On The Road Again...

Will be leaving for Kluang in this afternoon. Heh.. Torture session starts tomorrow, all the way til Saturday. Sebenarnya, god knows what there is to be nervous about anyway. It's just another course kinda-thing, with a big plus as we get to reunite with long-lost batch mates. As long as we participate, i guess we'll be ok, since dengar-dengar khabar bertiup, banyak kosong for post 48. Somehow or rather, mesti dinaikkan jugak, kan? kan?

Hmm.. Pangkat dan tanggungjawab. Ramai orang nak pangkat, tapi terlupa tanggungjawab yang datang sekali dengan pangkat tersebut. Sesungguhnya, aku amat takut menjadi salah seorang dari mereka itu. Lindungilah hambamu ini ya Allah. Dulu, as my bosses always said, people take years (more than 5, obviously) to get promoted to a higher grade. Sekarang, within 4 years dah boleh naik 48. Kalau di federal agency, rasanya mungkin tak rasa tanggungjawab 48 yang tinggi. But, if you're at a state seat, 48 level dah jaga projects. Bayangkan, someone yang baru 4 tahun dalam servis, kena pegang tanggungjawab jaga projek di negeri. Pekeliling2 pun tak khatam lagi. Kalau orang yang pernah duduk kewangan / handle program pembangunan, ada jugak la basic on perlantikan perunding and things like that. Kalau orang tu dulu buat benda lain, say HR ke? Tak menggagau? Yes... we're expected to be Jack of All Trades. To know everything under the sky. But the drawback is that, you only know things on a superficial level. To solve a problem, you need to get to the root of it. If you just know something on the surface, it's difficult for you to tackle the underlying issues.

Heh.. meraban pulak.

Anyways, i'm driving a thirteen year old car all the way to Kluang, with another 2 colleagues. Do pray for our safety and wish us luck, ok. I'm sure gonna need that.

Uhh.. sedih nak tinggal sarah. Kesian dia, both parents are away, working. Feel bad about it. Rasa macam workaholic yang neglect anak pulak. I don't want to be that. I know i'm not one. My heart is at home, i'm not career driven.

But, this is something that mommy has to do. I hope you understand, sayang-girl. I know, the timing isn't right since daddy is away too. I wish i could change that, but i don't have the power to. I'm so sorry. :(

Sigh!~ Ok.. away to read english educational/informative blogs. Erm.. that's my preparation. Heh.