhu.. Takyah fikirla.... new year resolution: lose weight during DPA. Hehehe... tp kalau kurus sgt kang, balik rumah hasben tak kenal.. dahla dah kurus, tanned... mesti ada muscle sket2 sbb modul teruk... kang hasben ingat one of the Pussycat Dolls pulak. Wahahhahaaa.... there goes my imaginative mind wandering.. Gilo.

Anyways.... i've had fond memories working under this ministry. Banyak learn new things, meet people, make networks... It's a damn good experience. MECD, i'll be back in July. :)

My sweet 2005
2005 had been so kind and full of happy memories. :) Started the year as a postgraduate single student, entered midyear as an engaged PTD trainee and ended the year as a married PTD. :) Rather kewl huh? :) (tp master tak bersentuh lagi nih. sigh!~ ) Anyways, i've had a great year in 2005, i hope it'll continue on to 2006, and insyaAllah dimurahkan rezeki, boleh dapat baby ke. Heheheheee...

Oklah... wish everyone a happy new year and may you all have a good year ahead, year after year. Semoga kita sentiasa redha dengan ketentuanNya, tabah dan sabar menghadapi cabaran seharian, dan ditambahkan ketakwaan bersama bertambahnya usia. Thanks a bunch to each and everyone involved in making my 2005 an enjoyable, memorable, and cherished one. :) I really appreciate you...all of you... my friends, my family, my soulmate.

Thursday, December 29, 2005

scared-cited

Just received my call letter for DPA yesterday. My colleague gave me a copy of our training schedule. Huhu.. the earliest army module will be in mid january. I really, really hope i won't be in that sidang. Please God help me. Huhu.. takut.. tapi excited. Kengkawan se office yang dah pergi semua kata just enjoy yourself, it'll be a 6 months holiday... gaji jalan, so just have fun. I'm getting excited... but at the same time takut gak.. sbb i don't think that i'm fit enough to go through the challenging modules. Cane nih? But Dan reminded me that it's all in the mind... hmm... somehow, sometimes, that doesnt really work for me. :/

My wedding album
I've gotten the wedding album that i was sooo waiting for. Both my hubby and i really liked the photographer's job. He's not as big a name as kid chan or saiful.. but hey.. he delivers. That's all that matters right? We're happy with the outcome. I wish i could put up some of the photos he took onto my fotopages, but i've yet to find the time. Leceh sket coz he copied it into a dvd, and this pc i'm using at the office doesn't have a dvd drive. So susah sikitla.. Byk gambar dlm tu.. 2Gigs worth of pics. Haha... i haven't finished looking at it myself. :p

I'd really love to show it around, coz in a way it's helping our fellow Bumi.. but i just wish that people will take good care of the album when viewing it.. coz my hubby and i cherish those pics and we do want the album to last a lifetime.. Hmm.. kang cakap kang, orang kata kita mengada2.. but hey man.. when you spend good money on something, you'd tend to be possessive of it, won't you? Maybe i should put a "handle with care" tag in front of the album, huh? Hehe..

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Lesson

People mature with the experiences that they go through with each passing day. Mistakes made, lessons learnt. Learning process are endless... many ways we can learn. And being the human we are, the process happens everyday, its either we noticed and took notes.. or just let it went by under our noses.

I've learnt a lesson last night.. in a bitter way. It's still gnawing on my emotions as i post. Why? I guess i'm still baffled over what had happened, when it happened, where it happened.. how it happened. I'm still blaming myself for even letting it happen. I know, things happen for a reason. If it didn't happen, i wouldn't have learnt my lesson... but here i am, hovered by guilt for what had happened. I really, really didn't mean it that way. It surprised me that my actions could be read differently than what i meant. Hmmmmm......... :( Sedey... why did i cause so much pain? :/

**Dazed**

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Hmm.. lama jugak tak update ek... Why aaa?? <> Oooo.. now i remember.. been pretty busy last week, plus i had 2 day offs on wednesday and friday... No wonderla. :p

Mama ke Mekah
Last Friday, alhamdulillah, mama dah selamat ke Mekah, KT 61. Dijadualkan pulang nanti 6 Feb. Huhu.. lama lagi tuh. Apesal kalau kita hantar orang pergi mekah rasa sebak n sayu je? Kenapa ek? Bukan ke orang tu nak pergi menunaikan ibadah, benda yang baik.. Yang kita tukang hantar ni beriya2 nak sedih kenapa??? Entahla.. apepun, mmg aku rasa sebak gak masa htr mama.. But, air mata tak mengalir.. tak tau apesal.. bila among family, purak2 macho plak.. kalau ngan kengkawan tu, air mata mengalir laju je macam ampangan pecah. Ish.. ish.. Maybe it had been hardwired into me kot... rasa cam malu nangis depan family... Hakhak..

Huhu.. tapi lama woo mama pegi..46 days. Takpela.. harap2 mama dimudahkan segala urusan, selamat pergi dan balik, dan semoga mendapat haji yang mabrur, sama la jugak dengan semua makcik2 yang pergi, mak long, mak lang, acik lina and pack cik udin, selaku mahram utk diorg ni semua. Hmm.. insyaAllah, aku nnt bila pegi haji, nak usahakan pergi ramai2 dgn keluarga.. Pastu, kalau boleh, nak pergi masa usia tak tua sangat.. cukup matang utk jaga hati sendiri, tp cukup muda utk bertenaga lakukan ibadah dengan baik. wallahu'alam.

Hubby terbang lagi
Huhu.. mama takde.. hasben pun takde. Uwaaa!!!! Hubby terbang lagi.. HKG-ANC. But he mentioned sth abt trying to come back on the weekend.. and hejust called telling me that he's already in Subang. Yippeeee!!!

These few previous weeks, there had been quite a few family gatherings. Seronok la dapat kumpul ramai2... and i'd usually turn up without my husband. And everyone will go on saying kesian.. kesian.. yadda.. yadda.. (termasukla colleagues2 kat tempat keje). Harini pergi visit tok menakan Dan, tok mud and tok sarah. Bila mak cerita Dan takdak, tok sarah said kesian.. tok mud said.. She chose to marry a pilot. Which was true... so, i chose what i want to be, and i'd have to face the consequences. I don't mind him being away. In a way, it draws us closer, sbb jarang jumpa, bila jumpa tu, rasa macam 1st date pulak.. Hehe.. masih rasa malu2 di sebalik rasa nak terkam. LOLS!!! Huhu sorry.. perkataan2 yg sesuai utk 18 thn ke atas sudah terkeluar. Apapun, as long as he doesnt stray, aku ok je... Selagi dia setia, aku pun setia menanti kepulangannya.. chewah. ;) If anything sok.. (God forbids) Haa.. siap ler kena kuntau dengan aku.. heheh.. Kenapa kuntau? Haa... sbb kuntau ni boleh ubat byk penyakit.. sakit kepala, sakit angau.. heheh... tak caya tanya azeno. ;) (hehehe.. aku baru dpt tau citer from nura.. wakakakaaa!!!!)

Dahla.. nak bersiap2 hasben nak sampai jap gi. Bestnya esok cuti!!!

Merry christmas! :)

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Hubby dah balik!!! :D

Hehhee... need i say more? ;)

The weekends went by quickly but i felt that it was 2 looong days... except after my hubby came back on sunday night la kan. :) Saturday, i attended Aliza's wedding in PJ with my mom. It was pretty grand. Sedihnya, they couldn't find my name in the guests list. Huhuhuu.. I think i did return the RSVP, tak tau la.. maybe she missed my name out. Tak kesahla. Aliza and Iddi were charming! They look great, the both of them. Enjoyed the slide presentation and the whole wedding. Quite a number of ex-bbgsians turned up, but i couldnt really remember their names.. Well.. most of them are my juniors anyway.

During the day, my mom and i did some shopping around KL.. hmm.. kinda burnt a hole in my pocket, but heck.. it's not like i get to go shopping a lot nowadays kan. Mom and i bought ourselves some tudung, brooches... the girly stuffs. Ingat nak beli matching handbag bag n shoes.. but luckily i followed my head, and not my eyes and heart. Hehe.. kalau ikutkan hati, tokey balak pun boleh kopak. :p Tapi sogo sale best wooo... i think i'm gonna go there again... beli nice towel... and maybe that bag and shoes... heheheheee....

Sunday, we had guests coming to our little residence. So, my mom and i, we were busy in the kitchen the whole morning preparing food for the guests. Our first guest cam in at around 10.3-.. Nura and family. Seronok sungguh!!! Tp we didnt have enough time for girls' talk. Huhu.. lain kali, insyaAllah. They all left at around noon. Hopefully Nura and family tak serik la datang umah kitorang yang tak sepertinya tuh. :)

At around 12.30, our second guest showed up. My in laws. :) Mak and bapak came by sbb nak jumpa mama before she goes for haj this friday. Mak sooo enjoyed the beehoon goreng tom yam that mama made... and bapak enjoyed the daging dendeng. Hehe.. bapak suruh mak belajar masak daging dendeng from mama... and mak asked me to belajar and cook for them.. Hehe.. ok..ok.. i will. :) (Pots and pans yg dpt masa wedding dah byk dah.. Guna je belum! :p )

After zuhur, we shot off to Keramat, rumah mak long. She had a kenduri in the afternoon and birthday parties for 2 grandsons later. When we arrived, kenduri dah habis.. tinggal party je. I think it was more of an adult party than a budak2 party. Heheh.

At around 6, i went back to vista.. Inta nak balik lagi awal.. Tapi syok pulak lepak2 dgn family ramai2 kan. We're pretty close, all the cuzins. But i had to kemas2 rumah before Dan arrives, so i hurried back, kemas2, sapu2 sikit apa yg patut, and off to get myself ready la nak meet hubby at the door when he returns kan. Sekali when i was still in the shower, he was home. I expected him to be home at 8.. rupanya 10 minutes before 7 dia dah sampai. :) Yippeee!! He surprised me with a pretty little box of Godiva chocolates! What i've always wanted. Haven't tasted it yet. Sayang rasa nak makan. Hehe.. nak bukak box pun syaang.. coz the box itself is so dainty. :) Dan cakap, when he was walking home from buying the chocs with a Godiva paperbag in his hand, the girls yang lalu lalang tu dok tgk je. One black lady even ckp kat dia' "are those for me?" Hehe.. Sorry la babes. He's taken... and so are the chocolates! :)

Smlm, kerja banyak, tak sempat nak update... Harini petang satgi ada division meeting. Ish.. tak cukup korum pun nak buat meeting gak. :p Whatta do laaa.. the boss is always right kan.. Whatever it is... i'm like on seventh heaven. Lantakla kalau bops nak marah ke hape ke masa meeting karang. Couldnt care less. My hubby drove me to the office, we had a nice breakfast at the cafetaria... and he's picking me up later.. and i'll be on leave tomorrow...Hmm... i've got all i that i need to really make my day. :)

Friday, December 16, 2005

H A P P Y ! !

Yesterday was a very happy day... and i hope it'll continue on today.

Had a meeting yesterday morning... to discuss a paper that i'd been on to for the past one week. The boss complimented me on the effort that i've put in.. and congratulated me on a job well done with the meeting organizing. *all smiles* Hehe.. happy la kan.. acknowledged in meeting. Tp biasa la.. sometimes you're at the top.. there'll be times when you;ll plummet down. Now the challenge is to keep it up.

All the more reasons to be happy, it's already friday!!! I'm expecting my hubby to be back in about 2 days, since he'd be arriving in Subang on Sunday night. So excited!!! :D

This morning, on the way to work, i witnessed a rainbow on a friday morning... A good sign that it'll be a good day i hope. :)

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Whirllll!!

Last night was like emak2's nite out. Isk..isk.. kitorang yang anak2 ni pulak kena tinggal. Siap balik lambat tu... 11.45 or so baru sampai umah. Kalau kita yang balik lambat cenggitu sure dah kena fire dah.. Isk... Mana diorang pegi? Hehee.... ish..

Yesterday, as i was driving back from work.. rather late because i went for a jog at a park somewhere near the office with a couple of friends here, my mom called asking where i was. She asked me to come home quickly coz mak ngah and herself, along with mak lang planned to go for this perisytiharan perbandaran sepang thingy. At the time she called, i was at the putrajaya mosque. So i drove as normal heading home.. just taking it easy. Then on the way my hubby called, and we chatted all the way from putrajaya to bdr baru salak. Hehehe.. lama woo.. nearly 30 mins. Kesian hubby had to spend a lot to call me. :(

As i was driving slow and easy, i reached home at a around 7. Masa tu dgr azan maghrib.. so i thot okla.. mandi kejap, solat, then i'll send mom to mak lang's house and wait for them there la. Masuk2 je rumah, i saw that my mom was ready and she was hurrying me to go to mak lang's. And i was like.. "tak mandi pun lagi nih" and she asked me to bring my clothes along, mandi kat umah mak lang.... Isk isk.. sanggup tuh.. bukan sebab bersungguh2 nak tgk perisytiharan.. nak tgk artis2 yang take part untuk perisytiharan. Ish..ish... Sape yg diorg beriya sangat nak tgk tu? Hehe.. well.. i think you can guess la... Sape lagi... si ja-world tu la. Isk.. :p Hakhak.. Kitorang yang muda2 ni pun tak kuasa nak pergi. Still no idea what's there in mawi that everyone goes ga-ga over. C'monla.. nak kata suara sedap sangat.. tak jugak.. lemak merdu.. lemak lagi suara sahri... I don't find anything amazing abt this whirl guy la, seriously. :p

Anyways... the moms were like having so much fun la kan.. balik tu excited cakap we gilrs shoulda been there la, the fireworkd were really nice la, this la, that la... Alahai mak2.. i wish you guys could see the fireworks in Penang during CNY.. lagi meriah.. Lagi gah dari any fireworks yang events management guna for any other events. Pastu, yang paling malas nak dengar, cerita mawi..cerita mawi nyanyi 7 songs la.. nyanyi seroja without the accompanying music la... mawi this, mawi that.. and awin and myself were like... err.. so?.. like we don't give a rat's ass wbt mawi ok.. :p Puh-leeze. :p

Finally dapat balik umah at midnight. Huhu.. dengan baju, tudung tak gosok, terus tdo... Way passed my sleep time ok... :p

Rimas
Have you ever feel so irritated of someone that you can't even stand hearing her voice and your chest feels like exploding just to hold yourself from letting your feelings out. I'm currently in that situation and i know that i's really, really hafta shed those negatives feelings before it causes more damage.

There's this pompuan... somewhat a relative... i feel that she's always pestering me.. in the things she does, the way she acts... Before i was married, when i was still in campus and see her sometimes, i feel suffocated by her constantly bugging me. It's like she'll be where i am, she'll sit where i sit, like... ishh.. rimas tau tak. My cuz awin felt it too... and she got irritated by the very same person. And i really hate the way she gets overexcited over nothing.. Tiba2 macam terjerit with excitement sorang2 while orang lain cool je... ingat ladylike sangat la tu. Puh-leeze!!! Gedik ok.

I told my mom that she irritates me a lot.. And my mom said that she feels that she's young and wants to be like us young people.. Like Hellooooo.... feeling young (a.k.a perasan muda) doesn't make you young ok... Like it or not, if you're aged, you're aged la. Might as well act and be your age but feel young at heart than be perasan muda and act like you're a teenager when you are wayyyy pass that. :P Menciii!! Dulu pakai tudung, but as my cuz pointer out, sejak dia ikut2 my cuz ni kuar2 (my cuz tak pakai tudung) dia pun nowadays jalan2 dah bukak tudung. Hantar baju kat tailor yang jauh dan mahal.. macam la kat kampung tu takde tailor. Iskkkk...... geram!!!!! It's like.. ok, i'm sorry that she didn't really have a good life when she was younger.. doesnt mean that she can relive her younger stages of life at her age now! Just enjoy life as it is la... and stop pestering me!!!

How do i get rid of this feeling huh??? Kena get rid before i get pregnant... Kalau tak boleh jadik kes kenan macam ni. Adoi.. just writing abt how much this person irritates me gives me a headache. :p

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Mixed Feelings

My direct boss wasn't around yesterday, so my colleague and i couldn't submit what we had to submit to her yesterday.. so that leads to ample time to chat with my hubby online. :D

Hubby said that he might be coming home this Sunday instead of the 21st. Very, very, VERY happy to hear that, but at the same time, i'd still hafta just prepare myself of last-minute change of schedule. His company is like sooo fond of doing those kinda things. So, i'm trying not to get overly excited, so that if the roster get changed again and he's gonna come back later than sunday, i won't be too dissappointed.. But how can a wife who didn't see her husband for more than a week not be extra excited knowing that her hubby is coming back at the end of the week??? C'monnnn...

I was at my boss' office this morning, but as she was talking to me, she got a few calls from her friends so she had to entertain them... and my mind wandered off planning my week ahead. Heheh... nak amek cuti!!!!! Hubby will be home... i'd wanna be home too! :D

Oh..oh.. my hubby had started a blog! :) Goodie.. now i know what he'd been up to.. hehehehe.


Screwed up Alarm System

Yesterday we got a shock near lunch hour. As we're busy doing our jobs, suddenly we heard an announcement thru the intercom, saying that there's an emergency and everybody was to get out of the building a.s.a.p without using the lifts. Everyone was confused whether it was true or hoax or a fire drill.. Tapi kalau fire drill, surely we'd be informed earlier kan.. But as soon as the big boss started to dart out of the office, so we thought ah well... just follow the leader la. So we went down the stairs, all the way to the ground floor, just to find out that the door was locked. We had to go down to the basement to get out. Adaka kunci pintu rintangan api tu. Kalau kebakaran, rentung la kat tangga. :p

Anyways, when we got down, we didn't see anyone else. Lama jugak lepak kat basement dalam keadaan confused. Haha.. gila.. kalau betul2 emergency tak keluar dari bangunan.. saja carik nahas. Mmg boss suruh keluar.. tp since kat luar panas terik, and it didn't seem like there really were any emergency, we stayed inside. Teruk betul kitorg. Soon after that, there was announcement saying that there were no fire or whatever cause for alarm. Bengong betul. Alarm systems shouldnt be faulty la.. sbb if a real emergency breaks, nobody will take it seriously. Isk... dulu kat usm pun mcm ni gak. The alarm goes off for nothing.. so mmg everyone ignore any alarms. What if there was a real emergency, kan?.. Hmm.. and i thought all these fire alarm systems has to be checked regularly. :p

Later that afternoon, again, another emergency announcement was aired. This time, nobody paid any attention.

Monday, December 12, 2005

Fotopage Updates
I'd just updated my fotopages. I've put in some pics from my wedding. Not all though.. just some pics which i'd gotten from one of the photographers. Please click on my links to check 'em out. ERmm.. gambar nikah + hantaran mmg takde.. belum ada dlm simpanan lagi. :) Enjoy!

Friday, December 09, 2005

Just great...

Just read an email from Dan. He's got his ammended roster, and he'll only be coming back on the 21st. Just great. :p I hope it'll be a busy week for me next week so that i'll get distracted a lot. :p (so far i've only 1 meeting scheduled on thurs.. but since my direct boss will be around, there should be a lot to do).

Gonna pick up one of my wedding albums today. Was excited abt it yesterday... Not anymore now. Wek,wek, wek * zillions. :p

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Temporary Happiness
As i was soo gloomy yesterday, i decided to ajak my mom tengok sofa set. So we did, right after maghrib. Went to courts first to see their selection. We liked a couple of designs.. but it takes too long to be delivered.. so we decided to window shop at another furniture shop.

That shop was the typical kedai perabot, nothing like courts, faaarrr from ikea la for sure. Hehe.. but they have nice furnitures as well.. the price is ok la.. i bet way cheaper than ikea. Anyways.. mom like an L-shape sofa design which comes with a single seater.. so we decided to take that one. The guy who entertained us was a young, good looking chinese hunk. Hehe.. hensem sey. Macho lagik.. Heheh.. mesti dia jadik kegilaan anak2 gadis. Hak hak. Jamu mata i di situ sebentar. He gave us the best price he could give (or so la kan..) Pastu i pushed for more "value" out of it la kan. The sofa initially was single colored, and since we can choose the color of it, i asked them to make it in 2 colors. Hehehe... he said.. "2 kaler lagi tambah duit la kak" And i went "ala.. cincai maa... malam2 punya harga.." He just smiled away and decied.. ok la.. let us have the 2-tone sofa. Yeay!! happy!happy! Next i demanded a free gift. A coffee table. He agreed to give a cikai one. :p What la weyy... i asked for something else. Haha.. asked him a full length mirror for my bro's room. He said ok. Hehe.. best betul mamat kiut nih. :)

So there i was, very happy with the deal we got from that furniture shop. On the way home, as i was driving, i felt this rush of happiness... until midway home, i started to think about how my dad had left us with nothing to burden us at all... Takde hutang or anything of that sort... siap leave some money for mom to build the new house pulak... which reminded me of the conversation i had with Dan in the car. He said, for the very same reason, he wants to pay off the house, and the car as quickly as possible.. so that he wouldn't leave me with any debts if anything should happen to him... which makes my eye go teary. Hmmm.. so there i was again, all gloomy missing my hubby. :(

This morning, had to change pc with one of my bosses. Soo not helping my situation. Dahla pc dia win98. Tak biasa ahhh... :p Whatta do lorr.. i only work here. :\

Luckily during lunch, i had a chance to meet Dan online. Terubat la jugak hati yang duka lara.. HEhehe.. chewah. :p I so wish that he'll be back soon. In January i'll be away for DPA already!!!!!!
Nasib ler
Pe nak buat.... kite org bawah maa... Hhuhu..

Kena tuka pc ngn bos plak. PC ni dah la pc baru. Huhuhu... menci nye... :p

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

You're EVERYWHERE!!!

"And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see .."

Uwaaa.. it's true..it's so damn tru... :(

At home, momma's house in sepang. In the room, i saw him lying on the bed, sound asleep. Outside, i saw him having a ciggy. At the kitchen, i saw him have his meal opposite me. He's everywhere...

At home, in Bt Jalil. The whole house is filled with his scent. :p All the more reason for me NOT to be there when he's not around.

In the car, HIS wira.. I saw him sitting beside me. As i listen to the cds, i heard his voice humming to the tune.... Everything reminds me of him. :p

Mannn.... a very, very bad case of missing my hubby. :p Darn it! *Sobs*

I need to go out with my girlfriends... like desperately. :p I've come to forget what that feels like. :p

Monday, December 05, 2005

Ouch...

Knocked the left side of my forehead (right beside my left eye) on the car door this morning, when i was leaving for work. Darn it! I was sneezing and opening the door at the same time. Now my head is aching, and my forehead is black and blue... Huhu.. mcm kena pukul je. :p

I would like to sing this song to my hubby's company. (Imagine me standing outside the building and swaying my body left and right singing this song + buat muka sedey .. hehehe)

" My husband flies over the ocean,
My husband flies over the sea,
My heart now is in a commotion,
Please bring back my husband to me...

Bring back, oh bring back...
Oh bring back my husband to me, to me..
Bring back, oh bring back..
Please bring back my husband to me.... "

... Boo-hoo-hoo.... and it had only been 4 days. :p

Friday, December 02, 2005

..Awkward..

Huhu... i'm gonna be single for 10 days. farking idiots rosterer at Dan's workplace doesn't seem to have any freakin idea what they're doing. One minute they say this, later that, tmrw tukar lagi.. and today back to the 1st issued roster. What the he** mannnn... The company doesn't have enough crews.. and yet they bought more new aircrafts.. and doesn't employ new crews... better yet, they take charter flights.. with the small amount of crews they have. What.. they think crews don't have life outside work aa? Operations diorg memang mangkuk hayun.. damned selfish bastards. Bayangkan.. before this, one of the crew's mom got sick,like really fatal illness.. and the crew asked for a leave. His request was rejected. Just imagine what type of farkin assholes work in the operations. If it was them.. pandai plak nak mintak cuti.. and for sure dapat la kan.. since they're NOT the lifeline of the air freight company. Yg bodo punya management ni pulak, tak reti2 ke nak hire more crews. Beli new aircrafts smpi berbillion USD takpe.. Nak hire crew takmo. Silly heads wanting to take the lead.. and perasaan bagus.. ni la jadiknya... and worst still, Dan told me that the company had claimed quite a few marriages. Bastards, arent they?

Huh... enuff of the farkin air freighter. Hadehh.. boleh dpt darah tinggi aku mcm nih. :p

Anyways... my initial obejctive was to post abt something that put me into an awkward position last night. My hubby and i went to his parents' just to hang out coz we havent seen them for quite some time, with Dan was going away and all.. and we miss the little princess. So we lepak there and melayan almaz la.

It so happens that when we're having dinner, almaz and bapak joined us at the table. It was a table for 6 plus one smaller chair for almaz. She was sitting beside me, bapak at the head of the table.. and Dan was sitting in front of me. Dan and i had finished our meal, and i was like terbongkang la kat kerusi tu. Suddenly almaz put her small hand on my tummy and said, " aunty noween.. do you have a baby in your tummy?" and i was like... "errr.... nooooo...." and looked and Dan. Dan's face was like... buat2 blur, takmo amek pot.. hampeh btul. By this time bapak had stood up, so i couldn't see his expression. Huhu.. malunyer...

It didn't just stop there... Almaz continued, " but why don't you have a baby in your tummy aunty noween??" muka puzzled gila budak kecik comey tuh.. And i was.. alahai.. camne nak kabo nih? So.. to make things easy for the both of us, i replied with the safest answer i could think of "I don't know... " Luckily it ended there. Thank God for that.

Hehe.. tapi kan, kalau bapak takde kat situ..and org lain takde around us.. nak je aku ckp kat dia, "why don't you ask uncle Dan" wakakaka... biar dia jawab. Isk... susah gak nak layan budak bijak bercakap nih. Huhu.. malu sekejap di meja makan. :p

Haha.. itu je. Nak sambung buat paper nih. Bukan paper thesis.. paper kementerian. This morning masuk lmbt (dah ckp kat boss tau).. tlg Dan siap2 sbb dia nak pergi HKG-ANC-LA for a duration of 10 days (which i hope won't get delayed). Membujang la i 10 hari nih. Hehehe and huhuhu at the same time. :p Tak best siut peluk bolster. :p