Pindah... lagi!

Hati ini serabut!

Last wednesday, an officer from HR came to my room to introduce 2 new officers. At the same time, he handed me my transfer order. I was to be transferred to policy division. Yikes!

Honestly, i don't know what to expect. I heard about the boss there. Not too good. I've forgotten how i handled my busier days and still ensured that i got back on time back then. I guess i'm still traumatized by the last experience.

Peliknya, aku baru enam bulan je dalam bahagian ni, now, pindah lagi. Talk about planning and forward thinking, huh?

Anyways, next monday lapor diri. I heard the boss there have a good impression on me. Bagusnya, dia percaya la sikit, even before i start working with him. Tak bagusnya, i'll be on his radar... which i don't favour. I don't really wanna be in anybody's radar for that matter. Dannnn.... bermakna the expectation of me is high. Mati...

Isk.. kena mula bersosialisasi dengan rakan kerja baru pula. It's tiring you know. Sigh!~ What to do...? SYMP...

Tomorrow, going to my junior from school son's birthday party. Her son's turning two. I look forward to meeting her and her son, but deep inside i'm feeling a little insecure. The familiar old feeling that i had when i was in school. Feeling short, inadequate. I know i have achieved a lot, but sometimes i can't help but to feel that all the other people from school had achieved a lot more. Sigh!~ Pengalaman masa remaja sangat terkesan di hati. Semoga anakku tak lalu benda yang tak berapa best yang aku lalu. Aku doakan Allah beri yang terbaik untuk dia, dunia dan akhirat.

Oh.. know what.. Tadi aku keluar makan malam dengan Sarah, since hubs is on detachment. Teringin makan friend chicken. Jadi, pergilah ke restoran makanan segera di sebuah hypermarket dekat2 sini. Masa nak parking, i saw a spot, and i was ready to reverse in. Dah masuk gera reverse and reversed a little, tetiba ada pulak mangkuk bangla mana datang tolak trolly behind my car. And i was pissed a little. Dah tau kereta bergerak, ko nak jugak jalan belakang kereta kan? Kalau aku langgar, marah. :p

Anyhoos, bila mangkuk tu blah, aku reverse la lagi. Tiba-tiba datang seorang be-atch dari the other side baik punya masuk. Parking tu pakai line2 putih atas jalan je, tak ada divider. Yang 2 parking berhadapan satu sama lain tu, so dia datang from the other side, terus cucuk sampai so that the nose of the car menghadap jalan besar. Aku hangin la. Aku reverse kereta bagi dekat dengan kereta dia, jegil kat dia, dia buat dekkk je. Tak nak gerak ke belakang. Takpe, aku cari parking lain. Tapi hati geram. Alhamdulillah, aku dapat parking yang lagi dekat, tapi tak jauh dari parking bay yang kena rompak tadi. Hati aku memang bara masa tu. Rasa nak menggigil. Tuhan nak tunjuk, masa aku nak masuk, minah bongok tu pun nak masuk gak.

Sebelum masuk pintu, ada bangla worker ni sukahati je campak sampah ke luar, memang la dia aim tong sampah, tapi tak masuk dia buat selamba. Aku kan hati dah panas, apa lagi, kena sound la mangkuk tu. Aku tinggi suara (dalam takut gak sikit2), suruh dia buang sampah elok2. Tak sangka pulak dia keluar balik kutip. Hehe. Aku ingat dia akan buat dek je.

Berbalik kepada minah tadi, as soon as aku ckp kat mamat bangla, dia jalan belakang aku. Terus aku pusing kat dia, sergah, "Didn't you see i was reversing to park there?" Muka memang muka hangin la. Dia terkejut la kot, tak sangka la orang nak sergah dia macam tu. Dia kata sorry, i didn't notice. Hangguk dia la tak notice. Geram aku. Aku blah, sebelum tu aku sempat gak cakap.. How inconsiderate can one be? Tapi dah kurang marah la masa tu (sikit) sebab she said sorry, and she's pregnant. Apapun, pregnant or not, you shouldn't be selfish and inconsiderate. Aku pun pernah preggie, jangan la ingat ko preggie you think the world revolves around you.

Tetiba macam aku teringat. Biasanya aku takkan confront orang macam tu. Seingat aku, last aku confront orang masa aku tengah marah adalah masa aku preknen.. Adakah?? hehehe. saja. Tiap2 bulan adakah...? Cheiit..! Takpe.. bulan ni i tak berharap sangat macam bulan lepas. Tak kisah la. I akan terus berusaha. :)

Ok..cukupla. Ingat nak pakai masker sambil layan ADITH mlm ni. Dah pukul 11 pun.. den pun dah ngantuk. Solat, apstu tido yo la...

Alrite, g'nite. Wish me luck for tmrw!