Yoohooo!! Its Monday. Spent the weekend at Nura's. Saturday night, Nura's whole family and myself went to Pelita's Nasi Kandar to have Rumali bread.. which turned out to be really good. I was truly amazed at how they made the bread... They actually tossed the dough up.. seriously!! On Sunday, after Nura's dentist appointment, we went to the Gurney plaza to get some stuffs... oh yeah.. i got my swimsuit..heheh. Its a lovely (well..not that lovely but its ok) blue 2 piece..(no..not bikini!) and hey..its cheap! Its only 60 bucks and its Ogival. Cool huh?

Anyway... perhaps we're going for our very 1st swimming session tomorrow. And.. the best part is.. Dan would most probably be there in Penang coz he has a night's stop there and will be flying off to Bangkok early Wednesday morning. He'll be staying at the Vistana, which is quite near to where we're gonna swim so.. i might see him for a while. Yeayyy!!! :D So exciteddd!!
Well.. what does all that means?? It means that i'd hafta finish up this SPICE thingy today.. if not..too slim a chance of going tomorrow. So that's it.. gonna finish up my spicey circuits!

Btw... thank you Dan for reading my online journal.. i dont believe i actually let you!! I love you honey!

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you,
be gentle with yourself,
There is nothing wrong with you,
Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart...

If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him,
Feel honored that love came and called at your door,
But gently refuse the gift that you cannot return,
Do not take advantage, do not cause pain;
How you deal with love is how you deal with you,
And all our hearts feel the same pains and joys,
Even if our lives and ways are different...

If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you,
And then love chooses to leave,
Do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame,
Let it go. There is reason and there is a meaning.
You will know in time.
Remember that you don't choose love.
Love chooses you.
All you can really do is accept it for all mystery when it comes into
your life.

Feel the way it fills you to overflowing,
Then reach out and give it away.
Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you.
Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit.
Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.

There is a point where many lovers go wrong.
Having been so long without love, they understand love only as need.
They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled with love,
And they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather
than from them.

The first blush of new love filled is too overflowing,
but as their love cools,
They revert to seeing their love as need.
They cease to be someone who generates love
and instead become someone who seeks love.

They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift,
and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.
Remember this, and keep it to your heart.
Love has its own time, its own seasons,
and its own reason for coming and going.
You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into saying.
You can only embrace it when it arrives
and give it away when it comes to you.
But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover,
There is nothing you can do and you should do.
Love always has been and always will be a mystery.
Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.
If you keep your heart open, it will come again.

..found this somewhere. Any comments?

Its Saturday already... hmm...still reminiscing today, last week back in Kl..hehe... Well i'm now using my own pc (before this i use a public pc in the postgrad's room) and oh boy.. do i miss my old pc... hmmm... :) And i'm now doing my work in my owb cubicle... though i have my monitor screen facing the entrance.. i had no choice!

I've completed my powerpoint thingy and i'd hafta struggle studying aome anlog circuit stuffs so that i can do my SPICE thingy for Dr Rizal.... i hope i can study as fast as possible coz i'm going to Nura's this evening, spend the nite there and tomorrow morning we're gonna shoot off to png coz nura has dentist apptmt.

Well..o'd better go.... :) Its soooo nice to use my own pc! :)

Bommer!..Its already thursday and i havent completed my preps for the presentation this upcoming tuesday. I havent even confirmed my new title with my supervisor yet!! Gawd! Well.. worse come to worse, i'll just present some backgrounds.. and ask the audience for ideas of the applications huh? That is what this presentation is all about anyway... exchanging of ideas.

I made the bolognese yesterday and i really think that it was the best i've ever made!! Really... its juicy, and full of mushrooms...aaahhhh..just the way i like it... We finished the macaroni this morning but there's still some bolognese sauce left.. might have that with bread for lunch later... Yummy.. i can still taste the sweetness in my mouth...

Know what else happened yesterday? Well.. before i left for home, Fort and Ben chat up with me... So everything when fine and i was typing like a typhoon coz i was constantly typing to both of them. Ben was telling me that he was going to watch the movie Just Married later that evening and i reviewed the movie coz i've already seen it with Dan. So he asked what it's about and i told him not to watch it if he's planning to get married anytime soon or is in a very serious relationship coz the movie mihgt scare him off. On the other hand, the movie was good to watch to learn from the couple in movie's mistakes coz the guy really turned into a jerk after getting married. As soon as i said that.. heheh.. he got nothing to say... padan muka... right in the face! although i didnt mean it that way... but kalau terasa..bagusla!

But that isnt the biggest thing la... the biggest thing happened towards the end of our chat... he asked me.. "so how about later?? nak share tak?" and i became confused coz i didnt remember wanting to share anything with him. Then i asked him back,"share apa?i dont wanna share my pasta with you." i said (i told him i was making pasta for dinner). then he had the nerve to say "share happiness". What was that all about??? i mean c'mon. He is still behaving like that and he said its not his fault.. he said its just the way he is! The nerves of that guy... Arrrggghhh!! Luckily now that i'm in a stable r'ship.. i dont care much what he said... what if i was at my state back then... the confused state.. i would've taken that as something promising.. well wouldnt any girls?????

However.......... this is a good sign..... i can see the light... :) yup..the very bright spotlight shining down on me coz i win!! From the look of it.. i might win the game this time...i really hope to... just hafta to be careful..very, very careful...

God.. i am so hungry! hehehe... and a little bit excited to make the bolognese this evening. :D well... actually i'm still progressing with my powerpoint presentation preps... so as to put it in a positive light... stress on the word PROGRESSING.. heheh...

One teeny weeny question..... should you..or shouldnt you let your loving boyfriend read your online journal???? Should i let Dan read this blog of mine???? He asked me for the URL.. but i havent gave it to him yet... should i??? please advice! hehehe... macam post kat forum lak...

Gotta run... gotta quiz to do on msn... people do the weirdest things when they're bored... tell me about it..heh..

Ok.... did what i hafta do... i msgd huzei yesterday... too bad i sent it to the wrong number.. sucker! heheh... anyway she messaged me and we continued messaging each other... bla..bla..bla....you know the casual stuff. I dunno... this is sooo regrettable.. you know... the friendship. Its like we were once the best of friends.. even if we'd only known each other for a few months before we really clicked and become best buds. And now... its like we have this underlying thing that both of us wouldnt talk about and its like haunting our friendship, like some cancerous tumor. When girls breaks into a fight..this is how it ends up.... hate it!

Anyway...my life has got to go on... sometimes you just cant bother so much about how others feel...yep..cruel but you gotta do what you gotta do... Its not worth hurting yourself just to please everyone else... because you'll end up sulking and rotting on the inside. Consequently, that will affect your appearance coz if you dont feel good inside.. you wont shine on the outside.... heheh... there.. a bit of a morning motivation... hehehh..

Hmm... feel like making bolognese pasta for dinner. Nura is like craving for pasta and i knida pity her.. so i'll try my best to make a good bolognese for her. Well... bolognese is the only thing i know how to cook for the time being. Maybe later, when i get to know how to cook other pasta dishes, then i might do something else....

Okay... better get going.. i'm reviewing the recipe with my cooking pilot..ehehehe... :)

hmm.. azno came to me this morning and said huzei wants me to get in touch coz one of our friend (zurah) is getting married soon.. so she wants my address and stuffs.... duhhh! should i or shouldnt i??? i dont feel keen to.. but i guess an email wouldnt hurt would it? well... gonna write her one and get it over and done with.

another surprise.we're supposed to prepare a powerpoint presentation for this april 1st's presentation!!! Sucks! i dont even know what to present in the 1st place!