Nasi Goreng Uwan

Di saat orang lain sibuk nak berbuka puasa, sibukla aku pun memikirkan makanan... Hmmm... as if i'm fasting la kan?

Lately nih asyik teringat nasik goreng yang aku makan masa kecik2 dulu.. Yang Uwan aku buat. FYI, Uwan is my grandma on my late father's side. The only grandparent i have left. Aku rasa, dulu pun aku pernah makan sekali dua je nasi goreng uwan, tapi, terkenang2 pulak sekarang. Hehe.. Kalau nak minak Uwan tolong buat, dia pun tak larat dah.

Bukan la extravagant sangat nasik gorengnya pun. Seingat aku, dulu, uwan dadarkan telur dulu, lepas tu carik kecik2. Lepas tu tumis bawang2 nya dengan ikan bilis ke? tu aku tak berapa sure... pastu dengan potongan cili kering kasar2.... Pastu dah garing, masuk nasik, last masuk telur tadi. Macam simple je kan? Boleh je kalau nak try.. tapi kalau tak jadi, musti aku keciwa. Huhu... Nantila, one of these days, mesti akan kubuat jugek.

Lagi satu yang teringin sekarang ni, bread pudding... Ermm.. sedapnya, warm brad pudding dengan raisins and almond slivers... topped with warm vanilla custard sauce. Oooo... heaven! Pudding aku makan kat renaissance haritu siap ada berry sauce..lagi best banget! Tapi..leceh la nak buat berry sauce.. Kalau kat UK masa summer, lain la citer. Heh.. banyak lak bunyik.. Bila la nak buat bread pudding eh? Wiken ini kah???

Oh... baju raya i tak siap lagi dimanikkan.. akan diteruskan usaha tersebut ini malam.. Hehe..

Okla.. selamat berbuka puasa kawan2... :)

Salam Ramadhan

Alhamdu lillah, masih diberi kesempatan untuk menghadapi Ramandhan tahun ini. Yang kurang baiknya, gynae cakap i can't fast during this holy month. Hmm.. i can't say i intend to listen entirely to the gynae, but i am concerned with the wellbeing of the baby. Isk.. Mungkin minggu depan aku akan puasa. Just give it a go.

Last month, masa aku bersungguh2 mengejar nak ganti puasa di masa2 kecederaan, i had spotting. Tu yang start Dr kata jangan puasa. Semalam when i went for my check up, again dia pesan, jangan puasa. Huhu... Memang la senang Dr... tapi nak menggantinya nanti.... Huhu... Katakan aku beranak end January, campur pantang etc, dah masuk Mei.. come July, dah bulan puasa balik.. Huhu..... bertimpa2 la utang. *Nanges*

Apapun, ada la tu hikmahnya kan?

Yesterday's checkup went well. Baby's ok. Gender macam nampak, tapi macam tak nampak. Hehe. Let's just keep it confidential for now, ok? Kalau ikut kira2, due 23 January. My weight gain? Sangat berat!!! Benci! Tapi rasanya dagu aku belum berlapis lagi... (aku rasa la kot?).. Huhu... camno la nak bagi turun balik ni. Rasa cam tak sanggup nak gi gym macam dulu. Haih.. nanti la pikir..

Maid baru pun dah datang. Kali ni, uruskan sendiri, tak pakai agen, sebab maid dah dikenalpasti and dia masuk on visitor's visa. Tak payah guna agen. Urusan nak mohon visa dia selesai tak sampai setengah hari! Bagus betul. Sangat tak sangka, sebelum ni habis ribu riban for something yang kalau buat sendiri tak sampai setengah hari. Hampeh betul. Urusan kat imigresen pun cepat. Sampai je, ambil nombor, tak sempat duduk kaunter dah panggil nombor. Pegawai kaunter check documents, selesai. Tunggu la diorang proses within 14 days. Semalam check, dia kata sedang proses. Harap-harap ok la.

Kerja? Sangat bosan. Nature kerja menarik tapi entahla.. Rasa macam takde halatuju.. tu yang buat jadi bosan. Haihhh...

Ok.. Waiting for my bro to come over before going back to mama's. Bestnya! Malam ni, nak bawak sarah pi masjid, gi terawih. She seems really excited. Kat sana karang tak tau la macam mana kan? Isk.. Risau gak. Tapi takpe..nenek ada, maksu dia ada, ok kot? Kalau sukses malam ni, nanti boleh bawak gi semayang raya. Lama dah tak pergi. Dah empat tahun.. huhu.. selalu kena tunggu kat rumah dengan si kenit. Tapi sekarang dia dah besar, boleh la angkung sekali. :)

Ok. Take care. Selamat menjalankan ibadah puasa. Semoga tahun ini lebih baik dari tahun-tahun lepas.

End of hectic week.. Phew!~

Alhamdulillah, selesai mesy jk kabinet harini. Last two days, FTA negotiations. Letih. Letih menjalankan kerja-kerja tersebut, dan letih nak prepare. Letih stress dan kelam kabut. Dan finally, they're in the past now.

Semalam, lepas nego, bawak Sarah jumpa paed. She'd been having fever since Saturday. Since tak kebah-kebah, bawak la jumpa paed dia. Rupanya tonsil dia inflammed. So kena la makan antibiotik. InsyaAllah, hope she'll be fine in a day or two.

Semalam jugak, i managed to squeeze in my gynae appointment. My third pregnancy aptmt at 11+ weeks. Alhamdulillah, semuanya ok. Dr did a scan. At first the baby just sat still. So i said to the Doc, "Kenapa senyap je baby ni, last time beriya2 gerak.." As soon as i said that dia pun melompat-lompat. Hehe. *Happy* Sarah pun excited tengok scanned image of adik dia. Of course, we don't know if it's a girl or a boy yet.

Esok, nak balik rumah mama. Going to stay away from KL as much as i can this weekend. Penangan Bersih yang menyusahkan orang. It's sad to see how people can get so stupid. :p

Whateverlah. Nak gi solat.. and out for dinner. Penatnyaa.. Sigh!~ Takpelah.. all for a good cause.

The dark clouds are looming...

*Long sigh*

The work place is the best place to proof to you that life really is like huge spinning wheel. One day you're on top, another day, you're down under. I had my 'up' days for a while, now, i can feel myself going rock bottom.. Ok.. maybe i'm exaggerating, but seriously, i'm not happy.

My boss, lets call him DMT, is current away on a month-long course. As our division is the dasar division (yes, it can either be read as policy or rock bottom.. your choice.. :p ) the Sec Gen feels that there's a need for someone to head the div while DMT is away.

DMT is certainly not in my sec-gen's good books. Somehow, he managed to get to where he is right now. I've only been working for him for less than a month before he had to leave for the course, but i've heard about him from other colleagues. Not a lot of positive remarks, but based on my own experience for that short span of period, i think he's ok. He doesn't really disturb me on weekends and doesn't expect to stay in the office til the wee hours.. that's good enough for me. What he lacks i think is giving proper directions to his officers, and being the head of the policy division (or which ever division for that matter).. the ability to give an aim to your subordinates is crucial.

Anyways, one of my Sec-Gen's trusted people to head the division whilst DMT is gone is no other than my previous boss, who had given me a lot of stresses and rock bottom times, DS. Although she's not physically there in our division, it's really getting to me already. I just can't stand it. I think i've exhausted all my patience and sanity to bear with her. If i have to do it all over again, i'm gonna lose it. Seriously. In what way, i don't know, but what i'm certain of is that i'm not gonna be able to bear with her, ever.

Given the level of trustworthiness that the Sec Gen has upon her, we've heard rumors that her placement is gonna be permanent, instead of just for the period that DMT is away. Probably it's not gonna be right after DMT comes back, since the Ministry can't really swap their places because of some technical issues, but i could foresee it coming later in the year. I do hope that she heads the other operational division instead of doing policy, but, i have a hunch that the more possible placement for her is the policy division. And if that happens, i'm really gonna make my way out. Not just the division, the Ministry!

I have to bear until January though. Then i'll have a 3 months maternity leave, and i intend to prolong the leave to a year. Hopefully, after that i'll be in the pool for a while and i hope that i wouldn't be placed under that freaking Ministry again!

I'm just so traumatized by my previous experience. I guess the experience had hit me harder than i thought it did. And i just can't go through it again..

Please Ya Allah, let there be light..

Tired!

I read somewhere that second time pregnancy makes you experience worse morning sicknesses, and worse lethargy. Ye ke? God knows... But i sure am really, really tired every day! Especially lepas balik kerja. Rasa tak larat sangat. Of course, the very hot weather ain't helping either la kan? Adehhh... campur dengan vomiting series yang jugak jauh lebih teruk dari dulu, I'm just sooo tired.

My tummy's beginning to show too. I also read somewhere that second time pregnancy bellies show sooner. Ye ke? I don't know. I know that my tummy's bigger now. What i'm not so sure is, whether it's because of the foetus or it's because of my layers of fat? Most probably, a little bit of both, with the latter being the major contributor. Heh.

My dotter's really excited about the pregnancy. Dia dok suppose that the baby's gonna be a girl. Me? Entah.. before i got pregnant, i really wanted a girl. Sekarangm tak berapa kisah sangat. It's good to have a boy, since belah Dan tak ada lagi cucu lelaki, and i don't think i'm gonna get pregnant again after this one... kinda getting too old for another one. On the other hand, kalau girl ni, syok la shopping baju! Hehe...

Divert sikit. Haritu.. Dan nak pergi kerja. So my daughter was complaining about his job and why he always had to work and such. So Dan had to explain la kan. Last-last dia fed up, dia cakap.. "Why don't you just be absent Dad?" hehe.. Ceh.. kecik2 dah pandai suruh orang ponteng ye...

Pagi tadi bawak dia jumpa paed dia. She had some sort of eye infection, tak berani bawak gi sekolah, takut jangkit pulak kan? So she told her paed what was wrong with her. Dia kata, "Yesterday, i used a shampoo and it got into my eye".. Haih. Konfius jap Dr. Hehe... Dah lepas cerita segala macam, Daddy dia saja nak usik.. Dia tanya, "Do you want to eat medicine or durian?" Terus dia jawab tanpa berfikir panjang - Medicine. Heh... Lagi sanggup dia makan ubat? Iskk... DIa tak tau lagi penangan durian... Takpelah.. taknak sudah...

Oklah.. sebenarnya nak pi solat.. tapi rasa penat sangat. Sekarang kena gi jugak2.. sebab mata dah makin berat. Ok.. take care dearies.

Miserable

Nights are sooo miserable nowadays. Period.

Regardless of anything, nights are plain miserable for me. My morning sickness attacks at night. It starts mid day, and all the way to the night.

Last pregnancy, i had night sickness as well, but not as bad. This time around, I'm like really, really sick.

Malam ni especially. Dari siang tadi. Maybe ada yang tak kena dengan what i had for lunch. Breakfast was fine, lunch i had egg.. i think that kinda triggered my nausea. Dan seterusnya lah sampai ke malam. Siang tadi konon2 pesan kat MIL minta tolong carikan mee bandung for dinner. Makan memang best. Elok habis je, stoned kejap, pastu had to excuse myself to the toilet and regurgitated what i had eaten. Sigh!. Letih!

Harini pulak, maid tak datang. Huhu. Galak basuh baju, gosok baju, lipat baju. Penatnya! Huhu...

Pulak tu, lampu bilik air tak hidup pulak! Apasal tak tau. Dah lah encik handyman takde kat rumah. BErtemankan cahaya lilin je la ke toilet malam n nak mandi gi keje pagi esok. Huhu... Tak sukaaaa.... Cepatlah en. hasben balik.. Huhuhu....

Tengok emel, teringat keje plak. Haiyoooo... banyaknya tak setel dan nak kena setel!! Serabut!!!!!

Oh..keserabutan ini membuatkan tekak makin loya. Urghh...

Okla.. nak pasang lilin utk ke toilet dan menghadap toilet bowl... Good night.

Two Lines, and it's Official!!

Alhamdulillah, i did the home pregnancy test, and it returned two lines! :)

Mula-mula, one very faint line je. A few days after that, re-checked, dan dua line merah menyerlah dan sangat ketara.. which means, i'm finally pregnant! Yeay! I tested almost 2 weeks ago kalau tak silap.

Last week, went to see the gynae to confirm the pregnancy. He did a scan, and we could see the sac, about 1.2 cm kalau tak silap, about 5 weeks into pregnancy.

Menyifatkan pregnancy kali ni macam pregnancy lepas, i went around doing things the way i did before i got pregnant, tak ada la makan benda2 tajam ke apa, in terms of movement, takde la berhati-hati. Jalan lajuuu je macam lipas kudung. Pulak tu, asyik berjalan je (which can't really be helped sebab the new office in satellite block, kalau kena pergi meeting, jumpa top mgt kat main block, haruslah jalan jauh..)..

So wrong!! Pregnancy kali ni menyebabkan aku experience a far worse morning (evening, in my case) sickness than before. Pantang masuk food, mesti rasa nak keluar balik. Tengok daging ke ayam ke, kembang2 tekak... huh... So agak letih this time around.

Last Friday (my birthday) i had to do an emceeing job at PWTC, after that hubby took me out the whole day to celebrate my birthday. Sabtu rest tak keluar rumah, since hubby kena gi keje. Sunday, out and about again, fetching the maid, sent my daughter for piano lesson, jalan2 after piano lesson.... Akibatnya, on Monday, i noticed some spotting. Gila gelabah! I've never had any spotting whatsoever during my first pregnancy!

So, after work, i went to see a GP (since my gynae clinic's already closed). GP did a scan but he couldn't say much and advised me to go see the gynae. I did yesterday, and Alhamdulillah, the sac is still in tact and we could see the heart beat! :) Apapun, the Doc asked me to rest, and limit my walking, so he gave me a three day medical leave. He also prescribed me with a medication to help sustain the pregnancy.

However, since i was supposed to attend this discussion on a new law starting yesterday til tmrw kat Seremban, i went anyway coz i thot it was away from the office, we'll just be discussing and insyaAllah, not much walking and things will be fine. Unfortunately, discussion room and restrooms were so far apart, i had to walk a lot as well... and more unfortunate, i started bleeding again in the afternoon.

So, freaked out as i was, malam after the last session i excused myself and explained to everyone my condition and made my move back to my mom's. Nasib baik balik rumah mama je, tak jauh sangat. I will be spending my mc days here la nampaknya. Senang sikit, tak ada la turun naik tangga sangat macam kalau kat rumah. Ada orang tolong jaga anak aku and allow me to get well rested. So hoping that i won't bleed anymore dan this pregnancy will survive.

Friends, if you have had any experience with bleeding during pregnancy, share la ye. I need inputs on this.